Battlefield

Live your life without a question mark over your walk.  I write the broke in all ways, laughter, heartache and pain. I own of my scars, and watched while walking through with many of you, in your own battles. 

While you were in the fire; I was tried under fire in my own trenches. But time did not always allow me to break bread without shedding some tears. So yes, I'm guilty of respecting the Bible. At times been said too smart for my own good. And on top of that people will shut you down on whether I am a good damn person verses their own intensions. Now that we have me established; let's move on to the next chapter or conversation. 

On any day ask "why" share so much of yourself? I will smile as always and say “if we knew for every good deed we do "in return". Would earn a $1.00. would we, us are them be on our best behavior? Because time will remind all of us why our situations make us more than often; feel defeated. 

Sacrifice is free, patience comes with time, and victory is my focus. So I carry it as my weapon. I got it nobody is perfect. But hell raisers also appear in a "pleasant or well kept package." 

Many of us use our "hands without a thought through plan",  "some of us are bold in picking our battles, because often it was brought to us, for no reason. Either way we've seen men, children and woman die. On both sides of the contested argument. But at the end people are going to do and be what they see fit; to do.

This year taught me a valuable lesson; a mother said be careful in where you go. I respected this mother because we grew close.  And I shared  in respect "mom" every one has to also accept "accountability of their right and wrong doings. So every battle is not a title of fault, we often bring our battles to other people. In the end I will add this to my life lessons and continue forward with a smile. The moral is family belongs to us, not all of their battles we can conquer. However, people remember where & when by whom you are invited into each other's lives. So more than half of the time; we have to be prepared for the battles that come with them; unjudged and of the invited by invitation.

Choose your battles wisely, not everyone is on neutral waiting for your fist fight. Sometimes good is waiting for you just to do; right. 

Time is all we have. Try to enjoy every moment of it.

Thank you all for reading this Blog. I must admit HOW the journey is eye opening. And if you’re willing to take small steps on the next pages; together. If not respect the departures. So humanity can mend those small; battles with human integrity. To learn to respect; each other's personal space & boundaries. 

-Angel L Arthur

Relationships

People talk about money over love; but without human appreciation either one will cause; pain & disrespect. Either we be more honest about where we are, not what we are waiting around on; to come. 

We are taught to be married "until death do us apart", no one ever prepared us for lesser than a comfort level, trust & not meeting all expectations that come with trials and test. To figure out we need more time to grow-up, even more in marriages starting in the stages of relationships.

But if you have managed to find the special ingredients in your relationships; of layering the heavy duty bricks on a solid foundation, secure of the willingness to communicate & forgive, and capable to encourage one another through the struggles; this passage is not meant for you. Be the example for other people who are struggling with one another to make it through; what is possible if both parties desire to see it through.

No pun intended cheating is a phrase we use to give the guilt a title; as human beings we will continue in seeking the (missing) inside us. Until we figure out how to fight our own internal battles with the support of family. They just can't decide for us our choices. So when married couples mention a Divorce then how do Single people get involved in relationships with married people, and congregating without your mate with other married people; does not make the title change? We are all  searching to be completed with someone who is capable of giving us what we need. And in the event all parties involve live with the burdens and hurt. Before we make a move to either work on our issues then discover the reason for staying is attached to the Title.

Single is a state of being, without or with someone to share a common space, prayers, families, investments, interest and ideas. No different than married people who either share all or a few of these committed establishments. We all get it. But what is it about finding

Time: to look inside of what we have or not.  

Progress: in what we are growing towards are not.

Growth: that either ties us together or stresses us back apart. Every couple has their own scenario, but almost 99.9% it is the same challenge we all deal with; money-money, feeling unappreciated, bored-loneliness-illness in the relationship, age and death, finding change that makes us happy without giving up the years of invested misery. And sometimes just having you is not enough it’s gets deeper. Why

Time: requires the both of our attention to check-in; no one else has the answers to unlock what we are missing physically, mentally and spiritually. We both have to be available to communicate these feelings. 

Progress: is made with another person & in our self’s. Taking more time to figure that out alleviates who get's what of the (tangible stuff), either way it's a humbling, cold or bitter place.  

The Level of Growth we have gained from our lessons and just knowing who we are; to no longer settle for anything other than what adds to our; values.

So no Single people or not lonely,  Married people are forever trying; and fear it what confuses everything. Because not every person or choice of mate is meant or capable of staying with you. You both have to decide how to FIGHT, or either prepare to LET GO of what has not grown. 

