Erotica

There is a songstress named Betty Wright who serenaded good love in life “no pain, no gain” which excelled in informing women about certain things, but often some people may never understand the twist and turns of how being in love is “de le crème”. But also it is tagged to silly games that people will surreptitiously play. So in order to gain loves trust and respect you must be prepared to give into a few things. In order to have someone else’s love regardless of whom you choose to be with.  

The word compatibility means much more than physical attractions. Where a female and male meet, then mate before they figure out; it’s more than just sex they could have done without. So is it true a person can admire your body and love you without their entire heart. And if so, then what happens to the remainder of their soul. Well listen up young girl to an older woman’s tale. Why, because no man or woman is ever done learning valuable lessons in this world.

Sometimes there will be pain and no gain. There will be resentment if not contentment. There will be love if not infatuation in quickies or bamboozled situations. And the one thing we bargain with in ourselves is knowing how we’re guilty of wanting things or people we should not have.

It’s a new day and people are freely sharing, in every age. Generations are like a bowl of mixed nuts. Where everyone is mixing up, and dare you to share some “pain & gain” life experience. Women and girls check your attractions then later you will not have to question your actions. Young boys and men every place is not safe to lay your pants or leave deposits in.   

And it’s ok to take offense in a world filled with people who make choices, mistakes, accidents and show pure arrogance. And you think “experience” would complement, what could have been prevented of some mild mannered choices. The good news is; there are some people who have figured out, what they can live with, or whom they can’t stand to be without. In a world filled with consequences and temptations.

Do you wholeheartedly believe; that you are a pillar of strength, where you surrender to weakness. 

Addictions

 How could I forget you when every thought that could have been me and you, manages to make me feel “Misty Blue” and there were times when I deprived myself knowing that you were a pass time for everyone else. So instead we both stayed around, and continued in entertaining one another simply because I allowed you to hang around.  But for some reason I can no longer hide this pain I feel inside. And we both know that addictions destroy lives. Because it does not ponder with; whether he or she will give up or forever stay in love with this deceit in which you seek to find in attention, love, comfort and peace. If only they could disconnect from me. I would no longer possess this power over them. And where they strongly desire to be held in open arms just to feel safe and warm, but I’m afraid to allow them to have strength and reveal what makes me real. I don’t know what life has in store for me. But eventually someone will say “love is a possibility” then they will no longer believe in me.  And once they choose to no longer stand in their own way, destiny will deal with me.        

I must admit it’s been awhile since I’ve last slept. It’s been some time since love had no regrets. And yes, it’s been some generations since the truth has been revealed. All because of the addicted way people love to feel in my world where dreams are real. So how did I the “addiction” find my way into families, education, careers and society? Well no one took the appropriate time to question their own lives. If only they would have asked to themselves; why do I continue in settling for everything else? They would have known that this hidden addiction would surface soon.

They say time will heal all wounds. But in the meantime this addiction gives me a “voice and a peace of mind” it no longer feels out of place in a world of people that harbor me every day. And yes, I am your deepest desire that shows up in different attires. I am the voice of reasoning in your hardships. I am the face you are familiar with. I am in the love you desire to die for. I am carefree, ruthless, arrogant and ambitious. I am aroused by your submission. I consume all ages. I live in your conscious and all always prepared to pursue you in vulnerable places. So I need you to understand how there is always going to be some good and bad, on every hand. And while some of you pray, I'm also preying on your weakness, which is my soul mate.

Of course I’m always optimistic and pessimistic regarding your change. But the truth still remains; until you find balance in your life and not always believe that the grass is greener on the other side of life. We will deceive the other into not figuring out, what this addiction is all about. 

Developing Business Savvy

When our ancestors thirst for water & bread; man offered an opportunity to work. And on my journey through life I heard many voices to write; the days and stories of our lives. 

The business world is a module of “profit” "consumers" and “demand”, and underneath these business umbrellas you will communicate with an arena of retailers, producers, builders, developers, planners and investors. Who take alternate approaches in servicing the customer based on what is their life demand.. And how will we “transport” "market" and “sale” it to them.     

