Anarchy

In Respect of Black History Month/American History 

The word is out; we are not at war until we figure out the war began in our selves in the mischievous behavior throughout the world we are now in the presence of questioning. The world is a beautiful gallant space; so how did humanity smother its grace.

So what is all that we see is the ugly. While the Good Samaritans are showing compassion for every physical body of all races of men. Hunger, famine and pain. Are for generations did we not compute the math for what was brewing over those white table clothes from 1 generation to the next; while we were so busy with ourselves.. Truth hurts but so does a lie. 

Anarchy a creepy way to use this term; is to describe it on social media pages or by yelling to the top of our lungs; the dying will continue in murdered numbers if not famine, disease and global hunger. But what about the living. We stop living once we give up to hope if not work in faith to change the behavior that continues in killing our focus around the globe. 

Negativity is part of the distraction, snitching went out the window over generations; people tired of burying their families through Go Fund Me pages and still dying for trying to remain silent; for the next murder plot to occur. As all walk by one another in knowing who either called it or done it.

Negativity; is drama plotted or brewing in ones self or group of boxed in minded thinking to destroy or spite a people or person for what; a baby daddy who took responsibility for a man who comes as he please, a working woman who chose to try a different approach to save the sanity of her kids, a family who decided together we are the force in unity against the evil that's plans in dividing us. A young man or woman who made a decision to stand change their situations, and walk away so they can "Breathe", and not be murdered by his own neighbor, brother or sister if not by police brutality. And the denied perception is "this never happens in our neighborhoods", wake up its animalistic behavior. These are life issues humanity is stuck on. While in the White House the debates are growing strong. 

Negativity is master mind a way to dismantle all the churches; but allow legal access to the drugs, guns and jails for more chaos and hell. Because not all believe in God, until Satan has used the ones for pawns. 

Positivity is again; we know the better around our differences.                                                                In memory of Dominique White Jul. 23-1991-Jan. 15, 2020

In Memory of MLK.

Mocha

 

To the young at heart, elders in mind, body, spirit and our gentlest feet of all children. Grab this cup of Java on me. A therapeutic cup filled with love to congregate in a space for one moment to escape; our real life reality. 

Now let's proceed to day dream in a mental space where we already physically fantasize in of every click, text, voice or physical message. Unless our choices have limited our resources or maybe our mobility to find some space to find rest. But before we intertwine in this gigantic world of twisted pain. Let's gets re-acquainted with ourselves if not one another. To digest the events that are taken place in the world that is contagious with laughter; and of course the COVID-19 virus. 

We yearn to touch one another in places we are faced with burdens and places we have learned to heal. Where the names or fading in our memories and time is evaporating everyday; reflecting in our old and young face. Where there use to be smiles is not contagious laughter, for snares and glares in the distance of our own created spaces and uncertainties awaiting. 

What happened to that plan to reach that goal, business proposal, health concern was no more, life experience that changed our visions and mission. And new ideas that would change the way we living. Because everyday has a new test, regardless if we are prepared or not studied for it. We still will face questions that remained un answered resurfaced in demands of what will be our attention today; in every move we make or position we place stake in. 

Failures are part of the process, Victory is endless for the requirement is dedication. So the question is what will overflow our cups today" Before life has no more ingredients to fill our Java cups back up again? In a space of our individual freewill to think for ourselves, move in our own motions, and figure out what my purpose is to change the world I want to see myself live in.

Half of our lives we live trying to figure out; what is it & who we have obligated ourselves too; and the other half we process the answers to our own questions that require a daily cup of human patience. So by the end of this final sip may you, I are them can finally resonate in a positive space in how good was that cup of Java I slowly sipped in peace. To for a moment rediscover in myself. It only took me to take an account in figuring out my own purpose in life. And if I did not figure it out right this moment. One thing I accomplished was a "treasurable moment to myself".

Enjoy Your Life Responsibly not with regrets of wasting another moment!

Holy Bible II

 

I do not represent myself or my writings to imply that I am the Anti-Christ. And neither am I near being perfected in this life. So when people say the bible is not written accurately and religion is something people would like to believe. What do they really mean? Are does the bible not accommodate the way some of us in humanity chose to live in our flesh; of reckless choices, shame and mistakes? And if so, then how can man judge who is doing right are doing wrong. And God is not capable of appointing man to write scripture so that we may earn more of God's grace and mercy.  

