A Woman & 2 Men

I can remember the first time I fell in 

lust as a young girl. I’m still embracing the second time as a woman of how we both fell in love. And although these emotions where years apart. There will always be that one person who sincerely loves or loved your heart. After another person tears it apart.

I remember our first kiss on the dock. Then I later recalled my second flight, dinner and candle lights. With no sex involved.

I remember the first time we had sex. Then I later daydreamed about the man who laid next to me, as I slept to awake the next morning, where he was watching over me.   

I still remember yearning for your patience and tender touch. But then I remembered the other day who was actually calling my name, yearning for me to make another landing.

I can remember us talking about what you wanted not what we needed. Then one day someone shared with me their entire family.

I can remember you always were too busy to answer my calls unless you were anxiously, needing me to hold. Then one day out of the blue; another man taught me how and what he needed to hold onto.

Although this man shared with me the issues of his heart, he still managed to seek his wants. So God re-directed a plan that was out of my hands.  

I doubt that God would make a mistake in our lives. I think people have to travel down roads until they figure who, where and why. So I can live with the moment you never had time to believe and pray with me. Because one day a believer was wondering from a storm and grabbed my hand, to share with us what either one prayed to have, a beautiful beginning with no ending.

Waiting To Exhale

To all my viewers around the world this passage is dedicated to all ages of boys and girls who live on holy land, who search for riches in the desert sands, who dig for buried treasures in old tombs, who sacrifice their inheritance in exchange for people promises, and those who exist to live by chance or coincidence.  Sometimes we’re diligent in focusing on where we are instead of focusing on what can we change to move forward.  And if this does not grab your immediate attention then maybe you're still seeking to identify your own purpose.  

  

I embrace knowledge, criticism in measurements, cultural differences and communication. Or how else could people revolve in motion over a course of time that requires some form of direction, in every nation. And what I mean is we must open the barriers of our minds to process “how and why” we “hinder” to relate or disconnect. With people we love, not know or hate in any environment, filled with human emotions. 

In business or personal relationships they’re exist a full capacity of chiefs and insufficient Indians. Are maybe in a different atmosphere there is aggressive delegation with lack of planning, but high expectations with little or no communication. And it does not matter your combined years of people or work experience. Sometimes people with egos do run interference. So beware of why and how other people recognize those natural gifts that you struggle to identify with. 

Over time I have developed a better understanding of myself. I have discovered "how, why and when" “systems” and “people” progress in movement. I have mastered my own personality “naturally” so that I can hear, see, and feel, how and why we chose of either side”. And yes, it took years to mature my mind. And there are some days where I check myself to ensure I'm not volunteering my time to someone else". And eventually in time you will identify with how your behavioral patterns are easily navigated if you don't deal with your inner strengths, and weaknesses.  

I’ve been chastised about my religious beliefs. And so often I'm asked if God is sovereign then why do people suffer? My answer is "if people choose not to continue to be disobedient" and I'm not insinuating we should reach perfection. Then maybe God would take that opportunity and  turn things around so that we can EXHALE. 

It's unfortunate "pampers" were not invented for more than a limited fit. And what this means is "growth is destined to happen". So in your next move be wise, confident and accurate in your decision making. And in your next step towards change remember your commitment & consistency in who you are trying to become not entertaining situations and people who hinder you destination. Then process who is most likely to not rise with you so once the music instantly stops in your life, you are better prepared to continuing to dance, or wait for the music to start all over again.  

Brawls

It is one thing to teach our children to defend themselves in this chaotic world. It is another thing to witness adults that act out in informal ways in the presence of our maturing youth. Then question why “the violence is escalating in our lives”, where people are destined to fight if someone does not die.

In “Richmond Georgia a young man was stabbed” and later died. But it was not because EMS did not arrive in time.  Read the story to understand why. 

