911

Fifteen years ago today we still remember the “mourning” of  9/11. 

As the dawn breaks through our window pane families immediately arise with the anticipation of starting a new day, children wrestle to wing themselves from their warm beds, as fathers tuck their heads underneath the covers to steal another wink of sleep before starting their day in providing for the family, mom proceeds towards the kitchen to prepare a breakfast feast, to ensure her crew has the energy, to defeat whatever obstacle they should meet. But who could have seen the calamity coming in the air that would silence the world with a desperate glare.  As fire fighters attempt to catch human life  flying from the twin buildings of fire. Many miles away brave pilots attempt to stir for a clear landing. Passengers are preparing for their final calls to warn their  families "I want be home" and in that moment other passengers did risk their lives; in one mission for all to survive against the bitter faces of death that ceased one opportunity to rob PEACE, FREEDOM and UNITY.

In Memory of “All The Lives We Lost”

The Perfect Season

Life has a funny way of showering on our dreams of imagining how our love life should be. And once you've been heartbroken it looks as if the rain will never end. Just because of a person who no longer love or desired you the same way, no longer appreciates you, or maybe they did tell you the truth; about it will no longer work out between me and you. Eventually the seasons will bring about change, with new love interest or new found interest about yourself. But unfortunately the process of overcoming emotions of hurt feels like a HOT MESS.

The winters are cold and beautiful, the holiday parties are filled with cheer surrounded with close friends and family. But there is someone special missing in your life or either that particular person moved onto another chapter in his or her life.

The spring is full of colorful scenes a serge of elated energy fills the air but without someone by your side, you can't fully embrace the beauty in seasons that change before your eyes.

The summer is blazing hot and everybody's looking for a cool spot. And for some unknown reason people tend to lose their entire minds in the summertime. Could it be "they're happy to be outside, from being closed up in winter the time". But keep in mind love is in full bloom this time of year, couples either remain together or see it as a season for "temporary" change. So enjoy yourself, protect your heart, compliment your pallet with some new taste and stimulate the way you think with new thoughts; plan a trip to paradise, go for a bike ride, take a journey on the dark to skinny dip, jet skies in other countries, road trips in tucked away places, summer musicals to see what is in season this year. And if you're not sure of what you really need how can you be confident of what "you want" from season to season where people change in different ways everyday. So know when it's time to let go of what is or now seasonal.

Finally fall has arrived and you either feel glad, sad or happy inside. Due to the changes in seasons that groom and give us purpose in life. So never feel like you're the only fool who fell for love just think about it like this; what did I make of a first PRIORITY in my life or whom have I made an OBLIGATION only too feel JUSTIFIED. And avoiding the truth of second guessing "LOVE that was originally blueprinted inside all of us". So when a person has no desire to return the same feeling back to you it's not an error, or mistake, it's simply time to let go, and move on your way.

I've come to full circle with the fact that people are the extension of how they think and act. Their children will mimic what they see in their parents life, their failures or success is based on personal choices and determination, their will to survive depends on what is alive or dead inside, their relationships will survive or die depending on who they deal with, the people they choose to follow either feed into their co-dependency or dependency, their TRUTH is often found and most accepted when it is presented in the form of a lie, their hidden issues are a choice to suppress or finally take action to deal with, their families either strengthen or damage them. And lastly the bitterness they hide is always JUSTIFIED. So my reality is; some people will "be ok" "some people will figure their lives out" "some people are ok with living a life of doubt.

Power and The Money

There is a unique difference between the two; where one grants you ACCESS the other CONTROLS you.

People often separate themselves into different categories such as “IMMA BOSS, ENTREPRENUER, HUSTLER, HUMANITARIAN, and VISIONARY OR PLANNER” it just depends on the position you stand in BETWEEN Power or Money that is or not in your hands. And no status, titles, religion and race is NOT AN EXCEPTION. Because people would prefer to believe because you look a certain way and carry the masses name it has to be the “RIGHT and WAY”.  

