The Rumor

This nation is on the RISE of falling down over time and the reason why; is people no longer act right, in a free society. And I know we've all heard it all before. But this time there is more dynamics than before. So to all generations of nationality young and old pay closer attention to how the Season's have changed in "Everything". Including people mind games, politics, television, family's and the open invitation to sexual activities.

So keep up with how time will not rewind when judging someone else to be more careful when not including yourself. Just remember to FIRST forgive yourself for who you where, remember how far you have come with or without change. And finally embrace and decide who you will finally be. Because at the end of the day you will make a final decision on where you stand if not collectively,  then individually wherever you will FALL, Lay 2 rest if not STAND.

FUTURE GENERATIONS

"As it was in the day of NOAH". I'll allow you to read the rest.

There will come a time in OUR LIVES where you will make a decision to STAND TALL Or either SIT STILL and FOLLOW the FLOW. There will be TWO MAIN ACTS in mankind where many will turn a blind eye; MONEY will buy souls over time and SEXUAL TEMPTATIONS will be the FALL OF some if not MANY OVER GENERATIONS.

One day on this journey you will see clearly; how people relate and communicate through “connectors and commands” OF communication with actions and words.  One day our sons and daughters of all colors will cohabitate, in more than one way.

One day when you find yourself feeling CONTENT, DECEIVED or INTRIGUED, LONLEY or ABANDONED; you will seek refuge in marriage, dating people in different mental places to be ENCOURAGED, UPLIFTED, PROTECTED, GUIDANCE or just a form of  HUMAN COMPANIONSHIP. You will travel to places, search the internet, ask old friends to reconnect.  You will notice a change taking place “INTERNALLY”. While some of you will remain in a delay trying to figure out “What is this change all about”. And no it’s not always depression, mental illness and suicide which takes a toll on people’s life and the reason why is because “People need ONE ANOTHER TO SURVIVE” but the challenge for us is to figure out; WHO and WHY.

There will come a time when people will laugh, gossip, mock and talk about you in your face or behind your back. Don’t pay them too much attention; stay on track. Because sometimes you need to see who has your own best interest or waiting around for you to CRUMBLE TO THE GROUND.

There will come a time where you will change your MIND SET AND MATURE because of personal relationships, social acceptance and financial stress. Remember this; some people will always place OLD and NEW judgment on everything YOU DO REGARDLESS of the adjustment in your attitude.

There will come a time where people will deny you the truth with a straight face, take from you without any disgrace, share less of what you have sacrifice to give and judge how you LIVE. 
Sometimes people willingly share personal information with other people whom they feel is not a real threat. My advice “be cautious of whom you get involved with”. 

Were we can no LONGER FEEL AND SHARE LOVE, no longer see the good in PEOPLE, MAKE SENSE OF our own FREE WILL IN the CHOICES we make, find JUSTIFICATION is our CARELESS THOUGHT THROUGH AND HEINOUS acts OF ATTACKS. And yet we sometimes show SOME FORM OF HUMAN COMPASSION.

One day maybe we can place back VALUES, STRONG MORALS AND NON BIOS BELIEFS in our FAMILIES by planting good SEEDS. Then maybe INDIVIDUALLY OR COLLECTIVELY we can begin to finally treat one another EQUALLY.

Switch Gears

Do you spiritually, mentally and physically believe we as a new generation of people are doing enough soul searching? And the reason why I ask this question is because; one day our  next generation will experience love on the internet, free will and challenges, injustices, YOUNG DEATHS and accomplishments, leverage, wars and fighting, social acceptance and mental illness, new developments and tearing down of old houses and project buildings, and let’s not forget FINANCES WITH LACK IN KNOWLEDGE OF CREDIT. So the question is how WELL PREPARED OR SOME OF US AND OUR CHILDREN when the average working class does not have at least 6 months of reserves to last. And just in case you are overly confident keep your eyes on what is about to ECONOMICALLY happen next.

