Nervous Breakdown

Depression does not discriminate. And trials are inevitable. 

A crises could occur at any moment. So can a nervous break go undetected; until that one circumstance causes a human breakdown.

The reality is poverty is a state of condition; and the state of that human mind that decides how to manage if not seek help in this condition over a period; of long are short time.

The reality is wealth is a state of access. The only difference is in this state there is; access where in poverty is denial, and denial is the dysfunction to live. Are await a latter decision, according to one's circumstances.

Overtime the lower you allow yourself; to go into any mental spiral. The chances are the little things will lead anyone into a human nervous breakdown. And no one is strong enough to do it all alone. And all alone no one is inevitable. For the choices we make in ourselves will determine; not only our mental & physical health but where we end up in chasing  the overrated in having or managing wealth. In what we can accept of our own mental state in a healthy capacity.

Take care of yourselves first. In due seasons we will answer for what we wanted, needed and settled for. In chasing in the wind; of what will restart us back at the mental starting line. ALL over again. 

To those who are moving  ahead w/o taking a step back. To reflect on who will care for me in this state of mental setback; with emotional compassion. Than I could of chosen to care for my own mental state & wealth. Over time that was silently needed of an invested to love on oneself.  

Life is this beautiful holding space. However, these bodies will not endure forever in this life. Therefore remember to care ever more for yourself. In a place we could better respect; each other. We all in humanity often need to; refocus, recovery & relax. Just the necessary space & time to recalibrate; in these bodies.  

 

RAW

We can challenge one another all day. But until we have invested enough positive energy in figuring out the time we Value in ourselves vs. Time wasted over something or someone else; we hinder our own destiny. Because of procrastination there is no reservations when a decision is made based on a personal venture to value one's time; are waste it on someone are somethings. That just don't show up in a lucrative or conducive return.

That includes All, if not a Few vs. None. It's the reasoning to why we can Always justify are deny. The Unjustified behaviors that will always be exposed. In our Raw outcomes.

Ghost Writer-#28 

SIN

Isaiah 40:30

One of the most avoided conversations in the world; amongst homosexuality and murder..

The reality is all mankind have sinned come short of the glory of God. But remember why Jesus died on the Cross. Even if many of us are not believers in God. We do know in our hearts; it was not MAN created the world. Where Columbus discovered it. And who created God created in mankind was  called by his birth name; Christopher Columbus. 

The bible talks about murderers and homosexuality and All types of Sin. I read it has a small child. I myself knew what it was, to have lived it. To be humbled and ask God for forgiveness..It's not embarrassment. The Sin is written in The Holy Bible. Man exploits it in him or herself. And our human decision is to ask God for forgiveness, are not. It's a Freewill of ours. And God's requirement for All.

So I have a question and no, not about Abraham & Sarah. My question is who did Moses murder? And who attempted to murder moses as a baby?

If you ever wonder who is Sin.  We must tale on ourselves; first. By looking in the mirror. If what it is. In how we have are continuation of Sin ourselves.

Life is short, get pass it. Accept it. Release thd ego. And ask God to heal the Heart. 

[#28, 1.15.20].  Enjoy this Memorial Weekend 2021.

Lottery

If you won a windfall of money, how much would you need to live a life filled w happiness; and how well prepared are any of us to deal with the windfalls of overwhelming expectations.

If you received a stimulus check "hoorah, hoorah". But if you know someone who did not. Are you willing to share? Whether you have are have not.

The reasoning in why the word  Lottery is so revelant; is for the love of money there is no peace on earth. And to who much is given, much will always be expected. Therefore we all will reap what is sown in a time and for every season. In those seasons where some will prosper, a season where a few will lack. And a season in which others will get by with what they have. And even though its said winning the lottery is 1 in a million, and becoming rich is not so much as what; we manage to obtain of in material things and in abundance in our associations. Being rich is how we see ourselves beyond our struggles, trials and sacrifices. And, in Gods favor one must be tested in the fire, tried in ones faith, stretched in the endurance of many trials,  suffering through much pain and still maintain; the Faith of a mustard seed through it All. Just to see the blessings that only a God can not fail. But bring to pass what Job suffered in of great losses, some of us have endured as well. Including myself. But all things are working for the good. Remember whomever you choose to serve on yesterday, today and tomorrow. 

One day that Lottery windfall is coming unexpectedly. Because of the faith; there will be many seasons of Harvest because of those prayers kept w/o reservations.