Black Butterfly

Freedom cries but no one is listening, to admit why the men, woman and children seek to be free of  the internal fear we use to keep; the fight brewing. 

Freedom a state of being. Freedom is not living in a state of restrictions & confinement; unless we agree and invest into it. 

Freedom is what we feel not afraid to be. Fear a feeling that drives any human being into a panic of anxiety to over shadow the freedom of  another human being.

Freedom is it based on vulnerability, boundaries and bullying and if so what is the motive in it that drives a fueled state of mind?

Freedom is it living fearlessly among one another, without confusion. Fear what it is that causes people so much hindrance; that it's not recognized of how an action turns into being held captive?

Freedom the restless argument in tempored cases. But not all cases have answered back to why; human acts of vague patience consistently interrupts another's preservation of life. 

Freedom is the case we argue, restitution is what we seek to be of free. Life is where we assign the judge & jury; to find equal answers to why we are restricted to being FREE in this life.  

 A dictionary utilized to define words.  A cause is identified to examine the effect. A female gives birth  
through her womb. A male contributes of his genes and  generational pigmentation. And the argument will continue to be; how much of this is of accuracy?


One day Freedom rang; with no guarantees of who and what kind our choices would be made in finding humanity's peace on ONE page. 

And if you assume this is about one situation. Think again, and take some accountability in our weary human ways of how we all got here; just not on ONE page. 

That's the Way of The World

Coincidence of  us standing not a chance. Live the best LIFE you can. Deal with the hurt you struggle to let go; from the people who buried it with them 6ft. feet below or waiting 6ft. on top to talk. Salvage the healthy relationships that we inflict of 70% of the drama in, and 25% rest of the shoulders of that other person who believes they can fix you both in the dysfunction. While that 5% are people who cared enough to process understanding it.

That's the Way of The World, when it comes down to; different types of people.

So what if you are one of those people who don't give a "!#@", then Goodbyes are not hard for you. It's the letting go knowing you contributed to most of the wrong, that wears down on your lonely soul. In the real world we either relieve our self's of the guilt then proceed to find someone else. Who will accept a cold hardened person, to only have it reciprocated back; near the end.    

Life is filled with purpose, people are driven with fire to figure out their own purpose. And no one wants lesser of more than we together or capable or willing; to give back to one another. 

Yesterday, we were taken as babes from our mothers and fathers arms. We were given a sermon  regarding our future plans; our heads & hearts only hardened. And eventually we learned the adults were only trying to prepare us for the real world of; hard work comes in different foes. And we will attract the attention of who we become. First, from the wombs of our mothers, and roots of our strong or weak at heart; fathers arms. 

That's the Way of The World we built our foundations on. Before we could even speak our own words. So sometimes in this life we find the correct roads to take. Or we either navigate and lose our ways.  Until life sends us subliminal messages; we either select to see, if not continue in being  blinded to follow, and not take a lead.

Live the best life you can, be wiser of the choices to be made, figure out who is beside you on the roads we will stumble our tender feet on rocks & stones. And watch how we speak out of text in our sophisticated, clear, stuttered and muffled voices; whether young or old. We all got a long way to go in our mind sets. That will grow at the levels in which we seek or not; to mature in The Way of The World.

Goodbye..

Blood

Mom loved & said to me don't rush to marry people, not everyone is meant for each other. Time we have, it's just not forever. Daddy serviced his country & said invest with a man who is not afraid to labor with his hands just to be married into a family. Grandma a valedictorian died at 90 & left me recipes; to survive as needed. Great Uncle serviced his country & died at 92 but before he left his fishing gear was a reminder to leave us with a broader mental. Grandpa died at 99 with 65 years of a respectable marriage. And collectively I got me; service of 32 Uncles & loving Aunts. The great still to be accounted.

The people said church is filled with hypocrites; I heard the Preacher say "we got room for one more, please come in".

On this Labor Day weekend while on that old road 1322. I stop my car & imagined how my people worked on those acres of cotton fields for hours. And I became saddened for their distressed souls; did not find a peace of mind laying in those shallow graves, not far from behind that old church where we gently laid our grandfather to rest. But at the event there was stories by the children who lived in those white houses & ate with polished silver who missed the love those colored people gave them. The real stories this generation will not partake in because of seeing and knowing who are leaving with the family fortunes. Our current generations will struggle to find in buried in graves over our time.

