Coping with Anxiety

 Listen carefully about time.

We spend 50% of our lives catering to other people. Raising our children. And providing the best financially  for our family.

The other 50% of our lives. We deal with ourselves and the choices and decisions we either accepted to make or not. 

Overall; time came about. Somethings changed over the course of time, some people changed over the course of time. Then on Mar. 16, 2020, a  pademic progressed. To change our minds in how we have another choice to make a decision and live.

Crime & Hate progressed; and for generations we made a choice to not end slavery, abolish the laws that segregate the gentrification in this generation, end this social injustice in our CJS now the chains we all bare in every of race of men, woman & children in all communities. 

Poverty did not find rest in any race of faces. Where in time we took more than what we could of shared, acknowledged who contributed to what makes a country great. In a time we are divided in anger, greed, jealousy and hate; with The Have & Have Nots if this makes any common sense to heal the situation we are in.

Anxiety today is the mental chains. Once worn on human ankles & necks. Chains created by the hands of our past forwarded into this generation.

So when a black man dies; dont assume his intentions were any different than his own black man or any race of stress. We are attempting to fight against the time to survive one another on any given moment; for a peace of mind on any day. That "freedom is crying & yelling in the streets over bloodshed in all races of man", stop pulling the trigger & remove the chains. Because now all children can't breathe.

Thanksgiving

 A new year even though we must obide by the rules.

1. No elbows on the dining table this year.

2. No long hugs & kisses. 

3. No crowding in the kitchen for second, helpings.

4. No eating off of one another's plates.

5. No tears of sorrow; we are still on earth to serve a bigger purpose. 

However there is 1 thing we are safe to do; pray together for God to bring us through.

Happy Holiday!  

3

Three things as a human a being you must be confident in yourself to do. When you are faced with

1. Criticism; Cross examine it or keep it moving in the event it does affect you in relevance. But if it is conducive to your growth; acknowledge it, process it, and evaluate who it is coming from that is a positive influence in seeing you elevate to your next level.

2. Discipline; not every comment is of common sense to respond back to it. People can freely posses their own opinions. Therefore just listen, and closely watch to determine if you are looking for their permission or advice. Or you just sharing what's on your mind. Be wise about what u share in a space with people who may or not have your best interest.

3. Respect; always hold your self at a higher level of courage, loyalty, commitment, integrity, accountability and leadership. If not you can be lead into a mental place where you will disrespect all of the standards you could of held in yourself.

People watch; as we talk. People listen to what they want to hear. People respect what you hold of a higher standard within yourself; regardless of the situation or position we represent or find ourselves in.

People Matters

I wanted to share with you; some commentary regarding BLM's. Hate crimes, racism and all people involved.  

We again formed in unity to protest against the oppression. As we assemble in our minds what has, will or can we change. The most important element we missed is how can we first make the change in ourselves?

The elders wanted to share with the younger generation there is community resources; the challenge will be whether the help that is extended to them; is accepted.

The youth represents strength; the concern is some youth are killing; a generation of my brother and sister.

The world is in the mist of silent wars abroad a pandemic. People are in desperate need of everything uncluding structure. While Children are frightened and hungry for knowledge if not a missing paternal parent. Elders are limited in their movement but not in their wisdom. Leaders are forced to show up in what was dismissed of problems; now a global situation in all races. 

So what does this have to do with BLM and the generations of people around. Well history shaped us, people change us and time reminds us 

1. 2021 Tax season is approaching; and consumers will spend more that what they loss of finances in 2020.

2. Child supports payments will be processed; but will the finances be maturely used toward the child or children it was applied to. 

3.  Healthcare is available at cost; and welfare offers  TANF, Medicaid and Chip. But not all providers will accept and extend service to the children. If someone is willing to step in and assist 1 child from being a recipient of the benefits. Then that child has a chance to understand struggle is not always required for someone else to settle. 

4. Homicides are on the global rise; unfortunately we all love our people in all races. No matter what they are capable of doing.  

5. The 1% is the makeup to the world's wealth. See what happened in this COVID-19 when the revolving doors are stuck. To making a cap on money through denials. It was a taught not yet learned as a generation we cannot control time, while taking it for granted. Material things either add or devalue in worth; when we feed into the world of fantasies & "intense power", we discover what if not who we become. 

In a generation of Black Lives Matter & People fighting if not debating over old history.  In the midst of Covid-19. Today what is your priority? I had nothing but time to share what if not but how we All exposed to the world on A media and in society of many platforms. And what are we really in control of. That will be an endless fight in refusal to mentally change them, me are us?

3-2-1

 In a story line there are characters; and each character has been delegated a role to play. 