In today’s society everyone is a customer, even the face you can’t see underneath each umbrella. We all have a creative approach to closing an interview. But so does the interviewer who has already implemented their own ideas in their business module plan. So therefore any style of person will be the candidate chosen to compliment, the bottom lines of that business. And before we begin this segment, I’m not writing to discourage any human being to quit what they have invested of their life, for retirement. But what I am encouraging you to do is in; business always be open to closing.

So what happened over the years from our ancestors forwarded today, in a new world of “demand” filled with people and their business ideas? Well let’s do the math. Some businesses maintained their success rate. Some businesses still offer quality and reputable services. Some businesses were bids overnight. And some consumers did not want the responsibility, and instead continued to be “worker bees’. Some people became accustomed to a life that was comfortable in their 8-5.  Some people put their vision to the side, in an attempt to keep up with life. So they were titled the consumers, and a few still struggle to comprehend the structure of a business and relationship plan. And please do not take the wrong approach by saying “I been doing or in this business for many years. And if so the next question is; why has humanity not kept up with the “demand, quality and services”.  

There is some truth to the old cliché regarding “Money” which it will never be sufficient to humanity. Why, because of the “demands, service and quality” that will not outlast what people want and need. 

Fear is the culprit in any business transaction. And perfection is how you market it. So no matter what your service, and product, talent or creative plan is never settle for anything of lesser in doing the Business. 

CAMOUFLAGE

Before I begin I was ask the question "what type of attention do I expect to receive from my writings". I responded with a smile “not much at all”. Because what I’ve done is taken a leap of faith and chose to write factual occurrences from humanities lives. So just in case people in this life decide to change how we treat one another and execute things. There will be some history on how we once “use to be”.  

This new generation in all races and ages seem to devalue life. And what I mean is we’re playing with fire. Children are grinding as adults video tape, giggle and laugh. While some children & adults struggle to correct jumbled dialect, execute a math problem. If not spell, read and write. Some adults cohabitate in misappropriate ways. While families are being destroyed by domestic abuse overnight. Young men and girls are beaten to death by their own hands. If not taken out by the drugs slid into their trembling hands. Adults are focused about searching for love online; but quick to avoid one another in the streets with wandering eyes. Everybody wants to be rich, sexy and slick while the system is crashing. Sex is overrated but advertised everywhere we drive, eat and sit, even in church. And what I mean is people are walking alluring billboards that read “sex” is what the world needs. Mental illness, drugs and war is not a game so therefore you must not get too relaxed; on what has yet to be managed. Attending a wedding reception is by chance that two people are marrying one another for love & to progress; not just for financial security. And yes, people would love to be wealthy and rich, if not comfortable and focused. In a place where people are running tight on space and "camouflage" means; adjusting who we are on the outside, to feel good about what we have become on the inside. And no writing of Angel l is ranting and rage. This is humanities reality which brings us to:

All the time laughter is required to remind us when situations occur; how people forget to care.

Sometimes paying it forward; does not mean people will always remember to look backwards.

        

       A glass half empty does not always need to be filled to the top; until we understand the difference between a little and lot.

Sometimes being in love with the wrong people “oozes” the life out of you; but eventually time does heal all wombs.

The grass always looks greener on the opposite side. And so would yours if you would consider investing more of your time; in what is meant to grow in your life.

Sometimes it’s refreshing to see people release wasted energy.  And the reason why, is what you thought you knew, has now been revealed to you.

Sometimes fear is the only thing some people can relate to, sometimes showing happiness is all a person has to look forward too. Sometimes people are lonely not by choice, but by their own destructive personality. 

Sometimes people just like seeing what reaction they can snatch out of you. And it’s up to you in figuring out; how to build a shield around yourself and house. And once you decide to embark on living the fullest pace in this life, there will be no regrets.

At the beginning of every race each runner has a marked place. But not every runner will endure the race. Therefore, you must possess "courage" and set your pace, to step out on unknown territories.

Mother's Day

This mother's day I am grateful and happy to see my mother. But the sad news is someone has lost their mother over the years. And that broken heart still yearns to have that motherly talk. So today I will speak from the last moments that I spent with a special woman in my life, and although I have my mother. This woman is the one that bonded us together. Why, it was through her womb she decided to give my mother life.

