Soul of A Woman

I am the soul of a woman who once did not know the Power in which she possessed. I am the soul of a woman who feeled unappreciated when she gave her God given best. I am the soul of a woman who has experienced her share of bruises. And know they were not the impact of a man’s fist. I am the soul of woman who has been abandoned by a prejudice system of laws created through the power of men and woman, but here is where I still stand at attention. I am the soul of a woman who understands where daddy and a man should lay his hands. I am the soul of a woman who yearns for a gentle kiss, longing to be caressed and made love to with flowing conversations. I am the soul of woman who wears many hats to completing missions.

 I am the soul of many women who paved the pathway of my present identity. I am the soul of a woman who is familiar with wealth and poverty. I am the soul of a woman who can’t reach the climax of her biblical and religious beliefs with no ties to cults or extremist activity. I am the soul of a woman who fiends for knowledge. I am the soul of a woman who values her life and kid, but not afraid to allow things to bend until we are forced to use our mental strength. I am the soul of a woman who has nothing to lose but everything to gain. I am the soul of a woman who has learned from experience in repetition. I am the soul of a woman who has not been broken but strengthened. I am the soul of a woman with a vision beyond, reach. I am the soul of a woman who will not allow TIME to cheat me.     

One day as a girl I figured out what those changes in me were about. So therefore being misled was no longer an option in my heart and head. And eventually when I grew into the woman God called me to be. I immediately released what I cared people thought about me.

  

Life teaches us many things if we would allow our minds to grow and our bodies to heal, experience people and work towards individual "progress" not worldly perfection

BFF

The following message is not intended for every viewer’s conscious. So to avoid a monotone voice in your head I will present it with accuracy. And no pun intended to make you question the people you know or will meet.

We've all heard the old cliché “it will never happen to me” just consider in every move either you or your children will make it could simply be the reality of another person’s choice, mistake or act of a jealous rage. On any given day but please proceed to enjoy life freely and most importantly cautiously. No matter if you are young or old just simply be careful, engage in being sociable but also manage control of what you do and who is around you. Be submissive to your conscious which is only wisdom that will attempt to guide you through. In an unfamiliar space where the BFF you once knew has suddenly turned face against you.

People search all over the world to find a compatible friend, mate or associate to occupy their window of time with but once the chemistry of these relationships no longer mix, guess what is a possibility of coincidence that will happen next where someone ends up having to prove their loyalty and commitment. And it's ok to silently chuckle because the show "MISSING" or "THE First 48" is not on everyone's pick list of reality shows. But it's all over society and in the news with an important message to understand of who, how and why relationships fall apart and people once found "go missing" without a trace. Only to later find out they were the victims of foul play.
 

I'm not implementing the people in your life or not safe. What society has proven is that situations in life prompt people to change. Now proceed in having good day.

 

Crash Course

Driving down the street. The SUV read 'allow me to crash your party. And if you crash this vehicle it will POP, of course this was advertising. 

In This world we're advertising everyday. In this life it created was for life. regardless of race, gender, creed animal, mammals are age. This world was created for everyone to live beyond control of who would live; service, survive, are experience The American Dream. This world was created so that we may "live equally & peacefully".  beyond bipartisan and respecting one another’s beliefs.  This world would teach us one valuable thing. collectively in which we cannot disagree. That time is the alpha & omega in mankind's final destiny.

To restore hope in HUMANITY requires a reminder of the most important things. Love, Life, Liberty. Where time is of relevance to make people feel they have not lost their purpose. By showing People how much we appreciate life. instead of downgrading and disrespecting US in All. News flash for the leaders all over the globe; it's these human intensions that show why people lost some. If not All hope.

If a person allows submission of their body and mind too work endlessly beyond 40 hours a week. what portion is left for this person to think about living life, enjoying family and finding peace. If this world was intended for people to keep up pace then why is their disgrace that wears upon a beautiful face. Or maybe it's because many people have already chosen to give up, dye the grey away, add on belly weight and seek validation from other people who refuse to change their own ways. What if people never get caught up on their bills, what if people never really get themselves together in working towards a committed relationship. And what if people need more time than life will allow them to live? 

If this world was intended for people to remain peacefully throughout the duration of life then why did time allow people to create man made designs that would deteriorate over time, world events where people of all nations would cheer and drink a good beer before the explosives sounded off in the air, oil to operate transportation around the world before man’s interruption of the earth’s natural core that would tear down what people worked their entire lives for “malfunctions and levees broken over time are two most important catastrophes that left some people behind to struggle throughout the remainder of time" as life strolls bye. But on a happier note let’s not forget about the good old days in time when Henry Ford paid workers above the poverty line “$5 a day accommodated the 1900’s American dream” , but here in the New Century exhausted working hours are paid "minimum in wage" in an increasing economy welcome to our new modern day captivity of seeing the American Dream by leveeing our paychecks for HEALTH CARE.

