LOVE II

Let’s get some understanding about LOVE because not every person is prepared to receive and give back in return, a life lesson learned.

When the pressures of life weigh you down and your selected people of choice can no longer contribute to what you’re mentally going through. If I stick around will you show me the same loyalty? Because life has taught us this “when it comes to people you show more love” they are quick to turn their back on you for no reason of what you did not "Contribute" to. 

When a male or female say's "certain conversations should not form into arguments" unless we  are in a relationship. The signs are all there. So what else needs to be said?

Because I choose to live a single life or alone it does not mean I’m in need of “projects” or neither do I possess the desire to assist you in building up your mansion without me to share it with.  

Because I pleasure you with words of encouragement, support your projects big or small, rub you down just because & yearn for deeper conversations. It does not mean that you’re entitled to this treatment. It just means we need to figure out “sooner” than “later” if you’re capable to reciprocate so no one is left with who did not give their best. Of what they really never had in them to give.

Because I choose quality & not quantity in the company I keep; it does not mean I’m above you, or you are beneath me. I simply prefer to live my life without the extra drama. And who dictates what is contributed if not taken away at any moment of my inner peace and tranquility.

Because I have managed to make effective choices in my life it does not mean every person gets it right, all the time. It just means I took a more in depth look into myself so therefore anybody does not possess the power to hold me down; to terms and obligations of their own plans.

Because I deliver in my presentation; confidence in my own skin, drive and persistence it does not mean for one moment I should be taken as weak because  I will not settle for what you think I need.  

If I show you a better way and if you show me you are mature enough to take the LEAD. Can we make it work together when life throws us that curve ball; or will you run and hide in HARD times?

Love is possible if people work through their “insecurities”. Because settling for someone to have something’s is not always rewarding, especially when Time finds a day to remind us of why; the people we select “contribute or affect” detailed areas in our lives.

Life & Death scenarios

It is unraveling to process the human attitudes of feeling "ENTITLEMENT" or "YOU OWE ME". Eventually the endurance of that over flowing CUP will leave many of us 

"WONDERING, EMPTY if not SPEECHLESS". 

I heard a name for this younger generation of entitlement called "snowflakes" meaning that when life happens they immediately fall apart. And for the next generation 30 & up who have established "we got it all figured out" reflects in what is formed in our attitudes then reciprocated out of our mouths when we require 911 of HELP. 

In this moment I was said to be "Philosophical", but this mindset did not develop overnight. This process in mindset developed in courses and levels of my life.And death proved to me over and over again it has the untimely and timely upper hand. So therefore my conversations developed in"maturity" depending on what & how we relate or accommodate in our understandings in reasoning. When utilizing our BRAINS.

So today the stories we share are more in-depth if not sincere or heart felt. So much information for us to process. That is not always related in the form people would like to accept of it. That is destined to lead us into Life & Death situations.
When people ignore you it's not always to avoid you. Sometimes they need a moment to figure out how to respond to what is about to come out.

When people offer or extend to HELP YOU. But they have not figured out how to help themselves with they have of more or less in wealth. Then it's on you to decide what is in your STATE OF MIND.

When you plan in life it does not mean situations will fall short or less of complications. It does allow us the space to re-arrange things. And most of time people will wait until a situations back fires due to procrastination they live bye. And there is nothing wrong with it; if this is how you plan and live.

When a promise is made. It does mean it can never be broken. A date scheduled on the wall does not mean things can not change. But people do control what it is they can do or ignore of both. 

When you promise to repay a debt. Most of us are aware of what did not exist in the first place. So relationships get bitter from creditors, friends, family and lovers. And the reality is if we share for the "Right reasons" and "Understand a negotiated term" then we already knew who has the intention or credibility of proving their loyalty. So this season remember what you have or not to surrender. 

   

Life is not as hard as we say it is. People are predictable if not simply acceptable. We just have to decide what is it we choose to process in our Life & Death situations.  

Survivalist

If more than one person can always communicate & agree with your insanity; does it mean the choices you've made is always the gain of someone else's cluelessness & unselfish ways. And if you can find yourself relating to this same type of crowd in the choices you continue to make "over and over again". Then when do you all agree to accept your own contributed "Accountability in collective decision making"? Be careful some people prefer "I agree" verses the truth to remain in what they seek of validation to do.

Everywhere we turn in today's society people are always talking about "THE MONEY" "SPIRITUAL PREFERENCES", "RELATIONSHIPS" and what TYPE of people in all colors bring to the table or rob away from it.