I’LL KEEP THIS PASSAGE SHORT AND STRAIGHT TO THE POINT.

SOME OF US THINK WE HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT IN A SMALL CIRCLE OF PEOPLE WHO FUNCTION IN DOUBT.

SOME US KNOW OUR LIVES ARE OUT OF CONTROL SO WE ARE PREPARED TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES  IN CASE OF NEVER SEEING ANOTHER BREAK.

SOME OF US ARE WORKING "CLASSIFIED, UNTOUCHABLE  OR UNDER THE RADAR" AND FEEL WE HAVE SOMEWHERE SAFE TO FUN AND HIDE. THINK TWICE BECAUSE IF THERE WAS REALLY A SAFE PLACE IN THIS LIFE THEN DISLOYALTY, SSN, BIRTH CERTIFICATES, 4 DIGIT PINS, RELIGION AND CULTS, WIRE TAPING AND GPS LOCATIONS  WOULD NOT BE A CONVENIENCE WAY OF MONITORING WHO IS RELOCATING.

SOME PEOPLE THINK OUR BANKING SYSTEM IS CRASHING. SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT AWARE OF TACTICS PLEASE BE ADVISED OF WHAT COMES IN AND GOES RIGHT BACK INTO A RECYCLE BIN OF UNEMPLOYMENT, BONUSES, QUOTA'S FOR SPEEDING TICKETS, TOLLS, ROADS AND BRIDGES, TAXES AND WHATEVER IS NEXT ON THE LIST. AND THIS IS NOT A RANT OR RAGE THIS HAS BEEN TAKING PLACE.

SOME PEOPLE THINK THE HIGHEST EDUCATION WILL BUY THEM THROUGH LIFE. AND I’M NOT SAYING EDUCATION IS A BAD THING. WHAT I’M SAYING IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN PEOPLE OF ALL COLORS START USING EDUCATION FOR THE WRONG THINGS IS WHEN YOU AND YOUR CHILDREN MUST STEP UP YOUR ENTIRE GAME.

AND IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE JUST CONTINUE TO KEEP ON LIVING  BECAUSE

WHAT WE PROCESS IN OUR MINDS TODAY SHOULD INCLUDE A NEW SET OF RULES AND VIEWS FOR TOMORROW HAS ALREADY CHANGED IT’S COURSE INTO A DIRECTION FOR US, you and them.  

 

 

TOW TRUCK

When life feels like a TOW TRUCK “which means carrying around a load of stuff” take some time to ALLEVIATE what is on your mind of “JUNK” and replace it with more positive equipment.  

Because we may not always agree on 1 page today but TOMORROW is destined to change. And effect what people either appreciate or neglect of   

TIME something we can’t re-track but only move forward.

OPPORTUNITY comes when we least expect it M&M SAID IT BEST. So don’t miss it!

And WISDOM which is a gift all people have but many choose not to use it.

Then what happens next was due to a choice or neglect.

We hear people say I don’t know who I am anymore; because they either misplace their Identity or settle for whom someone else has trained them to be.  

We see people search around the world trying to figure out; what details their next move will include with some confusion, plans or disillusions.

We feel other people’s pain in our hearts; because the world is getting better, as people seem to keep falling apart.

We smell the same air another human being breathes; but we often respect or quickly cut the supply off of another human beings life.  

We have collectively/individually tasted life’s sweet and bitter cup. But collectively and individually people often forget to empty out before filling it back up.  

As we look around the world today we can see how life is changing as people drive around their “TOW TRUCKS” AND NOT REALIZE THEIR OWN AMOUNT OF JUNK. UNTIL it affects them in different areas of   

Relationships they cannot manage to find even online. While others will be formed, united or disconnected. It's all on us.

Finances will grow, systematically swindled away, decrease or properly invested over generations.
War will progress and Death will cease to end. Which are just a few scenarios we either LOVE, HATE OR FEAR TO CHANGE. OR SIMPLY ALLOW OURSELVES TO EXCEPT THINGS AND REMAIN THE SAME.