Sex Pedophilia

How will pandora's box be approached in what has been opened since the beginning of the history  for our wide eyes to see and blush in the flesh; as mirroring the days of Sodom & Gomorrah parade around in the flesh of ambitious behaviors. To only debate if not address a conversation regarding the Pedophilia behaviors if not the human nature we surrender to one another; in.

In another generation of advertising throughout the world of Sex &  Sexuality. And no race is pardoned from the progressing  behaviors in humanity where the intensity of Sex is causing  fatality & brutality in insanity. To ourselves if not towards another human being. Behind the intention of wants, greed or fantasies. There is a human delay in one's perception vs. behavior in sexual appetites. Driving this vehicle amongst human immortality.

Sex education is & has been presented in class,  rooms, homes and on social connections. Of talks & demonstrations on. how to perform a behavior in sexual acts; watching and listening is All of audiences. With voluntarily anticipation of what is sold in the packaging of human flesh. Including is advertisment on broadcasted television including cartoons. While around the world sex products is sold on shelves. If not packaged on billboards for  All the world, to see. 

The aggressiveness of sexual freedoms you can find on on snapchat, twitter, Facebook are any social media outlet. And if not in full naked flesh, even a dental floss of covering the area's of the human anatomy; promotes the images of a freedom. The freedoms to choose.

So, how do we approach the conversation with our small children to quench their curiosity. Where in a large number of situations. It's the acting out the behaviors in every environment. Of aggressive sexual addictions. In what is occurring in humanity of sexual exploitation of All human beings; around the world. Not limited to the sales for money. While advertisement is paid publishing. As it is a freewill in Many to choose of themselves. Around knowing what exists in any state of is Illegal harboring of another human by another human being around the world.

For every cause there is an affect in situations. Under the Laws, Disease and Famine in the days under The Sun of Man. That no money can cure. Even in attempts is proper education in information. To warn society of the possibilities. There remains the freedoms. Over where there is no freedoms to restrain; the mass waves of attention. Of how powerful in promoting sex, really matters in who serves; in humanity.

And we question if not curse God; why so much suffering. As we serve man with the switch of our vision's & assets.

My experience in a professional business atmosphere; this person ask me in a distressed state "why did I not think of them being attractive, my response 'do not be dismantled'. You are a beautiful human being. However, your physical appearance is not in my human desire to dive in'. At an institution a man of the cloth ask if I would step to the curve of the Church grounds he then said "you are a voluptuous woman, my response I will not be answering to God on top of what I've already ask of forgiveness", years later this person descended up, to the masters  arms. When my son demised the perception still remains drugs, money & sex. Surely if enticed cures ALL that grief that surfaces; pain in. My belief still remains; its a personal choice to pray. And if for any human being's desire is to choose their own own battles in this life. It's imperative to stay focused & prepared. For the state of spiritual warfare.

Countries of Man

From America, Asia, China Russia, Japan all over the world in every darkened corner to lighted streets; Human rights s/b a priveldge to All. In every corner of this debated filled world. Unfortunately the debates are exposing our leaderships peripherals in guidance. Over their own and our own debates in All countries of man.

In countries the people are protesting against their own governments; and real wars await at the brinks of open-ended disrespect of any conversation between leadership. Are in society over distressed economics and institutionalized structure around blue prints to debate;  poverty. 

As we expect even a child, children and adults to obide in obedience. We all sit watching a world that is not moving forward due dramatic confusion; for the battles being fought in our own countries of disrections. There seems to be no amicable agreements.

In a world of human rights; that are arrogantly ignored if not paid in full to address the situations unaddressed in unequal justices. Children separated from biological parents into cps agencies over their own parental behaviors. Even from the evironments at the boarders, if not 3rd world countries. Its always be unadvertised in the major cities even now breaking the streets and head lines over nation wide media's of drugs vs. human trafficking. 

History teaches humanity in the eye of the Law. The same Law of decision makers voted in for ages; we are to abide bye & trust in of our leadership. Of a history written into Laws created by man. As humanity attempts to manage transition in time. Where human ashes are blowing from every corner of the earth. 

We as a people seek refuge; not just from one another. But from what has not been appreciated overtime the freedoms for unequivocal  rights and the communications of logic resolutions for the people.

