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The waiting list for the COVID-19 vaccine. As the goal is to reach a 100million people within our 46th President first 100 days. And if we all respect one another and do our parts; about 6 inches from the front to back. There is higher probability this vaccine will arrive out of the blue. In all areas that are anticipating the final breakthrough. 

The Covid-19 was not expected. It impacted humanity as a whole. And altered our lives with a force of  change overnight. As we seek the proper information to digest & restore humanities hope & peace. In by knowing when, where and how will this vaccine be shipped next. Because all lives matters in a time we desperately need one another; whether we admit or not the mandated request is a personal choice. As the phone lines are overwhelmed and the internet is bombarded. Time will test our faiths, patience & will to survive one another. So one day soon we can embrace our love ones, before losing another to Covid. 

The Covid-19 cannot survive us all if we are collectively involved. Obedient to ourselves & responsible in doing our parts around the world. By covering up what is exposed. 

In the meantime use it wisely. The numbers don't lie in what we could of saved; in losing of it in another day of precious "TIME".     

A Domestic Violence Story of Survival

 

Children & Society

Where real love resides; you cannot deny its a Powerful Weapon. 

In all due respect of every parent in any race; our upbringings may not be the same. Our skin color ranges in every culture. And our morals, values and beliefs; are waivered & judged above or below in one another's standards but overlook in ourselves and personal situations. At the end of the day its what we teach or demonstrate in the presence of our children; that they will carry with them through in this life. And determine if they fold, bend or fight. 

I'm guilty of sparing my child to not be exposed to the world. Until one day his feet grew enough to walk about this big world. Of which I will never discredit myself for being a strong woman; with the common sense to know there are times as a mother; you must sit still & be humbled. 

In Honor to all our babies; young and old. If it were not for their life's; we as parents would have not known how to give a good fight in honor of their lives.  

In Memory of my Son, 1991-2020.

Erasing The Black Stigmatism "MLK"

 Today Jan. 15th we honor MLK & on Monday, Jan 18th, it was the delegated  date in history for the entire world to remember if not honor MLK. A non-violent black leader who courageously contested at the front line of black disparity. And if u studied the hardships & oppressions throughout American history then u know the struggles of black men, woman & children over their Black History. The violence remains controversial in the teachings of history. Over the lynching of black people, limited to if no justice at all. Just for asking for the legal rights and freedoms to obtain the same equality and access in social economics. Today in 2021 Our leaders from the past we pay homage but who is capable in leading us now to the Promise Land.  In a world of disgruntled debates? A leader that will not die as an extension of the violence in peaceful declarations and human protest. To face the face of Hate, privilege and Internal angered oppressions? My point is this no man of any color in humanity "owns history individually, or is entitled to another human being in ownership. Are in no subject matter based on his or her argument, value, morals and beliefs. Or neither by land deed or creed. American History is a makeup of all colors in race including the contributions and still non credited successes of inventions of Black Historic people and their leadership rolls. Our history also reflects back to a young boy's story Emmitt Till who was removed from his aunt & uncle's house in the wee hours of the morning by angered men. Emmitt was 14 years old when he was lynched, beaten to death & his body was thrown him into the Tallahatchie river over. Stemming from human "gossip" of being associated in a store with a woman of color. In the end of his young life the legal findings were false allegations. Emmitt deaths burdened the lives of his family, and added a scar in Black History due to a human brutality through the behavior expressing hate. And a time lined of the due process in unspeakable injustices for a senseless death. For another mother of color; he was 28 years old, raised by a single black mother who struggled to ensure this child was loved & protected, a high school graduate with honors, college and embraced his intelligence as a young black man, beyond his dispositions. But taught to not be defined by those dispositions in limiting his ambitions. This son was known by an array of diversity in his peers of associations. He challenged himself. And acclimated himself mentally & physically in any space of diversity. Including his own community of blue collared workers,  wealth & disparity. a jack of all mental trades. He himself groomed in a presentation of his own identity validated by a community.

On the morning on Jan. 15th, around 8:10am, a father with an infinite family who weep now for him would hold his small children for the last time. Before dropping them off. 15 minutes later on a social network platform the world could see his story. A bullet riddled back window where his small children were just sitting. The thought is dehumanizing. The behavior unconstitutional, the characters wicked in a community of fear. As another black life matters 401 years later following another era in historic BLM protest in unity of all races together.  Freedom rings for the black man in a free country in American History. Another gun used in his own childhood community.  A community of public records identified because of it's disparity of brown and black people. With immature infrastructure that still exist in conversation; at round tables amongst are chattered and debated oppositions. Of what is progressing around the gun violence. As the history in this story continues to be followed 2 year's later. His death was relevant because he was a matriarch to his own. And a giver in his own community. And silenced of his young life because the chained mentality of behaviors now we await our own justice. The forbidden old cliche is no longer the watch dog of crime. Imbedded in the streets of young & old victims of the bloodshed growing in communities all over the world.