UTILIZING YOUR FREEWILL IS THE HIGHEST POWER HUMANITY CAN EVER POSSESS IF YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.

RIGHT & WRONG WAY

Today I met the man of my dreams. He wasn't perfect but the way he treated me was like a queen. And I know what some of you are thinking; you’re either going to get 80/20, 60/40 but never 100% in any relationship. But don't focus on what statistics say. Because when it's your time he or she will find you anyway and love you right not the wrong way.

This man does what I need:

HE PRAYS WTH ME.

HE ADD’S THAT EXTRA SPARK BEGINNING FROM MY HEAD DOWN TO MY HEART.

HE ADDRESSES ME WITH INTELLECTUAL CONVERSATION. HE IS APPRECIATIVE.

HE LOVES AND RESPECTS HIS FAMILY AND WOULD NOT BE WHOLE WITHOUT ME.

HE SUPPORTS MY DREAMS AND BUILDS ME UP.

HE LISTENS TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY AND DESIRES TO ENCOURAGE ME.

HE DOES NOT MIND REAL TEST IN HIS LIFE. HE KNOWS WITH LEVEL THERE WILL BE TRIALS OVER TIME.   

HE IS A MAN WHO TAKES CARE OF HIMSELF. SO WHEN HE GROWS OLD HE IS COMFORTABLE.  

HE WAS OK WITH MAKING PLANS; CHILDREN AND GRANDCHIDLREN, FAMILY AND FRIENDS.  

BUT THEN THERE IS THE WORST CASE SCENARIO; THAT SOME WOMEN DARE TO MENTION SO YOU DON’T JUDGE THEIR DISPOSITION OF WANTING TO FIND LOVE.

HE WALKED AWAY FROM WHAT HE SAID WOULD BE OUR LIFE FILLED FANTASY; A NEW HOME, CARS, CHILDREN AND GRANDCHIDLREN, FAMILY AND FRIENDS WITH THE EXCEPTION OF GOD NOT BEING APART OF OUR PLANS.  

HE SEEMED PRETTY NICE UNTIL WE HAD OUR FIRST ARGUMENT TURNED INTO FIGHT.

HE DOES NOT WORK AS HARD AS ME. INSTEAD HE TAKES FROM ME AND THE KIDS.

HE MAKES TIME FOR ME WHEN HE CAN GET AWAY. FROM THE WIFE, GIRLFRIEND, FIANCE AND KIDS.

HE NO LONGER PRAYS WITH ME. HE PREYS ON ME.

HE DOES NOT HEAR MY CRIES WHEN I’M ALONE WITHOUT HIM AT NIGHT.

HE DOES NOT ASSIST WITH OUR KIDS LIKE HE FIRST DID WHEN WE GOT MARRIED OR EITHER DATING.

HE NO LONGER LISTENS WITH COMAPSSION INSTEADS HE USES HIS HANDS TO BEAT MY FACE IN.

HE NO LONGER TELLS THE TRUTH. HE JUST DOES WHAT HE WANTS TO DO.

HE PROMISED TO BE A GOOD MAN. BUT PROMISES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN.

HE WOULD ALWAYS COMPLIMENT ME. BUT NOW HE ONLY DEGRATES MY BODY.

WHY DO I STAY; BECAUSE I LOVE THIS MAN WHETHER RIGHT OR WRONG I JUST CAN’T STAND THE THOUGHT  OF BEING ALONE.

Over 20 years of our lives we make some good choices and mistakes. Over 30 years of our lives we mature from being a kid to understanding what being grown-up is.  Over 40’s of our lives we appreciate ourselves more, make better decisions than we once did before, get our business affairs in order, send our kids off to college and embark on our new businesses and relationships. So by our 50’s YOU should have some affairs ‘STRAIGHT” unless you started “LIVING LIFE” late.   