If this world was intended to be created for one race then why is it that we all share a common interest in LOVE and PROTECTION, products and services? And if you truly believe we need one another to exist then it’s about time we act like it.  

Therefore if one person is in love with things are another person over 50% of their lives. Then when does this person realize TIME has flown bye.

The Great Depression was not by coincidence and neither are the World’s current Global events, whether good or bad. Because time did not change its hands instead it was man who failed at altering GOD'S original plan.  
 

 

 

Drivers License

The significance of having a valid driver’s license closes the gap. Not only from legal agencies and authorities of running interference of capturing you into their traps but it will allow you the freedom to handle your personal life business; freely and responsibly. And with all the stereotypes we deal with in today’s society why wouldn’t you grasp the opportunity to control what agencies would use against you for negativity. By denial of the most important things you will one day need “respect of having access to the smallest things”.  

There are some people who choose to stay clear off the map and it’s ok. Just know big brother never sleeps only creeps continuously because of the remainder of people who think to avoid a trap you can automatically remove your identity which is only a setback for the main frame of the agencies membrane which is attached to your date of birth, social security and first with last names. So why not live life to the fullest by correcting your business today or tomorrow stands a great chance for your freedom to be taken away.   

 
Contact your nearest DPS office today. For tomorrow has been updated and accounted with your name, LICENSE and vehicle registration-location.

A New Year

Another season is ending and a New Year is approaching. People are making plans to bring their New Year in. But somewhere someone is not feeling the same joy of planning for the New Year's. And I could speculate but it may not accommodate the person who is feeling JOY or going through some type of PAIN.

I overheard a young foreign girl speaking to her mom and say "everyone has a home in the USA". The cars have homes to shield them from the rain, the birds have homes in the trees and lastly the dogs have their own homes where they bury doggy bones. And the reason why this story was extraordinary to hear is because where this little girl lives there are no walls, no doors only wide open space where they are able to find a resting place to lay.

I observed hard workers who stretched their lives working through hard times with a focused mind, loyal and committed to long hours and the bosses promises to promote them once the economy is in better condition. Only to be sold something short of a dream that leaves a person, silent, bitter and cold with low self-esteem and if the next human being does not value their own worth they will also be the next victim of another person’s hidden intentions

I grew faint as children wondered around this entire place with fearless eyes, twerking hips, smacking of the lips, eyes and tongues pierced and lack of intelligent verbiage, no pun intended. But some adult or mature person fail to compliment "precious time" to prepare our children of all colors for what is in store down the line " A New Day of Old Times" and the failure would only be in not utilizing their gifted 'MINDS" on any given day, in any given moment of time.

I witnessed a mother racing through life trying to find someone or something to spice up her life. In the meantime her children waited for a special moment in time just for her to show them they were in her heart and on her mind. Unfortunately for these babies were the seed of the man she intensely loved but this man did not reciprocate the same love in return, so these babies continued to grow up to be strangers that were once a seed in this mothers once empty womb. Simply because she did not take the valuable time to love herself first before seeking that same love from a man who only stuck around to share a relationship that produced God's most precious gift's "children".

I walked into a room lit of colorful faces where some people were cordial and polite or just not nice. But what I also learned is what some people have managed to move past in their lives while  others continue to hold onto; what brings them misery and strife.

I grieved a family's death regardless if there was no association. And the reason why is only a mother carries a child nine months out of her life and meets a new man immediately to fall in love online before they meet. Sometimes things turn out ok and other times catastrophes occur in one day.

Prey is the person who is vulnerable not necessarily weak only because they don't show strength to communicate their ability to think beyond what other people would like them to  further investigate of finding the truth. But a predator intentionally seeks to devour all possibilities of this prey at any time, on any given day.

