Backward Logic

 An example of it. You see an item on sale, purchase the 1 item then you also pick up a jacket & purse. The backward thinking in logic is you have made a smart financial decision. Because you saved a couple of dollars. But the reality is; you needed to save that couple of dollars you just spent to pay the past due on; property taxes, rent, carnote, insurance, food are maybe daycare. 

It does not matter what the scenario is; either we have an abundance in one moment; to justify a behavior in the next. And form the resolution that is somethings outstanding of an immediate need. We still lack of having. 

Ex. 2 stimulus checks. Who does not need a boost in money for the next 2 to 3 years? In the uncertainties of time a job loss are death. Even a snag in the economy could set any of us back. But yet in our backward logic; some if not a few will justify taking that overdue vacation or purchasing clothes to been seen in a Pandemic. Where no one is interested. Of another person's obligations to have taken an opportunity to change their own personal backward logic in personal choices.

Ex. 3. A person who is the breadwinner always giving more are lesser than they have to spare. But always have enough to let another borrower or just treat themselves. Well, somehow in this backward logic of thinking people who have decided how to  burn a bridge they can never cross again. Are maybe the lord intervened in the insanity ways of human selfish thinking to decide a subtraction of a person are access, from the backward thinking will open up their eyes. Of you, them or us due to the reasoning in how & who continues to work a master minded plan w/o God being head. 

Congratulations Dez Prescott; to who much is given, must is expected. But Dez has proven to God; I have been faithful over a little. Now you have blessed me with more.

Haggai; reads about a story of holes in the pockets. Some people will consume more w less. And the less will consume more or more. And those who will consume backward logic will justify why God is punishing me. Or the poverty is the problem if not the focus is on them for leaning on a systematic poverty driven module. To justify what it looks as if some people don't care to do better. But the reality is the limitations are set for the change to in reality not occur. Or it is a fact in all people do resist a real struggle to change in themselves. However, the attitude remains in "I can always justify, why I do what I want to do", in my own mindset of backward logic.

The results are in. Keep doing what you want your way, and eventually; somethings or nothing will change. 

Mental Illness

For generations mental illness we know the truth in why it has nothing to do with race, gender are sex.

In today's society mental illness in Society it's Families and a Community issue. And the reason for that statement is this the mental health issues are going consistently or inconsistent in being managed, untreated, ignored or human Denial. 

The leadership attempts to try to gather the mentally ill off the streets is still not effectively working. 

The trained officers are not psychiatrist these officials are to  protect & serve, trained to shoot and apprehend criminal suspects. However, these people do have families. And the reason for this statement is; there are circumstances of the engagement in society we allow our mentally challenged family members to participate in violence, gang associations and improper supervision of finding appropriate housing, ensuring they continue to remain on their meds. And a responsible person if not people are coherent themselves to assist in the healthy progression of these family members, people are friends. If we are going to bridge this gap in mental illness its time we educate ourselves on the; medical history and even in the bloodlines of our own families.

My personal story in my family, I had this particular member who served time in prison.  While in prison mental illness was diagnosed. The problem is it was not the father's condition. However the diagnosis was schizophrenia. Once released from prison he had a trying time to adjusting back into society. And returning back to jail on multiple occasions to only be released from the CJS. Until his mother decided to find a shelter. Now even in housing he was granted to work previledges. However he was not always monitored by supervision of taking his meds. Eventually his mother took full custody of this adult with a mental  illness. Until the day she laid her child to rest.

My personal experience. I had a family member who went to prison for murder. Served his time. And shared his experience. If you are a follower in the world, you will serve the consequences of the sentence for your chosen decisions & behaviors. And even if your condition was a state of identitfied medical mental illness if not rebellious, are  psychopath behaviors in adolescents or adults take  accountability of yourself. Get you some professional help if not surround yourself; with positive thinking people & family that has your best interest. So you can address your own demons if not a proven psychiatric medical condition.

Its not embarrassing to admit; mental retardation, mental illness, schizophrenia, bipolarism, ADHD and post pardon depression can be a condition in ourselves or  family members; and even when we cohabitate in consecration of creating new born babies.

911 what's your emergency; lord we did not obey your commandments are grew weary in trusting in faith for grace and mercy, disobedience& in rebellions. So where do we go from here with shattered; human patience..

Black History

There is no argumentation in All knowing why Black People remain highlighted over generations. Generations of accomplished chiefs, kernals, commanders, kings and queens. The conversation of revolutionary leaderships & legacies.