Daily I work on suppressing my flesh and quenching that enraged thirst through meditating on Ephesians 3, for better understanding of God’s “Holy Word”, but not leaning to my own understanding. Because of what I have experienced and seen in this life verses the doctrine written for humanity will keep you in a state of frustration, hope and anxiety. If you chose not to believe there is a higher GOD over man on earth; who demonstrates works of iniquity.

So when the Holy Bible is judged blaspheme by any nation or race of man. To express our idol actions instead of spending more energy in doing Ephesians 6. Then how is God at fault for simply appointing man to write and deliver the doctrine from a higher level of divine wisdom in order so that we “humanity” can find salvation not under human coercion. Therefore I expect to be stretched, tried in the fire and tempted with the desires more than many ways in this life. So expect when you choose to use your own mind; there will be more oppositions & consequences. That will challenge my, your and their faith in God. In whom I pray and trust. My first love the only creator in Genesis I. Whom placed a word in Timothy because it read clearly of what is ahead of our exhausted thinking once humanity grew weary on this journey.

One day humanity would fall into Ephesians 2, a dark place where the good in faith and bad turned to or against “doctrine” for clarity. And in time children will speak wisdom to the weary, prideful and weak. As they watch man demonstrate their good, evil and bad deeds. So in closing what does mercy and grace, salvation and the gospel mean to me; GOD saw ahead and appointed man to write a plan so that all nations would repent and not sin again, in his or her own flesh of Sodom and Gomorrah. And to for warn us for the remainder of the Days of Our Lives those days will be filled with test over time.    

I can relate to how being hopeless feels but faith reminded me; God knows the plans for me, him, and all  in Jeremiah 29:11. And the places I, he or them once went no longer possess any interest.

In Proverbs the tongue is like a double edge sword and I forgave, he forgave, you forgave even if she or him  did not accept the God in it. Choices must be made whether are not humanity is quick to forgive than they are to continue to work in arrogance and slower to accept one another’s apologetic works. In a world of good & bad behaviors. Where murderers continue to exist from Psalms 10:8; lurking in the world we live in today. 

I can also relate to burning in the flesh and how quick people will take advantage of it. I see many Rebekah's in our mothers, aunts, grandmothers and daughters. So you much possess tough skin. Once you have identified with how we all work in our flesh; of destroying our own generations. And in the story of Genesis 19 Lot a father chose his daughter because of her deceit to make the father believe. And in all nations there still exist men with no coercion of lust after their own flesh. As men & woman gnash teeth in the generational curse we refuse to believe in of what we collectively see.   

I do not write my own doctrine when it comes to sharing with humanity; these are real stories of all nations of men doing good and bad deeds. I do not assume any person will be judged last because collectively in Isaiah 41:4  Alpha is God first until God is completed the Omega roll in the ending. Therefore I refuse to say who is more likely to see HEAVEN or suffer to ROT in  HELL, the one who tongues speaks it may already be living it. I do not judge another religious choices. I do believe in being equally yoked, for a non believer will lead you down a path you will question your own God. I know that all sin is what someone believes theirs is. I have seen the righteous forsaken by man not by God; and out of the blue at the hands of The Good Samaritan. I have witnessed the evil in all of man; I have to ask daily to be forgiven of my thoughts for them. I do believe and respect marriage to be sacred; although their have been actions that require all of humanities forgiveness and respect where God granted the permission. However in the reading of Proverbs: 18, the reality is humanity still sins.

I do believe there is good teachings and false doctrine around the world even in our relationships. I do believe in  marriage before kids. However, I was once a baby momma because in my flesh I made a decision that came with many sacrifices to put God first and follow in the footprints of Ephesians 4:14

So the question has been asked; where do I stand in my religion? Am I "IFB" or Southern Baptist,  Cult, Pentecostal, Catholic or non- denomination. And if you're not prepared for these questions are believe in something. There is someone listening closely & watching to say "how is your mental and physical health". Death taught me this after my son to grieve does not require human permission, date of completion or supervision. However walk with God through it. And continue to pray daily over your own state of mind & physical condition and watch the Devil flee from his original intention. Why, because any human being may not be of God who remains watching. So again, I will say “I am believer” born into sin and saved by grace & mercy. I also identity with how Satan is deceitful in different faces & places. So yes, I do believe in the gospel written through man of Holy Doctrine for God in showing up a path to Life's Direction; just look at the world in which we live in today; with much human perception lacking no direction.  