All people lack patience in someone or something we don't take the time to understand, all people lack experience in what we don't take the time to learn, all people fear unclear threats, all people have skeletons buried in their closets, all people have self-esteem whether high or low, you dictate how it goes. All people of all races really share common things no matter what we would like for one another to falsely or truly believe. I've heard countless resolutions before entering into the New Year of on television, at work, family dinners, networks, weddings, church services, traveled trips and being a witness to how people are going ahead with their lives. So remember this life will only allow people who are willing to attempt in finding the fortunes they seek or the dreams in which they believe.
A poet once shared; you have to learn to comprehend what is being said in your mind. What most people will miss with their eyes"-Richard Saxon
  

Hostile Territory

Every human being has a stressor in their life. And on any given day any adjustment in that person’s life could stir their destiny to the left or to the right, for a life time. So help me understand a “selfish human being”. Who only identities with “nobody has, can or will help me” or “right now or immediately” in this life. Is often how stressors begin in trying to comprehend the reasoning to why people make free will choices that bring on more stresses in their lives. Is why companies love people who are self-prioritized in order to keep other people under their eyes. Which holds someone else accountable to sharing with them information they use for control. Another reason to why selfish people are not satisfied until they inflict pain on other people's life. 

Anger is an expression that can be triggered at any moment. And no HUMAN BEING is exempt from the wrath it brings. So if you can’t deal with the truth and prefer an entourage of people who think alike in getting “what they want not necessarily what they need” watch out because I’m about to GO DEEP.

Today I stand to be corrected before beginning this passage. So what I have learned is people are not necessarily selfish. They just have not been taught certains things so they act out differently. Which may be a true ststement. But observation overtime also has proven the world has changed so it's excusable for people to remain unknowing? And If this is another true fact; then we're about to experience a phycological break in Humanity . 

We’ve all required some financial assistance when time gets rough. The wealthy ask for lines of credit or call on friends with immediate access to “ESCROWS and LIQUID ASSETS”. The working class will come up with a plan, pay day loans or a budgeting friend. And some of us will refuse to waste one minute of time to ask for what “has to be thought about or call me back” simply means I don’t have anything so how does one person give money to help another person who always promises to pay it back; at income tax or my next check? And what about the mentally sane and capable person who refuses to work; sits on their ass, waste gas, have random sex, live on the internet then ask for a portions of  your welfare, royalty check or paycheck. How does this even make sense? I have yet to meet any man or woman that fine or beautiful who deserves what they have not labored for where some people will say; the sex was good and that is why HERPES and AIDS supposedly have no cure.

We’ve heard of blended families where grown people combine children from previous or existing relationships. But here’s the twist and things get complicated for the kids. Once those young and old adults begin to make this relationship all about ‘THEM” is when people figure out they can no longer PLAY HOUSE. And the real responsibilities require grown-up accountability. So young ladies not all older men are looking to love a life with you in BED. And for my mature in age women not every young man is planning a long term investment  in between your legs. When he can find a younger woman to grow old with.  

Who disrespects a parent then turn around and ask them “can you keep my kids”. In what educated society do Women and Men agree to have unprotected sex that will make more babies without a marriage ceremony not just shacking and a promise to purchase a ring? Then turn around and scream “who going to help me” and you better watch out if the help is not “immediately now”.  See what love has come to be about. And if you think you got time to play with the older caring people in your life; you're in for the suprise of your life.

What kind of parents play twisted mind games by making one child responsible for another child’s infliction of pain? And must I remind you these are not small children in age. These are adults who love to say “I’m grown” that range from 17 to 60 years of age. So if you're heart is in the right place you better stand up and make your peace before it's to late. Are those grown parents with children of any age will bury you 6 feet deep. Due to their insanity.

In Society we pay for things we normally would not gain just being a good person on our own such as; love, time and respect and the reason is "dry begging" and “selfishness which is priceless” but if a person can play on your vulnerability they will take from your children, elders, parents and whatever they see to GAIN. The problem is that selfish people don’t understand why they struggle with everything. So it’s seems “that no one is helping me or hearing me out of what I need” so this selfish person lacks 2 minutes to spare of  anytime to communicate what they refuse to change. But they will take a moment to relax your mind, manipulate a two-way conversation and pour out their hearts; to why things are not working and how they feel like giving up.

There are different classes of status. There are different cultures and religions. There are different social groups. And all of Humanity will one day need help from the stranger you pass and flare your noises at. And to think Humanity ignores the fact that we're created with the same pair of limbs but quick to judge our differences. Have we forgot how we wear our skirts and pants in the same position. Oh i forgot Money makes the difference of who we become.

We're familiar with the saying "I'm under pressure" but with what. I won the lottery and people from all over the world are bothering me. I broke up with a person with whom I was in a questionable relationship. I had more kids with different men or women, now I'm struggling with daycare, clothes, pampers, milk, child support payments, alimony and self confidence because LOVE was not in it. I'm rich and can buy people's time but the problem is; I can't determine who is a TRUE FRIEND. I'll quit why I'm ahead. 