What is about control of people are one another; thats drives the insanity to break barriers of human beings. Even with the control over each other. We will never compromise, respect & listen collectively. Resign from our authorities even if found in the commission of criminal activity of human cruelty if not even in our own societies. The animalistic nature we yell for change, we challenge reform, we fight with bare hands & guns. As we grin and smile,  cover up the burdens with a few successes. And in a snap of a second the process; is repeated repeats all over again in every Country of Man. 

Why, is it a challenge to change. The hardships that are debated is the accountability over who is taking advantage of who, what and why of a logic thst could heal All. In a space humanity is accountable for all we accept, implement are choose not in our human mortality; to do..

If there was no leadership to stand in power. Who will lead the power over any country of man. We argue amongst our iwn selves in humanity; of what we fight in our own human behaviors.

ALL countries of Men Asia, American, China, Russia & Japan. Immigration reform Racism & Hatecrimes, Drugs & Human trafficking, Domestic violence & Homicides and Mental Illness, so little economic shelter for trauma progressing in ALL Humanity. 

The sun is peeking out. But under the sun of man; how much is the accountability is sitting on one's hand. And we ask when will it get better. The Pandemic is over we need money and respect; cause we want change w/o changing our own behaviors.

Shooter

On top of the roof top, over the hills if not coming across the field. It's around the corner. If not lurking in the shadows; a Spotter. 

Read a good book lately, are even enjoyed a documentary, how about a road trip are a flight to Greenville Land if not across the borders of deserted land. And if not Denver,  California are try anywhere. And in doing so pray over any old bridges you have crossed. Without showing accountability to respecting others and yourself. Never know who is watching; the moves everyone is making.

Looks like everyone is on the same page to increase sales around the CBD; product and demands. Of course its not all straight from the land. 

Do you remember back in the day, weed did not get you shot at. Hell, half the society bought it, passed it around or just simply put 5 on another round. 

Then one day, a few people had to go advertise "guns & killers w arrogant remarks, while groups of people stand guarded of one. And if removal of the history of them in All. The main 1 standing protected would scramble. On what to do". No disrespect it took history in 1 hand to expose the ultimate betrayal that deceived my only son. Lord help to many soldiers are falling. Where not everyone desires to be micromanaged under a microscope. just to get attention to be validated as the next super star. To many brothers are dying and mother's & children crying. Grandparents weeping as some in those uncles & aunts are twerking if not tweaking. As all races of children can be found; searching. Looks like someone is winning but not who you think it is. Not standing in the same framed position. 

Movers, make motivating money moves. Relationships grow a fortune in business sense. And loyalty is earned not bullied, are neither negotiable with a piece of metal, gold & a T'shirt with acronyms advertising to the world; who is really calling the play into our diversified neighborhoods; and yet the hood still ain't rich as good men, woman are dying. Neither the rich safe gated divisions if not each of their our own trenches. We still remain glaring at one other. If not tipping around each other. 

Be smart about your layered position, wiser about who is singling out All in competition. Why, cause Talent is a gift, no matter who you try to remove off the board. The next talent will forever rise up on schedule for the next show. Choose your skills, perform in your own lane. And the crowd will identify with, if what you are advertising is worth the long or short term investment.

Watch the movie Shooter, and in the end. You will walk away with your own idea, perception are it was just another scenario of life. But eventually we have got to get a handle on ourselves. If tomorrow is coming, who will be left?

Anti Christ

"Before I begin this passage take note this blog was written in 2016. In addition in current events that occurred in more blood in 2020 All including others, blood remains engraved on that Wall, Because of their real life stories are no longer being withheld". Why, God saw, recorded & hears All the history of man.  Is repeating in a new generation of good vs. evil in violent acts.

I wish all generations of mankind a practical life & peaceful state of mind. Before we separate in directions. Of which we All will be summoned to initiate our own judgements. Unto a call that is going to be made in any unannounced moment of time. If where I must admit unwanted changes are are going to happen all across this world. Because of man's interactions that make-up our life's experiences. So, therefore even in an angered world of  people. Continue to seek peaceful direction and clarity.

Prior to this creation of a new generation,  right after AD we denied the process of how sin was always factored in. Disturbance in times of second chances we could of rewrite our wrongs, before time caught us up in our footprints is when we heard; People questioning, and assembling in order for if the prospective winner of this presidential election wins office in 2016, will this be the sign of the coming forefathers & the Anti Christ? And before you spit out an answer that is an assumption in being intellectually positive are sounds correctly sophisticated look around at what is not being questioned but argued in what is happening in this world of humanity. Keep in mind and respect in these real streets of time you're speaking to a generation of LOST & Found", in search of the Truth with Lies. 