His, your's are them. Of our stories is no different than another story of violence in death, it’s the derogatory and dysfunction in English to justify the death "this nigg# can’t be handled", where the land is commercial property if not taxed to the homestead owners in this community. His death did not create conventional wealth and educational opportunities it was a senseless death. NO, this is not Emmitt Tills story but a reasoning behind MLK's legacy to remove the stigmatism off the black people and erase the disparity thinking. If we can communicate in all races of man; we can begin the healing in humanity. So no more deaths are silenced because "I Can’t Breath". To debate justice and 3 arguments in a black man’s death; 1. The truth that is not enough for equality in justice, 2. For the lies covered up to justify the behaviors behind 3. What fits into the institutions created to keep the mind chained for generations?

Our son’s life mattered, our people matter.. because all people matter in every form of our bodied existence. We are not dying based on the gangs associations, education and economic access. In knowing and accountability to abandon the reasoning behind the extension of why it exist in every disparity and upscale community, school and homes throughout the world. We cannot deny the violence is stimulated around the process & behavior. And without addressing how & when it entered into a country of all men. as we continue chanting generations years later where is the "Accountability", and why "I can't breathe", is a situation that grew in humanity.

Jan 15th, is honored for a generation of reasoning. that have been deprived of many biological rights; to be raised and loved with a father and family. Who held a roll of a provider and protector. And of those mother's robbed of holding black lives. Losing Dominique is a great loss, and for any mother to lose a child to the ignorance of a legacy of stigmatism. Insulted in another day of our fight to conquer hardships & impacted disparity; tied to our freedoms & generational growth. Because of  the mindset in “I hold your dreams in my hands”.

Fire & Water

I was a young girl, some call themselves a baby momma until they grew to respect becoming a woman. I was protected, directed and loved to raise a boy who became his own man. I learned from life my greatest mentor. I leaned on family and matured from my mistakes & choices. I found a peace of mind in picking my battles. I found the strength to fight; in a ring that could have divided us. Not becuase of the color of our skins. Love is divine not divided by man.

We don't have to look the same; or be older if not young at heart; to feel the fire once the water is damped. And tomorrow may be late; to fix was was never broken.

The worlds perception of single people is; either they are lonely and need somebody with our help? Wrong answer we as a people need to grasp more time to deal with the lingering issues in the baggage we carry in our self. In order to understand why single people chose their lifestyles, sacrifices to raise their children alone, if not experience people through dating?  Again, you would have to examine yourself. We never know one another until we are exhausted from fighting in this ring of life together. 

The reality Is this some people realize their own value in themselves; and what it is they can offer to someone else. And on the receiving end of this sometime we cohabitate with people who deny themselves any chance to be valued because they never saw it in themselves. So the rush is on and sometimes we label it as the Gold rush of expectations in a marriage if not common law relationships. To find ourselves on battlefields of; lengthy obligations, knotted investments and ties we struggle with one another to unknot. If not walking away from it all. Including any children involved for a peace of mind.

When a young man is filling his oats; he is stimulated by a female’s attention, physical attributes and a level of thinking. Young or Old this young man is not prepared to surrender. This young man is hunting his prey. And is it not always wise for young woman or older woman to hunt down a man. If so he could gather the perception you are a microwave presentation. Instead of a wife to build a palace with.

When a young girl is seeking her provider; she will utilize either her mind, body are conversation. Depending on her background and instructors; the reality is some young girls are traditional and some are learning as they grow.

When we commit ourselves to one another in communication; we gain families, children and friends. That is also attached to our bags of happiness, joy and pain. So how is it we always end up on the battlefields of life, If we can figure out why are we still not complete when we both communicated or not what either of us; had to originally bring to the table, young or old. A man's needs are simple as he has stated for generations; support, loyalty and the cookie, ladies. And for the record we must cease in confiding in one another regarding what our men has asked of us; to remain in the ring fighting for the struggles for us to stay together.  