Every move we make in this life is our choice.  And attached to those choices there will be responsibilities and no one cares to owe you anything. So it would behoove PEOPLE that you give over and over again. To Take Back what you have earned or time invested with no return in. Because people will leave you emotionally drained. And always find a way to remind you of why it’s hard to deal with one another in this life. Simply because we as a PEOPLE refuse to ACT and Treat one another with some Human Respect.

ELASTIC BAND

Life sometimes can make a PERSON feel as if they no longer fit in the world. Similar to an elastic band first you position it around your waist and then over-time it unravels again. And no matter how you set this elastic band in place eventually it will unravel around your waist.

Today I felt a funny tingling in my brain. Today I had a different view about many things. Today I know longer could process the word “Repetition” but we do it every day as the world continues to change. Today my mind and heart, feet and hands were in align is when these thoughts settled in my mind. But it was not because of the things Society has become accustomed too. It’s because my ELASTIC BAND had stretched and pulled out of place over the years so it could no longer fit in the same position.  

You’ve saw the campaign around the world protest and address DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. And after generations of HITS and Family Violence, CPA and Funeral Arrangement the law created Restraining Orders. And you would think people would have changed where they lay their HANDS.

Men who beat down women emotionally and physically is “quite unsettling”. But it may be normal to someone else’s CONSCIOUS of what love is.   

I am a man who thinks with my HANDS: How is it I live each and every day to curse the mother of my children and sleep around with other broken women. Then return home to lay hands on this woman I promise to protect. Like a master to his pet and dare her to find another man, I disrespect her most precious jewel “no not her ass, her mind you fool” this woman whom I claim to give up my life for, the children I adore and claim to do anything for. May turn out to be the women I raise to walk the streets and expect a man to mistreat them, the son I bear may possess lack of confidence, commit a murder, suicide or be raped in the prison. All because of what I manage to do with my hands. Where I stand behind these close doors I'm the man who implements fear in my family's head. Just to control what I know someone else will not take for granted but LOVE “A Family”.

The law is set in place for civilians to live bye. But when our 1st amendment finds it challenging to reprimand a grown ass man over 21 years of age for sexting a 13 year old in middle school. As the SUBWAY man it summoned to 15 years for child pornography. But the concerns increase to why do our laws allow situations like this to wait for the actual sex act or crime to take place, when it's to late. The CPS system was set in place for the best interest of our innocent children. But something is wrong when there are stacks of cases untouched. And over worked faces to execute a thorough house check to see their modeled residence. Someone cease those checks until there is some confirmation these kids will not turn up to be the next statistics.

I am your conscious young men and women why do we treat one another with a rare type of RESPECT and dress the OPPOSITE. I’ve been in places around the world. I've been living on street corners and have seen what we demonstrate behind closed doors with our bodies. I'm a young man who has entered into a daughter and mother's bedroom. We've shared each other's company with many friends in whom we don't even know and for money. So how dare you shout on  live T.V "you the BABY DADDY ”. I witnessed young men and women slap one another around then say "go away BITCH” until we end up cuddling. Daily I watch my groomed young people interact intelligently with their peers and for the most of us we RESPECT our conversations and debate our book sense. But what mommy and daddy don't know is that were struggling with this growing up and being real ADULTS. So inside we hide what we “entertain of recreational drugs, orgies and other stuff” while some of us attempt to find RELATIONSHIPS on the internet. Or find real closure in a RELIGION. 

They say you can’t help whom you love which is why POLITICIANS don't fear being judged. Their here to get some order in this world of ANGELS and DEVILS. So why the world was exasperated with "i did not have sex with that woman or allow same sex marriages" is when the next leader inherited centuries of the people's "burdens" with threats of "impeachment" for choosing to assist and adjust laws that should not be tampered with such as "HEALTHCARE, The WAR on DRUGS, WAR, Equal Rights, MINIMUM wage, Prison Systems and TAXES" 

I am porn star and my riches comes from years of experience. So when AIDS was revealed it caused a scare and people realized their conditioned state of mind. Where people around the world have sustained in uncontrolled environments dealing with politics and inflicted diseases. While in an educated SOCIETY other people were comfortable with one another's sexuality which spiraled out of control. And now AIDS is no JOKE.

We’ve heard of children murdering the entire FAMILY. We’ve heard through generations members sleeping with family and children. We’ve heard of a mother’s and father’s choosing favoritism between there children. Which brings me to the story of REBEKKAH who stole one of her son’s inheritance then passed it down to a non-deserving child. And in the end that child was cursed because of his mother’s attitude and deceitfulness.

