Angel's Examination

Sometime it’s hard. I do agree when it comes to only depending on me. So we can all agree at some point we need an examination of what we don’t or wish to see. And what I mean is sometimes our fears are hard to past. Our egos supersede to make its “all about me”. Why, because of the storms lingering into our future from our past. So more than often I take accountability to personally execute a  self-examination on myself simply to figure out; if I’m still in control of the cycle’s life will use people to take me through.    

My mind does get confused and my heart will get weary over-time. And in those days I drift far away where people fail to show respect while I work on my attitude and mindset. And what I have found in that quite space is “I can clearly hear what God has to say” and yes, I know and understand there are some people who don’t believe in God or we may not share a view on the same things were going through in life, which is fine because it only allows me the time to examine myself, situations and people in a different light.

Today I went to a place to shed some light on many things.  That I am personally dealing with in my spirit. So it does not reflect I’m angered towards the world or someone else. It’s that we must make more mature decisions in the choices we make. That often results into the domino effect. So why is it ever worth getting involved into a situation that causes lingering feelings, towards the people we love. Just to figure out; what did they do or how we keep contributing to. And again, there are these people in the entire world. Who refuse or ponder to accept why other people choose to; walk away in a cycled and dysfunctional state.

There are days I feel let down. But it does not keep me down, and the reason why; is I have allowed life to teach me many facets of people, myself & experiences" and in return, one day at a time. I am turning myself around.          –Angel L signing off.

"It takes a great man to be a good listener "
Calvin Coolidge