Woman and men; we both struggle to communicate what is not that complicated in our private lives, and around the globe people are attached to each other no matter how we mixed those ingredients; in who will surrender and who will be the first to release the control? So that we both are more open about ourselves. And it does not matter who speaks on this topic around the world, our households or families. You may not have what daddy and mom kept in private behind those closed doors of laughter, if not exposed in tears. At this age in your life for you it has to make since to find your own joy and a peace of mind to live. 

Until we mature in our personal feelings, enough to respect one another to communicate more beyond our tempered frustrations, and unpacked baggage. The Fire & Water will dissolve our existence.    

Females/Males

 

Welcome ladies, we meet again at a space we either wear our crowns of Glory or Arrogance. Regardless which one of them. You are the females that makeup a Woman.

We have witnessed the disrespect at a level in which we are both guilty of our behaviors. In both males and females. And more than often the same sex in addressing one another with using the words "B!tch or Whore", the lines of human respect are crossed. But the reality is this; we live in a world of acclimated mindsets disputing "respect" for one another. We all have tempers but limitation of insults will fix the broken internal issues. We as females & males must dig deeper into respecting ourselves. Or who be those mentors of our sons and daughters? In a beautiful world of dysfunctional communications we have all demonstrated over collaborations.

A woman is recognized by the naked eyes of her beauty, intellectual ways, acts of kindness, nurturing spirit. If not by her tenacity & sassy way’s; to identify her goddess descriptions. But not limited to her value in being a female or a woman.

When a woman embarks on a conversation with a younger female or even her equal; tread light in how you approach a woman in a female approach. We all possess our own behaviors in wearing our Crowns and Arrogance when speaking with one another in all climates.

For over generations this female of all races has been the objective in conversation; over what it is that increases her desire to stay in the competition; with herself or other sisters young and old.

This passage is significant because over generations; our audience is the younger generations of females, males. And older woman & men. We seek of respect, love and to value us. In the skin we have acclimated and from the history of who we become based on what a female or male has taught us from children. We are the makeup of our Crowns of Glory & Arrogance that represent us in a presence.   

I noticed when speaking to a younger woman, she raises the eye browse of conversation. And for the older woman in her presence. They either respect one another's level of maturity if not understanding from lack to having experience. Because not all females are nurtured in areas of their minds verses what they have been taught to present of their bodies. Again, over generations we have manage to mask who did not learn or was taught  by who was in their lives. So here we are in another generation to compliment what we both can learn together.   

It's been said; a female can't raise a man on her own. Well its been a proven fact over generations those same females matured as woman. In a mental & physical space; of showing those boys now men how to use their mental and physical weight in every area of their life with; laboring in your own house, seek knowledge in a book and opportunities in life, plan for your financial growth, play chess for it is a thinking mans game, get involved in a contact sport for physical and mental growth, venture into travel pages around the world, before you commit to falling in love and creating real responsibilities and false obligations before you can take care of yourselves. 

Until we both the female and male; place value more in ourselves it does not matter; who we marry, cohabitate with or even choose to deal with in a relationship. Both of our Crowns of Glory & Arrogance, is the determining factor in whether this boy are man chooses who to surrender to if not deal with in this life for a moment over time. Unless God steps in and initiates another plan. 

Our human expectations we place on one another; start with the expectations we should of first placed on ourselves. 

  

Border Lines

We all got a story, and one day we will read and find the stories are a similar part of  generations over a lifetime. 

In every story there are lines that are crossed, there are audiences watching both the good or bad outcomes.

The last year in 2020 we have collectively encountered circumstances and relevant moments. We lose a few and left with many following behind who is capable to lead. We agreed to disagree what choices “could of, should of, or did they actually make”. We argue, and fight in protest for the freedoms and rights that remain awaiting justices. We frown, mocked if not laugh in separation are in agreements of our constitutions.

As we approach another New Year in 2021 it will be on January 15^th, we ask as a people to be accounted for. We will come to common a place in our history and generation of mental thinking; of what will happen next if not what could I, we or them should have attempted to change.

I use the two words “change” and “generations” with the upmost respect; addressing all in mankind if not individually; too see how the segregation “established” our current struggle in unity. And because of this we are the resurrection of our past of how we have ridden the backs of our ancestor’s successes and carried their endless oppressions; to climb back over one another’s shoulders in a different era and time of a new generation.

For history we witnessed our people all people who suffered in how segregation was wrongly allocated. Children were taught at a minimum level of their ancestry history. This is the reasoning I mention Children need to know their bloodlines and people. For one day they will experience their past in the presence, and with understanding of knowledge these children can see how one female Rosa refused to back down from giving up her seat, and  The Freedom rider who took the first beaten as he stepped off that bus.

