BIG

As I prepared for a pleasant of  night rest. This calming feeling came upon my chest. So I wanted to encourage a few if not many.

To let you know; until God says you're done. There is still a harvest for you to work towards.And in the event you think this life is over for you, and this is it. As I said everything thing is going to happen ontime. But not without God in it at the right time. 

I can testify last Jan. I lost my only child. To a homocide then told lies where his body laid. I been broke but not broken. I been hurt but not left bitter. I lived through watching domestic violence in them good old day's. As we survived in those trenches of trying times. I also saw my mother talk to God, married a good man who protected and provided for All her children. So I grew up before enjoying my years of childhood. I had to get my weight up at 5'1. I learned my mental & physical strength, as an adolescent. So my son would never suffer unnecessary pain & fear no man, but God. #28"Prince".🥰.

Which brings me to this Point. Hardships are part of the journey. And if you have not suffered enough try believing in God. Because death is inevitable, life is a blessing. And people will change you, challenge you, mislead you if not encourage you. 

Today in Sunday School a sister ask what is about addressing the truth with family are people in general?

I answered most people will accept a lie; faster than they really want of the truth. She then ask what about family? I responded most people avoid the conversation with their family. To avoid the confrontation with the family. Truth is we possess the idea of wanting the truth. The reality is the truth will challenge us; to address the lies we accept to avoid facing the truth in ourselves. Hey! dont ask a question; if you are not looking for the answers.

"BIG", always look abroad; even when your circumstances make you feel small..

Bullying

If we  have not had the conversation. Arrange for the family a gathering of the minds; in either the front or back yard. To discuss "Bullying", and how do we begin this topic with our own family and children. So once life happens everyone of them is in upright position. 

Many of us are comfortable; in  our locations. And in these days fist fights are not an option. In a generation of genocides by the hands of gun violence. Do you recall back in the day we either threw  blows, are took one for the team. Which brings me to this story. I spoke with a girlfriend who needed "my hood insight". As if I stayed accustomed to being about living in that life.  See it does not matter what pair of hands you assume to have my sonson stood a beast at 5"11 with no hesitation; sometimes you learn to survive until you come up with an exit plan. So, I said to my girlfriend "a new zip code" does not exempt real folks from the bullying, racial profiling & violence. 

In real talk we discuss our own life experiences if not judgement of opinions towards others. So yes, I do write in light of our historical moments, factual experiences and out of the blue life circumstances, we are going to face them; because these things are going to happen.  

The reality is we are all trying to escape one another in the same space during Covid-19.  Seeking diligently to adjust our zip codes in a real greedy world; where  real estate is motivated by performance and demand and the economy is the trenches to survive in. As those who delay and parlay await to be up rooted from their community and hood areas. And its going to happen without proper notice. As we listen to why it was allowed to be stated on live television “weed causes people to be violent, and not fully competent” of their actions. But yet the government has legalized weed amongst other items for medical purposes, and the drug dealers now face higher competition, if not bail bonds, if not strike down one another. As we residences of the masses are trying to comprehend; how the statistics did not include ALL other zip codes.

There is a high tenacity around the globe in pursuing bullying on ordinary people including the Asian community. Some of it stems from ignorance, identity crises and gang associations; and on the gang population let me share a secret all people are the roots of other people in all ages; that keep it their personal lives on idle. Of the eyes that are watching behind those french blinds that remain close to facing the truth in how; we will never share the same views. We will not all agree not even about corruption. However we will disagree to agree, about what affects us in our own zip codes. Which makes a statistic “accurate, or inaccurate” to why life happens for some of us and not others? So in order to process what some people have experienced or not; it will happen in any zipcode. Until we stretch not to fit in compartmentalized boxes. There is a radius of zip codes of human behaviors and non addressed of accountability that stems from the Bullying. 

The statistics share the race of violent behavior, how about the root of issues that stem from the bullying. Believe it or not the laws are even more intimidating; because of the injustices, inadequate information and racial profiling, now in almost every zip code. Of domestic abuse;  mental and physical that make up real statistics. In all zip codes happening now in occurrences; of ALL races and ages, around the world.

Lastly, there is a behavior of thugged out mentality dressed up in debated “oppositions & opinions” exposed in zip codes. Bullying behind bolted doors, skylines and zip codes around the world. Of human jealousy in societies of Homicides that make up the statistics; of untrained hit men and woman, if not acquaintances, and random strangers seeking a mind gripping purpose to be of existent. As we sat in of brewing Wars, none of us are even the bully's are prepared to fight in every community around the world. 