I am your conscious and there is no room in here because you have clutter from the past and refuse to mend things with my “siblings, mom and dad”. Will you please find away to clean up this cluttered space and mend our brokenness. If not the years you waste will be your eternal heartache. When all you could of simply ask was; can we find some “FORGIVENESS”.

So if you’re an ADULT or child in this predicament where mommy are daddy refuse to allow your siblings room to grow-up and make their own responsible choices. You may have to walk away to save yourself from MENTAL PAIN. Before returning and attempting it again. Why, because some people feel it’s normal to always step in and FIX what someone else manages to keep broken in their children, spouses and friends. And you will find yourself stressed out and in need of help yourself from the people you attempt to understand. But the problem is they would like you to agree with them.

The 1st, 15th and the 30th are days we either become excited or exhausted. And the reason why is this what we live for the American Dream a chance to pay a few things. And if someone was to take that dream away of what we expect to receive on those dates. It would destroy our FAITH. Now let's calculate there are 24hrs. in a day now how many of hours do we honestly spend with our spouses and kids to do family things, vacation and homework. Also, include the time you left out for yourself to re-group from after working MON-FRI. If not Saturday and Sunday for overtime. And don't forget why we are thankful to breathe in this life because "God still lives" in our over sight of; hold up something is not right I'm short on TIME.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. And everyone has seen in People and FORBES Magazine of most BEAUTIFUL AND WEALTHY People around the world. Where some have managed to do HEIGHNOUS CRIMES and others are awarded for contributing good works of PHILANTHROPIST around the WORLD. Good or Bad Life is still worth LIVING.  

What if we never judged one another by the color of our skin, what if we could love one another in relationships and through hardships without revenge of taking someone's harvest. Because riches come a dime a dozen when People labor for it or earn their inheritance. So real LOVE is genuine. But unfortunately people under estimate God's Faith and curse the possibilities of easily having what we need.

Sometimes PEOPLE can make a PERSON seem as if they no longer fit in this life. Similar to that elastic band you position it around your waist. Then eventually over-time it unravels again. And no matter how you try the ELASTIC in your mind will wear overtime-time.

FLASH LIGHT

The word is that our Government was hit by ‘Cyber Attacks” which is nothing new because the people in position had plan for the years ahead of information re-call that would damage us all. And know I do not have any associations with PRIVATE GROUPS are RELIGIOUS congregations. I do not sacrifice the life of kids, slaughter the innocent or pray to man. I am Angel L. a human being who lives for HEAVEN & fights through HELL.    

So what to do if you feel your information has been violated. Again our government of People will warn the public of how to take actions. For civilians born before the 1950’s call EQUIFAX, EXPERIAN, TRANSUNION to file you are a victim of fraud and in return you could get a 90 day free fraud alert. And if our elders require assistance "some grown mature person with time please assist them" or log into: clarkhoward.com and read through the prompts”. And for government widows and children call your local DEPARTMENT OF VETERAN’S Administration to see what measure to take in securing your private now public information. And if either of your are not sure who to call and what resources are available start by logging onto https://www.usa.gov/federal-agencies/

 Step 1:

Gather all the kids and your information such as social security numbers, bank accounts and credit reports and review to whom you owe. Regardless if you’re afraid of the conversation but to not react will result in devastation. Why, because you’re working against two evils on both side. The government designed AGENCIES who made it a requirement to disclose our private information and in return promises to secure the personal information. But for a small fee those who wish to live out their legacy of attacks, will find a way to obtain our information and street address on the internet.  

Step 2:

Visit some resources to halt their chat room auctions to purchase your GOVERNMENT assigned pin numbers, DOB and Social Security Numbers we all were ration at BIRTH for the BUREAU OF STATISTICS to monitor who is leaving, coming in and how much money we spend beyond our paychecks and pensions. Log onto “clarkhoward.com” to review your information

Step 3:

Tune into the news but believe half of what you see and lean closely. Attend your community town hall meetings and figure out what your communities and schools are forced to plan ahead but do without accommodations for promises to work things out. Stop by for a neighborhood watch meeting to see if the patrol is on beat and “who is really looking for the drugs” instead watching out for the criminals and bomb making thugs.

Step 4:

Lock your doors because “nothing ever happens in this community, is what real imposters would like you to believe”.  Check out your children’s friends and children watch out who mommy and daddy trust to bring in your house.

Step 5:

A con artist comes in all types of clothing. Just be careful of your surroundings. Purchase a shredder to tie up loose ends it’s worth the 20 bucks you will purchase fancy cars, name brand items, travel trips, parties, cigarettes, finger nails, weaves and cigarillos with.

