-Angela's Heart

 The heart relies on love and trust; regardless if it comes from him or her. The body said "I'll remind them both about time they are running on; but behind.  

A habit is doing things the same way; and taking it personal is what will break the both of them.

The road is smooth and often paved with gravel; so often we believe we are doing it alone if not together. Until life happens in unraveling our focus.

Understanding one another woman or a man more than often creates chaotic confusion. Where we ourselves have not figured out the reason why our fears shut us down. 

I talk about waking away from, walking into, letting go and holding on. All because of those word’s we communicate to one another with; until we find ourselves broken because of them.

Those tears came from fears, those words were yelled out of confusion; instead of some form of patience & communication.

So once the wedding cake and friends are silent, those old high school relationships are not picked up as you fantasied of them to rekindle again, that variety of men and woman are more tiresome than the chase, and dating random people no longer make sense. The heart will never allow us to forget; if you continue to repeat the same routine, I can't heal what remains broken. 

Some people are not meant to be tossed away so easily, sometime moments are what we need to grow in silence. And even in lie’s we can no longer keep up with; eventually shines the light on why we can't find internal happiness.

The heart said never again, the mind said it’s too much confusion, the feet said to the hands; let it go and walk away. Then life said wake up and let’s try this all over again today; if you will allow yourself to remove out of our way.

A conversation is not hard to start, commitments will be tested through the fire, and the heart will always say “I refuse to give up on you, no matter what we put ourselves through.

S.O.L

Who said such a relationship can't work; as long as we're paying more attention to who really has the benefits to offer; of worth having if not entertaining.

Life is simple to live, if we remove our ass-ss & arrognace out of the way in it..

So let's keep it real before we mess around; and find out what we really need is what were caught up in; of the real or wrong feelings in. Truth is there is no alternate route around not getting "disappointed & hurt" people play everyday; to get what they want temporarily. And later realize what they are missing in reality; holds the real control in the dynamics of their "investments" when the new is not always the old, and the old is nothing wrong. Depending on the risk & mindset we're playing around with.

Of course every human being has some type of investments with or without someone else who contributes a or non return back. So what is complicated about the math  or years that does not "add up in the choices we make. Of our unfilled appetites.

Lucky you this may not be the case for you, confidence even showed up a FOOL. And humbleness placed that person back in check. What I'm saying is this "manage to stabilize your situation & person, before adding unnecessary ingredients. To fix a temporary addiction. Or either decide if this  new recipe works in the presence of your old or new investment. Reality is any opportunity we seek to embark in old or new will keep us forever searching. Or either

SOL, is where we will always find ourselves; among a world of human confusion.

Play Write

Black love is not shy or does not exist; it’s just not advertised in places people can observe and identify how beautiful it is.

A Black man’s tale; is that he and his woman have been sold throughout time in this white man's world, but the truth is “not a one person” throughout this entire world is free.  So when does the correction begin, and “dysfunction” end? Peace is easy to possess. Change is what we refuse to demonstrate, in reaching that Peaceful state.   

Black beauty is more than Black mandego men and Black woman with big booties; sit down and make time to have a mature soul conversation with either one of them. There are answers to why they are so outspoken in this life.  

Black love starts before our eyes open; with warm morning kisses sweet as honey melon.

Black love ends at night; with enthusiasm & freedom to express in them beyond human judgment.

Black love understands who they are, and what they have been taught to think they are not capable of. Now even those who did not know have heard the real truth, it's on you to grow.

Black love disagreements are not confrontational; just small hurdles to conquer with a conversation.

Black love is more than struggles; it’s more than people place of judgement on what they don’t want to understand.

Black love created together; worldwide inventions, conquered criticism even when they made historic contributions, and replenished the earth with their most wanted; of black children with their athletic abilities, scientific discoveries, dance moves, theatrical plays, musical creativity and mathematical visions where they continue to expand beyond walls built around them.  

Black love is kind and forgiving; it reshapes the colorism in our diversity of segregated behaviors. As long as we respect "black" and not what we leverage out of them to respond back.  

Black love may have their differences among one another, but please never misinterpret it's not a mystery how the power in black love; bonds them back together.

Black love is not imprisoned; prisons & manipulation was intended to confine the black love in every generation. Therefore a Black choice requires more conscious levels of thinking; regarding the elements that open up the doors for assumption to separate them.

Black love has its flaws; but black love is no different than any other color. Black love has a conscious to what we need from one another to heal our families back together.

Shine your light "Black souls", freedom is a state of mind, allow your growth to expand; despite the clear interruptions.

"2"

Are we at a point for a good man or woman in our life, and if you’re in a relationship already do take time to check-in with who you have or either or waiting on; to be a good man or woman.

We talk about cultural differences and relationships; then why not answer these questions we debate about or choose not to figure out. About how colors are not separated in one box.

Why do African American men date outside of their race; then why not ask a causation woman why did she choose him, and why together they made a decision?

Why do African American woman come off confrontational; then why not ask, listen then respect that black woman’s struggles; we all see and act as if were disconnected in every culture?

