How could I forget you when every thought that could have been
me and you, manages to make me feel “Misty Blue” and there were times when I
deprived myself knowing that you were a pass time for everyone else. So instead
we both stayed around, and continued in entertaining one another simply because
I allowed you to hang around. But for some reason I can no longer hide
this pain I feel inside. And we both know that addictions destroy lives.
Because it does not ponder with; whether he or she will give up or forever stay
in love with this deceit in which you seek to find in attention, love, comfort
and peace. If only they could disconnect from me. I would no longer possess
this power over them. And where they strongly desire to be held in open arms just
to feel safe and warm, but I’m afraid to allow them to have strength and reveal
what makes me real. I don’t know what life has in store for me. But eventually
someone will say “love is a possibility” then they will no longer believe in
me. And once they choose to no longer stand in their own way, destiny
will deal with me.
I must admit it’s been awhile since I’ve last slept. It’s
been some time since love had no regrets. And yes, it’s been some generations
since the truth has been revealed. All because of the addicted way people love
to feel in my world where dreams are real. So how did I the “addiction” find my
way into families, education, careers and society? Well no one took the
appropriate time to question their own lives. If only they would have
asked to themselves; why do I continue in settling for everything else?
They would have known that this hidden addiction would surface soon.
They say time will heal all wounds. But in the meantime
this addiction gives me a “voice and a peace of mind” it no longer feels out of
place in a world of people that harbor me every day. And yes, I am your deepest
desire that shows up in different attires. I am the voice of reasoning in your
hardships. I am the face you are familiar with. I am in the love you desire to
die for. I am carefree, ruthless, arrogant and ambitious. I am aroused by your
submission. I consume all ages. I live in your conscious and all always
prepared to pursue you in vulnerable places. So I need you to understand how
there is always going to be some good and bad, on every hand. And while some of
you pray, I'm also preying on your weakness, which is my soul mate.
Of
course I’m always optimistic and pessimistic regarding your change. But the
truth still remains; until you find balance in your life and not always believe
that the grass is greener on the other side of life. We will deceive the other
into not figuring out, what this addiction is all about.
