Can You Stand The Rain

Time changes; its up to us to move with it. This entry was written in 2016.

The Holidays are approaching and another “Year” is near. People are planning for new beginnings going forward into the New YEAR. While some people feel it’s just “another day, hoping for “Change”. 

Today I fed the MASSES. Tomorrow I’ll assist families, children and babies living in POVERTY.

Who is lost because of an old friendship that did not hold it's strength? People who made a choice without your PLANS now release it from your hands and process it in your HEAD.

Today upstate someone has hit the “POWER BALL & MEGA MILLION” lottery. But down south and in other areas people continue to place stake in what is 1 in a MILLION. 

Tomorrow electric providers will burn lights and sleep good at night. Tomorrow some one has to work late just to get home and lay awake thinking about how they will pay the hiked Utility rates.

Today I met a King who showered me with RESPECT, SUPPORTED my dreams, sincerely listened to what I had to say and caressed me instead of lashing out with “BEATINGS”. And know I have not had the opportunity to be asked for my HAND in MARRIAGE, because God had to mature me in areas I was not prepared for it. But so many people either are blessed with it. While others are not OBEDIENT to who God has blessed them with. 

The Holidays are near but someone will listen to “What do the LONELY do at Christmas”? Another day someone could have made the choice to apologize for hurting someone else with deceit and lies.

What will tomorrow bring for different people who need different things; food on the table, winning the lottery, love, a fairy tale wedding, promises, a kiss, conflict or change, more money-more money. A few simple things. 

The feeling of stress is self-induced, happiness is a choice no matter what you are going through, people will choose to listen or turn a death ear. But pay more attention to what they do and not how they persuade you into a mellow mood. 

Who wants to be a fool for pain, intentionally? Who wants to Work for free while the Company plans bonuses, vacations and feast? Who wants to family feud 20 years down the line and cry once PEOPLE DIE?

Who would selfishly BIRTH more babies without a plan. Yet some of us struggle to care for the ones we already have?  Who wants to be in a VIOLENT relationship?  Who wants to be obedient in a marriage or 2-3 year on and off courtship? Someone who needs seeks comfort and direction.

Who wants to always struggle with the same finances, deal with people with their choices and mistakes; unless they refuse to change. Whose heart has not been broken because of a Disobedient Kids? Try allowing them time to learn right from wrong in what they did. Then be there to lift them up with a LOVING HAND.

Who lives a LIFE without God and FAITH? PEOPLE WHO STRUGGLE TO accept change in any & everything. And harness their INTERNAL PAIN.

The sunshine is fun on a sunny day, the clouds could bring rain on a cloudy day. The Holidays are near to share laughter and spread cheer. The New Year’s resolutions have been talked about for the New Year. 

And the question that still remains is “Can We as People Stand the Rain”? 

Ghetto Nation II

I can recall the last disappointment that changed my entire life. It was yesterday that "LOVE not Man" completely shaped me into who I was secure with and destined to be. So I write the swagger from my heart & took notes of learned lessons that made people accept; life will happen 24/7/365 days a year. And knowing a legacy is what you will leave. Not what people dictate it will be. In this WORLD of HUMANITY displaying craftiness & scrutiny.

We're all looking for change. Although we approach it in a different mannerism, LITTLE or MORE intelligent conversation, economical status, religious beliefs, physical presentation or playing the "same old" games we've played for generations. It's just sad to accept how some of us feel "accomplished" because we have encountered a moment of deceit or savaged sex. Wherever we can for-fill it with little or no human connections. Do not allow yourself to remain mentally enslaved to any human beings immature ghetto ways. Because most people are not confused about their actions are decisions. They just go along with what people give into of it. And let's not make this passage just about "sex". Let's dig deeper and discuss a Ghetto Nation.

Sharing has no shame. And we've all been acquainted with someone or in a relationship that did not have a dime, of what they will accept of what is not theirs but taken of yours.

We've all been in a situation where most people may be really addicted to the “pipe” dream or love canal. Because the truth is people of all kinds do seek satisfaction and healing; in between one another's knees.

Some people have the nerve to think we  all agreed to our lives in their hands. The reality is we just hope and some of us pray for a leader to execute a real plan; we can all survive in.