Dear Grandma, 
I miss your chuckle and how you use to say "what's up doc" how are things going your way. I miss our prayer time on those late night calls. I miss the aroma of those homemade biscuits in my dream. I miss your aroma in the night air breeze. I miss getting dressed in our Sunday best for church services. I miss your stories and how you would make it through life. And in the end what you told me. I will "cherish" it the rest of my life. You were the link in this family’s chain. You were my strength through the night and shining armor when the enemy came. You were the voice of reasoning to get me through these troubling days. And for that I thank you for being who you are from yesterday.

Dear Mom, 
Words are not enough to express my gratitude and respect for you. And to be honest you were always my best friend, thanks to Grandma who made it happen. So a long time ago I made a vow that if I promised to be obedient; that God would allow me to see my mother, in my latter years. And yes, here she is.

Mom, the world has changed and although we speak every day. I can hear things in your voice of how the world has changed. And know it's nothing you could have done better in this life. Time was just destined to change people overtime. Children were destined to choose their own paths, families would unite in differen circumstances, and struggles would be inevitable. Because of father time who would let all of humanity know; I am, not man who is in control. See mom how our stories from the past would bring us closer together in time. Where people would grasp onto what others are unfortunate to not have, and the reason why I still shared; it was because most of my old friends lost their mothers. I wish you could still hear the laughter I once heard on every call. And those days where we just stowed away until life changed us all. Because the labor increased making people grow weary. But I'm so blessed to know that the women in my life; were gentle and peaceful, forgiving and faithful, appreciative just to love in this life. You are the extension of the woman I grew into. We were the story that was meant to be told.  I love you mom & Happy Mother’s Day!

And for those who have lost their mom think about this: child when I can no longer find peace on this earth. And you are too busy with what life will not allow you to keep up with; will you remember me when I'm old and gray. When my footsteps are short in space; will you take time to refocus on the tools I provided you, to make it through hard times? Will you remember the reason why I was there for you in this life? And if so mourn for me a little while, child because tomorrow has its own plan and I need you to be focused on where you plan on going. Why, because this place is not our permanent home. And one day I will be gone. But before I leave I left "love" in a package where you can always remember me. Now lift up your head high and wipe your eyes. There is work to be done, and we can't finish until you have completed your run.

And for those who have animosity in their hearts towards a mother. Listen closely, in order to find peace in yourself. First, you must release that hate for someone else. See my children "young" and "old" how people will make choices "good & bad". But we don't ever have to understand it. So if time allows you another day, why not look over your life and figure out; what is of worth in it, to allow you to find "forgiveness so that you may move into another day to rewrite a new chapter in your life.

Endorphin

People interpret one another through emotions and physical ways. But without the proper interaction of communication, and realm of understanding these same people who are destined to internally change, will find out how “endorphin” alleviates stimulation in our brains. The reality to why people emotionally and physically react to all things, in this life. So therefore it’s important we deal with the emotional and physical changes in ourselves. In order to accept and change what we feel “emotionally” and “physically” in dealing with everything else. Why, because what we as a people assume of our academics and street intelligence will eventually collide with the ramifications of change that is gradually occurring in real people’s life.

I knew a mother who loved all of her children, but not the same. Because of life’s journey that would bring on heartache, laughter and pain. Why, because these children were not destined to be the same; emotionally and physically only genetically. So once they grew up in age everything changed, drastically. So therefore this mother questioned if not prayed before re-examining the choices she had once made. In order for her to figure out that a man or mate should add, or could subtract from her “change” one day, simply due to choices that are “inevitable”, but they must be made.  

One day a boy looked to his mother for all the answers to why children and love is so important in a girl or woman's life. Some mothers had good responses while some did not know how to reiterate an answer. Then one day this boy thought he was prepared to be a man & created children and married a wife which groomed him rapidly into a man overnight. Learning and struggling with unanswered questions for the remainder of his life. Therefore if any female is faced with how can a male at any stage of his life, become a slave to Kush, love more than one woman at a time, or refuse to grow out of a little boys mind. Remember it was a woman who could not provide answers to this child at birth, and some man who walked away from responsibility and dismissed taking on accountability to continue in replenishing the earth with other woman nurturers looking for a foundation. So the results ended in how both parents managed to not answer this boy’s concerns; why is having children and love so important to her. 