We, grew weary and confused, but if were going to judge the world, without being accountable for the judgment in ourselves, speak as if you are taking to children of all men in races and colors. So that they may even understand the crisis and chaos, we are diving into deep waters of to find peace with one another. Waters of what has been buried of the untold, but delivered and written unto man of what they are expected of to Follow until chosen to Lead one another; In.  

On this journey we have traveled for a thousand years, in good and controversial times. Our bodies have felt the pain from hateful blows, casted down from rocks, bullets and stones. For ages our freedoms have been compromised if monitored by chains of commands created through wired systems, red tapes, cages if not our own brotherly deceit. A confinement of bondage for All to be sculptured; into a mindset under control. And unfortunately our colored and fragile feet will stumble if not crumble over rocks & stones where men & woman were driven to thirst on dry land. And now our children thirst in this same place where greed, racism and jealousy refuses to be locked in a silent place of captivity.

As we gather glaring at the dawns early light, we, us are I feel as if; we have already lived again in this day twice. The situations or concerns have not changes. It's only the names of people we once walked passed are ignored in life. We see certain children who need everything, but denied even compassion, if not our own. And yet some people will curse whether God is real. 

We see families fighting in unity are over this accountability. And even money cannot buy love, hush is no longer silenced. Are the justifying or non justice triggers that take another person's life. Why, it takes one relevant or non relevant person are person's to impact; an entire Family, if not an entire Country. And no human is exempt.

CampFire

One day man was created in formation by God to perform an act that would blossom into this world child birth. And once these tiny footprints arrived on different dates & times throughout the world. God commanded every man &  woman to be called the parents; father & mother.

So, this pair of parents held this tiny baby in their arms.  swaddled tight, and then gawked into each others nervous eyes wandering; how can we be the best of parents and create a wall of protection around this child are children?

So one day these small babies; grew out of those parents, nervous arms. And wandered into this big old world. Some parents were catastrophic, some shadowed their every footprints and some parents even packed up their entire houses & journey off to college w/them. For me I was a helicopter mom. Whenever & Wherever he landed, I flew over him. I even promised his children to never be too far of arms reach of them. Its amazing the love God showed us in those tiny tight swaddles, then feet. 

Fast forward, our children will always be the tiny feet; we once ran behind to keep up with them. In a world of darkness, we've  lost many hours of sleep. At night to monitor they were still breathing in their cribs. I clearly remember. until my child would cuddle his own children. And when they grew older. we could always put our arms around them. To Safely protect them. 

But as days got longer if not nights shorter. Our children then gave birth to their own children. And chose to grow their own families. With those same taught of morals, values and beliefs. The steps we guided them; in. Is when our own children  ventured into relationships! of all sorts in this world. It got overwhelming for those old parents to keep up. So some parents allowed them space, others parents partied with them, some parents struggled in building the relationships over-time, as some parents passed away, I was still sending out helicopters. Then God said I see the struggles life is transitioning humanity in. So I will make a call to alleviate some of much heartache & concern.

If we could check into those Campgrounds where these people remain of who is impacting if not changing our lives; through our children. Would we do better w time if not do better in ourselves to open our eye to see how the world is changing and people are stressful if not trying to keep the peace in their own lives. For me and a few other parents throughout the world, young are old. We continue to do our best through praying, fasting and investing more attention to keeping our helicopters in place of watching over our Beloved & tiny footprints..

If we look around our houses, in these streets are even in the company we keep. Around those Campfires are stories we once are still share. On the same camp grounds. We will either still be standing around. If not sitting & watching what is looking, around. 

Ghost Writer D. White, The Wall

Cohabitation

In addition to my intro on last night. I wanted to provide more clarity on the topic itself. And by any means please add your synopsis on Texas Law vs. Human choices.

Domestic Partnership & Cohabitation. But before I begin. Did I mention that this professor was a state bar Family Law attorney. And the reasoning we follow our passions in life; is to either educate ourselves or possess the knowledge to assist in directing others when life just happens; at any given moment. 

I always said to my son & familia. I will work on myself to not live a life of negligent behaviors. To embarrass myself if not respect the earned reputation this bloodline in familia we are responsible to protect. Of one another no matter of our human conditions are circumstances. I bestowed the same values in my son, as we do in all our bloodlines. And no matter what u do on the outside in this life, stay accountable on the inside in truth of whom you really are. But don't expect change in what other people continue to choose.