Over history we have carried those mental chains of anger and hate mentally in all races of humanity.. Then justified our behaviors through separated constitutional rights; judged or not.

The unfairness in what colored people, brown people and white people clash into today where we have established some form of unity in BLM. It is the justice itself that is keeping up blinded behind the border lines of where we are killing one another of our own people. As our people & mothers continuing weeping for no reasoning. 

Mentally we starve one another in knowledge where there is segregated border line of access. We struggle in our hope for lack because of lack in confidence; of having the equality in access. We project verbally with intelligence, dress up for appearances. But yet we lack in the use of more common sense.

If any man prospers without wisdom & knowledge; how can this man place expectations or threats on a man or woman who knows wisdom and knowledge is the threat of power?

Ghost writer "Dominique White. Jan. 15, 2020" I, them or they have been silenced in the physical. But foot prints over our generations of all races in humanity share a story. In why I, them or they did it for many reasons.. 

Ghetto Girl

If a female teachers her daughter of any race to always trick a man. Or this female teachers her son how both of them have treated one another over generations; what do you think males and females that have been tricked; are teaching their sons and warning their daughters about? And if a woman can love any type of man or a man love any type of woman; what is the spite & arguments about? Once we know better regarding who is willing to surrender, and who is not willing to grow because of control or fear to let go. Then maybe this generation will figure it out what some parents did not succeed in. And learn from the one's that did. 

This passage is meant to honor every ghetto girl; who knows she is more than a thot to the society that treats her lesser than the queen she is inside. And not all ghetto girls suffer from low self-esteem some people just need more time within themselves to breathe. And figure out what do I value about myself. 

Because it is proven fact; all types of people in this world will take advantage of you. Both men and woman hurt in all ages. Because of the mental and physical abuse in the relationship or process in respecting one another's choices if not space. If you don't know ghetto girl your own value. So when the the phrase "ghetto girl" is used in world or mixed company, all females and males be cautious of what you choose to entertain. Why, even though you may claim you don't give a #!#! about what people or society thinks of you. It's more reasonable for you my Queen to consider what you think of yourself; and who is admiring you from a distance 

No human being wants to be alone in this life. People want to feel a belonging to someone or something. And sometimes its more manageable to present this person in yourself but a denial to say; Validation and Acceptance is what I really need from you to feel like a person. And if this is not your situation. Then maybe you are the other Ghetto girl on the opposite side; judging your own in this life. 

Ghetto girl, or Ghetto Woman; we wear our behaviors and style where the world is watching as we smile, frown and poise. And for every type of female; we cannot deny the desire to want a hard core man. 

Ghetto dude, touche! we all have used the names in our clicks or saying it to see if someone else was closely paying attention. See woman love feedback and it's not always necessary a smarter female reacts. Why, class is unlimited. Whether you bounce back or keep it moving. Not every person is looking for validation. And men will do boyish things, and boys will be men. The difference is in both of their performances. Of what a man will do without direction, that a young boy has more time to master from proper instructions. 

I hear females say; I want a hood dude. Well who qualifies to be hood? The world is filled with a color box of young and old choices around the world. So many females are confused whether they want a good man or a hood dude. Again, reference back the bolded lettering.   

Being a single person; does not mean you are a lonely person & vulnerable. Because you can be a lonely person in a single relationship. How, because people have yet to figure out how to respect themselves. 

Ghetto dudes are not all men of any color that wears; a tough attitude, below the waist swagger & measurements in between his legs. Some ghetto dudes are the very intellectual & willing to learn more as young and older men; if a Ghetto girl or female whose perception is her respect comes from in between her legs, or that her mental game is so tight that her tongue has a man sprung. Then we as woman or females have failed to do our jobs. Is teaching one another that "value", is priceless. Because we are the Queens in need of our KINGs!

I taught my only son & I stand firm even in his demise & seeds; to first understand yourself, teach accordingly and listen closely. Before you attempt to please anyone else who is still seeking love and validation in themselves through the world.

Ashes/Amor

When daylight turns into Ashes; we must remember storms don't last. 

When our tears turn into anger if not joy; we must remember to laugh out loud if not pray together for each other. 

When disappointments obscure our visions; we must plan because tomorrow is not promised. But just incase our eyes meet the sunshine. Start a new day with a mindset.

When the tunnels remain dark; we must remember the light we first saw. 