Cyber Attacks are done by an organization of people who are tech savvy searching for avenues to crash systems set in place to monitor every move “HUMANISM" makes. Which now enforces you to look into the FLASH LIGHTS of taking RESPONSIBILITY and protecting YOURSELF. By securing your home fronts, quizing your young & adult children and salvaging your monitored INFORMATION.

Total Recall

The day you say "people made me lose hope" ask yourself this one question; what was it I really put my Faith in? And know I'm not into making Conspiracy Theories because this mess has been going on throughout generations. With the exception of Healthcare because drugs were flown & shipped into disparity in areas to strategize the poor. And what has happened is it's killing all races of men, woman & children.

Today I was forced into a more in depth space to share some formal information that will keep some of us if not many from jumping over that Bridge. if not Releasing a trigger in our hands. Sounds graphic; this is the real reality of the denial that continues to be a topic, debated. 

With everything going on in the world today. People tend to think about "who is going to help me"

 And the response for many is the silent sound of 'crickets". And this is no JOKE where people have lost hope, small babies are being laid to rest. As people continue to have random sex. War is in the land and the enemy is not walking on desert sand. Are neither hiding off the GRID, systems are in position waiting on your request to plead your case for immediate help. Health care provides charismatically think it's a joke by asking for more of our PAYCHECKS that already have been leveraged. Inflation is gradually fluctuating across the grid. As elders are seeking air & heat by lighting the PILOT to warm those aching bodies. Violence is off the chain. Nothing in compassrison to the Wyatt's riot. There is a situation now everybody is seeking Personal Justice. By raising fear so some may profit off of "food, electricity and ammunition". But only a fool will think these riddles are written by a person who has much time on their hands. And only a Thinker would know the Writing is on blast of every 4 cornered 

WALLS. Of BIBICALLY how the story will UNFOLD.

I spoke with a mother in distress with two small kids "who couldn't work hard enough to keep up with 'RENT & arguments with PROPERTY MANAGEMENT" on top of this the father of those kids is not keeping up pace because he managed to make more babies. So this next Young girl or woman is now advertised as another statistic. Only because in her mind she thought LOVE; had finally found her. Sad to say either no one advised her to actually have a plan; with or without a man. So she continues to revolve in repetition.

Please comprehend that a "MONTHLY PAYMENT ON RENTED SPACE does not account for an investment in LAND OR HOUSING" so plan accordingly. And do not allow time to catch up with your age in accommodating a 30 year mortgage; Conventional, FHA or Fixed rate.

I spoke with a young man who attended college, Christian home and hardworking well to do PARENTS. And in a Fictional world this kid has it made. But in reality money can't fix everything.

If we could live without the thought of needing Money would we really enjoy the simple things? I watch the working rich struggle to see who is next to still their riches. I watch the average working class attempt to keep up with the Jones's, attempting to mimic the Kardashians, no pun intended. But sometimes people live out a fantasy. In other people's reality, are make belief; it's breezy. In reality of what they are really dealing with.

Suicide is taking more youth in this day and time, drug use is a profit for the dealer but not for the recipoent using it,funeral home prep the dead as families struggle to financially support the living. Regardless if you are filthy rich who really looks forward are settles with losing a kid? Unless your involved with religious ties on the Dark Side.

Have you ever wondered why woman struggle in Corporate America? One word "Competition, catty intimidation". And the catch is to stay focused of who intensly desires to become your new bestie. Eventually their real face will smile and say "we're a Team, so please feel comfortable to share your needs". Why can't a few more of ladies work with each other. To build Legacies and mentor our woman & young ladies?

I saw children running through the parking lots, people prancing with their goody bags and walking hand in hand. As some snared those noises in the air. Then out of the blue there was a blast with people running everywhere and guess what "their noises were no longer in the air. Because the person whom they least expected to HELP was there in a moment of their Doubt.

I shared with someone who had more but managed less. And of course my situation did not automatically go from  worst to fixed. But what I showed was an act of kindness. But in my DARKEST moment this person turned their back, and I still forgave them. The lesson to be learned is be cautious of how you give in a moment of overwhelmed compassion to satisfy someone's selfishness.

I witnessed grandparents asking for assistance with food, school clothes and holiday gifts for their grandchildren who 90% of the time live with them. And it's not always the same situation in fairness that the parents are hard working, deceased or incarcerated. It's because there is a hand of people who feel entitled. 