Why are African American woman in business “judged or idolized” for choosing a side? And why does this woman feel alone without the support of their own?

Why do African American children make up poverty; well let’s reflect back then answer to what was not equal to them; in education, judicial systems, affordable housing and economics that still remain of leverage against them?

Why do black men pay child support for various children outside of marriage; let’s respond to why the black man continues to be paid lessor wages is 2018, whether are not this black man has been honored for receiving a high-school education, work training and college degree. And in regards to those children out of wedlock we would have to research history when the African American man was intentionally separated from his family. The mind and control under power is a nightmare for any person of color.

Why do African American People not have a success rate in marriages; again let’s review all the above answers with the truth. A child learns from what we plant in their heads, and that parent teaches what they have been exposed to pass on; throughout generations.

I have witnessed in my lifetime wisdom from the 1920’s who hung on until this season was over. The plantation was not a fairy tale the stories are real and the seeds in man & woman we continue to struggle with, cohabitate and understand in of our; marriages and divorces, families riches and poverty, education and progress in every stage of development of the segregation that remains of argumentative debates; we created of taking the issues not dealt with out on one another seeking of answers without first, identifying with the internal problem.

At the end of every generation of Mothers & Fathers an abundance of people will turn their face in rage, shrug their weakened shoulders and stagger away from what remains; broken internally. Non answered questions will drive any mind of color insane, lack turns into rage, arrogance brews ignorance, abundance allows controlled access, and seeking reveals the reality of what we are really supplied with; of knowledge, direction but not all planted seeds that grew over generations.

 

Dynamics

Selfish people can also give; with every intention of what they want of you to have.

If we never accept correction; we will assume that in every one of our actions; there is no wrong in  what we do, to one another. Which redirected me in this passage.

One of my readers corrected me on an entry that read "the stories I write are from a place & people I never took for granted , while loving here on earth". I took the correction & researched to see if that passage was meant to be written. This is the correction I shared with confidence " Through mercy we were  birth through a females womb, and because of love my life was filled here on earth with a purpose. And at every end we will rest; in our belief of a creators hand.

I picked up a caller who shared with me; I need a kind word & to see you smile today. I said where you at. The caller said come outside. I said knock on the door " is what a gentleman does" he chuckled and the door bell rung. After brunch we both figured out what his frustration was about "that my silence meant a plan in execution". I communicated "life did not pause time for me to wait on your plan's" we both smiled and made exits. Because my purpose was never filled with the intention of every plan in what other people come up with.

I don't boggle my mind with perfection. We as people on other hand obsess to evaluate it in one another. Which is ok. As long as we all know; without correction there is room for errors to bloom if not exist. And from there we stand a chance to grow from them.

THANK THE PEOPLE OR PERSONS who are watching you with observations, this is how we help one another to grow beyond being misinformed, human perceptions.

Luvuall, & Memore

Purpose

There are days I have little words to say, to pay more attention to my surroundings, where I'm known to share a positive thought where negativity has no choice but to die. And what I use of purpose of my tongue is to get people to talk about the world we have now; and losing it at the same time. Because we do feel in with certain people; defeated, a bruised and abandoned for no reason. 

And I ask again who has not yet suffered from; famine, heartache and pain.Sometimes the truth is what we need to hear, in order for us to see a clear picture of who is causing the confusion. If you love yourself first, no man or woman on earth has the permission to make you feel loved, second. And I know there are few who don't believe; until time will bend you down on your knees. And so what if the color is not respected will be the reason; you miss the message in your season. 

Guessing Game

How can the  3 of us grow. When it was only the 2 of us who took 1 vow; to build.

It's our past that needs to heal the broken in us to live. I know this passage may not sink in deep; for those who live in denial are; debate their strength for weakness. 

We no longer practice what we demand of respect in our relationships. We ourselves demonstrate the disrespect in it. Then irrationally place blame on each other that life dealt us the bad hand. Without first considering  the 3 ways we could of played

1. The things we can control.
2. The things we refuse to let go.
3. The persons & things we value the most.

Just to dream in the neighbors house. We continue to  lose in our own investments for struggling to not do the 3 forms of reasoning. And being rich or poor is no excuse to growing up.

So therefore the promises in the games we play today, somehow will be broken by tomorrow; if our reasoning does not grow up in our thinking attitudes of doing me in what "I wanna do", to live the next day on the same page.

Thot

To honor him; a woman must be happy with her self. To appreciate her; a man must grow up, to lead her.

So if a man or woman should ever consider a human being a Thot; they should also consider in this life it may possibly be; a mother or dad, sister or brother, child, husband or wife.  Due to our idea of not knowing who time will hook us up with in a multitude of ways. Just not always on one titled page.

If we could better understood the importance of "respect" of ourselves, it would return back to us logic in our choices. If we took more time to "evaluate" the Thot of how much we invest in of a moment. Then our accountability we could see of what we do, but not always need.

And the next time we take time to make a Thot of another person in this life, do the math and figure out why; a damaged product does not sit on a shelf long. Until the next shopper swings bye; and sees the value of giving it a try.