When people fail us or we disappoint ourselves; we must remember the people who will not and how we did not give up on ourselves.

When money no longer brings contentment or material things to make us feel fuzzy inside; we must remember to not put money first. But re-evaluate what is really priceless in our lives.

When we look at our children; remember to smile. Without them we have no reason to give a good fight. 

When family is worn or torn in unity; we must stay fighting together in the ring. 

When this whole world looks out of place; remember how to love (amor); yourself first (uno).

I don't speak Spanish fluently however;  in this bloodline that is filled with diversity. So we honor one another with respect; no matter who we are, we are familia.  

Anarchy

In Respect of Black History Month/American History 

The word is out; we are not at war until we figure out the war began in our selves in the mischievous behavior throughout the world we are now in the presence of questioning. The world is a beautiful gallant space; so how did humanity smother its grace.

So what is all that we see is the ugly. While the Good Samaritans are showing compassion for every physical body of all races of men. Hunger, famine and pain. Are for generations did we not compute the math for what was brewing over those white table clothes from 1 generation to the next; while we were so busy with ourselves.. Truth hurts but so does a lie. 

Anarchy a creepy way to use this term; is to describe it on social media pages or by yelling to the top of our lungs; the dying will continue in murdered numbers if not famine, disease and global hunger. But what about the living. We stop living once we give up to hope if not work in faith to change the behavior that continues in killing our focus around the globe. 

Negativity is part of the distraction, snitching went out the window over generations; people tired of burying their families through Go Fund Me pages and still dying for trying to remain silent; for the next murder plot to occur. As all walk by one another in knowing who either called it or done it.

Negativity; is drama plotted or brewing in ones self or group of boxed in minded thinking to destroy or spite a people or person for what; a baby daddy who took responsibility for a man who comes as he please, a working woman who chose to try a different approach to save the sanity of her kids, a family who decided together we are the force in unity against the evil that's plans in dividing us. A young man or woman who made a decision to stand change their situations, and walk away so they can "Breathe", and not be murdered by his own neighbor, brother or sister if not by police brutality. And the denied perception is "this never happens in our neighborhoods", wake up its animalistic behavior. These are life issues humanity is stuck on. While in the White House the debates are growing strong. 

Negativity is master mind a way to dismantle all the churches; but allow legal access to the drugs, guns and jails for more chaos and hell. Because not all believe in God, until Satan has used the ones for pawns. 

Positivity is again; we know the better around our differences.                                                                In memory of Dominique White Jul. 23-1991-Jan. 15, 2020

In Memory of MLK.

Mocha

 

To the young at heart, elders in mind, body, spirit and our gentlest feet of all children. Grab this cup of Java on me. A therapeutic cup filled with love to congregate in a space for one moment to escape; our real life reality. 

Now let's proceed to day dream in a mental space where we already physically fantasize in of every click, text, voice or physical message. Unless our choices have limited our resources or maybe our mobility to find some space to find rest. But before we intertwine in this gigantic world of twisted pain. Let's gets re-acquainted with ourselves if not one another. To digest the events that are taken place in the world that is contagious with laughter; and of course the COVID-19 virus. 

We yearn to touch one another in places we are faced with burdens and places we have learned to heal. Where the names or fading in our memories and time is evaporating everyday; reflecting in our old and young face. Where there use to be smiles is not contagious laughter, for snares and glares in the distance of our own created spaces and uncertainties awaiting. 

What happened to that plan to reach that goal, business proposal, health concern was no more, life experience that changed our visions and mission. And new ideas that would change the way we living. Because everyday has a new test, regardless if we are prepared or not studied for it. We still will face questions that remained un answered resurfaced in demands of what will be our attention today; in every move we make or position we place stake in. 

Failures are part of the process, Victory is endless for the requirement is dedication. So the question is what will overflow our cups today" Before life has no more ingredients to fill our Java cups back up again? In a space of our individual freewill to think for ourselves, move in our own motions, and figure out what my purpose is to change the world I want to see myself live in.

Half of our lives we live trying to figure out; what is it & who we have obligated ourselves too; and the other half we process the answers to our own questions that require a daily cup of human patience. So by the end of this final sip may you, I are them can finally resonate in a positive space in how good was that cup of Java I slowly sipped in peace. To for a moment rediscover in myself. It only took me to take an account in figuring out my own purpose in life. And if I did not figure it out right this moment. One thing I accomplished was a "treasurable moment to myself".

Enjoy Your Life Responsibly not with regrets of wasting another moment!