On every news channel, around global conversation, panels and diversity in culture, at every platform of the masses and in almost every debated social injustices or inequalities meeting's or gatherings. The Black People of being in a state  human beings is the conversation in a world of their relevancy. 

Why, lets All look at 401 years of Black History. We can continue in another decade of debating accountability & responsibility. from 401 years of history, laws & regulations and policies. And the all due process granted if not used of leverage; towards a race to justify why the oppression is their counter obligation to heal themselves. Knowing it was created for them to fight twice as harder, speak only when spoken too are be frowned upon as confrontational, think faster than the support in education that is slowly driven. In a fast pace world of moving infrastructure, inequalities of equity during a shifting economy. Where freedoms is no longer a free privilege. But a challenge to stay indiscrete and live like any other race; in unity and find the normalcy.

The Royal Families

Matther 5:13

Welcome back in all things surrender unto God in doing well on a humpback day Wednesday!

"The passage reads we are the salt of the earth", so I ask the lord this morning for the renewing of my mind. As we stand in unity of prayer; for this generation of All to find peace in themselves. And its ok if you don't need any prayer are you swear there is no God. Some if not many will not miss out on a chance; to serve a God who continues to prove; revelation & revelance.

For decades, the woman in our family have this tradition. So did a son. We all either call with several members on the line. Or since the cell phone is like an ATM machine, the elders of my people now text more than the young. And the text messages we have to share is "expressions of dealing with trials, challenges of change, encouragement, pics  of our children; and prayer for the children we have lost in our bloodline. In prayer we express endless love for each other, and bond this family over zoom lately. A family in blood that belongs to angel "an extraordinary person". Did I mention this family has seen God's grace & mercy in both the good & bad. My seeds, our bloodline is blessed to have village's of family. And an abundant of cousins. For many of them are still living. 

When God created man, God created his family. And if you establish respect for the family. There is nothing the family cannot accomplish in UNITY. 

In the days we are living in of Royalty I watched Meghan & Harry in unity. Decide on  making the biggest decision in the presence of a judemental world of people; as these two came into a final agreement to stand firm together. As the Royal family watched so did the world of people judge in silence. Maybe many gathered their synopsis based on the history of Diana's tragedy, and left of her legacy two sons now men who a title of honor. Which became the topic that would always follow this Royal family. Her boys did not forget their mother even when they had a living father. I noticed Harry bestowed in his demeanor of what he possessed in a strong sense of loyalty for his mother Diana. And now that loyalty has nurtuted with his own wife Meghan who has bared his Royalty of their children. 

Time will shift gears, and families will always be in existance of our human being. Alive or Dead. Differences are Agreements. Its life that challenges our change are to respect one another in our own decisions to change our positions. And it is the spirit that eternally commands by God; we live in unity & acknowledge peace. As in the days of Lazarus. Who was at peace until his family mourned for God to raise him back from the dead.

In Christ Jesus. We can find refuge. But remember trials will be part of the process. For no man can enter into the kingdom, until we meet with Christ, first. Is where the family has eternal life. As we live as  families in unity here on earth.

Prayer is required, Religion is optional, Finding Peace your accountable for yourself, Change is relevant & decison making in choices is your own free will to make. And If God is available 24-7, in the word God commanded we are the salt of the earth; then why is man allowed to remove that salt out of our mouth?

One day a voice rang; as we were laboring in our fields. Some fields grew plenty of harvest on the land, some barred dry land in several seasons; trying to increase their harvest they work in slumber, some drunken in their own spirits. And finally One day came. There were 2 standing on a roof & in a field. Then 1 in mystery disappeared. As this process domino effect occured all over the world. 

Basic Resourses

Galatians 6:9

The American Rescue Plan; and how woman play a significant role; in being the glue that keeps families together. 

In a pandemic life; after a distressful work day. Every physical body in a shared space. Diligently seeks comfort in relying on that house or around people in civilization to feel normal. But the  availability of what was a commodity to just freely breathe. Has turned into a vital basic need.

In a Survivors life of violence,  housing and food assistance recipients, children facing mental abuse. And entire families that are still facing disparities over clean running water. While our neighbors across those borders are running over her & there for cover. With their own families & children. As those among the world; exist in criminals. Are not being denied of crossing; those bordered lines. 