In the state of Texas Domestic Partnership Agreements & Cohabitation. There is a joint agreement Premarital & Post-marital. And the community property presumption. All findings in the constitution; statues and case law. And even research contract law.

Its imperative no matter the age young are old, race or gender in the established are verbally agreed relationships. It's how we choose to cohabitate with one another; and where children & blended families are involved. It's get out of control when the material stuff is the main focus. Is how people expose themselves in a web of who gets what? And in the event of an unexpected are timed estimated death, including incapacitated mental or physical state in health. Where there is no legal documentation per stirpes of blood heirs, Last Will and Testimonies, Power of Attorney's and POD's of Insurance Policies. If not an appointed 2nd Co-signer on that bank account. Trust all hell is going to happen. 

However, the lesser hell to deal with in a Domestic Partnership Agreement where the foundation is laid on a legal page. Although, People will still continue in messy behaviors, material things will get scattered. Money is shifted from pocket to mischief. And children are ignored of their human feelings. All due to  human choices; and little knowledge in knowing there is a double edge sword in how we Cohabitate. If not take it a step further to make 1 vow in the eyes of Holy Matrimony before the Law.

Sometimes you end up w people that do the right things on your behalf if not for these children who are caught UP in the drama of supported driven greed exposing their own Insanity; where sometimes people do just enough to see what the payoff is in of someone else's end. But be mindful in why you are not to be expected to know of who is waiting patiently; around for what was carefully invested in of your own valued time.

Today the sun came out. And the possibilities are endless. So why not take time to inventory the life we chose, keep choosing are of comfort we living in.

Breed

Luke 5:18

SON's one day as young men & young woman; you will breed a new generation of children. And before you begin to congregate. Research the type of person you will either choose to live in a state of domestication or Cohabitate; in a behavior of Surruptitious activities. 

I remember during my highschool & college days there were 2 professors that pronunciated familiar words with enthusiasm. First, word was 'Cohabitation', and the Second word was 'Surruptitious'. I remember these words because of the enthusiasm each professor demonstrated in speaking to their audiences. Which also attracted the entire audiences attention. Why, because no matter how they phrased a story, statement are remark. They utilized these words with sophistication..

My point is this. Words can be meaningful are damaging. Depending on the level of communication & person's  open mindedness in understanding. And if the intent is to motivate or to relate constructive criticism. We must be mindful of what we communicate in making our points. Which brings me to this story. 

Two weeks before my son deceased. We shared an opinionated conversation. He needed me to listen, and this was not unusual. We always touch basis about life and maturity. And I needed him to remain open minded. To be prepared for what we don't always have to agree on. But every relationship has to agree to  communicate with the respect of the other person's feelings. And I know you're thinking this is a new world we live in. And people don't always respect each other. Well, that is the truth and reasoning to why we stagnant in our own growth to get along. Where we could of together listened for better understandings. Even the smallest of children can hold a mature conversation. All we have to do is take some quality time to listen. And allow them to respond if not ask us the adults for some directions. If we don't learn from our own children; some respect and maturity in being the parents.

So sons what am I saying is this; no woman knows a man better than he knows himself. But no man really knows any woman better than she knows herself. And children can tell the difference. As they are watching & mentally recording the both of you; communicate if not demonstrating to them how there is a level in tone & carry. With a respect towards one another in understandings..

So before you cohabitate with any person. On the slope of feelings, underdeveloped maturity in certain areas where obligations have been appropriated to accept in making of a conscientious decision. Its easy to make a choice without consideration of knowing how much the other person is mentally invested. 

So trust yourself knowing what you want is not always what you get; out of this life. Are neither another person. Until we cohabitate & learn the value of respect. Were presently we so often devalue one another. If not communicate in immaturity. Now apply this thinking to the relationship you will develop with different classes of people through life.

To one day figure out how much room is needed for us All to grow more; in ourselves.

The last words I said to my gc was this "no matter what always be true to yourself. Speak with confidence and trust in your feelings, never stop taking to God". And to my son never let anyone rob you of your peace of mind & joy.

Sons the man you choose to be. Is the man you must be able to look in respect in the mirror. And lead of those boys & girls;  of your own seeds to grow & prosper in this new world.