In every story line each character gets a turn; to either add to, subtract from or repeat the story line. They are portraying in the presence of the audience.   

The first time, the audience watches, and listens collectively; in a place of many actions of a role being; betrayed. 

The second time, after intermission something or someone has been watched, repeated if not recorded to play back. Of a significant moment that caught the audiences attention. 

Third time, once the story line ends and the characters reveal themselves in a light. Of the audience applauding these characters for their significate roles played. Into a story line of  THE BOOK OF LIFE.  

We all have a storyline to tell; fiction or non fiction. From the Beginning to End. A story made of real characters; no matter what role we've claimed, delegated if not held on this journey of life. Time will reveal  

1) Your side 

2) My side 

            and finally the   

Truth. That can no longer be hid; behind the Lie's people tell if not already told. 

COVID-19

In 2020, we are not the victims to this world that has changed. Remember people changed the world we are now; living if not co-existing in.

This is a generation of Covid-19 cases, tension, depression, suicide, homicidal violence. Now add a serial killer behavior to the climate; of mental & physical stresses.  

This generation is struggling in many facets to adjust; in COVID-19 which has impacted all races of life , even money can't buy a peace of mind. A life of overwhelming famine, heartache, hate and pain. We have become acclimated to one another in entitlement, betrayal, greed and hate. Not knowing who we can humbly express love and compassion, too. Before it’s too late. And what I mean is this “Time has a plan, pay closer attention to time not man”.

In COVID-19 we cannot waiver or either leverage on “problems”. We are now forced to search ourselves for accountability; in our demonstrated behaviors. For this generation we will leave behind many scars; left unhealed for our love ones if not small children to feel.

In 2020, we are witnessing a solemn generation of orphaned children left behind. Because of one day a parent or parents started their day; with kisses and hugs before walking away. Into a world of people that chose or not to mentally change.    

We can waste time placing judgment on a stereotype of lack in parenting, types of crime & violence; occurred in what locations. But our current reality is this; a generation that has progressed "drug usage, distributing if not the supplier who is forced to make it legal, domestic violence including children, people vs. people of all colors in hate crimes on television; generation of issues and problem transformed into a new generation of  situations seeking accountability in all of our own personal behaviors. One day "DENIAL" demanded its time, for the "TRUTH" to be accepted.    

One lesson I have learned in this process of life’s course; is death reveals the truth in people. Betrayal is not exempt from any person, persons, families, titled associations, or friends.

PS: no one is capable of loving you. More than you are capable of loving yourself; FIRST. 

Homicide

The news reported another homicide has; occurred. And the cries are growing in despair. Because no one has a real plan; to heal this generation.

We hear our children mourn "when is mommy or daddy, coming home"?

We see how parents grieve over caskets and a percentage of families set up Go Fund Me Pages.

We march through the streets yelling "I can't breathe".

We keep silent; knowing the killer has another target. The question again is who will explain to our children if there is no love they know to raise them.

Does it really matter in what race of man; who is doing the killing? And if so then why do the streets remain silent. Why is "I cant breathe" being; watched, seen as we march in progressive numbers through the streets; until another life is taken. Why has homicides increased in every state & community. As we scramble to judge one another about our behaviors. But yet we mirror one another's cultures. Look around at the truth. Of what we cannot deny by telling a lie. 

If God was to finally judge the world in this moment for our disrespect of human life, hate, greed and manipulation. Could we answer back to God regarding "what did we gain, for murdering our own people", as the next persons watch, stand and still breathing. No pun intended, or did we forgot not everyone is a believer in God and ok with their conscious. Also, what we have learned through our leadership, community, CJS, social media and the news about homicide is this; 99% of the time it is the people sitting next to you. For its the history in why Saul envied David's life.

To say "other people kill each other too", is a reality. Then who is accountable for the people that are being murdered by the people or associations closes to them? And how can anyone argue over a behavior; that we are not prepared to accept are expose in our own violent doings?   

Life is temporary; death is painful. Yet, we are still accountable when judgement catches up for whatever we have done; to another human being in this life. 

Child Safety

Sexual misconduct with a child. It is a distasteful conversation; but we as adults must address it now.

Children are growing up in a world of erotic behaviors. Behaviors that are causing all children a distraction. So much distraction they are being mistreated by fault; of not acting as children. Due to the realty; of what is being exposed by adults.

Every hear or heard your parents say “be careful of what you talk about, and demonstrate in front of your kids”? And for the record not all adults apply to the crises in every household around the world. But only you know the behavior as an adult in which you demonstrate in the presence of a child.

No one parent wants to be corrected on how they operate their household, or neither do they want to be reprimanded  for how they treat their children or someone else’s child.