There are so many issue's to resolve from housing economics to nations of humans. In unity reflects an entire World; divided. In a time that humanity only has. To figuring out what is a priority in being 1st, 2nd if not last.

Where distress causes suffering, famine and death; disparity wears many faces behind a mask. 

Keep these children & elders in your prayers. While the busy bodies are too busy; in repeating busy steps. Unfortunately we live in an argumentative society; where a few people cant be told anything, and a mass of people know everrrrything..

Corporate

Who could of sung the truth in this Anthem; any better. 

Since the age of 18. I have successfully worked in Corporate America, as a young African American woman.

I took every opportunity to learn our customers. Educate myself on the business. And comfortable in wearing my own natural skin. I figured out how to survive in Corporate America. I walked in the doors as a student. Until these doors relocated, but I chose not to relocate. Why, I had a son. And to ensure he remained my priority in my entire physical world. I needed to ensure he could handle himself in a diverse shuffle of economics. Even if we started in these trenches. One day came where all our Children will need to be equipped to understood before you take a leap of faith. Establish who you are & what you are capable to educate yourself in of product & demand. Because in the real world you will be challenged; but stand firm. You will be greeted; so be firm when extending your hand. You will be questioned; stay up on your knowledge. You will be pushed on purpose; stay silent. And at the end of the day. Store those mental notes in a safe place.

Just for the record, even if you are not alway's rewarded according to your works of  performance above expectations. Do not be dismayed when people attempt to out think you. The pay is invested of your contributions to the successes of those returning customers & new customers. Or you're ignored for those rewards that could of at least; been supported. Are acknowledged of your loyalty, skills and talents. Remember educating the consumer will always return back a customer of loyalty. So what is your plan B,C & D. So one day when you venture out into this cluster of a mustered world .Those little mo-hills won't amount to the possibilities. But real time opportunities. In which u worked of mastering in yourself. To creating your mental wealth. So what do I mean by mental wealth. No matter what you choose to birth of wealth, it will not be science to figure out. Because you have mastered identifying the wealth in yourself. Of a mastermind who has served a diverse class of customers.

In my career, ESPN was one of my greatest achievement stories. I was abroad of all the masses mostly in the entertainment of sports. I was employed for 7 years, and most importantly I was this young determined African American woman. Who sat with honor at the front desk. Respected of a brand in succeeding being the face of a massive worldwide establishment, ESPN.

There is nothing we are incapable of doing. For someone else to appreciate us in doing outstanding works. So how can you question if I am not qualified or supposed to lead if not fall behind. For leadership is not a fit for everyone. Are just because that did not happen this time. And where will the funding come from. Remember what you invested in of someone else. And how did you educate that returning customer; to seek your face?

In memory of my son who did not give up, Dominique Devon White my greatest LOVE, paid it forward. And in his community we can look at again; of the seeds planted prior to him. And at least 1 seed he planted in them. To Never Give Up on you, but always take a leap of FAITH!

Monogamous

If you are serious about finding a person to share your life with. Be smart, listen closely to what is being said; in a millisecond to twirl your head. And then be even more patient in your options.

People play mind games; and even when they devour and conquer some men or woman will keep it moving. And that's ok for a person with higher than lower self-esteem..

My story, so once my son passed away. People assume they were as smart about me having a relationship. Than I was of more vested in wrapping my mind around this ignorance. I love me, first. Therefore I'm focused on my heart and his children. See how we lose with people in the living. Why, some people dont have a longterm plan. In reality the lord required I return his body back on this date and time in his life. My son had plans with his children. It did not mean after his demise those plans for them also died. Are neither was his mother broken to be a vulnerable weak person..

One thing you have the authority over in this life; is how you protect yourself and show accountability in every move that has to be made. In the process of life, everyone is preying are waiting to be next. Through this entire process because of his murder. I lost alot of respect for people that played themselves; on preying on what they thought was a weakness.

See when you take time with God, and work on those issues in yourself. You can identify with how much you can deal with. And what is not going to be settled for; no matter what angle the conversation is aiming for. Not every single person is suffering for another  woman or man. Maybe those people are the ones seeking for something or person they are missing for themselves.

Yes, we all need someone. But I will avoid unnecessary hell and discomfort just to settle. Where everyone has to live with their own decisions. Maybe its not that serious. To always spend time looking.

Married people face enough of their own problems, single people fight each other; to stay or separate from 1 another. And when people ask are you lonely. Your response should be how much time have or how long have you invested of working on yourself; before not saying you are prepared to being responsible for someone else.