Accept it some people will never process their own "self-inflicted or made up mind in choices" we just have to decide at what point to; walk away, ride or die if not allow people to survive in their own reasoning of made up minds. Sometimes we function better in our "validated choices by other people who can connect on that level of operating in understanding". It does not mean we are beneath or above one another of what we choose to think and do. But the reality is personal change is detrimental.

February 28th, 2017. At dinner last night I observed myself in formation with an arrangement of figurines and colors of people. Some people required extra "Attention", some people set back with the look of "Amazement", some people advertised their "Assets & Associations", some people "Kept it moving" in the other direction. The point is to find that personal space in which you can survive in.

I met a gentleman who I was excited to adore, learn share and explore. And overtime we could shower one another with our fire & desire, communication, sensitivity & love. Then eventually this man's good heart but cold intentions separated us apart. Because I saw through what some woman settle for. He constantly spoke on rewind describing his desire for woman he said many times to me "I have slept with several" of my friends and I also love what is in between a woman's legs. Now this is where the breakdown grew more intense not because he was honest with a passion of how he felt. But it was that he spoke with pride in devaluing himself. By sharing unprotected in what is between his legs & allowing lust to enslave his head. My concern has always been how many more males & females interact at this level of Cohabitation. In the New World we live in?

I've learned to adjust in any environment. I've learned to listen and observe before continuing in making more self- inflicted choices. I've learned to manage what I have earned. I appreciate life for teaching me that POVERTY is not what man's say's it to be. I’ve changed in my progression in thinking; to not place expectations on promises & perfection.

Everywhere we turn in today's society people are content if not lurking for "MONEY" to change people and control things and real POVERTY stems from a State of condition. Then accepted in a mindset to not accept change for anything of reasoning.

It really does not matter how we categorize the 3. The reality is one or the other will place "DEMANDS" and "NOTICE" to any outsiders who disrespect their "ORDER".

Hard Lessons

The hardest lesson to learn, is accepting the lesson in which we find ourselves in. And this time I’ll allow you to fill in the reasoning; of how, who, what, when and why of our pessimistic and optimistic minds.

You ever said to yourself I refuse to do this one; AGAIN. To only find yourself repeating the same lesson all over again. And with no disrespect in all honesty it's not always life and someone else who contributes to the choices we make that inflict pain on ourselves in this life. 

The sour news is the truth does not have to flavor your taste buds. And a lie is not real reasoning in making you feel justified to turn around and blame it all on life. Because real people create situations. Life allows us space to make corrections and trials remind us we are not in full control of what happens out of our human control. A logic if not searching for non logic in reasoning to why; we should live if not be more humble in every season of this life. 

My First Love

God does not treat us based on our "sins" we deserve. God allows in everything we do; a second chance unlike man to redo our first, all over again.

The day we met we were both kids fascinated with what we heard & saw once we gazed into each others eyes. Eventually we became the best of friends. Assuming we could teach one another what we still needed of time and room to learn; about each other & our selves. In a life filled with twist and turns. We created a friendship together in which we only required of the both of us to understand one another. There was nothing out of one or the others reach; as long as you belong to me & I belong to you. The sky had no limits to what either of us would do. Eventually we figured out our right & wrongs. There was not a moment wasted we did not explore of what our bodies lusted for. We forgave one another in our hurtful words & childish ways. We held onto one another with loyalty. We chose and were chosen by others but no one had the power in this entire universe to keep us apart. We we're brought up in different environments and judged for not being good enough for one another. But only time could show us each other. Then one day we created a bond once your seed complimented my wound. And a life was born is when I knew that you were my first love. 

But this is not how the story ends. This is just how many of our “first love” stories began: 

Until the day came and time caught up with love and demanded some accountability; from the both of us. To sit down and re-evaluate if we were still on course to be in one another’s life. To cherish, protect and always be together side by side. Is when we both saw the difference of how we both mentally & physically changed. A valuable lesson to be learned in any relationship over time but only we can figure out why:

Not everyone is meant for one another at a different space in time. Not every pair will hold together where the chains no longer bind. Sometimes people mature in what they have to learn it just depends on what changes take place in their hearts and understandings. We just have to realize when time is no longer investing in that part of our lives. To move forward, receive and reciprocate, show more compassion and work harder in communicating our love and understanding.

If there was a world created with one main intension of destroying one's hope to experience love. There would be no human reasoning to understand why; people fall in & out of love all the time. Therefore love allowed us all a "second chance" to mature and prepare for our next, "FIRST love all over again". 