We all know or have heard of women if not men who will know the truth before accepting this persons choices in their self inflicted collateral damage. To ride or die with them regardless of the broken; dialect, which does not hinder us to communicate of what we both need, The appearance doesn't always have to appear be on point; it's just the way this person moves around the room in anything if not nothing at all. They're living conditions may not be up to par of a mansion; but a apartment or shack will do; as long as he or she identifies with your willingness to ride or die with them.

But the wrong turn is always straight ahead. Once these two people clash and react towards the idea of this man or woman wanting more than one is capable to share if not give. And remember every title of a bad boy, boss chick, gutter chick, hood rat, or dime piece gets caught up. Just make sure you’re not always caught up in something more than legs in the end that may not be so conducive, to cater in the life we BOTH live in.  Then that next phone call you will one day make "will not" pick up to say “I’m not in, but leave a message”.

In today’s society people of all cultures are aware or chose not to be aware; of how we are interact in our ghetto ways of actions and communication. And by know means am I perfect “ I lived with the roaches, I’ve even posted bail, I have visited every Sunday until I realized this is not the life. I’ve wore hand me downs, until I realized how to grind in order to keep having mine. I lit candles at night, I ate spam for lunch and dinner, and grits in the winter”. I’ve been educated in different types. I’ve been opened up to see people are not always what they present themselves to be. I’ve been disappointed by a thug IN DIFFERENT TAX BRACKETS because of what was educated; lacked knowledge in how to "make love, love & share then touch" with a stroke human of affection.

Props to the Beloved Tu Pac  “I Ain’t Mad At You” change the dynamics of ghetto understandings. I appreciate myself. So therefore I do respect any and all human differences. But  until we agree to the fact; we just find it easier to communicate in a comfortable space. With people we feel have our same face.  

Orange Juice

In a world of genuine & disgruntle faces. Our livelihoods are “bigger or smaller” in what we choose to live in. Of every Good Morning!

How good has life been too you on this fine day? And before answering your truth; consider a point in your life in which you seriously surrendered all doubt. To allow “life to be as sweet as honey, dew”...

Hope is an emotion people often lose or gain; on any-random day. Faith is a freewill choice; in what or whom we choose to believe. Asphyxiation turns into questionable Anger depending on the persons; idea and personal choices. Jealously draws closer attention into the issues of any person that struggles with their own self confidence  Hate is implemented where there is “FEAR in human direction”. Insecurities are what you show-up in your attitude to be. And Love is that one emotion no human being has yet to figure out; how to “control” it. And gap people out at a distance.  

I was approached today by a man. That desired to place a gentle kiss, upon my face, and in doing so I quickly ask this one question. How is life treating you today? The man twitched and said “it’s been ok”.

As I was driving into work this morning I saw a youth in despair, ranting in a rage while gesturing his hands into the air. The ambulance team cared enough to gain his trust and attention, in order to fix what is broken.

Today I greeted the world with my smile in one Morning, I rose. Regardless of how life’s situations that will throw many curve balls. I choose to share in every breath, in every morning; a silent KISS with all kinds of people that choose to LIVE or EXIST…

All it takes is one human touch, to see what emotions will move us in our human differences. 

HOMESTEAD

Remember the  story of Three Bears:The Pappa Bear, The Momma Bear and the Baby bear

Remember the opposition that created a situation 

One was too HOT 

One was to COLD 

One was just Right 

Until the daddy bear realized his family was in for a fight. The momma bear immediately protected her baby. And the baby bear was never aware of the danger that existed. Until he saw how his parents formatted into a guarded position; to protect them. 

The Home front represents a unity of individuals that symbolize a Family. And by any means necessary this family must communicate accordingly in everything; to face anyone or thing that is coming its way. Out of the ordinary. 

I spoke to a man who lived in a communist country. Until one day he decided to live free, but before he left. This man was faced with oppositions and power before imprisonment three times. Because he wanted for him & the family to be free. In order to live life in peace. So what kind of  human acts can justify the right; to hold captive another man's freewill to life.  

We hear there are talks about adjusting the 1st Amendment rights "freedom of speech" where if any human beings commit "defamation of character" against another human being, even if it’s on social media. This person can legally sue another person for being an #!@ hole. And to think a government would attempt to agree to a personal FRISK law in the USA. And for those black men around world or men of a darker decent that may even speak with a second language. The same "constitutional rights" created for your freedom and equality to a preservation of life. Could suddenly be impacted through empowerment utilized through systems, controlled by prejudice and sexist human existence

For the sake of all arguments, I'm not implying what is not evident. These are facts we've become immune to  live in under one nation. Of human actions that can not sustain the Racism, Capitalism and Sexism that flows deep in their human veins. It just took a non interested 46% of the free people who chose to only exist; in what we call A Free Country, seeking Unity. To experience bigger fears of what could of been challenged. Which had already been a challenge, for years.  To say this is how far we as a HUMAN RACE come to figure out that; Capitalism, Racism and Sexism will WIPE an entire Nation out. 

