BLUSH II

Ladies a man will ask “what do you want in a man” A boy will prove to you “I know you wanted it, too”.   

In either of your preferences Reply with one response: a girl’s way, if not a woman.

I need a man with a pallet of different taste. He will say “what do you mean”.  I need a man who is adventurous but also knows his strengths, vision & weakness.

Ladies some men will not respect, your comfort zone. Unless you show up for either of them in what you will or will not do. And in return is how a man or boy will respect you.

Ladies men are observant, but not always verbal. Watch out of what we over compensate in our woman strength. For either it could be; their ultimate mission. 

Ladies a man want’s to be shown “appreciation”, “submission” & “respect”. Remember in either of them, they also have to know if not grow to learn; it needs to be reciprocated back.   

Ladies we are not always 100% accurate, neither is a man or boy always 50% percent correct. So seeking 50/50 will possibly set us both back, in either of our selections. So allow a hunter to master what he was permissioned to do. And continue in being the prey. Eventually a man or boy will surrender. In what we both will figure out, if not learn together in what our choices and growth is really about. Out of the LOVE we've managed to create; in a WAR we lose both our ways.  

BLUSH

I gotta come down from this natural high. Cause it got me thrusting to grasp  more of it’s gravitating drive. I’m starting to see how to hold onto; what is in everyday being taken advantage of. In human arrogance.

I’m over trying to get pass; all the hard times. I ain’t stressed about; unecessariness. I’m not trying to multiply then divide; who is going to subtract or add to me in this life. Cause I’m so focused now; from the places we all fall. And stumble to stand UP TALL. My heart has also been broken like anybody else. But I refuse to accept “telling pity stories of being down is always changing circustances around”.  

I’m reaping harvest in every season that won’t die; because of  my vision I took some time to groom & nurture my attitude.  

Hardtimes taught me to fight without always utilizing my tongue & hands, heartache stregnthened me in places that weakness is broken. Love & Laughter taught me the struggles is real; but not always necessary to say it is. Tears are always necessary in a state of fearful confusion, love making is a treasure hidden with communication. And beauty is in the eyes of who stands in front of  the mirror.

The entire time on this journey SOMETIMES wandering, weary and worn; this HIGH I have was given by permissions. In areas LIFE's storms were destined to happen. Of every Arthur’s ending of fruits bared and labored rendered.

-Angela L

Limbo

I won't complain; about nothing.

For people will grow weary; overtime.  Forgetting the good shown when they needed it the most. Be confident in knowing; who u can depend on.

Have you ever sought in yourself.  The things that I complain about. Could possibly be that thing that I may consider of a  requirement to change in myself? Why, because we live in an unpredictable place where our choices will evaluate every human move me initiate; to make.

Then once you've evaluated yourself the things you once complained about.  Will seem real small in a large unpredictable World.

Therefore someone else is not always to blame. You are not always a victim of someone else's reasoning.  In areas of ourselves that we refuse to change.

Angel L
I took account of my life today. And I am so grateful to see the U-turn directed in seasons for me.

A GOOD MAN II (neo)

The vow is really one spoken mission; to compliment one another in a world. Where there will be a multitude of confusions.

Gentlemen let’s not forget beside a good man with all his flaws, but not lacking in a real plan. Also stands a good woman; who has also been hurt. But we’re not to the point of bitterly broken.

So that “situation” we both reference is this; at what point in this life do we both crease out our wrinkles in time. To sit down and find some understanding in what is missed of our fears; to communicate without reservations?

Time proves it takes a boy time to groom into a grown man. In exchange for that grown ass man to understand & appreciate; that girl with her old heartaches that will eventually grow into the woman.  She strives to figure out about herself.

So tomorrow we don’t forget to make one another smile, whether we’re on TOP of the world or facing the bottom of what is growth in life's challenge.   

 -Angela

Uncommon Life

Psalm 16:5-11

It is not uncommon of what we expose in the world today. It has become common we expect uncommon things.

So what am I saying that you have not heard? Or repeated in expression of; ourselves.

I sat by my elder today. The gentleman was 70 years in age. He said to me my wife deceased 17 years ago. And the Lady I finally married is nothing like her; and I'm lonely spending time on my own. I softly said if you give her your 2nd chance then maybe you can enjoy a future with her. And not the wife of your past.

I later today was approached by a man inquiring direction.  I did not look up but I answered his question; with no hesitation. The man proceeded to say "woman are wandering why men are not marrying them for LOVE" today. He also said woman have change the game. I looked in his eyes and said "it takes two" one to teach & the other to learn.

I was asked after all these years by an old friend who said I'm still having fun; dating woman.  And then he asked "why are you not married? I said I knew a long time ago people would change, their minds. So I took my years to grow. Instead of entertaining open & closed doors. He said so give me your number and we can talk. I said you're still not listening. Because of what u said; I also heard of what I've outgrown.

In the past years and a half of a dysfunctional relationship; I've learned people can really be lonely even in a marriage. We can be LOST & FOUND; in denial that keeps us comfortable. We can entertain OPEN & CLOSED doors.

But the person who can except their own truth, deal with their own denial. Is the person who will never be alone. Because this person has figured out what their peace & contentment is about.

Happiness is a choice; and acceptance of anything is common. In a uncommon life.

Arthur: AW

Wounded

You can seek for an explanation; in every human action. You can be driven; by life disappointments. Are you can be inspired by short experiences. In a life that will eventually close chapters to create new beginnings.

In every life experience we individually take it personal. We validate why our hurt is a priority. Simply because of 'WHY ME'. Even in spaces we out grow of what needs to be 'LET GO'. In situations we grow bitter & cold for being comfortable.