You will know when the time is right for you to let go and live more of this life.

Now that I've matured into this facet of beauty that I am my essence is deeper than what is seen in the presence of man.



I value myself more and cautious of who I allow into my space. I dream with no limits. Because life continues to allow me to breathe in it.



I don't have many sorrows because I've learned to let go, allow people to do whatever comes natural and giggle more.



I'm not afraid to admit I've never been married or even know if I've ever been in love. I was eager to be obedient to what God needed of me. And always prepared for unexpected journeys  



I will never deny myself of feeling passion, love, poverty and wealth. Because not everything we want is always what we imagine it to be. So I've learned to live and adjust in life  accordingly.

I remember being ask the other day as I sat on top of a  rolling sea “what was it I was thinking”? For one moment I was speechless in my response. Little did he know that in that moment he was my first. So my silent question to him was "are you prepared for your next 1st"? In which I can humbly promise to be your last". But only if you're prepared to open up to allow me to be your next, first.

AUDIO

The best investment we can make is by sharing prosperous advice:

DON’T ALLOW YOUR ATTITUDE TO SLOW YOU DOWN.

IN SPACES THAT ARE MEANT TO SHUT YOU DOWN.

All information  is transmitted. You just have to be wise & aware in how you receive it.  

Throughout my compilations of Angel L. writings I share a clear vision through encouraging words, truth and despair. Of what has or will take place under the sun in the space we all breathe in of one air. 

So many things are taking place in the world today. People are fascinated by one another's choices if not mistakes. Where every action results in logic or confusion if not madness in our real life situations. It's been quoted that some people are not meant to serve a purpose in your life. But what if some people are taken on to validate your obligations of not changing. What if we could see past waiting until things happen to figure out; this is what confines us to our own balls and chains of redundancy.  

In 2013 I placed on kindle a version of "The Burdens of A Heavy Heart". It talks about the burdens tattooed in our hearts. No matter what culture you are. My mission is written for an audience.  

"Vacation"

Whether you have or have not the ability to travel create a place of escape with the intentions of leaving the world behind for a moment in treasuring peaceful time. 

Focus on enjoying the labor of your harvest and not on what tomorrow could bring, grasp this moment and focus on more fruitful things.

Hug your love ones as tight as you can, eventually they will be torn from your hands.

Enjoy the airway while it is still free soon the TSA will be unable to control the air space due to calamity coming its way.

Thank god for the educators who are enforcing the fight; to end education growth is purely spite. Accolades to a leader who takes a strong role in places you struggle to grow.

Invest in a passport while there is time or take that scenery drive; eventually everyone will be restricted to their own side. 

Consume healthy food you would have never tried, eventually it will be destroyed by pesticides if not detained until you surrender into a truce of what has been documented of what you or not know.

Don’t allow the financial torture to destroy your life, people your more precious than trying to contend with the worldly price of who will have or have not in this life.

Allow the sunshine to brush against your beautiful face eventually darkness will consume this entire place.

Vancant

50% of our lives we spend it trying to accommodate, seek pleasure and validation; from other people who will choose freely to leave us or stay, if not taken away. The other 50% of our lives we juggle with our own happiness if not preparing for our final exits.

It's NOT required of us to catch all the flies in a room. First, a Leader must learn their own order of discipline & communication. Second a follower must control their temper in order to process better understanding. Then will those windows open wide and redirect those swarming flies. 

Have you ever been hesitant to make one move or reiterate something that people may misinterpret or take the wrong way; all over the place? Which allows us the permission to argue if not create opinions. To whether or not “faith is the substance in all the things we hope for”. And what if people who don’t believe in faith. But believe things are just meant to happen in the universe?  

Then what do you hope for? And how do you believe in “someone” or “something” you lack in vision to see. Of how we fight ourselves internally. By resisting our own struggles we refuse to change. Psalms: 29:

Life is not always to blame. It's the air and space that allows us the freewill to change.   

Three keys I hold that impact the decisions I make:

·        The key to Planning

·        The key to  Sacrifice

·        The key to Understanding Communicating   

We can’t change people & or what happened on yesterday. We can implement plans & better decisions in the space we live in, TODAY. So tomorrow we can hope to see more fruitful seeds. Because we have been made aware of what will, can or may not happen. Donald Trump was sworn in as our American president & many votes were monitored in. Immediately people viewed in with concerns and suggestions of their own human ideas and motives. Either way this is now a Country's faith stemming from who stood in place. So the game continues to be played on a different day with a new face.