What is money without the power? Now that’s a question you have to answer yourself.  Now what does a man profit to gain the world and lose his soul? Now this will be the challenge you will resist or struggle to unfold in exchange to self- absorb POWER and MONEY the two things people will pray, die, rob and cheat for.   

There is a positive side in every gesture and situation we attempt to accomplish in this life. The only problem is people are always trying to out think the purpose of real POWER/MONEY by inflicting drama on other people’s life. And if I could have of chosen a better life for myself I would have only been “A Fallen Angel”. And I’ll explain why; because of all the important information I would have missed out on in my life through struggles, heartache, disappointment and pain which only prepared me for the real ending” of interferences implemented in places to sustain “what some people collaborate of chained ways in thinking”.

And when life has you overwhelmed, in doubt or feeling stressed use this module to make you laugh; our lives are divided into numerous portions depending on how much baggage, weight or pressure you can carry of the following roles; parenting takes a portion of your life, friends entertain your life, spouses or relationships are suppose to add too your life, jobs weigh on your life and care giving is a reminder to share compassion so once you have scattered yourself in multiple places and there is a string of life their within yourself raise your hand and understand how you have accomplished to do THE BEST YOU CAN.

 

Why Do Fools Fall In Love

Love is not a game it's full of characters role playing through fulfillment of; expectations, happiness, joy and pain. But when someone breaks your heart and tears down that trust no comfort in the world can rapidly heal what you feel. It will simply take time, room and your initiative to relax and reflect "on who, and not what love did not do".

I could aim for the million bestselling novels. Write a million love stories stand in a forum before a million people filled with their own expectations and illusions of what LOVE really is. But if we could process individually the real texture and meaning of LOVE is not just a bunch of promises, people searching to find their happiness in someone else, high expectations of what we want until we get it, paperback books and fantasies with wish list made off of emotions, hopes and false dreams.

LOVE is an intoxicating energy you cannot feel with a touch. But yet we yearn for it which makes it real to any and all of us.
Love is the act of what the mind, body and soul desires of people to do in return. And until you have experienced a spiritual connection deep inside yourself there will always be a chance of dealing with life's circumstances, expectations, happiness, joy and pain individually or with someone else. Eventually you will meet the right person who desires to embark on an unknown journey with you in this life and experience what is in his or her body, soul and mind. Something we yearn to release but struggle to hold; is allowing loves intention to take full control. 

The Walking Dead

There are different types of people in this life. So you have to know who you are in order to strive and survive. I hear people say many have given up on the coming of Jesus Christ in the world today. As they either “choose to or not pray” but continue in living in their flamboyant, arrogant, casual or worldly ways. Because there is something worse off than Death itself; it’s walking around “every day alive, but silently living dead inside”.

A young girl needs some direction today to heal from the choices she has made but whom can she trust if her elders are making the same choices or mistakes; birthing a child with the wrong boy or man who never “intended” on making her a life plan, falling in love with another girl, boy or man whose only “motive” was to enjoy her body with no “intention” of sharing life’s responsibilities. Dealing with her inner addictions to cutting, physical and mental abuse, drug use to escape the family drama or parental rules, joining cults to find the truth, or dealing with strangers in sexual innuendos because she can’t feel “Real Love”. But the auntie, uncle, momma and daddy do not see the” signs they think that money, friendships with a child and gifts can’t fix; inside of the walking dead.

 A young man got arrested today while riding in the automobile with his new world of friends and the real problem is society is mixed with all colors of kids. While mommy and daddy are busy trying to keep up the pace in life the amount stashed was not his. It belonged to the friends he chose to ride around with. And in that hour; mom or dad where probably living the American Dream stationed at work waiting on retirement, presenting their proposed plan to another fisherman, or a stay at home parent caring for their other children. But this Public Servant did not have time to verify this child’s “credentials” of a decent or hard life to avoid a misdemeanor written up in “black and white. Which would eventually resurface overtime in his life unless there is an implemented plan of “expungement” for juveniles who are destined to make a choice or mistake before they grow –up and get it right.      