Black Girl you are bad to the bone. And sweet as a honey comb. Black man you are built to last with your strong determination to not give in; to every set back. Sometimes neither of our choices are destined to fall in line. For life has its own set of  footprints that will reveal our choices in our own  generations.

Therefore embrace who you are. Without validating what you choose to prove; of your footprints in reasoning. To blame one another for our undetached struggle of inner aggressions. We dismantle of  our mixed emotions. To disregard truth in any type of relationship we are all still human.

Time did not promise happiness. Time allowed us to produce a fluorescence in life choices.

Vulnerability

What vehicles used in our society contribute to human vulnerability. Some say it's government conspiracies. But who can explain the real human weakness harnessed deep down inside of a woman or man? Color boundaries can no longer be segregated.

Who contributed to your demons; that drives you to hurt innocent people for no dam reason?

How do you know what you're losing; if you struggle with what you have to begin with?

What have we done coming into the latter years of  the 80's and 90's? Matthew 24 you cannot serve man & seek peace in riches.

Who do we blame for the generations of unspoken sinful shame.

Who said we are to be limited in our roles. To struggle with what mentally drives us out of control. Galations:3 we are equal. But for generations we continue to practice who is Superior or to remain beneath them.

What are we expecting to change; in our set human ways blaming it on age?

What is it about the past aggression that hinders us in our future progressions.

What is it about fear; we run from that has yet to be revealed?

How do you second guest who you are; in a world of chaotic thinking in what we should or not accept of our human self's?

If you never have a question, quick to agree or follow a broader vision. Then what do you know; in what is being taught or told?

I once heard "you to smart for your own good". It still tickles my brain to process; how we suffer in poverty thinking.

Boot Camp

Falling in love for passion & ecstasy. Often gets lost in hope because of human fantasies overtime if we don't figure out; before marriages what love and building a life with someone else is all about.

Be careful of whom u select to marry in this life. Or who u attempt to rescue down the line.

It should matter if you are playing a roll in being the other woman or man. In some one else's existing or separation of marriage. Because at any moment in time the guilt sets in. Changing some one's mindless perspective. Of whose role is being played & who is going to win at the end of every fantasy in which people will remain in ties that bind of dysfunction or committed "loyalty".

The depth of life's valleys will get shallow. For us all in this life. But not everyone is prepared to move on for the right in reasoning. Or either some one will choose to stay; with whom they know on a solid foundation will eventually grow.

They say  blood proves we are Family  related. But loyalty shows us up in who will stay faithful in any human relationship. In which we seek to grow our roots in building with.

People are capable to love again once they release & heal. Wisdom is a gift. And reality shows us why we as people run scared from change in this life. And we do often over-compensate in our strengths. To struggle with redundant hardships, some of us forever struggle to bury of it.

MASON JAR

Time has proven it will not count any man or woman of COLOR OUT. Where troubles are inevitable, and misery is optional.


If only we can clearly see of what Arrogance, Power & Pride makes out of you and I. While being humbled inside. Taking place in REAL-TIME.

I’ll proceed ahead to the front of the line. To share how one day, in which my pride showed me the real woman in the mirror. I needed to see; and no longer hide from me.

What do we hide of the truth in ourselves. To stretch out in areas we are not prepared to accept?

Who said I don’t need nobody?

Who said I can do whatever “I want too”?

Who thinks I’m so privileged, I’m perfected without fault.

Who is still enraged with pain, someone else caused them on yesterday?

And if neither of these things were not true. Then why do we feel so silently confused? About who is at fault. For making US feel a certain way in this life?

· Time has proven we all need somebody at any; Lonely, Happy or Desperate place in our own lives.

·  Time has proven it’s complicated to tell a LIE and benefit from the unspoken TRUTH.

·  Time has proven; not one MOVING thing has outlived it's WARRANTY. Or neither has one LIVING human was created in perfection to live here on earth for ETERNITY.

·   Time is counting down as we PRIDEFULLY TURN UP IN IT OUT LOUD!

To a special, distant or longtime friend; where many chose to stray, you came along & buried genuine treasures & stayed. Therefore it will not be a lack of LOVE that drifts us apart. It will because of people Power, Control and Pride. That SHAKES our faiths in the world of whom we become. But deny to face of we do to prove a pointless point. 

Titles

One day we will grow weary of one another. And only love will glue us back together.

1.What happens when you reach for them and their no longer there. 

2. What happens on the other end of a call that is no longer answered.

3. What happens when we continue in telling God about our burdens and trials. Before releasing them out of our small hands that we struggle to pray with.

4. Why can't a man or woman not believe. And still think in their own mindset of thinking? Where we ourselves have also held onto a spoon full of faith. In what holds our vision down in weight?

We have also questioned & faulted God for our burdens that became to heavy to bare. But how long will we hold onto the things that keeps us there?

If ever asked of my tensions; that occur in this lifetime. I would say Life & Time kept it's plan. Where God directed my every foot print. But you don't have to believe in religion are God. Just respect yourself enough to know of what others choose in this life, of their own Freewill s.

One day you will search in the heart of mankind. And seek of Brother & Sister, are just A Human Friend; to stand by your side. During the real test of Life..

-Angela L

Shade 4 Shade

People come contingent. Which means they come through on their own terms. So once life happens don't give up on faith or hope. If not both. Stay true too you and continue in doing you.

Every wonder why we get animated in our wants. But exasperated to "go figure" our needs. In a space of  titles that place us in a position of mental priority.

No wonder why we as people escalate to a whole new level of mental & physical complications. Behind what we have placed on one another of expectations with limited reciprocation.

-Angel L
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