I had dinner with some friends and all the woman spoke of; was when God sends me a decent man, love my kids, and to advance in their careers. I heard an elder married man told his married son "there are more fish in the sea, until his son said to his dad "there are more fish in the sea", the dad said to the son "but son your momma is whale". This is real when we can't say when life deals us our own hands.

I spoke with a a man who took another person's life; I said to this man "cause and effect" will drive a person into situations, then later regrets. This man said "precious child" nothing is sweeter than freedom. Be wise about people and "process your anger, that will be tested beyond limits". I said "thank you great cousin" I knew down the Blood line you would share some WISDOM.

I had dinner with classmates; and all they talked about where kids, careers, divorces and marriages. Some talked about early retirement in their 40"s, and the highs and lows of establishing their own or family businesses.

I had a dinner with the millennial's and all they talked about was; social media, dating, start-up business and using book sense in the corporate world. Which is great until they have to deal with real life. The pastor said I was one of many that respected your grand father Mr. Carter who also was related to successful people. That always came back to revisit the family. So people made it a point to associate themselves with the Carter family. Because of what they were about; wealthy givers in faith is why people respect those roots that continue to connect; throughout this family's generations.

I watched movies with a single man; and all he talked about was building a foundation with a woman who used her brain and has a good ♥. Not every man needs a female to find out; they wasted both of their time, playing house. I finally figured out how capable it is to share your gifts. But I also know that value is how we communicate & love ourselves.

I had dinner with my married friends who had been together for over 10 to 20's. Some couples said people change for the best or even worse, some said infidelity was a struggle to forgive reason being it kept happening over and over; again. Some couples said the arguing, mental & physical a bruise become to much to bare; children do grow up in dysfunctional homes some where the struggles can push a person in that relationship to the hospital bed then grave yard, alcohol, smoking & drugs. Finally, the largest portion said communication, finances and careers played a big role; and if you date to find a person who can find fault in themselves "together" any relationship can "work out". I did not lose people who were not meant to add to my life. I gained back people who would stand with me through any fight.

I had a parental chat with my son; and I was not amazed to understand what the woman in his life love. However once he re-routed the conversation. I said son life is not all about you, seek to be a better person and then you can stand firm on your peace of mind, happiness & standards. Any woman can make kids with a man. But parents figure out a ROCK SOLID plan. To continue this bloodline we must educate our people on one page with respect.

I attended a ceremony with over 300 family members; I observed the blended families and physical traits. I observed the crazy uncles who love living life, and live around the world. I observed the youth socialize, I observed the elders sit back & watch the world of generations they will eventually leave behind. I processed as much wisdom & knowledge my mind could hold. I learned that my "wealth" is where I come from, because of the seeds that were already PLANTED in my family of generations. FYI, even as a child all the woman & men in my life gave and received hugs and kisses, and talked it out when things were not right. 

In a summer course  of taking "Sociology" we viewed a film on social classes. Once completed the class was asked  about sexuality, racism, could  we marry a person who worked in a lower wage job, with or without any education? And if you could marry outside of your race, and why?

Of course every student had their own morals, values and beliefs in reasoning. But my response was I know the feeling of poverty, I know the mutual feeling of love, I know our beliefs come with compromise, I know the strategy of economics in cultures, I understand your questions but as human beings can we ever process then respect; our individuals answers. And Yes, in the event this person is capable and reflects the characteristics of knowing his own standards, visions and direction. Of course someone questioned my answers and said why do we as a "people settle", I replied sometimes we should read a book before we judge the cover, we should experience more of life than seclude ourselves from it. And more than often we ourselves should evaluate what we consider what is it we call; a long or short term investment.

Before I attended college & exposed to real ADULT experiences, I made a point to invest of my time learning from other graduates, of life. I surrounded myself with experienced, positive & negative thinkers; no matter the results of their positive or negative circumstances.

I got to go; Its time to taste the smell of coffee brewing, aunties scratch breakfast & elders conversations around the table.

Ten Toes

Working in the world of business has its recourse & benefits. The downside to this is how we cause the effect of working for riches.

On the next business opportunity of employment, entrepreneur or partnership; a mental address for the masses will get you noticed. And always set the stage for remembrance for peers who always are taking notes; in what they hear and observe to create a report. Being a team player, does not necessarily mean everyone is rooting on the same team. Application is better comprehended in "the real world" of economics, survival and commitments.