Philippians 4:12

Life happens something I can contest. And there is one name to call on, no matter where you are in any of life's moments.So I work daily in progression to not confuse it with perfection. And I humbly thank you Lord for second chances. I do receive it and commit to self correction in order to humbly live my life as an example of what we as a people share; with one other in every season.

I've learned how to share, when I had less of a penny to spare. I'm adjusting to processing logic out non logical actions, depending on who you are dealing with in big and small spaces. I've learned how to forgive & love myself in any circumstance or voluntary situation.

We've all had moments in which we chose to stay in. We have all found reasons to give it another chance. We've all blamed one or the other in EXPRESSING our human behaviors. But sometimes its what you see that makes you decide: its not about you that's going to make me decide if I walk away or choose to stand by your side. But just in case the weight becomes to unbearable to take, because you keep pushing me away. Consider who may or may not hang in for the fight all people will experience in this life.

For in every season I have also been reminded of my human behavior, mostly from loving people in places they remain hardened hearts & broken. But this is not where my story ends. This is where the real stories began. When Han was cursed & Rahab was judged and mistreated like an outcast. And Simeon made one attempt but was denied in helping a savior who died. In order so that we may have life. A time and place people judged with lack of human compassion & little understanding, later seeking forgiveness of their own actions.

I still stand guilty of fitting people into my happy boxes. Which draws attention to "who is really who" so daily it's mandatory I continue to pray asking for Gods permission and forgiveness, of my over caring ways. In a world of people that remind one another daily; how valuable we are by making light of who is lesser are greater. In our sinful or human choices.

Faith doesn't make things easy, it just makes things possible.


-Angel L
read on Kindle-The Burdens of A Heavy Heart

Baby Girl

Baby girls a kiss from a prince will feel more like a gentle touch, regardless of your impatience in the lonely nights. So decide whether that stroke is really a frog that jumped in for one moment before leaping on, into another woman's arms. 

This time around there will be no players, prince charming or goons to interfere in this man's plan; that transformed from a boy into a grown ass man.  Who chose to make you a apart of his design; carefully patterned in every line. 

One day baby girl you will be reminded of the choices you made. And sometimes a person will make you feel, pure hate, jealousy & hurt. Why, just because you desire to love him. But for some reason he has to find blame in you for all of his shameless faults. Just remember not to fall in love with every stroke. That may not have a plan to bring your beautiful smile, a wedding ring and happiness. 

Then eventually you will see

One day that male will grow up from a boy into a man.

One day he will return and pick up those missed calls. 

One day you’ll see exactly what is in his actions of what he is feeling deep down in his heart. 

One day you will re-connect with that once lost Hope. Eventually time will heal our broken thoughts; left in our hearts from so many disappointments. 

One day disappointments will confess I’ve heard and feel your concerns, and I’m sorry for what I did. 

One day Hope will call on the other end. Because of Love that demanded him to step up and step in.

One day is here right now, Baby Girls of all ages around the world.    

  

HURT

Hurt is such a small but BROAD four-letter word. Depending on the people who inflict it on someone else, they hurt. And we can even be more considerate enough to say; that sometimes people may or not be aware of their inconsiderate & selfish ass ways. Until the hurt is reciprocated back to them, by someone else they least expected.

Through the writings of Angel L; life lit around the entire world. In the beginning I've shared my real. 

We've listened to songs and deaths that impacted the entire world. We've figured out how to cohabitate under one roof. We've blended our cultural families into making a unity. 

We've planned to work our entire lives; to only payback what we dreamed to have. We've dated and married for love & security. Until some people realized that living in convenience; is a commodity. And in the scripture it read Han was cursed & Rahab was treated by the people like an outcast.
We've managed to create wars and silence conspiracies. 

We continue to give "birth" in a generation drunk in love. Where there is lack of energy & hope to educate and re-direct; the people we love from theirs own self inflicted situations.

We've managed to figure out what it really means to be "free" if we choose not to "think" and remain in “slavery” thinking. In a life that many people live in. But we are not sure why some people will struggle to find their own happy endings.  