As a child my mother always said read the small PRINT. The most important information is not always BIG. The same wisdom I shared with my son and gc. 

All books hold text. People wear multiple hats, and the power of the tongue is like a double edge sword.  But the reality is the Holy Bible predicted how humanity would contribute to a reality of prophecy currently revealed. 

Live your life; and be humbled. 

Farewell 2020

 The time is quickly approaching to speak our farewells; for a new year of resolutions and goals to set for our personal achievements.

We could complain about this year of misfortunes. But ill be first; to share God's grace and mercy.

We witnessed over 300k affected by the Covid-19. We whaled for our love ones & small children & family members to homicides, police brutality, suicides & gun violence if not cases overloaded at all CPS offices. If we change our behaviors then our children or not exposed in this world of human immortality; human trafficking, incest, rape, and victims of all types of domestic violence.

We witnessed millions of lines at foodbanks, we watched as many receive pink slips. We debated police brutality, we sat on edge as leadership debated how much humanity should receive in financial support; to feed their families. We watched our neighbors get evicted over all seasons. 

We mourn for Church doors to reopen while other groups plotted to bomb if not burn them. As clubs allured public attention the FDA approved certain quantities of drugs as meth, cocaine and weed a solution to medically heal the sick. As crime increases across the world.

2021; may children be reunited with their blood lines, humanities effort to communicate is resolved. So no one else has to die. Community & Police involvement about their own environments so no else has to go fund me page; another child or family because of the oppression. And behavior we entertain by disputing our own in accountability. Education funded equally across the demographic lines, and infrastructure not limited to strip malls & the lowest of hourly pay in areas of low income, and lack of resources to educate those who initiate themselves to heal. Welfare programs to broaden races on poverty and the overall impact if the recipients are capable physically; to mentally make a change to help their own families. Farmers provided millions to feed the world again. Doors open to give people a second chance. Drug addictions is casting demons out of children; who will save them if the Families refuse to breaking the generational curses if no one addresses we got some problems; public information is our warnings. Poverty revisited so everyone is accountable for their inputs and laws & resources reallocated. The Criminal Justice System realigned & more accountability behind those closed doors & titles. Credit & loans educated & more approvals for colored people. In a War humanity created, of many wars we fight in our own minds.

Its a long shot; but now that we all know better. What can change from 401 of years of aggression, famine, heartache and pain for a peace of mind?

2021 Tweekers

Money smart. Most common thinkers say if you don't have money "I don't have anything". Not necessarily a true statement. To yourself you should feel that you're a valuable person. If not presenting yourself as a walking corporation.

In this complex time of distressed situations, and lack in finances. People are dependent on one another; where some people were accustomed to being independent. And I know its a hard pill to swallow. But there comes a time you must go incognito. 

If you want some money; come up with a leprechaun conversation & flash light mentality. But if you want success in abundance; be prepared to sacrifice, label the level of what your success is based on. And keep your plan limited to sharing. Why, because titles distract our attention. So more than often we do get caught up in the attraction if not gaining the validation. In being who we already are in our own success. 

Once you are at a level of stability to share in increments if any of your own wealth; be mindful of the external insecurities surfacing around you. Why, because some people don't take an eye lid of time to invest in their own plans; for trying to figure out the ingredients to your sacrifices and finances.

The biggest mistake you can make. Is not believing in yourself. And before you become "A Boss or Big Fish", sometimes it is required some people learn to maintain staying on a job. That structures skillsets, conversation & character. However, some people are straight beast; mentally. And I can relate jobs are scarce right now. But to lack in any type of development around knowledge and education to grow; is not an excuse or anybody else's responsibility for the hardships you will endure. Kids are not the makeup to all poverty. Evaluate if the adults are making obligations if not conformed to a mindset of Ill leverage the taking of less; while waiting to see who is going to invest in my plan.