The question is what are the keys you hold to your next move?

·        IN any open opportunity we will be introduced to fiduciaries & financial products progressing in mass production; because we have yet to figure out how real money can influence, but not fix the attitudes around the world.

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   IN any seat left empty it has already been filled with a soul of compromise to meet high expectations of bottom line production. Life refuses to allow us to remain the same just stay true to what you believe.

·        IN every season the climate will change. The entire atmosphere will shift human balance in every corner of the earth.   

·        IN every flicker there exist a flame, in every jail  & ditch their lies a snitch. Influenced or driven by "arrogance' and behind every "lie" the truth is plotting to come alive.

·        IN every course of action in any-type of “personal” or “business affair” profitable or negative investments will be made, in every race and age.

·        IN every plan involving  a world affair “open” or in “privacy” many will know the truth, only a few with good intensions plan to refuge the innocent. Because of the time and day of what is going to occur, if not already in plan to take place.

In reality the less you associate with some people, the more you will improve. These people will choke your dreams. Where they show no capabilty to prosper or support your dreams. Never make this person a priority where u realize your their option.

Why, because we all have a disposition in how we respond to one another, when we could have utilized more time communicating with each other.

Ecclesiastes 1:9

“The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.” 

CUPID

We will all change our minds overtime regarding one another. But time won’t allow us to rewind back each other.

With all the human access, online clicks and money match making businesses. It’s amazing to see how people still end up feeling abandoned, spiritually are physically lonely.

And no one in this entire universe can explain why LOVE chooses to commit and respect; some people over others in this life or could it be that People choose to love who & what they want to see in that person who is destined to change; physically, mentally if not spiritually. Either way time is destined to reveal our “TRUTH” once that LOVE is tested and proven to be fire proof.  

We all have experienced how opposites attract. Could it possibly be in our human natures were wired for that where one person thinks they see it all physically or fall in love mentally. But overtime people do find themselves in a dilemma of being abandoned by the person in whom they invested their love in.

So how is it people fall in love online. Meet and move in 1-3 months but please don't confuse it for love. Separate in marriages and continue to dating, cohabitate and compromise in space, invite more people into their sacred space, and yet figured out how they must communicate?  I’m assuming that Balance means everything when people are properly implementing a form of negotiable understandings. And if so then the question is why are people; still hurting and abandoned outside of the people in whom they have chosen to LOVE in this life.

This is my story:
I’m also a sinner save by grace. I have so much in life to grasp. I refuse to settle down in my own ways; I just opened up to embrace more of understandings in reasoning. My chapters do not end today. Life will manage to move on with or without me. So therefore I will breathe in every current it allows me.

I was groomed in how to show love. I'm still a VIRGIN from the last man that I allowed to touch me "mentally" you could say I was "Feeling Myself" but he missed it for being prideful in his hit man "position", now let's proceed to the next quality in my package. I am attentive to mental and physical details, because some people are only comfortable in spaces that are not adjustable to changes. I desire to be mentally challenged it adds to my thirst for more fruitful knowledge; but it’s often you will find out how people tend to apply the same level of thinking in every space of  THEIR maturity. I desire to be spiritually connected in all emotional places; but not everyone has kept the faith and we tend to create a low tolerance,  in our understanding.

We are not all at fault for choosing to be who we are. We just choose to share with another person of what we believe in who will appreciate us and care. 

Wake Up Everybody

Thank you Obama & Michelle, Joe Biden and family. For your sacrifices were not limited in vision. Your strength remained unbroken. Your unity humbled the masses as we watched you prepare to leave us with your footprints. In what we all share of our American legacy. 

 

On this journey we will endure change. Our PURPOSES will be revealed. Every hand shall work till every brow shows sweat. Real life stories will be WRITTEN. Human FAITHS will be challenged. From different perspectives in what we have been "taught" then expressed through our "cultural" differences and "human" understandings. 

To gain more clarity we must clear up the cluttered space that hinders out vision to make some lead way. In what we choose or not to see of what able' s or enables us to grow and live.  
Permission

Over our own understanding & works in the human flesh. Everyone one of us struggle within our individual weakness. We're all a work in progress. Most of us just live in denial of accepting it. 

With all due respect time will mature all people in areas we streeetch. 

Eventually change will no longer accept human resistance. In what we seek of 

Restoration in these days of wicked men who will fall in Matthew 12:43-45. As so in the days of Nehemiah who cried about a wall. As the enemy camped out day and night. To torture what was more of importance in his life. 