As we watch the World Turn please do not waste time taking offense. To what most of us contributed of our own actions. As time will remind its people to be more: 

H-Humble 

U-Understanding

R-Recognizing

T-Truth  

Before we sign-off on one page today in our puffed up human ways; May we be more accountable of our actions that require, some change. In order to obtain some validation sought in world of people searching if not lost. Then maybe Hurt will turn to the People and say “I can no longer” exist in this place.

I 💘 You

On what planet do human beings survive without allowing themselves the permission to devour human intimacy, love, trust and communication in this life?

After 2 years today. I allowed my heart permission to glimpse into what seemed to be a Possibility. Until reality reminded me; of how any type of person can affect the altering of your mind set, if you allow "yourself" permission to acceptance of it. But knowing your Worth will detour you back into focus.

I'm in Love relates to human rejection, acception & excuses. To better help us understand why a possibility is not always going to be a reality. Why, because of the following traits in which we choose or not to identify with in our human intuition. 

(1.) Acceptance of Love:  First, figure out if you're mature enough to open up with your heart & mind to trust.

(2.) Uncertainty of how to reciprocate Love: Second, evaluate if you are the stem of "misunderstandings", defensive & argumentive of another human beings, motive & intentions.

And

(3) Abandoned by Love: Last, process your personal facts to deal with your disappointments. Next, accept it's not another person’s fault that someone else walked out. Then maybe those fears, aggressive & manipulative actions will allow you the permission of allowing someone new to heal your broken places.  

Unfortunately there's no real fault or reasoning to "why, what or whom we fall" in LOVE with. No matter how we test real facts, sit on panels or justify our human actions. We "typically" attempt to understand “people" that seem "right" to Love at the wrong time in this life.

Read Kindle 🔥: The Burdens of A Heavy Heart
-Angel L

69

"69" is a very tasteful year to sip, If you allow permission to explore your inner inhibitions. And growing old is a mandatory process If you're not in fear of growing up in several positions.

It's not clear to what the naked eye visualizes when it involves; love, lust and sex. It only sees a rapid and intense pattern of people affected by other people within their human natures.  So therefore 

It’s not fair to assume that any man or woman deserves or will be alone.  

It’s not always fair to think; that all men appreciate the essence of a woman. Or vice versa, that all woman respect an honest man.

In a world of people to LOVE, we deny ourselves the right to a 100 percent of LOVE making. In areas we grasp in understanding the inclinations of human thinking for settling down for Love in the 69 angled positions of twisted expectations.

In a woman’s soul you can find the thoughts of heart and mind. In a man’s words you can hear clearly what’s on his mind. And his real truth is not hidden. It’s in his actions.  

It’s clear to see; how we’ve all been damaged or hurt at some point in our lives. And why people should take more space & time to untangle the hurt in their hearts and minds.  

It’s clear to feel how men and women have lost intimacy for a stroke of ecstasy. So never place high expectations in underdeveloped places.  

It’s a wake- up call to see how “Love” is a reminder placed on the calendared wall.  

It’s sad to see how many “tear drops” fall, because of someone who cause them all.  

Valentine’s Day should not feel like one day in a calendar year. Birthdays should not be set on a reminder alert. Married couples that separate is not always a sign; of a preparation to sign off on the divorce line. And every holiday should be filled with KISSES & surprises. Not expectations of receiving what we have yet to figure out in reciprocation.

Once we “Fall Back In LOVE” together on one PAGE.  Then life's stories are destined to change....

Read on Kindle: The Burdens Of A Heavy Heart
-Angel L
                                                                                                            

                                                                                                              

MONEY

Money teaches us valuable lessons without one single conversation. Because Money is 1 topic. Not to be educated in every culture.

Money travels around the world in one day. And if we were to listen closely to what real people's reservations and accusations claim; of how its’ the real bitch, we can identify with why it has always gained worldwide classification and attention. 

One day money demanded our attention and before we knew it. We were "caught up" in associating ourselves with it. Why, because it showed us that

I do not manage time. But time summons your responsibility to find access to me. In order to provide some of your basic needs.

I am the access to support you in those accomplishments. 

I am not a human being. I do not understand the mind over matters of man.

I do not create life adversity; because I have no hands, mind or feet.

I was not created to purchase your freedom. The truth is you were born to be free, But in man's reality you will always be "commodity or liability". Because some of you will continue to remain imprisoned, with your made up mind decisions. 

