As a young
girl in my twenties; I remember praying to God about my flesh burning. I had
given birth to my son Dominique. But I wanted to be married without the
understanding of what marriage required, although I was surrounded in a family
of marriages. And living now in this generation of adultery & cohabitation;
I look back on this time as a life filled with lessons. This person was not
equally yoked to be my husband or neither was I to be his wife”. However, I
refused to raise Dominique as the victim in my behavior to accept “dysfunction because of my rebellion”, so I returned to God asking for change in my heart. Eventually windows
opened into broader Visions of Wisdom with a limited life of stressors.
All because of
rebellion I realized a journey is only long; without God. Which lead me to a
place of growth in confidence to identify with my own weakness & strenths and most importantly my own purpose. As the narrator of
my own chapters. If not guided by life’s permissions of what we collectively have of experiences;
by sharing our real life journey's regardless of race are sexuality. We are beyond this point in addressing the issues we face. Continue on young girl to do the right things in exploring your internal desire to upgrade in change. Don’t be afraid to let go in some areas;
you are weak to not be strong. And remain open minded to learn from the space
you were not taught, if not too late to return back to someone with knowledge
and wisdom. And in the event that person has expired in your life. Share with your sisters or brother in the living how Momma and Daddy won't always be around. To protect and stretch out our arms and legs to remain little girls if not boys. More
than often it’s the children we created in this world that suffer until their existence mature us into; stronger Mothers and Greater
Dad’s. If not our wise in elders, uncles & aunts who step up and put in mental work.
If we remove the frowned face in our
own disposition and accept perfection is non-existent we can begin removing the
victim stigmatism out of the way of owning up to we made our own choices. And the
color of our own skin barriers as young or grown woman, boys and men is not
limited to accepting it was the lack of proper direction provided in our lives
are simply human choices we can do better if not change.