I spoke to a young lady in her twenties who was experiencing being a new mother came with challenges and sometimes mommy and daddy can't provide proper information if they have made or continue to make "questionable choices" in their old age. So this young lady said I love my child's father and kid. But he hits me and then immediately apologizes for it. Then repeats it over again. I said it does not matter who you date man or women hurt is no game. So ask yourself the question if I had to let go of something or someone in my life "COULD I MANAGE TO SURVIVE". And she said what do you mean "I said what is a King"? she said I don't know because my Daddy did not manage to for-fill his roll. So I suffer from low self-esteem and without being in a relationship,  I'm lonely. I replied if you have to be alone don't be with a human being that makes you wake up everyday to wonder if they will love or hurt you in some Formal or Informal way. And bye the way these young ladies were all colors of race. And many came from well to do families.

I watched grown men struggle to be in healthy relationships and still search for their mommy in there adult relationships. Which is not a problem if this man would understand he created kids so now he must grow-up.and be a more mature man.

I visited a Bank today and the young man said I'll get you over here and rambled on to say; you interested in saving money. I thought to myself "LORD HELP" little did this young man know I was hip to being peter rolled. As he slid my deposit slip in the opposite direction and gave me no form with my deposit confirmation. And the reason why I did not flip is because he will learn why he works in the location he was placed in where "second chance is sometimes used for convenience". 

I'm running short on time because that reader was accurate. About my time in which I will not waste in this life. To write ANGEL L stories on HUMANITY you must think beyond the average mind and present truth & lies; in a respectful presentation. So if any human being ask the question "who does this"? simply flip a coin and watch the world we All live in.

For some of us who possess a good spirit and strong will, mind, body and soul. There will be daily challenges on things that are either irrelevant or what people would like to test of our patience. But stay confident in dealing with Corporate, Personal Business Transactions, Family, Church, Relationships & Marriages, and real life situations. Where people are wired to act a certain way. And some Thrive on immature mind games. So therefore you must know the rules in your game of mental chess to maintain some form of respect in order to salvage your own mindset..

BACK IN THE DAY

Back in the day black people paid to vote. And in 2015 all races of folks are required to show Id's without misdeameanors and felonies. And if pulled over by the police authorities people have the nerve to say "I don't have my Drivers License or ID on me".

What happened to the intimacy of women and men being able to have small talk and long weekends?

What happened to young men opening and closing doors. What happen to grown men pulling out a ladies chair. In a world were young girls and women are called bitches and taking beatings like a man. And we all know the story in India women that are not respected but subdued to this man's thrust of whom she may or forced to LOVE. So the question is what if God would have never created women for this boy or man to mate. Then there would be no chance of reproduction for generations in this entire life. See how ungreatful we act but plead to God for forgiveness. 

Domestic Violence is an act of insecurity and fear of what is hidden beneath. Females if you lack self confidence in yourself allow your kids to have a fair chance at life to live. Until you are strong enough to find a real purpose in fighting for "your life and kids"

What happened to baller and ballets sending over a drink before walking away with a smile and wink?

What happened to Pajama sleepovers with the girls. What happened to campfires and boys night. Something is not right when men are creeping into lit rooms at night. And young men are dressed up with high heels and finger nails prancing around like little girls. And young women switching rolls demonstrating in bed a man's summoned DUTIES. No pun intended but are we continuing to update our children about the new world we live in.

What happened to men or boys crying on the shoulders of their confident “favorite GIRL or WOMAN” who understands a boy or man needs instead of “CONVENIENCE” of what is between temptations "knees". And yes a young girl can relate to this young boys energy.

What happened to bringing the date home to meet the family instead of smashing and texting before going out to eat.

What happened when healthcare, government, legal, corporate and court systems responded in a timely fashion in order to direct or assist people with hardships and crucial situations.   

SO HOW DOES SYSTEMS AND BACK IN THE DAY FIT AROUND THIS PASSAGE: With every emotion there is a cause and effect. And with every system created it was meant to test our inner strength.    

What happened to young people hanging out; throwing block parties and park cookouts?

What happened to the good days when a baby momma and daddy came to one agreement. Which was supporting their kids in little league, award assemblies or a school play? And dared anyone to interfere with their relationship.

What happened to respecting our elders no matter what kind of mood  trials drove us into?

What happened to saving pennies in wine jugs so when hard times came the family had enough to purchase some cornbread and pinto beans?

What happened to the red light, OLD SCHOOL “R & B” I HOPE THAT WE CAN BE TOGETHER SOON, RAP, COUNTRY Love Songs, JAZZ and the down home BLUES?

What happened to making a late night call and both of you waking up with a SMILE?

Young girls and older women some of you may already know; that you can’t change a man who will allow certain women to partake in “roles and positions” of what they will accept of being ordered around or hen pecked is what we love to label it.