Next, the two sets of questions

1. What are your strengths and weaknesses? What are your long and short term goals?

2. Do you have children and what area of demographics do you reside in?

What about education? The interviewer made that assumption by browsing over your application.  What about if you have a felony or misdemeanor? Well the logic is in the background check that is required? In the real world everyone deserves a second chance; use your common sense then reference back to the 2^nd paragraph that tailors your level of confidence.

“Effective communication” works in even the most uncertain situations, not everyone is invested in your passions. In case an offer is extended; it does not mean your values and patience will not be tested. Empower your knowledge; not everyone is seeking to make you rich, and not every company has a development plan to see you walk away with, in the end. But for every opportunity in this life make the best of it and stay true to who you are. 

There exist some parables in teaching other family & friends as much as possible. Pick your battles wisely, limit the bridges you burn with people. Speak with wisdom and it will cause mass confusion. Stay alert everyone is talking, more than often about nothing. I can relate to hard times with more or less on this journey but value people who will share with you beyond reasons, and "tougher love" with a Life Purpose.   

Ten toes up or down; money opens the doors to access, where knowledge keeps it open. 

-Angela's Heart

 The heart relies on love and trust; regardless if it comes from him or her. The body said "I'll remind them both about time they are running on; but behind.  

A habit is doing things the same way; and taking it personal is what will break the both of them.

The road is smooth and often paved with gravel; so often we believe we are doing it alone if not together. Until life happens in unraveling our focus.

Understanding one another woman or a man more than often creates chaotic confusion. Where we ourselves have not figured out the reason why our fears shut us down. 

I talk about waking away from, walking into, letting go and holding on. All because of those word’s we communicate to one another with; until we find ourselves broken because of them.

Those tears came from fears, those words were yelled out of confusion; instead of some form of patience & communication.

So once the wedding cake and friends are silent, those old high school relationships are not picked up as you fantasied of them to rekindle again, that variety of men and woman are more tiresome than the chase, and dating random people no longer make sense. The heart will never allow us to forget; if you continue to repeat the same routine, I can't heal what remains broken. 

Some people are not meant to be tossed away so easily, sometime moments are what we need to grow in silence. And even in lie’s we can no longer keep up with; eventually shines the light on why we can't find internal happiness.

The heart said never again, the mind said it’s too much confusion, the feet said to the hands; let it go and walk away. Then life said wake up and let’s try this all over again today; if you will allow yourself to remove out of our way.

A conversation is not hard to start, commitments will be tested through the fire, and the heart will always say “I refuse to give up on you, no matter what we put ourselves through.

S.O.L

Who said such a relationship can't work; as long as we're paying more attention to who really has the benefits to offer; of worth having if not entertaining.

Life is simple to live, if we remove our ass-ss & arrognace out of the way in it..

So let's keep it real before we mess around; and find out what we really need is what were caught up in; of the real or wrong feelings in. Truth is there is no alternate route around not getting "disappointed & hurt" people play everyday; to get what they want temporarily. And later realize what they are missing in reality; holds the real control in the dynamics of their "investments" when the new is not always the old, and the old is nothing wrong. Depending on the risk & mindset we're playing around with.

Of course every human being has some type of investments with or without someone else who contributes a or non return back. So what is complicated about the math  or years that does not "add up in the choices we make. Of our unfilled appetites.

Lucky you this may not be the case for you, confidence even showed up a FOOL. And humbleness placed that person back in check. What I'm saying is this "manage to stabilize your situation & person, before adding unnecessary ingredients. To fix a temporary addiction. Or either decide if this  new recipe works in the presence of your old or new investment. Reality is any opportunity we seek to embark in old or new will keep us forever searching. Or either

SOL, is where we will always find ourselves; among a world of human confusion.

Play Write

Black love is not shy or does not exist; it’s just not advertised in places people can observe and identify how beautiful it is.

A Black man’s tale; is that he and his woman have been sold throughout time in this white man's world, but the truth is “not a one person” throughout this entire world is free.  So when does the correction begin, and “dysfunction” end? Peace is easy to possess. Change is what we refuse to demonstrate, in reaching that Peaceful state.   

Black beauty is more than Black mandego men and Black woman with big booties; sit down and make time to have a mature soul conversation with either one of them. There are answers to why they are so outspoken in this life.  

Black love starts before our eyes open; with warm morning kisses sweet as honey melon.

Black love ends at night; with enthusiasm & freedom to express in them beyond human judgment.

Black love understands who they are, and what they have been taught to think they are not capable of. Now even those who did not know have heard the real truth, it's on you to grow.