Time will reveal who believes in what we serve of man. And reject of God's presence. Pity for the fool who refuses deeper understanding in

·         The air we breathe.

·         The light hanging in the sky.

·         The wisdom in the Doctors hand. The judge of what happens even in the gravels hand. Who knows the date of your heart break. And who will be sent to mend it after its broken; if only we could be more patient for a higher permission.

· who has one clue of what children will perish, young & old; this is not how the stories ends. Where there is no peace on earth for them to live.   

  
POWER is what we call into action. That will define events in our human existence.  Time reshapes the earth and subtracts life into Death after Birth. Beauty is what we see in one another and everything; in its process of change.

Today we say Farewell to the fall of ignorance. And embrace change to what we make up of all things. 

The End

-Angel L

Sister Code

Most people assume you need the MONEY, first. I been taught how POWER rules MONEY. And RESPECT is what CONQUERS the both of them.


The wrong company will turn you up. The right atmosphere sets a tone. Titles tend to inflate our egos; if we're not humbled. Confrontation raises the bar. Conversation & presentation gains the attention of the masses. When we are cautious of how we process our female emotions.

Who made the rules & set the standards of there can not be more than one woman of color at the round table? When we all bring a different A game. Therefore a gutter mentality presents itself in every nationality.

Woman securing the support of a man is not our fight against one another.  When a man knows every woman of color possesses a different "talent". So therefore more than a few men already know with whom he will place his loyalty into.

"woman must not depend upon the protection of man, but must be taught to protect her self".
 -Susan B. Anthony

Woman be cautious of seeking validation. And selective of mentors to share all your vital information. No human being is prepared for the pressures ahead. They can contribute to you advice, support and direction. Just take notes in places you allow of your cockiness & ego's to slip in. Because both men & women still have room to grow. At every level we're matured into.

Let's stick with a plan, and continue in making things happen.

Sexual Tension

Love, Lust and Passion are not the Arthur's of confusion. Men and women just initiate the conflict and opposition in expressing their honest human emotions. Why can't we allow our minds to be free from hiding in a safe zone of argumentive energy. 

In order for us to get pass the repetition of debating who or what; is right & wrong in any type of relationship it will take; We, Us, Them, Him or Her to set the stage for allowing the rules of engagement; of saying what u really want and not making it a conquering exhibition. Because someones emotions will unravel. And more than often a partner is left unpleasured. Due to the other persons "cockiness, control, short coming in length & width if not areas of loss elasticity. So therefore our inhibitions elevate in other spaces that require a comfort level of checked self-esteem. Of what we hunt for in all ages that is pleasurable to many. But often hidden by rage & disappointment in the ending. Why, because sex is a space we either seek to please, appreciate or take. So either be prepared in the event to walk away. Or perhaps some people will choose to further eat into their next level of curiousity. Just don't make more than enough of compromise to end up still settling or confined the next time. 

A relationship in this day and time. Is like asking people to compromise; for mutual respect, human communication and work. But hooking up is quick, convenient & requires no background check to itch a scratch. Therefore more than half of the time we can satisfy what we want physically in our flesh. But mentally we struggle to find and accept who we really NEED to appreciate and cherish us while we stand. And it's fair if you don’t agree. Then please "Say Something" of common sense to explain how the expression of “Love” operates in devaluing another human beings worth, expresses trickery and deceit then makes negotiations without a fair chance of obtaining the other persons permission. And if you find one form of  human reasoning to justify how Love, Lust and  Passion operates without any human mind, hands, heartbeat and feet. Then we have subtracted the implementation of our own human energy.

Both male and female species possess real human emotions. Including LOVE, LUST and PASSION where one may express his through physical interaction with verbal or non verbal communication. She will always be heart filled with many silent or open mouth expectations. So therefore have no reservations about the opposite in sex of needing more outside the bed. Because every human that breathes requires a form of intimacy, attention followed by full satisfaction. The problem is we bypass communication. Especially in relationships that accept compromise from "BAD BOY'S, the stakes are higher" and what I mean by that is be prepared not ready for twisted addictions. That will lock down your mental thinking. Because it takes a certain type of beast to teach what has no respect in the streets.  And a roll play of sessions to keep your pearls addicted for the invited but unexpected. So ladies & gents just because you bone with a strong throwback; what about he awakening up to you with a smile & question "what you want to eat for breakfast, boo".