The biggest statement u can make; is in your confidence by mastering a hustle that real people respect. Just as I did at a young age 14yrs, mistakes increased my motivation while watching successful people including my mom who attempted to work out in their own business plans. In reality it was overwhelming and mind consuming to watch. Oh, I forgot don't get caught up in the constructive criticism or another persons stuff. Success is based of your own losses & gains, diligence and loyalty in it.

Rich is a state of being, poverty is deceitful. The condition itself is the algorithm that leverages around knowledge and self-esteem to limit the impoverished lack-and with no ill malice; in every race of man we saw what, who and how slavery dismantled the black people. Around this same algorithm where all people of colors are now sharing the same oppression of suffering in economics, lack in funding of education and rapid spread of depression. In a Covid-19 era even today we refuse to stop splitting the behavior & expressing hating one another, if not counseling in our discussions of how to survive in our own colored situations. As humanity hopes of receiving those stimulus checks before all hell is loosened on earth. 

Choose your audience  cautiously now that we are all the Consumers to one another; regardless of status, accolades & color. Time & Change is destined to out weigh the demand. As humanities basic needs remain the same.  Rationalize in your minds to mentally find rest; and prioritize your first order of business; in accountability for the choices you can control no matter what type of business you are conducting in your own homes. There is a lack of financial planning of investing in all families. One is life insurance policies. Second, delegate a responsible party or person. Then watch who will remain determined.

If can look back tomorrow; and see the same people complaining, plotting, debating or procrastinating. Then u might need to determine your position in this audience; including family. Because every household has its own obligations, perception & ideas of what unity is. That will determine in our familia's if we survive hard times or die in mental division. Therefore no one can take what they lack from themselves to share in another persons house of "I'm grown", but the lack & limited motivation in development to plan; is not adding up to making logical sense.

However, in the event u have  failed the first time or two in business, or an illness and even job loss or pay reductions because that Business owners or Corporation if not LLC market is scarce. Evaluate what u possess, downsize, consolidate & keep it moving around your capability to stay afloat. Then re-evaluate whos in on idle in the audience around u. Could be time & people have changed their wants & needs. Check your "packaging" it may be in your presentation of how you are advertising, and communicating. So in the event this generation does not succeed in breaking the generational cycle. In humanity many people will continue in wandering, a few people will ponder, and the remainder of people will take accountability in accepting the change they could of, should or made.

Love my son's motto: fear is your greatest enemy. And lack was not optional. Because I was raised to know the Power in prayer, know truth, love myself. So my life was taken, because Life is to be embraced. So don't be apologetic in living it to the fullest. One day we will be judged for breaking the generational curse; of the mental poverty in mindsets. 

Negative People

 In a world of chaos & opportunity; change is inevitable and negative people always seek a platform to be heard or seen.

We are not perfect people. It was not a flaw in Gods plan. However Satan's work is crafty. In how Satan works through all in humanity.

For generations, we have observed the dysfunctions in our people and within ourselves. And yet we cant deny the negativity that rolls off our tongues. No matter what race or status we hold..

Positivity is seen as a weakness the perception is. Where negativity is spoken to establish a strength. In two types of people in this world.

If you notice the weakest person in the room is the person shouting, yelling and drawing negative attention to themselves. 

We lose good people everyday, we destroy a relationship with committed people in everyway. But yet we cant look in the mirror and judge our own behavior.

Make some sense of life today; the possibility is although the positive exist. Someone negative is destined to ruin it.

God bless all, and children who lack this season, and those who suffer for no damn reason.              

1991-2020 In memory of Dominique White www.gunviolence.org 

Money

The more we have; the less we need. The less we have; the more we need. There are rules to the math, now even more rules to oblige in the science. 

Money a light weight printed piece of paper and no checking account across the world can hold it. Or keep it safe. In a critical moment of history if this bill is not signed by next week; what will occur if we cannot agree on humanity.

Welfare; a digital system compacted of numbers and names. Demographics of were poverty is most stricken. 

My point is this; food is critical. Without it "angered people" is the least of the world's worries. 

Welfare; without this supplemental support "a catastrophe", awaiting is the least any human is prepared for in war. 

Criminal Justice System; although it contradicts the checks of balances. Without this separation in between good and bad in humanity "controlling the social environment is a detrimental move in contribution", to what will happen if this system is not re-assembled.  

