"I DO"

Understand now the purpose of being in love. I do respect another person’s choices. I vow to never apologize again for the desires I pray to share with someone who values and appreciates me on any & every day of the year.

This next time I will keep closer to the mindset of; how I was not created to save or fix what remains heartless, disconnected and broken. And how a man can’t respect what he has no intentions of working for & respect. I will not deny myself of embellishing my womanhood. I will always watch out for manipulation in the “same face” temptations. Whether woman or man. Just to feel affection and to be needed.   

I promise to identify with; why and if I’m feeling lonely in or out of having a relationship to avoid bargaining with the after-math of people that are empty, desperate and mindless in their own human actions. I vow to allow space when created arguments and excuses exist for validation in walking away; even if it’s for a moment.  I will respect a promise. But just in case I will protect my heart if the words don’t add up to any action. I refuse to think I should settle for less and downgrade the logic of respecting my standards, mind, soul and body. Just to have a warm body next to me in a warm or cold bed. I’ll make more time to love myself; even more instead.

I will cancel this next trip & be more honest will myself. Because if he is not what I need. Or shown me anything different then why should this disappointment be worth my weekend of unfilled satisfaction. See some people will “wine & dine” over a period of time just to fill a pleasure in their life.

Therefore, I will not forget to spoil, love & encourage that “equally yoked” man, who shows me the same in return. Even in our lowest or highest moments. I will demand we communicate before walking away; without a reasonable understanding. I will work harder on compromise; but with all due respect; don’t place high expectations on me in places you will not in return of compromise back.  I will make a point to speak up when we are stirring off course; it does not mean I’m “more intelligent or being so  smart”.  My baggage is not a concern but together we can both unpack any unresolved extra baggage. I will work intellectually in bringing my gifts to life. And in return I pray he will ask God for permission to do the same. I will love and respect the children we “combine”, no titles necessary what is yours is also mine. I will let him know every moment he no longer makes me feel like a treasured woman. I will make light of how “God” is the head in our lives. So no matter what happens it will take a cold winter in hell to destroy what we have.

So I’m thinking; Wait on God a little while longer. Because any day "I DO" is destined to happen.