Grown people make decisions, needy people wait for attention, lonely people make questionable decisions, horny people do whatever. But a person that respects their own self, struggles and change; not waiting around for anyone to warm their beds. When the time is right, that person is humbled by life. It will be that person who will fall in line at the right time; all things will come together. And you will not ponder and question if this person will show up, are if I have to wonder if they have our backs..

I taught my son; love yourself first, marriage is not just making babies, and being a man too other peoples issues. And rescuing them from abandonment of another person's obligations. Check your confidence level then evaluate if the love you feel in your heart will stand the test of time for another person; who may struggle with loving themselves, second

SPARTA

One Day I ask my son, Dominique to share with me his intake of this movie. He said these are real Warriors in real Battles. And neither are afraid to die, for the next man standing up beside of a Warrior, is the next Warrior prepared to fight if not die. To protect his own brother and the mission to save their own people. After, his demise. I still watch "300" with a new focus.  

What happened to warriors, the finest of courageous men and the woman that stood with honor with them. As they went to battle. This generation sold out the gun shops. Until the owners could not keep up with rising demands. As ammunition is flying of the shelves all over the world. That even a blind person has his or her own gun. Although he or she may not be able to see what’s coming; it is those paired set of ears that can hear the ricochet of bullets. As innocent children play outside if not seated inside of a car. Silence is broken. Then loud cries weep, as men, children and woman of all races of people run for their lives. Or hide behind fragile bolted nailed doors, broken blinds or no blinds at all. We see people march in neighborhoods as the property owners reveal their right to carry in their front yards. How, do we not see why Peace continues to be compromised. 

In other countries the smallest of children are trained to carry a gun, shoot and kill. In the US, children are trained to hunt. And hunters are trained to do what comes; naturally.

For myself, I will not act out in a negligent manner to violate another persons privacy in any capacity of space. Are neither will I catch or throw any daggers; however we are faced with a full situation. Around this 2^nd amendment right. And who has the guns demonstrating they are either preparing for other missions. If not carrying out their own personal intentions. Guns do not kill people, guns have no hands, they do not carry a tone to debate who the next owner will be. Or neither does a gun possess a human conscious. However, when a gun is in the possession of hands that are neglectful, because of the motive and intention used with it to threaten another person’s life. Bullets begin to ricochet. Leaving a state of fear, panic, chaos and fear.

One day, the 2^nd amendment was written, and the gun license to carry became an honor to wear as a shield of I can now legally protect myself. Within the reasonable scope of the law. And just by chance a mistake is made they also offer the legal gun holder insurance. As the shooting ranges are packed at full capacity. I myself attended and was totally amazed to watch of whose packing what. Legally with a strong focus. While others are playing in the streets roll up on em, as they all die deep. Did the 2^nd amendment include what is going to happen in the event the use of guns are not in line with 2^nd amendments right. Because humanity started a 3^rd world war zone, in our own country. That is rising with; no barriers held.  

If we are going to salvage time humanity; put down the gun's. So we can all feast, hunt, eat and breathe. Into a new generation.

Urgent Care

The body is a functioning group of organs; and when one part of this body breaks down. The entire body communicates to the brain; a failure to launch. Because of an organ is not functioning properly.

Old school remedies are a beneficial; as our older generation taught us. For a fever attempt a cold bath. But if that fever does not break within the pain on that child’s are adult’s face; use common sense and seek a medical doctor. That has more experience where this old school remedy may not be working, at this moment.

We have heard females say “I have not had a pap smear in years, and even a male will admit I don’t go to the doctor”. So the question is how long do you think, you will be living here on earth? And how are you in a position to decide whether that child are elder if to another person is in dire need of medical help, can finally get it. When there are young/old mothers that have allowed a child’s ears to not be plugged; and for that this child either has progressed are remain with a speech impairment. And ADHD is not limited to African American people. ADHD is a condition in all races of children that could occur and sometimes not properly diagnosed at birth. So further education is needed. To understand misinformation. And how ADHD could exist in any race of child born in this world. As the information & testing ensures there is a platform of education and support. Because children will one day mature into grown Adults.