I can now relate to why; people must feel important, respected and acknowledged in life because humanity seeks to feel a level of comfort if not validation in their own skin.  and when a person becomes insecure, fearful or uncomfortable because of the lack of being acknowledge, respected and validated.  It causes a behavioral change in their patterns.  

I have experienced a place of loneliness with people standing around, but never desperate enough to give up on me. Whether it was death or in situations where people placed clarity on what they were only willing to offer and invest to settle with me, therefore I expected to lose many.  

I spoke with a person of interest. Who said I’ve kept relationships for over 20 years. So why was our friendship not relationship so different, because this person in whom I trusted with my friendship did not reveal their “horny” physical interest. So one day our friendship was tested, due to a lack of communicating “expectations”. I immediately placed a call to see; what did I miss and is it something we can fix. The person said we’re good and my schedule is wide-open. And what I learned is after all these years of emotionally working through myself to deal with the loss of fluctuating associates, people and friends in my life. How one day was inevitable for a break in our lives. Because we never communicated in the right way, are respected one another for making a personal change. 

I understand now why so many people attempt suicide. And not I’m speaking in light of who has taken his or her own life. I’m reflecting on the “emotional and physical” decisions people make in this life.  

Recently I took a flight and without placing restrictions and limitations on my everyday arrivals and departures through life. I was destined to make a change for this flight “emotionally and physically” in order to deal with the road blocks set ahead in life, so once this stewardess accomplished accommodating a passenger in seating due to their physical weight. I had to immediately adjust emotionally in my weary space of departures and arrivals in my day. In order to accommodate a servant’s way of making this passenger sit comfortably, from their original space, a few inches away from people who did not physically accept “change” in space. Is when I immediately whispered to this person and said “these two sits were empty for one reason”, the passenger smiled and immediately I fell asleep. But not before I ask God to forgive me; for I would also be tested as a faithful servant. Then later on in the flight the same stewardess would pass me bye, in the same row I did not hear “would you like something to drink” as I close my eyes and drifted back to sleep, finding peace.    

We live in a society where people are accustomed to stir in many directions. That will challenge one another emotionally and physically, resulting in human change. That does not always take place in a cordial, natural or peaceful way.   

I hear things can be better if people work at being better to them self’s; before attempting to change someone else. I’ve experienced generational triumphs and pain. And in order for us to experience a generation of peace; we must first deal with our internal enemy.

I know what it feels like to appreciate time management while attempting to survive in poverty for more enrichment in life. I can relate to power, wealth-and contentment; because a peace of mind is priceless. But a choice will be made, in what you’re willing to forfeit of things and people you can no longer internally process or change.

Do we not know how the wealthiest man is a servant to his or her own inheritance? Do we not identify with how we all must labor in this life and not only for profit? Do we all not identify with; if we continue to resist the Endorphin in our brains, we continue to lose track of managing our “time” in which we relinquish over time.   

 We live in candied society where people are accustomed to act out the extreme, if not process thinking. And we have witnessed humanity perform “Temper Tantrums” like the ones in babies. So what I mean is we are quick to judge before judging ourselves, we are to contagious to stress then wonder why is it mess. We are quick to lie and blame it on someone else. We quick to be angered then implement religion in our own devilish acts, so that we can honestly live with; we’re much better than the next person.

A blue print plan is something in our wiring not created by man. But yet some of us choose man over religion. Therefore we’re all destined to take paths, but for some of us we are going to be routed in opposite directions.

I have not always reached the height of perfection in my life. I have not always accommodated man's or woman's expectations. I have not always agreed with my family, but I will continue in loving them dearly. And I have figured out "myself', how people in time revolve in silence and act out loud. Life will not allow us the time to get people up to speed, about our life. Just be open when “sincere” people show up a chance in a lifetime.  

-Angel L signing off, once I decided to Jump!