 There are mothers found dead in shallow places. There are young girls creeping in dangerous spaces. There are young men and dad’s found shot in the head. There is war where people seek peace and yet there is an increasing population where even more people are raising hell. Than initiating a positive impact in every state, country, race and community. So we ponder with how can we enforce people to change in it?  Well let’s start with our immature thinking and deal with how we should raise a new generation. There are many factors to why an escalation in any environment has to exist. And some readers may get pissed with this passage. But it’s no longer acceptable to express whatever we feel regardless if it takes place on social media, private lines or indirect conversations in or outside of our private or open lives. In this world we live in "brawls" escalate in real time, where human beings react in undomesticated attacks.    

 When any mother, father or the entire family loses a child of any age, race or religion there is rage. And many questions that are required to be answered. But not everyone has a soul of forgiveness and faith, so therefore people should embrace change, every second of the day because tomorrow is destined to come. Where it seems we have already proven to the world how we have not outgrown being boys and girls.

This is a wake-up call to all of humanity’s children big and small. There is no one to blame in what we reflect through our attitudes. And for every fight we initiate today just be prepared to dig two graves; one for sorrow and the other for pain. As a reminder of what we entertained of a brawl brought on with no respect of how we disrespect one another with conflict.    

The Path

A path is any direction a person of “human characteristics” or “creature of instinct” chooses to take. The only difference is there destinations may or never be the same.

In the memoirs written by Angel L there are stories of truth where lies tales. There are stories of “triumph” where “control” failed. There are skeletons in every human beings closet that is open or remains closed. There are races to run but not every living thing will manage to reach the finish line. Where real angels exist and devils roam in all forms of existence. 

There is silence where a threat controls release of violence. There is observation that monitors and leverages through generations. There are peace treaties that still remain at ease. There is friendships there are never meant to be broken. There are associations that will test; every thresh hold of your patience. And when this leak occurs in that relationship, trust there will be little or no negotiations to bargain with.  

There is still some good left in this world. And Angel L knows the truth. But it did take some quality time even for me to see; the real purpose in fighting through this life by visioning what remains to be seen, through the eyes of what is chosen or not chosen to see, of “notorious” diversions and “mild” mannered interactions, in all races of HUMANITY. 

There are several movements that are destined to challenge every realm of who you are and what you believe. So therefore time was created with a narrator in every story line. To guide you through time but it’s not on everyone’s side. So therefore one day we must be prepared to say our goodbyes. At the PATH where our worlds will divide, connect or collide.

Vacation

Whether you have or have not the ability to travel create a place of escape with the intentions of leaving the world behind for a moment in treasuring peaceful time.  Focus on enjoying the labor of your harvest and not on what tomorrow could bring, grasp this moment and focus on more fruitful things. Hug your love ones as tight as you can, eventually they will be torn from your hands. Enjoy the airway while it is still free soon the TSA will be unable to control the air space due to calamity coming its way.

Take long walks around the parks. Enjoy a bike ride with your spouse and kids. Thank god everyday for the educators who are enforcing the fight to end education growth is purely spite. Invest in a passport while there is time eventually everyone will be restricted to their own side. Consume healthy food you would have never tried, eventually it will be destroyed by pesticides. Don’t allow the financial torture to destroy your life, people your more precious than trying to contend with the worldly price. So why wait to plan another day, instead allow the sunshine to brush against your beautiful face. Eventually darkness will consume this entire place.

The news has advertised another claim of attack on Brussels. Although this is a huge concern please listen to what is said from whom you can't hear. It's seems there is war throughout the land. So still travel abroad and safely with travel.gov. Watch the crowds and movement in whatever state or country you are in. And just continue to enjoy the pleasures of life, while we can. 

A Thorn in My Side

 All relationships require a level of respect and understanding. All communicators require some form of open-end collaboration. 

Today I received some news.  And in order for me to process it with “positivety ” I must admit to myself that I’m prepared to move forward and release what was initially “disturbing me” so often we bury the burdens of our lives which may have occurred through a duration of time stemming from relationships that involve parents, siblings, friends or associates, so we never disclose the information that haunts us in reaching our final destination.   

In the biblical readings it read Paul struggled with “A Thorn in his side” and prayed for relief to God three times. And Jesus did the same three times for removal of the spiritual Thorn in Paul’s life. Corinthians:

A “thorn in my side” is not always a hardship allocated to one type of person. A thorn in my side is events occurring in one moment or choices made over time.