Obesity and depression a toxic combination. And maybe it’s a hereditary. You have several options to choose in managing the condition. And this disease is not a statistic limited to black people. Stress inflates blood pressure of all races of people, diabetes occur in all ages, and suffering a loss in death causes inflammation in the entire human body. As cohabitation without protection while engaging in sexual discretion. Is not limited by statistics; only in the African American & Hispanic communities it's broadcasted. Maybe it’s finding Affordable Health Care that will cover this request to testing for STD’s such as HPV, Aids & Herpes has silently progressed 

The reality is millions of people across the globe are living in either conditions; of lack. Lack of knowledge, poverty are even wealth. But not granted equality to access of improved medical specialist. In the event the diagnosis requires more healthcare coverage.

Options are available; but accountability starts across the entire Board, with equal access, education & All in communication 

 

911

With the mandate of mask lifted and business capacity to be allowable at 100%; be mindful & reasonable about the  knowledge you have in facts on the Coronavirus.

The sunshine is on its way. With a few clatter of showers on next weekend. Enjoy each moment of time; with all you love in peace of mind. And embrace  contentment around joy. 

I know that its hard to think positive in a negative time. But search in yourself a favorite place where you can; breathe. Your happiness belongs to you and believe it are not; the right people still care and love you. And we all can relate how people disappoint us, if not one another in this life.

The best fighter thats comes out is when the fight; is personal. How so, well Life is not filled with emotions. So how can life hurt us. Situations unravel a tremendous thread out of us; who are fed up with rules and stipulations and the real truth other people. But never oversight how how discipline and focus can save our own  lives; in troubled times.

Tonight a mother took her own life; but the children she attempted to take of their life; are still fighting. We pray for the familly. All pull through. No matter the race and reasoning to why life happened to them; on this night?

In my blogs I share real truth experiences. And statements and general opinions. And the reality is no matter our race and status; we still fight the demons in our lives. 

If today you rose up with life; give yourself another chance to enjoy your children if not the freedom you have. And for the children sake when life is to much to bare; take a second to place a call. Some one without hesitation is waiting to come. 

We dont all have to leave this life together; there is always someone who will come without reservation. And that old drama we carried is not that revelant to people like me, you, us or them. More than often its our EGOS that leaves us burdened. 

911, what is your emergency? Today life has taken its toll, and I feel alone. I've suffered so much pain. And my children don't look happy from my eyes. I just cant understand why someone has broken my heart, the bills are overwhelming and this Pandemic is enough. Around all of the people who are around me. I still feel so lonely. 

Caller, dont give up. You have a purpose. If you had not a purpose you would not have found  the strength to make this call; out of your courage you were built to fight, and not give up.

I Corinthians 15:58

Justice

Eccl 7:12

Before we start; any parent or family who has suffered loss. Thoroughly communicate when obtaining council. Are if advised trust the process. In every experience it is going to be life changing. And the In the event you are not communicated with during this process. Don't give up just do the research and ask questions. Now lets proceed foward to why problems exist. And chaos grows in the eyes of the public watching the  behaviors behind the CJS.

On Jan, 15 2020, 8:10am My sons life, was taken. As the 911 calls, overwhelmed the line. I reviewed on social media it took 20minutes to arrive on the crime scene. As EMT did respond credit was given on their behalf; they worked on my son to save his life.

In today's society every movement is caught on recordings. Communities of viewers glare. The concern intensifies in the air..

We respect that not all crime affects all of us. However, watch in the event your time is next in which you are, are maybe your loved one's is affected. Human compassion goes a mile in an uncertain world. Below r above the border lines; of every country, border city and society. Even on social media platforms & main media news coverages of where and why crime is escalating in cases around the world.

Now lets be educated in why; society reacts  are not to crimes. The use of drugs, domestic violence & homicides. There is not always going to be real answer's. However, the date and time we become uncomfortable around each other is the date and time we will fight to safeguard our preservation of peace in this life.

The CJS, of an entity you would have to wrap your mind around how and who the system works for or against. Confinement is the state of which there is no room for growth are freedoms.

Over generations we have watched, lived and expanded in communities. Of residents occupied of family's, procreated of races of people. Not just limited to what is advertising of black & brown people. While the news media coverage is now focusing on accountability. Voted leadership is talking more of what can change. As bail bonds have not ceased. Rotation of freedoms expand in visibility.

It has been discussed in concern the present data systems used is dinosaurus.  Which means the information is not always up to date and accurate; prior to those bail release dates.

Life experience is opening our eyes;  to understand why justice is a process.. based on order and functionality. No matter what we know in our truths, lies are bias behaviors; human lives still matter. And the accountability falls back on leadership and community involvement. To save lives.