Communicators

The word is effective in any type of relationship. But for some reason people would like to not utilize it. Only to get in return what is not put into a positive conversation.  Could there be a possibility people would have a better understanding are maybe some love to entertain the airiness of redundancy, in not communicating. And the reason I say that is look how we react, to what we don’t require to understand with simple communication.

We have witnessed the reality shows, where someone says "let's keep it real". And yes it brings to light what may be an addition to a written script, of how some people may really act. And this could be a sign of where there is a division in class. Simply because of how people communicate and show their natural ass with dialect in non-proper communication. 

We have viewed “brawls” in the public eye. And I’m not just talking about childish disagreements. I’m referring to adults “men, boys, girls and women” fuss, curse and fight, where some people are set on taking out another person’s life. See how our attitudes set the tone, where communication possibly would have resolved an oncoming storm.

We have witnessed adults argue with their small and adult children. And in some situations if that adult would have focused on being the parent and not that child’s best friend, the issue would have been resolved with a few lines of communication. 

We have witnessed all over the world; work place violence, family abuse, domestic violence, incest, police brutality, child sex slavery, human trafficking, riots in the streets, drug deals gone bad, road rage, jealousy between friends and rage gone bad, race wars and wars that make dollars but no sense. And yet the same people who with pride and anger say this is profound. But where did the barriers of communication break down?

We have witnessed how people come together in catastrophic times. We have witnessed how people get angered at the drop of a dime. We have witnessed how people will globally cross thin lines. We are guilty of bearing the burdens of unhealthy relationships to justify our time committed, and out of all the possible circumstances that could occur to any human being on any given day; how does humanity not find a way to communicate.     

The truth and reality is very hard for some people to accept. It will either “harden” their hearts or “challenge them to change themselves”. So in whatever relationship in this life you accept, just be prepared for “lack of, non-communication, and some verbal communication” so that you may determine your final destination.

Angel L signing off'; only means the next level were on. 

Trios

I observed a man as he spoke to a crowd of listeners. And what this man said is nothing new from humanity’s past. It was how the “crowd reacted” to what they are reluctant to change, but accepting to whomever can explain the “ties” between religion, man and money.

Religion is not a human being. Religion is not an immortal thing. Religion is not tangible. Religion is what people choose. And money is access to what people create to do. So if we were to thoroughly take accountability and respond to the choices in our lives; what can we honestly say has been an unselfish sacrifice to “have or have not” are what did we choose to sacrifice for the “improvement” of change in a  system “created” on humanity’s preservation of life.

This man spoke about how religious people tithe in their community churches then how their money is immediately invested in; neutral color of hands. But this is not where the problem began. It’s only where the situation takes a turn. To justify what we say is “understanding” of how the “systems” designed for humanity work, so how is “religion” the ultimate threat, and not in the direction of our chosen leaders, in whom we trust to financially educate us and invest our money within our own neighborhoods. And let’s not limit it to the church. Today allow all mankind to do their mathematics in homework.

We could hold a world forum with “the master’s, masses, middle class and the underdevelopment classes” and it would not change the way people feel towards “religion, people’s progress and money”. So when a person speaks on gentrification everyone knows the real history of what man took of what did not belong to his works, begged for equality and borrowed to survive in interest and taxed times. So in order for there to be a generation of mankind it has to revolve around leaders who will always think ahead to leave a following of people behind. Or those followers would eventually; read and catch up with the times.

The message is relevant because of the choices we are making in this moment that will effect what decisions have already been implemented into our tomorrow. So is religion and money really the problem in humanity, and how so if both are a choice and not an option. Of what man has managed to create of historical problems? 

Planning Love

When a plan is being implemented, you will know if you’re a part of it. No assumption on your part required. So ladies and gentlemen, hold your partner down and every now and then "check in" to ensure you're both in one another's plan, not promises.

The plan today is to understand what you’re a part of and what is it you have initiated, just in case you’re not caught riding on an emotional roller coaster. And by no means does this passage say “a man can’t change”. The reality is a man loves to hunt for what is pleasurable in catering to his inner emotional and physical needs. So what is it with the question from all over the world “why do men cheat, and the answer again is “all men don’t cheat” some actually tell you the truth in what they say or not do. So the question should be; why do women and girls continue to seek the answers they would like to hear, and not be prepared to accept the truth. In what has not been “clearly re-iterated” and in most situations “demonstrated” loud and clear. Of what this boy or man has of requirements to satisfy what it is he wants or needs, at any time in his life.