Which brings me into the next session of how we have managed to lose our focus on the way, from BACK IN THE DAY.

                       BATTLES

The object of communication is for two parties to agree on a mutual understanding of one another’s boundaries, wants and basic needs. So when a woman or man, young boy or young girl decide to make a choice and lay down with someone of preference. The choice will be made in a moment of PASSION until a twist of fate turns into “RAPID RAGE”. All because of people  who chose to tell the truth or a lie in order to CONQUEOR what was on their minds so how do we find ourselves BLAMING everyone else without first beginning to QUESTION ourselves?

And I know some of you are trying to figure out what this passage is ALL about; so little understanding is what we have yet to figure out.

I spoke to a woman today who shared a co-workers testimony of how two 37 year old women wanted to retaliate with a third women of youth in age. Over a man “who obliged their request”and the twist to this is the kids because of “child endangerment” due to a “SMASH”.   

I spoke with a "fine azz aged wine" well to do mature man who shared a conversation referencing "I was married 20 years and my ex was awarded half of my PENSION". I replied have you moved on with your life? The man’s key word was I “CAN’T” commit but I am dating a younger woman. Immediately I said in order for you to find contentment in your life it has to begin by removing the word “CAN’T”. And figuring out how to tell this young lady the truth. About what you need and what she may never be able to catch up with and PRODUCE. Because 
every woman or man has met the most BEAUTIFUL woman or man in their own eyes and head. 

I’m not saying people in love don’t get hurt. What I’m saying is STOP ALLOWING YOURSELF TO BE THE VICTIM. Because men and women, boys and girls do lie or speak the truth. It's on you, me and them in accepting the next move.  

We’ve all been BROKEN in this life and overtime situations will challenge us, if not change our mind. With age and the purpose is to figure out “HOW TO GET INTO A PLACE Of Confidence in MATURITY”.

HUMANITY can understand you don’t necessarily have to wear the same titles, serve in the mega church and display college degrees to figure out what life, people and systems. Are set in place. To mold and navigate you into something OLD or NEW.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Insanity "You Don't Have to Cry No More"

If we only knew what the future would bring. And in those unpredicted moments of despair, hurt, stress, laughter and loneliness who would be our night & shining armor, angel, queen or person whom we would seek refuge in or a plead for “forgiveness”.    

Some people cry, some people lock-up their minds, some people hardened their hearts and some people just lose their way. So remember this in every season of personal, internship and business relationships, marriage and courtships, friendships and acquaintances, hardships and family relationships there are destined to be test and passed down judgment. And we as human beings should realize there is reasoning to why we all have an individual PAST full of choices and mistakes to bring us into a FUTURE of what we determine will be full of LIFE or HEARTACHE.  

If we could predict the moment of consequences, life and death then how would we change things and what would we do knowing that life and death is predestined for me and all of you.

If money could change the world we live in then why are PEOPLE still struggling, with money they struggle to find genuine people, when lack they struggle to hold one another’s back, with a desire to build they sabotage one another’s dream by “false accusations and doing  immature things”.

If religion is destined to be GLOBAL WARFARE then why do we still take or interrupt others from having their SPACE in PRAYER. Or maybe RELIGION is the answer to what people contemplate to or not to do.

What if every young boy could save a young girl; simply by saying and promising her the world. But the problem is this young boy or girl has to realize in order to keep those kind of promises you have to first appreciate real life EXPERIENCES, disappointments and heartache. So continue to be a child while you can instead consecrating and saying “I’m a grown ass WOMAN or MAN”. The world hears enough of that already from Grown people who have some life experience but insist to live in the PAST like small kids.

What if we could control time not limited to DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME. But in every moment we utilize or waste what would we accomplish and appreciate.

What if every woman and man could be fixed by human hands would we wire them to accommodate what we are feeling? And once we have matured in that emotional space do we throw them away. And the reasoning is its “HAPPENING every day in how we treat one another and then justify in leading people on in our forever CHANGING LIVES”

What trials will a BLENDED relationship deal with where young and old women and men add to new and old relationships of dealt or unresolved issues with innocent CHILDREN. And of course someone will say” I don’t do drama in my life”. But the reality is you can help who you get involved with. But many will take it on as a CHALLENGE to make it out of a PROJECT. So be mindful of whom you are willing to JOURNEY with.  

How does HUMANITY get themselves right? What if HUMANITY was not always trying to accomplish things by robbing and destroying other people’s dreams through their CORNAL WAYS. Are maybe Humanity revolves around the thought of being sane; is really living in INSANITY.