 

In a perfect world the word "crazy" would not make common sense. However, we don’t live in a perfect world. We live in world of imperfect people. And the hardest part for us all to stand with our families in a circle; in our own front or back yards. And grasp the realization of this “box”, humanity created then gripped onto "of The Haves, and Have Nots". Collecting profiled data of statistics in humanity as we figure out how to adjust in a world of diversity; attached to social security numbers, credit scores and allocated zip codes. Of Bullying behaviors, we can no longer run away from each other. Are behind another zip code if not location.  

Ephesians: 6:22

The answer is no. I do not smoke are partake in drug activity. Because I do not desire to survive; being bullied and blindsided. In a free world of which some deny themselves.

#28, In Memory of Love.

  

CROWN

I purchased my first pair of diamond earrings in 2011, this took place shortly after my grandmother passed away, one of my most elegant diamonds. I would share as a young girl on summer nights, secrets this diamond took to her grave. So did my young #28 Prince, rest in 2020. As a black girl I never purchased a Black Diamond; myself. However,  I surrounded myself with people of knowledge & wisdom. And they taught me to always be treasured as a Black Diamond. 

When you look into the mirror; what do you see Black Woman. Do you surround yourself in value? In your skin there is a revelation in Generations that has passed down of your beautiful; caramel, almond, roasted black are red bone skin tone. That continues to blossom. Your beauty rest timeless in the deepest oceans where infinite divers hunt anxiously for the “Black Diamonds” carved to perfection. A symbolic formation of elegance packaged in the finest of silk and satin. Once sold throughout the mankind of history for the world later to hold until eternity.   

-Angel L. Black Girl hold your head high, and wear your crown. 

Cash For Ashes

We all read it, if not heard "Yall playing checkers, we playing chess", but what players are on the Poker Table?

For every game; sits a table of Players. And for every hand There is a Full House, waiting to be played.  

Woman we must be mindful of what we advertise; in a wall street world of snake moves and wolves. Therefore I will not dip into any line of mixture in inhibitions. However, it will be behoove you to watch out for your assets. In an environment of high risk, moderate and low investors. 

Gentlemen  suit up for the tables are hitting, and every player wants to be the BIG FISH. The issue is for every hand is being watched. But for every table there is only 1 dealer. It will behoove to be aware of the extractions and the next of players to resume an old game; with new poker faces.    

One day the hustle got real. The stakes were higher, and everybody wanted a piece of the Apple Pie. But not everyone was prepared; to accept the cards shuffled from the dealers hand. 

Be mindful ladies, of the cards you play. Remember they are the same cards that were just shuffled in that dealers hands. And a few players will fold, others will bet on the house, as a few will watch around the poker table of real players.    

Be smart young men; in the games you entertain, not every bet is going to pay. 

The idea is to grab the stash; by any means necessary. But not all players are focused on what's around the table. For every bet is not always the players win; against a steady Poker hand. 

Cash for Ashes; there are few hands that beat flush poker, the player who holds the full house in silence.   

If only more players; could of played Poker. 

Romans 8:11, don't count God out. In every hand bet him in.

28" "Prince"

Knock Knock!

Is anyone home? Love stop bye with a telegram. But only if you’re prepared to sign for it.

Some people claim LOVE no longer exists, while others refuse to live and not have it. So if you are NOT SUPPOSE TO CARE ANYMORE, THEN ASK YOURSELF “WHAT AM I STILL RUNNING FROM”? 

And when a person says they know how to for fill a need. We’re not going to assume their talking about everything; such as being touched in those fragile un-kissed places. So what do I mean is this some people have been burnt if not heart broken, abandoned, and rejected if not blind sided? Unfortunately life has its own directions for all of us to experience.

A mother can love her child their entire life. Daddy can mentor and protect for his allotted permission in time. And once the both of them are no longer around; a time will come for babies and children to mature, think and stand as grown women and men on their own.

I have no regrets in being positive in the negative. Caring with tenderness and affection at times with a person who rejected it. I have no doubt time will change any human feelings. And just because life takes 1 turn for the BETTER OR WORSE. It does not mean we have to wait for permission to be HAPPY, again.

• I’m not saying we’re all going to reciprocate and appreciate the same feelings regarding being loved by one another in this life. What I’m saying is we will all learn having what we want; is not having what we need in the END.  

Double standards contribute to more than an abundance of heartaches in men and woman in this world. And people will bring out the real you; giving LOVE a purpose in slowly changing the things you claim to never do. 