In Memory of BOBBY KRISTINA

Our prayers go out to Bobby Brown father of Bobby Kristina. And the entire Houston and Brown Family

Bobby Kristina has departed the stage and she will no longer accompany us on this journey, she has accomplished her course here on earth and now it’s time to lay this Angel to rest. And if you did not get a chance to say farewell in her good days, share some encouraging words, or just call to say “ I LOVE YOU” today rest assure it’s not too late, by showing respect to your parents and someone who may be going through trials and heartache.

Bobby Kristina saw good and bad days but her parents made sure she would be ok. And when life struggles manage to separate these two parents apart. Understand Bobby Christina was top priority in their hearts. Because adults do make some mistakes but they get it right at the end of the day. So disregard what the media and people have to say because lights cameras and assumption will play mind games. And we all know “MISERY” WELCOMES COMPANY.

We all can rest assure that Bobby Kristina’s presence will be missed and for those few who share any negativity remember “our trials are far from the same, and who has not dealt with FAMINE, HEARTACHE, LAUGHTER AND PAIN. And as a mother I will share these tender words

One day I may not be around to turn your frown upside down; CRY AND THEN PROCEED TO LAUGH OUT LOUD.

One day life will cast burdens that will weigh you down; SEEK PEACE IN A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE ARE NOT INVIVTED INTO YOUR HEAD to TEAR you down.

One day you will attempt to for-fill your dreams; don’t worry when people say “you don’t have what it takes” dream anyway,

One day you will embark on a relationship that will take a “DIP”; remember to take some time too realign your heart and mind.

One day you will question why should I live or die; now I want always be around to monitor your good choices are bad decisions in this life. But just know I also made some good choices and bad mistakes in my life. But I wish today I could be there for you to lighten the burdens you are going through.

“Life was not the cause of this child’s death is was a combination of her heart that was left broken. And because of a father’s gentleness she was able to fight till the end of her TEST. So Mr. Brown if this is any comfort rest assure knowing you have done your best, made some mistakes and changed before it was too late. Bobby Kristina was always in good hands when God made her part of your plans.  

PRICE TAGS

If there was a price tag attached to CHILDREN; people would either love them, or forget about their happiness in the mist of finding their own self-satisfaction.

If there was a price tag attached to CHANGE; people would buy it and either change or remain the same.

If there was a price tag attached to COMPASSION; people would watch to see who would pick up the last item on the rack. And the reason why is to target prey instead of seeking the item that could change things.

If there was a price tag attached to COURAGE; people would buy it but never use it. Why, because people function in fear of the things they don’t understand. Or not having a thought out plan.

If there was a price tag attached to FAMILIES; people would handpick over the items. And the reason why; is we must respect other family members life. We're all human with the same issues just at different times. Now select what will or not crowd your minds.

If there was a price tag attached to FORGIVENESS; people would buy it to intentionally not utilize it.

If there was a price tag attached to FRIENDSHIP; people would make tons of returns for new ones. Unless they are able to find what will fit with their plans over time.

If there was a price tag attached to HAPPINES; people would buy it; to never enjoy it.

If there was a price tag attached to HUMILITY; people would buy it and justify reasons to control other people’s lives.

If there was a price tag attached to A HUSTLER and The  PIMPS; men and women would purchase an abundance of it. And the logic is insanity to think that people plot the same old games just a different day.

If there was a price tag attached to LOVE; people would buy it and find every reason not to express it.

If there was a price tag attached to LIFE; people would buy it and still not find the beauty & peace in having of their own lives.

If there was a price tag attached to winning the LOTTERY; some people will help the poor, donate to the sick, tithe to the church. Or just sit back and be rich in their loneliness with few real friends.

If there was a price tag attached to LOYALTY; people would buy it and misplace it.

If there was a price tag attached to MONEY; people would buy it to have an abundance of it. And still not properly plan because money can buy people’s time and material things. But money can’t buy LIFE, HEALTH, LOVE AND HAPPINESS.

If there was a price tag attached to NATURAL BEAUTY; people would buy it and still not be happy. Because they do not appeal to themselves so it’s logical to seek validation from someone else.