I am not code accessed. I am the magnet drawing you into my swagger.

I do not possess human emotions. So don’t be manipulated into thinking you can purchase “LOVE” through "SEX" from any breathing human being.

I am only a tool for all Human access, created by the hands of man but not for compulsive destruction.  

I am Money with one mission. Created here on earth but I'm often used to manipulate human worth. 

AMERICA

People across the world heard what Bill Clinton was accused of. We've been advised of Donald Trump and his business. We've witnessed around the entire world what women can "make happen" and with all do respect we now appreciate the facts of how judgment navigates real peoples voluntary actions that alter the confidence and growth in every nation. 

Whether the facts are "relevant if not accurate" "right or wrong, true or false" people of all races seek a resolution for someone to answer too; and being reprimanded is not always fair regardless of that individuals actions. So just in case those of us who think we've not heard enough of "judgment". Here's another wake call please "sound the alarm to the entire world". Of what has never been shielded of ourselves, but judged by all around the world.

There are Men of honor and women of power who contribute to "real change" or "destruction of human dreams" in this land of the hoping & free. So therefore most "viewers & spectators" around the world will see the story one way, Most "readers" will understand what is being said in "writing". Most "positions" will form an "opinion". And Angel L only communicates so that even a child can understand of what they can see life's reality.

One day she opened up her whole heart allowing him to come in. In order for him the opportunity to "learn & appreciate" her mind, body and untouched places she needed him to process without judgment. 

One day he confessed his love to her. And promised they would have an uninterrupted life together. But the "truth" of the reality is that whatever it takes to get back to a special place in their lives. It will require both individuals to work in awkward, immature and tedious place overtime.  

One day she decided to let her guards down in order to submissively follow his lead.  One day they were both left alone outside of each other’s arms standing in storms. Why, because it takes a certain type of man to mature in his own skin before teaching a woman "why, what and where" in certain places. 

One day she promised to never settle for less until she felt the strangest feeling of "direction". Then suddenly her "gem" became the prey in what we call a hunters game, in every corner of the world we live in today. Please do not place limitations on any space.

One day he ask to take her home then later left before the early dawn. And suddenly she figured out he never meant to stick around. In a planned place that would require them both to move around.

To all MEN of every nation from every Woman of any nation:

We are the queens that give birth to your children, a woman who continues to carry you in a fragile womb, a care giver that sits beside your sick bed, a cheerleader when the crowds are suddenly silenced. We are the wives and single women who stand up by some of your sides of “scrutiny, the truth, and will instantly fight for you in the mist of your deceit and lies”. We are caught up in the rapture of whatever life sends you through, simply because we "unselfishly" Love you, and the reality is that life throws some women curve balls such as; heartache and disappointment. But continue to show queens of all colors some human respect. By remembering it was that woman who made the sacrifice for a moment in her life in order to stand by your side.  And pardon those women who choose or just can’t seem to get it right.  

So today to all Women of every nation; from every Man of any nation we are the Kings who promise to "Love, Protect & Respect", but sometimes there are men who do fall short of those promises. Then treat another human being at fault for causing our own self-conflict. We have promised to be true and committed if you continue to do what is desired of you in our relationships. We do not know life plans but if we can learn to trust and communicate with one another. There is a chance we will outlast life's unseen forecast ahead of us.  We will take what is given on a tray to us with no commitment if it is not required of us. So be careful. 

We require to be respected as men; but not through control, disrespect and intimidation, so also watch how we give it in return. We will follow you to a degree of what is "a good direction" in which we can resume the lead. We all are not heart breakers and liars. Some of us tell the truth if you’re listening and accepting what is reality in front of you. We do love to be "touched in many places and desired". We need to be appreciated for the little things we show the initiative to do. Just not what you expect of us; is where we don't have a clue.  It’s true we may sometimes forget "specific dates" but remember how a real man who takes notes and understands that his woman is always a part in every "move in power and plan". And no we're not all broken down because of some woman who cheated or walked away some of us select to be enslaved to the B
playboy games. Some of us are just immature to accept the choices we have made but for a negotiated price we will pay, with any opponent of a game. Now watch how life changes lanes of what we as a people assume is a matter, lie or the truth.

In this life educate our daughters & sons to “mature and change with understanding” and be mindful of those who choose to remain in a place of scrutiny and holding".