Medicare/Healthcare; we better get some answers to how this is going to make sense. Sickness ranges in all ages. Where the body and mind was not created to endure; this multitude of pressure over time we have put them both through.

Education; parenting and society is drawing attention. And funding was not always allocated before the Pandemic. Now we face in our own home personal issues. In the past generation education was crucial. And if we were to stop growing mentally, think of what is waiting for the children and who will lead. At this point some of us think we know everything. 

Debt; the poor man has to survive, until they are caught. The rich man has to live, until they are made aware of survival is not prejudice or neither does money discriminate in who holds it weight . Suffering has no date or time, and its nots always money that demonstrates the behaviors behind it. Look around the world every human being is talking about the same drama, now that is affecting all of us. 

Paper & Pen; sit down and figure out the math. What has two legs and organs. And how much is accessible for you to manage control of those legs and organs. If the math no longer adds up. It's time to make several choices to be safe, the only option left to do; is what I also can relate to. Is trusting in the process and watching who is next. 

The reason we share little or pertinent information of those 600 pages; is so that we don't destroy one another to eat. For our investment in history we have collectively created of a BEAST. 

One day I'm going to get me some money. The song writer wrote. However, how to hold onto it was part of the process we all will join.

Snapped

If you have noticed the air is thick. People are running around if not into one another for last minute gifts.

Once in a while you can see a sigh of relief with snares, if not the glazed eyes and 40 pounds of decompressed nasal air. In another year of repeat in history. We invest of ourselves waiting for the returns on Jan 1st.

However, we choose our temperature for the ending of this year is approaching. We either left somethings undone, someone or ourselves cold or hot. Due to the challenges this year has brought. No matter what our plans were forecasted to do.  Life seems to adjust the dial causing compounded confusion in the world. If not the overload of anxiety because the brain stop receiving any new information.

As we walk away from 2020 into a new year of different journey's.  We can either choose to look back and trip over our  own footprint of decisions or some one else's frustrations. Or we can choose to keep it moving, accepting or scramble with what did not break us, only prepared us for another new year.

Something old, something new. Its about time to Clean out that old baggage to make room, to receive whatever is new that tomorrow is going to bring for me & you.

LOVE

 

At this point it's to late to argue; race. 

Any man can fight it, and any type of woman can dismiss she needs it. But at the end of the day it does not matter whose heart it is. Every heart desires a human touch on the outside of that hard shield we cover up in.  

Life has emptied out our cups, but we know in our truths for every argument we later laughed about, for every social media click, or cell phone text. Behind it there is a cup that remains unfilled. And human need wide open to be cuddled, appreciated, body held if not loved.

Now that we’ve established the understanding of who denies love; let’s dive into what we can establish together of figuring out what we both need.

We need one another to figure out our understandings.

We need each other, to figure out who really has our backs; when the rubber meets the road. No matter what color we cohabitate in.   

I need, you need, we both need to know; where one is weaker I’ll be your strength.

We need to know that we’re all in those good & bad times. And the day I leave you won't forget our love. But mature and be strong for what we together conquered of storms & learned about ourselves, before we place one more feeling of entitlement. On our children if not another man or woman.

We need to know in hard times, I am confident in my ability to work for more than bread. So we never fight over crumbs that will end this love. 

Our shoes will be hard to fill. For some reason love leaves people angry, lonely, spiteful and abandoned instead of peaceful & confident.

But if they appreciated what love lessons taught them, and even by watching us. They could of  appreciated Life moves on, and people make final choices. And for every cup that is empty there is the next Someone; who is waiting to sip slooowly from it.

Thank you mama for watching over me, listening carefully, loving my kids, walking with me in those darkest days, and teaching me what is a priority in my own life. I made promises before I left. I know you will end this story on the right melody for me. You always knew "WHY" our feet will stumble over rocks & stones. And I listened & learned how to love me first.  Transforming into being my own man, with my children at my end. In a world we've given up on one another. Bartered with limited time, exhausted excessive energy to not change ourselves. While attempting to change each other. 

The reality is so many made empty promises to each other. I kept my faith. And watched closely to who sustained loyalty, served our community & lead in our history. But lacked in our own human performances, and patience. Then expected; higher expectations in return. Because of our minimum effort to communicate & first understand more about ourselves. To be open in learning more about each other.