-Angel L.

Knock Knock, 2017

Cocoa Butter

If you are going to wear it. Wear it naturally with etiquette and beauty.

Whatever color you wear. Be flawless and confident in the skin you represent. Remember we were not created to be beautifully perfect; we were created for a flawless purpose. So when our young girls struggle to feel uncomfortable in their own skin; there should be a reminder that she can identify with; in her own natural skin.

If make-up never existed; would nakedness deter us from presenting who we are in the natural skin tone? And if we are not prepared to answer back; who would teach us beauty is what we carry in ourselves. In knowing all products are optional for the record.  

One day I decided to look in the mirror; I removed all the makeup and preserved the natural with softer highlights and cocoa butter with baby oil. I did not aim for perfection in  beauty. I aimed to preserve the beauty I discovered in myself. And what I share with the queens in my life is this; today you are maturing at a speed of lightening, due to the exposure in this world. And as little girls your bodies are expanding into the skin you will grow-up in. And overtime this body will endure pressure; remember to respect it. 

The eyes will grow weary once they are tired; allow your lids to rest, and always remember to love on your pallet, rest your head on a soft pillow case. And allow your little minds to cast away. For Time will come unexpectedly. And one day u will look into the mirror and either adjust what you see. Are accept; your natural skin is beauty.

YOU

Before any male understands himself; there is always a female working inwards to learn herself. And in the learning process both will be the example of either’s boyish or girlish behavior. And once a female identifies her worth in being a woman that is not appreciated by a type of male; opportunity is waiting for an established man to enter into her presence. And recognize her value, and she appreciating his manhood. From a short or long distance. Now, guess what? Race is not a factor, where a man finds a woman. And they both respect one another in value.

A Boss move; before making love in the physical, allow us first to practice in the mental. Because if life experiences does not educate us; people will mature us, vice versa.

How is this relevant; in a Pandemic only so much is going to happen. That turns a frown, into smiles for multiple reasonings to loose ourselves. 

                                                                          "Angel L."

                                       

Danger

✊ 

Confessions dont come easy. To many fights turn into battles. And communications are easy at the beginning of something new. Until someone is broken if not blind sided by Love. To understanding love is expressed in a multitude of facets. Its people that play mind games in it. Depending on who is demonstrating the real act. Or speaking out its love language.

 

Love is priceless. And repercussions occur when this love is mishandled and betrayed; it becomes a very Dangerous Game we are all guilty in playing. But no one every really wins. If we choose to stay knowing there were so many tears shed; to walk away. Before it was to late and s1 stayed..

Some people just know; what forever is. And some people know its better to Have than to Have Not.

How can this 4 letter word; carry such a tumultuous sound. And controls  the heart that fights the mind; to stay in Love. Are finally walk away; this final time.

If it were not so about Love; then why are so many lonely hearts seeking online if not  around the world? As some people look into each others eyes; trying to figure out if we are  still in Love.

My son once said "mom? I want you to find someone". I said I already have by having you. Ill know when he is a King and ready to love me and your babies. And On Jan. 15, 2020 the love I was faithful to in this life was Written In The Book  of Life. For me to  be prepared for the day I was called to return back my Prince to our first love; God. 

Cheers to Love💖

Harmony

I saw a vision this morning; and the word of the day read; Harmony to share.

What is hard to accept; regarding if somethings are nothing about humanity changes. Life is still going to happen.

If we own up to accountability. We can move towards establishing our own if not for All; stability in the compartmentalized comfort zones. In which many are complaining on pause.

We are not the brightest of beautiful, brilliant, bold if not an average mind in the universe. And even the smartest, most Influential, Independent, Interesting, and Intelligent people in the world; make bad choices, create positive solutions and posess  weaknesses & strengths.

Like my acclimations? Our children will need them.

We are just ordinary people; at the end of everday of confusion, bills, material things and problems. Until we confront theses "Action items", in communications. Are with the  acceptance in our own human behaviors. Struggles are going to exist no matter the sex, race or origin; when we as human beings continue to pacify on  toxic behaviors and denial in taking accountability of the choices we make. 

If not better prepare ourselves in a Life that is just going to happen; without permission. Look at the hand Covid-19 dealed in the time of uncertain leadership, crises and family disconnects. We must reassemble our focus; on a more mindful desire to live.

Harmony for my "grandchildren, and their dad who resides in his Master's hands", and peace and prosperity in the healing for All. In a land that awaits the future of these children and our tomorrow. 