Decisions

We can watch life pass bye, or we can choose to live in it; one day at a time.

Approaching the end of any story there will always be; resistance in letting go of memories that remind us of how life did pass bye, but has the weight been lifted from us to ask of ourselves “do we live enough” in this life to say tomorrow “I’ll give it another try”?  

Therefore it’s time to grow-up in our “MIND SET”, to read this post sent to me in the early hours of this morning. You can either relate too or understand how & why people are not designed to fit into the patterns of your life.

(" I'm ready to start living and stop trying to survive. How do we remove a curse that was placed upon us ages ago.. it all start in the mind body and soul but how do we get people to actually try to be the Light and elevating energy that wants a change")


The answers we seek to find are not hidden in our past or another person’s visions. The truth has been answered to all of our questions over-& over again, and doubt is the fear in our “mind set” that enables us to be free; from that struggling “old generational curse” someone keeps living.  

A Woman's Tale

Becoming this woman many hats had to be worn; in confidence. Tears hidden in silence, scars covered up behind her internal beauty & wisdom in her enduring patience.

To a woman your life is what you plant of seeds in it. But don’t lose hope if some seeds struggle to grow.

To a man who is that woman's seed on this journey. Once you have established  a woman that will invest in your growth; learn how to treasure every moment with her. Because not every woman looks the same, therefore not every woman is intended to be what you want. This woman will share with you of her patience, plans, tough love and enduring understanding.
 

To a child or grown up adult who at times show disrespect to this woman; remember this if there was no woman created in this life, you would have not known how a nurtured woman could or have added value to your life.

To a woman; value who you are at all times, not what you can’t always be to other people in this life. Sometimes we get caught up dancing in the ant piles of life. Instead of knowing how much hurt is enough.  

I met men who did not have much money are ambition, he did not talk fluent about business, he had a curious tenacity of seeking his mother’s understanding in all of his talked about relationships. Until one day he met a woman that was not his mother. Not every man is meant to be in your life or a husband. And what this woman shared he could not appreciate of it "the time" he could of learned the difference of “purpose” not all intentions. The thing this man taught was a lesson about what we have heard of about “weak men & woman” is not a bad person. If this man or woman does not know in the choices being made will stunt “growth”. Therefore we again in our opportunities miss the value in one another; to give and receive the “guidance” we both men and woman need.

We may not walk the same paths, or speak the same idea choices. We may not administer our visions with diligence. And often we take for granted “wisdom” to live in settling for what was once our past disadvantage.

We can’t give up on one another if we work together in growing each other. And in every occasion other people are not always the recipe for our choices. Everyone does not desire to be in relationships "once they figure out the real options". 

Our men will struggle to lead that woman; who seeks of that man’s direction, patience and understanding. And that woman will struggle to follow that man; who has to accept his own sense of good and mismanaged direction, is when she will show him her soul of which direction will lead us all to the truth. 

Sensitivity

If you are in a relationship or meet a man with sensitive emotions. Either be patient or be prepared to process his sensitive actions.

Woman are more of strength and character in today. Why, because of life we all change. And both men & woman have figured what we're capable of living with in our self's. Therefore a sensitive man or woman is not a real world issue. What is the primary focus is this; what we choose to settle in of ourselves with.

A father said his daughter had children by a man, invested in a common living space to build on their relationship. And what this daughter said to her father was consuming to process to hear his princess say "daddy my man said he has sensitive emotions for men", the father responded "I need a drink to understand where did I go wrong in teaching you how a man should treat his woman".


Unfortunately daddy was not prepared to accept the mind set of what his baby girl has chosen to live with.

A female made an adult decisions with a man who had multiple baby mothers and kids. It's not uncommon some of us live normal lives in the dysfunction we create. But then add to it a wife who accepts knowing her man; as long as he pays the bills.

Unfortunately dId I mention no one used protection. And the heads were scratching; thinking what is not growing in these relationships. And its not fair to say rich people do it because they have investments & kids. And poor people do it because they have investments and love their wife, but on any day everyone will pay a price. People get hurt "always" because of someone else's sensitive ways.

A young girl attended college and on the way she was excited about the attention she gained from a bad boy with bad intentions. His body was extravagant, his conversation was minimum, his side strokes were immaculant, his pockets were full one day, and empty the next day because his plans were not of investments.


Unfortunately, these men and woman hung around to see if the other would hang around. And we all know sometimes its hard for people to consider letting go; of what they have become immune too.


A man went to prison defending his love for this woman, this woman went to prison defending this man who stop visiting. These kids were born all over the place, and some kids received child support checks, some saw dad on the weekdays & weekends, some people stayed in confusion for the sake of the kids. While we play around with those sensitive emotions.

One day we will wake up to the "Y's" in all of our 'I's" to communicate the little things before it's to late, to admit or not God forgives,  and how we could have done better in our stewardship.

See life is not perfect. And in each other we should halt in seeking any of it. To break the cycles we live in.