If there was a price tag attached to PROGRESSIVE thinking; people would leave it on the rack because it would require them to use what they struggle with “Their Brain” to think outside of other people’s direction.

If there was a price tag attached to PROMISES; people would buy it just and find reasons to break it.

If there was a price tag attached to RELATIONSHIPS; people would buy it and find ways to grow or destroy it.

If there was a price tag attached to RESPONSIBILITY; people would buy it and immediately place it on someone else instead of utilizing it for themselves.

If there was a price tag attached to RESTRUCTURING COMPANIES; worker bees would buy it. And change some of the rules to compensate themselves for the hard work they execute every day. Of the week because it takes commitment to sacrifice not seeing their families. Only to always hear the company has a budget this year. If there was a price tag attached to TALENTS AND GIFTS. Some people will buy it and some people will walk away from it. And the reason why is there are some people who think everything comes with a price to better their life. Or some people have already identified their purpose in life.

Seasons & Youth

When an older man admires a younger girl it exuberates his aging identity and when a younger girl is attracted to an older man it may be their feeling  one or two things; a relationship they never had with their “daddy” or the opportunity to be treated like “royalty”.

When an older woman is admired by a younger boy or man it revitalizes what has not died inside it’s just what was not appreciated with time. And when a younger boy is given the opportunity to be molded into a man; he stands with a mightier attention span. But when a younger man finds an older woman of convenience he will ignite that sparkle in her life that has grown weary over time. And I could be wrong but probably not because there is a reason why; we move backwards instead moving forward with one another in time.

When two young people meet of the opposite sex there is a chance the two will connect on an emotional and spiritual level. And in time these two will endure life as one until they are separated apart.
When two young people of the same sex operate in one mix there is a chance of “experimenting” to see if this is really what they want or need.

When people choose one another there is a motive and intent behind what will grow or end.

In seasons people will change emotionally and physically. In youth we grow and experiment until we grow into who we know which is “ourselves” unless we live our whole lives trying to figure out what “season” were in or what “youth” will do to keep us from facing our own truth.    

Life is like a playground until you grow up, and figure out, what life is all about.

FREEDOM

Abraham was told to leave his kindred but he was never told he would be headed towards a fight. The land was there for him and his family but of course they had to fight for it. But the story does not end.

To all colored boy and girls, women and men I know some of you have settled into a container space of thinking which simply means; to only think and react to what is programmed into your mental space. But have you thought about it this way; maybe your life circumstances involve people who are simply playing out life’s script. It is not limited to what action is portrayed in humanity. It is how we react towards one another in a SILENT RAGE due to our failure in power TO CONTROL SOMEONE ELSE IN FREELY CHOOSING TO BE THEMSELVES.  

If no one has told you lately people DO “BEND” where they become accustomed to “WHAT IS PROGRAMMED into their heads” because some people have realized they are free. While others ponder emotionally with the fact that SOMEONE ELSE has ACCESS their MINDS to silent their FREEDOM and WILL TO SURVIVE. And EVEN TAKE THEIR CHILDRENS LIVES. And I’m not insinuating anyone has or is doing right or wrong, justice or injustice but what I am saying is that we will have to answer for ourselves, in the mist of mistreating someone else.  

So we pay HOMAGE to our local and world leaders who are still alive and in memory those who have died. Take this message with you today “when life’s burdens weigh you down and change looks as if you’re meant to be challenged 6”ft into the ground” immediately take a hold onto what is your control then release those remaining burdens from your hands and place them in a secure place were only God has a plan to end “recklessness”,  protect your heart from vulnerability, keep your eyes on the prize and most importantly position your next move where the WORLD CAN VISIBILY WITNESS WHAT YOU DO. Because man in time is destined to create obstacles that will challenge your mind, obscure your VISION and if you’re not prepared for your NEXT, TEST you will face CHALLENGES.  