A Thorn in My Side resurfaces from a realm of spiritual disobedience. Not just what people say is a string of back luck, rare illnesses or physical infirmities that even scholars have yet to find a resolution.  Have you ever attempted to make a person happy? Only to find out what this person desperately seeks is not meant to be within their are your reach reach? And what I mean is someone who has already committed themselves to something or someone, or maybe this someone has no plan of involving themselves. Where someone else may struggle with a cycle of disobedience and rebellion in their marriages, small or grown up kids, sometimes that spiritual thorn that aches could stem from one to a majority of places. For instance if you have been blessed with gifts but ration those gifts to whoever will take them in return for what you desire to have of them. Because love has no price any man can pay, or neither does respect that’s has to be earned on any given day.

    One day while working in a professional atmosphere out of the blue a distinguished gentleman mentioned to me; how his “marriages” did not work out the third time around. I giggled and replied “maybe it was you who did not take enough time in between time to figure out why. 

      

      I knew a woman in my life that searched for a man to make her, his wife. In the beginning this man was a dream come true. There was not anything that he would not do, to make this woman’s dream come true. They traveled and had son a son to carry his last name. Then one day Satan came in and to her surprise this dream man would affect her and that child's life. They struggled to find good people in their lives. They dealt with unstable relationships. They labored faithfully; sometimes they were just happy to share everything. Is when people "drained that open door of opportunity" as people mocked their infirmities, eventually this woman made her bed and left everything behind to save herself & those beautiful kids, and married a good man who prayed for a family to love him in return. The story ends like this prior to her new marriage this man stalked this family for years even after he was remarried. The one child suffered over years to understand his daddy as the other child over years struggled to sleep through the nightmares. Until God said it's time to let go and live. 

  

    The storms will rage in our lives. No matter what race you are in this life where laughter inspires us to live until we die. Is why I give all praises and honor to the head of my life. The one who made the ultimate sacrifice and commanded my wrongs to right, and spoke to my enemies who plotted on me throughout the night making me more grateful to have taken the time to appreciate my grandmother’s prayers in my life, my mother for staying strong and believing in her children in every storm, and my aunts strong will to see I turn out to be the best I can be. Oh, did I not mention the father figure in my life who shared with me his war stories, the rules of engagement and how a gentleman should treat a lady who 'requires' it.

There is another question that Humanity leaves unanswered. Why do the good suffer with the bad, knowing the truth is Humanity has no idea of God's real purpose and 1 plan, for mankinf will have to work, pray and remain steadfast.  

A Woman’s Worth

A woman's creation is one of the most precious gifts, God could have invented.

This woman God made desires to nurture in everything she does; she seeks any and every opportunity to for fill a request or need.

This woman is submissive under the direction of proper control. This woman flips many hats. She can multi task; a mother, motivator, creator, educator, visionary, partner, best friend, leader in whatever she commits to. And some women demand requirements be met and certain expectations must also be accommodated. 

This woman is a nurturer from her hands to her breast, this woman is temperamental under are in any situation.

This woman is quick to give, and some are slow to take. This woman accounts for the choices she has made.

This woman can at times be the hunter instead of prey. This woman is strong from her head down to her precious feet.

This woman will follow direction, but some may take the lead if you’re not attentive.

This woman is not weak. But sometimes in life some women take a journey on the dark side.

This woman has an inquisitive intuition, but sometimes her desire to love and need for compassion, offsets the opposites in negative and positive attractions.

This woman was blessed with precious jewels in between her legs and diamonds inside her head and surrounding all her physical attributes. But so often her treasures are abused, misused or not paid any attention to. Why, because people tend to satisfy other purposes that are worthless in her life.

This woman has a golden hand and brilliant brain to think with. But sometimes she is impatient, vulnerable are manipulated. Into thinking people deserve it.

“Debt” or “Resolutions”

I hope no one takes this passage in the wrong context. But the reality is someone will get sensitive. Which means I have your undivided attention. 