Black love disagreements are not confrontational; just small hurdles to conquer with a conversation.

Black love is more than struggles; it’s more than people place of judgement on what they don’t want to understand.

Black love created together; worldwide inventions, conquered criticism even when they made historic contributions, and replenished the earth with their most wanted; of black children with their athletic abilities, scientific discoveries, dance moves, theatrical plays, musical creativity and mathematical visions where they continue to expand beyond walls built around them.  

Black love is kind and forgiving; it reshapes the colorism in our diversity of segregated behaviors. As long as we respect "black" and not what we leverage out of them to respond back.  

Black love may have their differences among one another, but please never misinterpret it's not a mystery how the power in black love; bonds them back together.

Black love is not imprisoned; prisons & manipulation was intended to confine the black love in every generation. Therefore a Black choice requires more conscious levels of thinking; regarding the elements that open up the doors for assumption to separate them.

Black love has its flaws; but black love is no different than any other color. Black love has a conscious to what we need from one another to heal our families back together.

Shine your light "Black souls", freedom is a state of mind, allow your growth to expand; despite the clear interruptions.

"2"

Are we at a point for a good man or woman in our life, and if you’re in a relationship already do take time to check-in with who you have or either or waiting on; to be a good man or woman.

We talk about cultural differences and relationships; then why not answer these questions we debate about or choose not to figure out. About how colors are not separated in one box.

Why do African American men date outside of their race; then why not ask a causation woman why did she choose him, and why together they made a decision?

Why do African American woman come off confrontational; then why not ask, listen then respect that black woman’s struggles; we all see and act as if were disconnected in every culture?

Why are African American woman in business “judged or idolized” for choosing a side? And why does this woman feel alone without the support of their own?

Why do African American children make up poverty; well let’s reflect back then answer to what was not equal to them; in education, judicial systems, affordable housing and economics that still remain of leverage against them?

Why do black men pay child support for various children outside of marriage; let’s respond to why the black man continues to be paid lessor wages is 2018, whether are not this black man has been honored for receiving a high-school education, work training and college degree. And in regards to those children out of wedlock we would have to research history when the African American man was intentionally separated from his family. The mind and control under power is a nightmare for any person of color.

Why do African American People not have a success rate in marriages; again let’s review all the above answers with the truth. A child learns from what we plant in their heads, and that parent teaches what they have been exposed to pass on; throughout generations.

I have witnessed in my lifetime wisdom from the 1920’s who hung on until this season was over. The plantation was not a fairy tale the stories are real and the seeds in man & woman we continue to struggle with, cohabitate and understand in of our; marriages and divorces, families riches and poverty, education and progress in every stage of development of the segregation that remains of argumentative debates; we created of taking the issues not dealt with out on one another seeking of answers without first, identifying with the internal problem.

At the end of every generation of Mothers & Fathers an abundance of people will turn their face in rage, shrug their weakened shoulders and stagger away from what remains; broken internally. Non answered questions will drive any mind of color insane, lack turns into rage, arrogance brews ignorance, abundance allows controlled access, and seeking reveals the reality of what we are really supplied with; of knowledge, direction but not all planted seeds that grew over generations.

 

Dynamics

Selfish people can also give; with every intention of what they want of you to have.

If we never accept correction; we will assume that in every one of our actions; there is no wrong in  what we do, to one another. Which redirected me in this passage.

One of my readers corrected me on an entry that read "the stories I write are from a place & people I never took for granted , while loving here on earth". I took the correction & researched to see if that passage was meant to be written. This is the correction I shared with confidence " Through mercy we were  birth through a females womb, and because of love my life was filled here on earth with a purpose. And at every end we will rest; in our belief of a creators hand.

I picked up a caller who shared with me; I need a kind word & to see you smile today. I said where you at. The caller said come outside. I said knock on the door " is what a gentleman does" he chuckled and the door bell rung. After brunch we both figured out what his frustration was about "that my silence meant a plan in execution". I communicated "life did not pause time for me to wait on your plan's" we both smiled and made exits. Because my purpose was never filled with the intention of every plan in what other people come up with.

I don't boggle my mind with perfection. We as people on other hand obsess to evaluate it in one another. Which is ok. As long as we all know; without correction there is room for errors to bloom if not exist. And from there we stand a chance to grow from them.

THANK THE PEOPLE OR PERSONS who are watching you with observations, this is how we help one another to grow beyond being misinformed, human perceptions.

Luvuall, & Memore