People interpret one another through emotions and physical ways.
But without the proper interaction of communication, and realm of understanding
these same people who are destined to internally change, will find out how
“endorphin” alleviates stimulation in our brains. The reality to why people
emotionally and physically react to all things, in this life. So therefore it’s
important we deal with the emotional and physical changes in ourselves. In
order to accept and change what we feel “emotionally” and “physically” in
dealing with everything else. Why, because what we as a people assume of our
academics and street intelligence will eventually collide with the
ramifications of change that is gradually occurring in real people’s life.
I knew a mother who loved all of her children, but not the same.
Because of life’s journey that would bring on heartache, laughter and pain.
Why, because these children were not destined to be the same; emotionally and
physically only genetically. So once they grew up in age everything changed,
drastically. So therefore this mother questioned if not prayed before
re-examining the choices she had once made. In order for her to figure out that
a man or mate should add, or could subtract from her “change” one day, simply
due to choices that are “inevitable”, but they must be made.
One day a boy looked to his mother for all the answers to why children and love
is so important in a girl or woman's life. Some mothers had good responses
while some did not know how to reiterate an answer. Then one day this boy
thought he was prepared to be a man & created children and married a wife
which groomed him rapidly into a man overnight. Learning and struggling with
unanswered questions for the remainder of his life. Therefore if any female is
faced with how can a male at any stage of his life, become a slave to Kush, love
more than one woman at a time, or refuse to grow out of a little boys mind.
Remember it was a woman who could not provide answers to this child at birth,
and some man who walked away from responsibility and dismissed taking on
accountability to continue in replenishing the earth with other woman nurturers
looking for a foundation. So the results ended in how both parents managed to
not answer this boy’s concerns; why is having children and love so important to
her.
I can now relate to why; people must feel important, respected
and acknowledged in life because humanity seeks to feel a level of comfort if
not validation in their own skin. and
when a person becomes insecure, fearful or uncomfortable because of the lack of
being acknowledge, respected and validated. It causes a behavioral change
in their patterns.
I have experienced a place of loneliness with people standing
around, but never desperate enough to give up on me. Whether it was death or in
situations where people placed clarity on what they were only willing to offer
and invest to settle with me, therefore I expected to lose many.
I spoke
with a person of interest. Who said I’ve kept relationships for over 20 years.
So why was our friendship not relationship so different, because this person in
whom I trusted with my friendship did not reveal their “horny” physical
interest. So one day our friendship was tested, due to a lack of communicating
“expectations”. I immediately placed a call to see; what did I miss and is it
something we can fix. The person said we’re good and my schedule is wide-open.
And what I learned is after all these years of emotionally working through
myself to deal with the loss of fluctuating associates, people and friends in
my life. How one day was inevitable for a break in our lives. Because we never
communicated in the right way, are respected one another for making a personal
change.
I understand now why so many people attempt suicide. And not I’m
speaking in light of who has taken his or her own life. I’m reflecting on the
“emotional and physical” decisions people make in this life.
Recently
I took a flight and without placing restrictions and limitations on my
everyday arrivals and departures through life. I was destined to make a change
for this flight “emotionally and physically” in order to deal with the road
blocks set ahead in life, so once this stewardess accomplished accommodating a
passenger in seating due to their physical weight. I had to immediately adjust
emotionally in my weary space of departures and arrivals in my day. In order to
accommodate a servant’s way of making this passenger sit comfortably, from
their original space, a few inches away from people who did not physically
accept “change” in space. Is when I immediately whispered to this person and
said “these two sits were empty for one reason”, the passenger smiled and
immediately I fell asleep. But not before I ask God to forgive me; for I would
also be tested as a faithful servant. Then later on in the flight the same
stewardess would pass me bye, in the same row I did not hear “would you like
something to drink” as I close my eyes and drifted back to sleep, finding
peace.
We live in a society where people are accustomed to stir in many
directions. That will challenge one another emotionally and physically,
resulting in human change. That does not always take place in a cordial,
natural or peaceful way.
I hear things can be better if people work at being better to
them self’s; before attempting to change someone else. I’ve experienced
generational triumphs and pain. And in order for us to experience a generation
of peace; we must first deal with our internal enemy.
I know what it feels like to appreciate time management while
attempting to survive in poverty for more enrichment in life. I can relate to
power, wealth-and contentment; because a peace of mind is priceless. But a
choice will be made, in what you’re willing to forfeit of things and people you
can no longer internally process or change.
Do we not know how the wealthiest man is a servant to his or her
own inheritance? Do we not identify with how we all must labor in this life and
not only for profit? Do we all not identify with; if we continue to resist
the Endorphin in our brains, we continue to lose track of
managing our “time” in which we relinquish over time.
We live in candied society where people are accustomed to act
out the extreme, if not process thinking. And we have witnessed humanity
perform “Temper Tantrums” like the ones in babies. So what I mean is we are
quick to judge before judging ourselves, we are to contagious to stress then
wonder why is it mess. We are quick to lie and blame it on someone else. We
quick to be angered then implement religion in our own devilish acts, so that
we can honestly live with; we’re much better than the next person.
A blue print plan is something in our wiring not created by man.
But yet some of us choose man over religion. Therefore we’re all destined to
take paths, but for some of us we are going to be routed in opposite directions.
I have not always reached
the height of perfection in my life. I have not always accommodated man's or
woman's expectations. I have not always agreed with my family, but I will
continue in loving them dearly. And I have figured out "myself', how
people in time revolve in silence and act out loud. Life will not allow us
the time to get people up to speed, about our life. Just be open when
“sincere” people show up a chance in a lifetime.
-Angel L signing off, once I decided to Jump!