Why do people drive without a driver’s license when we all know the rules and consequences? Of course things financially happen in our lives, but that’s not always the excuse to why people continue to drive. And know there is a possibility of doing jail time.

Why do people purchase items beyond their means? Of course we understand that credit is just a promise to pay for items we can’t satisfy with real money to cover emergencies in our lives. And although some people don’t suffer for cash then why allow your bills to accumulate for over 45 to 90 days to pay.

Why do people obtain other folks misery?  I’m not talking about helping out. I’m making a point of this; if rent is a struggle for you to pay month to month, check to check. Then why not live with family. And if family does not wish to alleviate the stress, maybe it is time to invest, because people are expecting to be accommodated. 

Why do people avoid filing income taxes are use other folk’s kids. And this is for the middle class and the rich. Because the IRS will not wait to see what you are willing to give, verses what they plan to take on any given day.

Why do people value stuff and not looking into what will rust? Land is a hot commodity and pennies, nickel, quarters and dimes will add up over time. 

Why do people insist to deal with illegal drug use and distribution of pharmaceuticals? Are have you not heard “Doctors” are now concerned to why numerous amounts of youth are being diagnosed with a rare form of cancer, not limited to their throats. But someone has a testimony “that there is one drug that has cured what they can no longer endure” of watching the pain eat their children away”. While some of us lack to have a pension, 401 k or savings plan. Not limited to any race, culture or age in this land.

I know time is not in our control. But if you're always running late then what is prioritized for you to do? 

I know people have to do whatever it is they do, to survive. But people jail time is not saving or enriching nobody’s life, are have you not heard the statistics of growth & survival rate in a 6”8 cell space.

And if you’re not concerned with the consequences we bring into our selves, if you’re no longer concerned about how we can survive. And if you think money will cure what is still alive then maybe people will change their actions in doing things. To make you appreciate what you are holding onto “TODAY”. 

Heaven

                                                             

How close are we to heaven today? And who thinks they are near completing the price that has already be paid.  And if we look into ourselves today, some of us can see what we refuse to change, some of us think we are fine on someone else's prayers, some us are religious, some of us think we’re going to make it to heaven on status and money. And hell the rest just don't care. 

Is there a possibility that God could be impressed with what has been called into Gods existence here on earth?

Did man create ideas and intuition? Did man create our physical movements?

Did man create a woman’s womb? Did man create a man's testicals?  

Did man tell the wind to blow? Did man make it rain, sleet and snow? 

Did man hang the stars in the sky? Did man turn the day into night?

Did man adjust the seasons? Did man endorse time?

Did man breathe life? Did man control the mudslides and tsunamis from taking place?

Did man create the day’s and hour’s we may harvest and rest?

Did books write themselves? Then how did religion become the issue around the world. If man did not have stories to tell?  

Then why does God deserve man’s disobedience and impatience?

And if some of us believe there is no purpose to serve God.  No compassion to acknowledge God. No interest in knowing God. Then proceed in believing in man, just make sure you clearly understand his creations, intentions and directions.

The Error In My Ways

I must say “how change made me see” the error in my ways. And because I notice it in myself, I can embrace the reciprocation moving towards my transformation. 

My story began as a child. And before we start let’s get this story clear. I was raised by a single mom a portion of my entire life. My family has always been religious which kept me grounded during the hell I experienced, my guardian’s implemented respect and strict rules that had to be obliged, no matter how people or disrespectful and rude. Just don’t allow them to run over you. So I knew in my childish heart that one day I would deal with people who would attempt, with access, to destroy my groomed spirit. And on that day my real journey took place. 

As a child I did childish things. I had my moment of rebelliousness. I had my moment of questionable situations. I had a moment to think about how my choices in people and things. And how the two were no longer working out for me, then one day I decided to change my circle of friends, and set my family straight on how we must always communicate in a mild mannered way, because overtime all people tend to get out of line.