Masculinity

Boys need strong men role models in their lives to teach them manly things and instill in them of how to take care of themselves; and girls need woman to teach them the value in strength, love and how surving in a world of diverse classes of people; teaches you the importance of valuing  yourself. And yes, there is a possibility where families values, morals and beliefs are unstructured. So this boy becomes acclimated in this environment of figuring out his own man. He will display some resentment & rebellion because of the absence of a biological father if not misguided role model. He will challenge the replacement of a role male model. Simply because he needs the truth of who he belonged or still belongs to, and what he needs to learn to become this man. The reality all boys belong to a bloodline in which they are a fathers blood heir. The reasoning to why some boys strive in  the quality of their life; is because they sense they have 1. According to what the guardians are establishing of knowledge and of stability. Even if a mixture of family or friends are involved in the support or temporary care of performing as role models in the presence of a boy. This applies to girls, as well. The the role models must play a significant  & stronger mature role. For this girl or boy to process his or her own change into men/woman in their own skin.

At 20 years of age, a single mother I gave birth to my only son. Unfortunately his life was taken at 28years of age. Most people say "its sad, the young die to soon".  I respond Gods plans are not ours. And God did allow our son to leave love in tiny footprints. And the trusting hearts of the women that are left to mold his children. I taught my boy how to identity with love; and acknowledgment of understanding his own body and feelings. I taught Dominique  to identify his strengths by surrounding him in circles of men in empowerment. I taught him to use his physical body to perform endurance and to use his mind to think for himself but mold it; as your most powerful weapon. And do not allow anyone to gain inappropriate access, or use manipulation to possession it. 

A bandaid on a wound only covers the surface; underneath that wound may or not be healing. Look around young men struggle. And woman seek strong men to help raise these boys. Even If she struggles to do it herself this woman has to be more careful; of who she alows in her house.

Our boys are the kings we birth; for every princess a prince is being molded for her. In a world of wars, emperors,generals, kernals, commanders and chiefs. What we should be in fear of is whether theese boys are growing up without; the teachings of strong men that have been educated with life experience.

A woman can groom children  to love. Her girl she needs to emulate her and the son needs to be molded to protect them both. And at the end of the day this boy should understand what is the makeup of him growing into a man. So that he is not misguided in his own male skin. And dominated by any type of woman because of the love his mother taught him; by challenging his masculinity; based on how his daddy was around or not. And the next man who steps In if not step-Up.

"9"

It's intriguing Humanity is educated in reciting Old History. In a New Generation of Historic debates over accountabilities. And one day ALL children of color will read for their own understandings; to discover of what we labored in of this generation. 

Can we conclude "The North Star" was a direction told to the slaves to find freedom; follow the North Star, and was there really freedom at the end of the direction in which they were appointed; to freedom? The right answer lives in the memoirs of our current human concerns; of what has been written and provided to us in historic literature, if not movie lines of actors & actresses directed in of  “this is a better environment, than where we had to flee for our lives. In order to live as free black men, woman and children”.

We speak about police brutality; and the world screams in aggravation after "I can't breathe". We tap on black on black crime and the world tip toes on egg shells. We are well aware of the systemic profiling in racism; as our black people drive & walk home in their own neighborhoods. Until one day they are stopped and ask "what is your name, where are you going, and let me see your ID". And no every stop made is a reasonable justifiable cause. Although we do appreciate the public services in All neighborhoods; however a dress does not cover-up inequalities through intimidation is the real world world. As ALL children face a struggle in hardships with education & virtual schooling.

In a COVID-19 pandemic world. Which returns us ALL back to the pages of our past history. We continue in a struggle to accept the denial if not another generation of distress

 “The Little Rock Nine was a group of nine African American students enrolled in Little Rock Central High School in 1957. Their enrollment was followed by the Little Rock Crisis, in which the students were initially prevented from entering the racially segregated school by Orval Faubus, the Governor of Arkansas”.

We acknowledge the educators who sacrifice; from 4 text books per class of 29 children. Has it really been over 70 years since outlawed. And how is it possible in this generation that still faces; Equity Gaps in Housing segregation, Income In Equity, Mental & Health services are just a few in inequalities of our next generation of these children that will face it. If we don't deal with the domino affect of Racism/Systematic Prejudices.  

When I address who will lead our children; it applies to what we ourselves lack, choose not to educate & share, if not deny the Truth's of a conversation to speak on Equity in Education. That will determine their history moving forward of what we have accomplished in this generation. 

In Memory & Honor of all our colored children to equal education.