Tomorrow the children will change this pandemic lifestyle. They will bloom in a world of adversity, they will labor and build  up on are around behaviors in which we left for them. All children deserve a quality of life. Not limited to the decisions made by immature adults.

Note: Once an adult, twice a child. You will answer to a generation for the behaviors; groomed.

Grandchildren

One day time will change and so will people. And maybe you will be to young at the time. If not older to understand, what is going on. That may or not have caused you any type of; heartache or harm. 

On that day if no one has told you the truth by now. Not every one in your life has abandoned you. Not every parent has left willingly whose plan was to be right by your side. Why, because of Death is a part of this Life. But sometimes people have their own intentional mission stemming from personal issues to deal with. Which will cause the children to hurt if not grow up around a false reality. Of what could of really happened.  

One day you will look at the life you have become accustomed too. And you will remember the life you once had. Or was removed from. Depending on the memories your mind has stored or what someone has shared with you of the truth. How so, real love is an action word no matter who you are around. Or what was the situation based on of factual information. To cause the separation from you and your extended love ones.  

One day you will see this message. Read this message and understand why you should always seek; God for more understanding. And remember this not everyone is a believer of God. So be careful of what you leave behind of the truth. For someone else to share with you.

One day you can ask for it to be proven why; the love you once could feel in your heart, knew in your pictures, and heard on the recordings one day stopped. Or maybe those phone calls were no longer made for you. If not answered in the presence of your own observation.

Every person has their own reasoning to why; sometime we share the truth, and often times we lie. Know this grandchildren you are a blessing. It's up to the adults to ensure you are not deliberately kept from your blood line of kindred history. And the people and parents that put them first; and not second of what they harbored of the truth from you.

One day you will ask yourself why me? Understand all people in any race have a family history,  internal issues and life situations to mature and show development in. No matter the title we hold; aunt mother, uncle, brother, sister or dad. Present or in Absence it takes "a willing effortless commitment" in that  "village" to raise all of our children. 

In Memory of all those loved ones are people who are missed. History and Love will not be hidden; one day you will know your truth. And who could of shared it with you.  

 

What is The Play

Once it is figured out; what the reality of our future is about. 

The question is "what is the play, now"?

Once the call is made; and it is figured out "we can not take back of what was said, in the heat of a moment". 

The question is "what is the play, now"?

Once the hit is accomplished; and the reality is there was no real plan, point or purpose. 

The question is "what is the play, now"?

Once the information is scrutinized and lies are covered up; and the reality is the lies kept, can no longer be covered up. 

The question is "what is the play, now"?

Once we collectively figure out; there is nothing that has not been done in human behavior, under the sun of God that has not been watched, repeated or recorded. 

The question is "what is the play, now"?

Once we all know; the character of a type. And choose to live in denial or separate from the setback of a setup.

The question is "what is the play, now"?

Well, since we all have a plan. We should of had a play in motion, as well. Because there are two types of people in this life. And everyone us will be forced to make a move; backwards, forwards or stance in a nuetral position of a giver and taker.

Who next will make a play not short of playing; mind games, observers, and  participants on a board or in a line of to move on chess/checkers if not fighting a war in the battle fields. Where the oppositions/trials  will challenge all people; right now.  

 

Time Out

Today marks a turn in history; a turn that cannot be diverted. Regardless of  class, social status or race.

If we make a change will it matter; today?

If we turn out in numbers; will it finally add up to what we have done for generations?

If we decide to make a point; will it be respected, acknowledge or rejected?

If we stand up for what is right; will we support the reasoning to finding the logic? And then reverse back to wrong doings?

If everyone was treated fairly; according to fico and credit scores, scholar accomplishments are social class associations. Would it make us feel fuzzy inside because we can now keep up with our neighbors and the Jones's?   

If one more child or human being has to die because of gun violence; will it stop the sales and commissions? Or domestic violence; would it enhance your profile or click on a platform where love is searched for? 

If the world ended in chaos today; will life be affected by our human behaviors?

If the jails and the system could not hold another body in capacity; would it stop the manipulation to bank on another bail bonded case?

If there was not one more person that another person could; manipulate, lie too, steal from and hate. Could we go sit down somewhere; and finally give ourselves a well needed break?

If today was promised to turn out like yesterday; would we waste another moment trying to survive one another. Or would we pack up our bags and ravish through the personal baggage we ourselves have been collecting, And carrying around for ages if not generations?

In Memory of Time. Not all of humanity intended to lose it. 

Prayers to my grandchildren in your absence your father is watching over you from heaven. Family and friends and released acquaintances; make amends. Because Time is running low on patience, and not allowing anyone to repeat the redundant choices we keep making.