Man will debate who wrote the bible and challenge Christianity. Man will debate with the Romans and Catholics while challenging their religious beliefs. Man will create a channel for poverty then rescue a few but not many. Man will create wars and eliminate the threat. Man will support life until putting it to death.  Man will inspire you to be a visionary until you initiate your dream. So what are we as a people trying to say; well look around in how we judge, crucify and play with human lives every day. I know some of you feel as if what you’re programmed to think no one else suspects what is going on behind  closed doors; but the truth of the matter is only a few will be invited in to witness what is about happen next. I know some of you feel you’re not the extension of what your brother or sister does; but the reality is people will never cease to “JUDGE”.   I know some of you feel you’re living out the American Dream; but the truth is you were all a plan to be distinct or left to struggle with poverty. I know some of you refuse to believe your COLOR IS MORE POWERFUL THAN THE STRUGGLES you face today now maybe you will change your container thinking.

If suicide is a contemplated thought out process before any person decides to end their own lives. Then why would a leader drive miles away to deal with something “internally”. No pun intended just a reality check.

In Memory of Sandra Bland

Female

As a little girl I would pretend to be an adult, I would wear dresses and makeup, twisted my hair and painted my nails. As a little girl I often dreamed about meeting my prince charming, having his babies and wearing his last name, attached to a diamond ring. As a little girl I wondered what people were talking about when all I saw and heard was how people who wish for and fall in “love does or does not work out”. As a little girl I watched mommy and daddy talk about building a strong relationship and emulate theirs like the elders did. Then eventually I came to realize fantasies were only a fig-mentation in my mind. And the reason why is because time would not allow myself and people who make promises to remain the same, without change of reasoning, responsibility and taking some accountability.

Growing up would be one of my greatest challenges in this life. And it does occur in different stages of all ages, over time. And the reason I can testify to this is because one of my greatest challenges was to completely allow God to deal with me in my flesh through lessons of how a relapse can occur in anyone’s faith, celibacy, loneliness are just a way out through expressing emotions that accommodate fear and doubt. Because in any test there will be propositions.

I could stand before you and intensely confess all of my actions. But there is more logic in sharing why being single is really a blessing in this day and time. And some one may disagree or have some doubts to what has not been figured out which is “how we seek intensely to be loved by someone else before we truly take some time in treasuring ourselves”.

On my single journey with God I made some mistakes but not any that God would not erase; I chose to give a life before being someone’s wife, I chose to nurture someone else and in return forgot about myself, I chose to love people who did not respect me or neither love themselves responsibly, I chose to deal with man instead of letting God handle it. I believed in broken promises and immediately decided to take time and get reacquainted with my own life. And then my reality stepped in of noticing how men were living in their own fleshly sins.

I can’t tell a young girl or woman what choices to or not make. If I had not made some of my own choices & mistakes. Because the truth of the matter is “men and woman were created to love one another. If not equally then responsibly” once this woman or man, boy or girl find some balance in their life; beginning with respecting their bodies and treasuring their souls and minds right.  

It is in our actions that we reciprocate to one another who gives more or less, and who is buried with the heartache of the rest.

911

Fifteen years ago today we still remember the “mourning” of 9/11. 

As the dawn breaks through our window pane families immediately arise with the anticipation of starting a new day, children wrestle to wing themselves from their warm beds, as fathers tuck their heads underneath the covers to steal another wink of sleep before starting their day in providing for the family. Mom proceeds towards the kitchen to prepare a breakfast feast to ensure her crew has the energy to defeat whatever obstacle they should meet. But who could have seen the calamity coming in the air that would silence the world with a desperate glare.  As fire fighters attempt to catch human life flying from the twin buildings set on fire. Many miles away brave pilots attempt to stir for a clear landing. As passengers prepared for their final calls to warn their families "I want be home”.  And in a moment of despair these passengers would risk their lives in one mission for all to survive. Against the bitter faces of death that ceased one opportunity to rob peace, freedom and unity.

In Memory of “The Lives We Lost”