 In memory of your son 1991-2020, 

www.gunmemorial.org 

Cursing A Generation

Young ladies; it’s not how you turn it up. It’s what you use to lock him down.

Young men; it’s not how deep you can go. It is what the man demonstrates without being repeatedly; told.

Older woman; it’s what we expose to the young ladies. That they expose to the young men who are choosing them, if not she choosing him.

Older men; it’s what you are saying and demonstrating in the presence of these young boys. Who are emulating the older men and 3  things can  happen with a weak influence; these young boys will find a father in one another, or they be daddy’s at younger ages. If not attempting to figure out the crises of what their minds are bodies are experiencing.

Who said a woman can’t raise a man; I raised my son to respect with integrity, knowledge & wisdom. And his daddy taught him not to be confused, about himself. His children taught him how to love and come home at night. His aunts & uncles showed him how to have heart. And granny taught him always; pray. And  papa showed him how a man operates. Then life led him on his own journey.

See we get confused about the texture of our skins, our material accomplishments. And who can go down for their own dramatic situations. When the reality is this life was not that complicated; as we in humanity created of  the generational curses in every;  

Trial it corrected a man, or woman and child of color.

In every relationship or engagement with a woman or man playing mind games; it reminded him why he wears or not wears the pants. It showed her how much she either or not brings to the table.

Betrayal teaches him; not to sleep on the enemy. And accountability earned him the respect at all levels and classes of the masses. In a world we collectively survive one another in. And all these things taught her what to value in this man. And in the event either was not taught over time. This is why the curse has to be broken down the blood line.

FB/Social media chats, exposed the followers and leaders on every chat; we discuss & expose our issues and personal achievements. If not share relevant or tasteless information. And more than a half of times these are not even the people; with any positive influential intentions..

In the End, Time revealed all the racism & hate in all ages; exposed men and woman who were the creation of Adam & Eve. Could not hold it together until they respect if not appreciate one another. Is when the generational cycles; can be broken.

In Memory of Dominique White, 1991-2020                                                                                                                                          I am one man who can attest; I was blessed to bare good fruit from my mother's womb into my family's bloodline. And for my legacy they are covered with a hedge of protection. No matter the generational curses that remain to be broken.   

When will families figure out we got to work openly minded in unity. Because today we are out of time to continue in judgement of other races & people. Until we ourselves have judged our own.

                                                                   Covid-19, paused us. Not ended us. Until we shut one another down.

HollyJolly

Happy Holiday's. And although I am in heaven today, or just waiting for confirmation on the sizing of my wings.

I wanted you all to know while in those trenches are for those people who are the givers and those people waiting to take.

This is a season to celebrate & share the give of life; for a birth that was called by permission. That we may have life, and after his death we may have a second chance. And no one is asking you to believe or follow anyone. Freewill is a choice to finding peace on earth.

So, every week over the years my family and I chose to clean out our closets. Because this family knew the benefits behind the gift of giving. And by looking for a reason to give. And sometimes you will hear the sighs I really don't have too much to share this week. But the reality is on that day we did not know what would be supplied in our situation or hardship of a need. But due to the investment of giving we had already sown the seed; so there would be the blessing in what we did not have left in your closets that week. Now apply this login to your situations.

If you know a giver and you are always the receiver of any kind of gifting including an encouragement in words; you can recognize the blessings on these type of people who work with the intention to give. Even if you don't care for them, they are in need or working to obtain your validation. Because God knew in his master plan who on earth would be the givers and takers. And for the record a giver does not always say "yes", remember they had to work. But this person can always find something at God's timing to share or give.

If you are a scrooge, a person of entitlement. Then you should understand the struggles you circle; back in. And money is not always the stem of the problems.

If we check out attitudes and feelings of entitlement. We can discover we are only allowed to give & receive according to God's timing. No matter how much we think we have accomplished with or without God on our own.

Covid-19, proved it can be shut down. For every season there is a purpose under heaven. And we ask this vaccination is granted permission; to give back if we had not ruin our second chances. Also, you don't have to believer of God to experience life and the challenges we collectively face.

Eccl. 3:1-8