The Error In My Ways

I must say “how change made me see” the error in my ways. And because I notice it in myself, I can embrace the reciprocation moving towards my transformation. 

My story began as a child. And before we start let’s get this story clear. I was raised by a single mom a portion of my entire life. My family has always been religious which kept me grounded during the hell I experienced, my guardian’s implemented respect and strict rules that had to be obliged, no matter how people or disrespectful and rude. Just don’t allow them to run over you. So I knew in my childish heart that one day I would deal with people who would attempt, with access, to destroy my groomed spirit. And on that day my real journey took place. 

As a child I did childish things. I had my moment of rebelliousness. I had my moment of questionable situations. I had a moment to think about how my choices in people and things. And how the two were no longer working out for me, then one day I decided to change my circle of friends, and set my family straight on how we must always communicate in a mild mannered way, because overtime all people tend to get out of line.

As a young girl I had endowed special gifts that were not like others. So I was judged for it. I was always seeking new ways to encourage someone along the way. I was always taking from my plate to share with others who portrayed they had more than me in society. I was always the person who knew struggling was not healthy but destined if we were not to change our boxed thinking. I've been associated with people who think they are out of one another’s league, but there inner desires would lead them too what they say “I will never do or say”. I was always the person to share my last, even when I knew you would never return the favor to me, what I have sacrificed for you. I was always the person who made mature decisions in my personal relationships, and lord help us all in our appreciated, or simple and selfish ways.  I was that friend who you could call but after a while the request became overwhelming with foolishness. I was always inspiring prayer, even when I knew you were to weak too believe. I was the person who would listen to repetition, and overtime people caught onto how the advice I was sharing was overwhelming. Because they were not looking for change, they were looking for a fool to keep jumping through loops. 

The entirety of Angel L’s stories is based on real testimonials, our true actions and our deceitful intentions. So the reasoning to why I share truth. Is because I lived it or experienced it, witnessed it or heard it from someone else and that is why I’m balanced and confident with sharing with you about myself.

I assisted a young girl with book sense but lacked the real world of knowledge. So I went into her space and offered my help & advice. This young girl’s attitude was clear that I was only needed to satisfy her one mission for that moment in time. But what I did share is people will waste your time, if you’re not mindful to appreciate other people’s time. And although book sense is great, having common sense will take you along way. Have a great day.

I called a friend but again there was a missed call. So finally we talked. And this friend made me aware of all her plans but what was the real intention in her reasoning to not answer both the missed calls. So I said maybe you did not recognize the caller responding back to you. Immediately there was a smart remark. And keep in mind this was not on her but my talk time.  

I flew up to see an old friend who coordinated the message related. And again I could hear the alarms ringing loud and clear. So I jumped on a plane. And yes I did it again! Months later this friend was in a better situation. So the stories stopped and so did the line drop.

I saw a family member in distress, but not in a new situation. And yes I was fed information, but my advice not money was rejected.  So now I’m the pet detective. 

I was in a courtship for years with a man. We both made choices. But somehow our ways were judged one way. And what I learned is how to possess some standards and expectations. So don’t let any and every one ruin your reputation.  

So we can clearly see; how people change, remain the same, judge one another for how we treat each other doing the same things, and the choices we make do cause things to spiral each and every way.

What I did not know was “with any gift, there will be burdens” and my reasoning to why I share these truths is to intervene in situations, where man will lie through manipulation, without hesitation.