Who does not desire to be loved, protected, respected and physically satisfied? And yet we find ourselves fighting one another over desires we can’t control within ourselves. It’s so funny how some people continuously search drastically for love. But yet they swear there is no one willing to honestly share one love. And I’m not referencing sharing your mate, so be very cautious of that, for one day you will regret it.  And yes, I am referring to waiting to exhale for that next longing touch and kiss, which never erases the burdens and lies in being heart broken.

No, who really wants to be alone even a pimp really knows the lost in losing his property, yes be will break rules for that one woman he will make and respect as his wife, who will not be sold for a price. Again, here it is unless his heart gives into change of what his mind has changed. So little girl or woman who swears I can make his change with what is between my thighs and in my heart. Think again a man is also capable of being in love not lust with more than one woman. But you will never know until his heart aches and his mind breaks. So before you assume you’re not worthy are good enough for someone else. Pull yourself together from another plan and create one you can feel alive in.

I’m destined to see; who has been praying and making plans to grow with me; whole heartedly in my enriched plan of family. See how we need one another to survive and multiply. With all the turmoil that resolves in the world today. How is it we can’t find one love to share in a plan that could take us any and everywhere?  

Obesity

This is a condition world-wide and it does not discriminate on the next patient it will make. Obesity can occur in any household, age, and race. And if a dietary plan has not been implemented or overweight managed, obesity will cause long term health conditions. Obesity has many forms in which it occurs; a few being genetics, poor diet or overindulging due to depression. And know no one is attempting to discourage you to not enjoy food. What your body is saying to you is “evaluate what you eat in moderation” “manage your weight” so that you may have a longer and healthier life, with or without insulin.

It’s ok that we have busy lives. But when your body yields to warning signs, it just makes sense to research why a decrease in energy is occurring more than half of the time. And although supplements may give you increasing energy it will not internally heal the entire body.

Obama healthcare is in effect and although some people have negative views and would love to see it removed. But if you were never sure of how you were going to afford healthcare this would be the proper time to remove all fears. And utilize what you are able to sacrifice today, for tomorrow is destined to create new laws with change.  

I overheard a child say “would you still love me” if I lost this weight. The adult turned to say “I love you” not for how you look. But we must try together, to get you feeling better.

I watch myself and how people work off their emotions in different ways. But there is a problem with being overweight in every age.

What will you, your children and family do today, in working towards a healthier lifestyle change to being a happier you?

Based on real life recoveries..

Domino Effect

 To all my young and adult parents around the world we have a story to tell. And before we begin this passage, we need to establish a mutual understanding. Of why certain people are required to get involved and being “noisy” is not exempt from being a choice when there are "small children" involved. Why, because what some people in society have become accustomed to; is in my house it's ran by my rules. Therefore acceptance of whatever is happening behind closed doors carries a "big risk" in caring for the best interest of these kids.  

It's happening in every household rich and poor around the globe. Children are being neglected and going unprotected. But listen carefully to what is a reality in this; some people are creating a solid environment with what they have. And that does not mean they don't love their kids. Some people have open door policies, so there children are becoming an "access" to prey. Where people and their emotions run high in a space where there is a ratio of adults involved; the understanding gets really small, because dealing with people that refuse taking on accountability, will only destroy a relationship behind “kids”. And some partners and parents are afraid to lose that "dysfunctional cycle" in this relationship. And this is where the children pay a price, for having arrogance in their lives. 

A young engineer applied his logic to a theory I had. It referenced balance. And if people are made up of "good & bad" maybe there balance does not exist in humanism. I immediately commended his logic. But the truth is in order for humanism to exist; we have no choice but to find a balance.  

Therefore people will continue in choosing similar path in not understanding what human actions make up "good or bad". See how people pay a price for being "careless and disrespectful" to one another in this life. And we argue, fuss and fight about our vicious test in this life.