As a young girl I had endowed special gifts that were not like others. So I was judged for it. I was always seeking new ways to encourage someone along the way. I was always taking from my plate to share with others who portrayed they had more than me in society. I was always the person who knew struggling was not healthy but destined if we were not to change our boxed thinking. I've been associated with people who think they are out of one another’s league, but there inner desires would lead them too what they say “I will never do or say”. I was always the person to share my last, even when I knew you would never return the favor to me, what I have sacrificed for you. I was always the person who made mature decisions in my personal relationships, and lord help us all in our appreciated, or simple and selfish ways.  I was that friend who you could call but after a while the request became overwhelming with foolishness. I was always inspiring prayer, even when I knew you were to weak too believe. I was the person who would listen to repetition, and overtime people caught onto how the advice I was sharing was overwhelming. Because they were not looking for change, they were looking for a fool to keep jumping through loops. 

The entirety of Angel L’s stories is based on real testimonials, our true actions and our deceitful intentions. So the reasoning to why I share truth. Is because I lived it or experienced it, witnessed it or heard it from someone else and that is why I’m balanced and confident with sharing with you about myself.

I assisted a young girl with book sense but lacked the real world of knowledge. So I went into her space and offered my help & advice. This young girl’s attitude was clear that I was only needed to satisfy her one mission for that moment in time. But what I did share is people will waste your time, if you’re not mindful to appreciate other people’s time. And although book sense is great, having common sense will take you along way. Have a great day.

I called a friend but again there was a missed call. So finally we talked. And this friend made me aware of all her plans but what was the real intention in her reasoning to not answer both the missed calls. So I said maybe you did not recognize the caller responding back to you. Immediately there was a smart remark. And keep in mind this was not on her but my talk time.  

I flew up to see an old friend who coordinated the message related. And again I could hear the alarms ringing loud and clear. So I jumped on a plane. And yes I did it again! Months later this friend was in a better situation. So the stories stopped and so did the line drop.

I saw a family member in distress, but not in a new situation. And yes I was fed information, but my advice not money was rejected.  So now I’m the pet detective. 

I was in a courtship for years with a man. We both made choices. But somehow our ways were judged one way. And what I learned is how to possess some standards and expectations. So don’t let any and every one ruin your reputation.  

So we can clearly see; how people change, remain the same, judge one another for how we treat each other doing the same things, and the choices we make do cause things to spiral each and every way.

What I did not know was “with any gift, there will be burdens” and my reasoning to why I share these truths is to intervene in situations, where man will lie through manipulation, without hesitation.  

“CONSCIOUS”

                                                 

It’s one thing to know what needs to be done. It’s another thing to not initiate the change.

It’s one thing to plan for the moment. It’s another thing to wait on being invited into it.

It’s one thing to know people identify your low-esteem. It’s just insane you refuse to change.

It’s one thing to work in repetition. It’s a damn shame you still expect change.

It’s a choice to not believe in religion or prayer. It’s preposterous to think that God will work through how people think God should answer that  prayer, immediately. Top of Form

It's amazing sex accounts for fifty percent of any relationship. It's out of orbit to think people bypass communication for ass in any class, of relationships. 

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It’s sad to see how people are so disrespectful and ungrateful. It’s foolishness to assume they deserve attention.

It’s one thing to advertise I got a beau or husband. It’s unhealthy to know how people share what they don’t have a handle on “control”.

It’s amazing to see how society mimics ghetto characteristics. It’s confusing and conflicting to not think and see the contribution to our children and families. Who can’t seem to not progress in poverty thinking.  

It’s a blessing to be financially blessed. It’s draining to think people have too much access. To any one of age and everything that destroys change.

It’s sexy to be acquainted with power & control. It’s devastating to know who you become. 

It’s miraculous to witness a miracle or triumph. It’s heart felt to witness people who had no clue on what to do and stranger to see how people act once the final results are completed.

It’s sad to hear someone has died. It’s weird to see how people treat one another while they are alive.

  

It’s alarming to hear wars have continued on for ages, everywhere. It’s draining to think that war is something people create. And don't care who they cremate.

It’s amazing how all of humanity has a conscious. It’s draw drenching how we utilize it.