 A married couple is struggling to build their relationship on a solid foundation. But what happens when someone is no longer, HAPPY? And unless you are financially rich; money can’t buy material things to restore another person’s feeling of happiness. So what happens next is either one or both of the mates is “COMMITTED” to the kids. While the other if not both becomes “CONTENT” in his or her marriage.       

A single person compliments there time to find companionship online, singles ministry, social events or through a mutual friend. But what happens if “the space we think in, is not the real world we live in” of people bound not to deal with their own conflicted emotions.

Sometimes people will be “OK”, Sometimes people will “Figure it “Out”, Sometimes people will walk around “Alive, while dying inside”.

 

PEOPLE'S CHOICE

People’s emotions are like open and closed doors; one minute the mood swings right and the next minute the mood swings left. Similar to an elevator that goes up and down at a slow or rapid pace until it reaches its final resting place. So no one can really GRASP THE reason why people change either gears “LEFT or RIGHT” in this life until something occurs in TIME which leaves them AT PEACE, BITTER, LONELY, SPITEFUL OR JUST BROKEN INSIDE”. So you can either LIVE IN YOUR DENIAL or EXCEPT THE REALITY OF WHY WE as a People need DESPERATE CHANGE INDIVIDUALLY IN OUR LIVES.

HUMANITY WAS CREATED WITH ONE MAIN DESIGN; eyes, nose, mouth, hands and feet which function off a “HEARTBEAT” IN ALL ETHNICITIES. And it’s inevitable we as a human race of people will not suffer with “Disappointment and Heartache” or either embellish “LOVE and PAIN” depending on the choices we make and the people we choose to EMBRACE OR ENTERTAIN.

So what is hidden of your BROKENSESS; a missing hug or kiss from your parents, an unhealthy relationship, a job loss, a kid, a death, financial distress, selfishness or just pure acceptance to not find a reasoning in having HAPPINESS.  And the reason why this TOPIC is of relevance is because the majority of people in the entire WORLD are struggling; to deal with their own inflated or obtained UNHAPPINESS with the exception of “MENTAL ILLNESS, NATURAL DEATH or BIRTH EFFECT”.

I SPOKE BRIEFLY WITH A PUBLIC SERVANT TODAY AND THE OFFICER LIT UP MY FACE. HE SAID “ I also suffer from brokenness but each day I deal with it the best way I can, by eliminating people and things in  my life that keep me from being satisfied”

I met a lady that was excited about traveling out of state to catch up with some old friends and leave behind her distressing situation. And not to long after her landing this lady figured out that PEOPLE are also struggling with their own choices, mistakes and relationships. So she made a quick U-Turn to what she was already familiar with “her own problems”

I spent some quality time with a celebrity who was happy just to see someone one like me “a person who understand what struggles are like regardless if your are in the “DARK or SPOTLIGHT

YOUNG PEOPLE EXPRESS THEIR SUPPRESSED EMOTIONS IN DIFFERENT WAYS SUCH AS drug use, rebellion, suicide BUT IF YOUR’RE IN DENIAL YOU CAN’T HEAR THEIR CRIES!

OLDER PEOPLE ARE FINALLY FREE TO RELEASE THEIR HIDDEN OPPRESSION FROM THEIR PAST OR CURRENT HISTORY. And I will say this with no shame “if we take accountability in researching our own history their lies the truth of why and what we continue to put ourselves through “ADDICTED PAIN”.

At the end of the Day it’s the People’s Choice and the role they play. So no one can say I no longer love you the same.

Loving yourself first means not waiting on someone else to love you second.   

Casting Roles

People are not hard to find when they often “enter into” and “exit out of” our lives.

Associates are not hard to get along with. They’re just casual people you chat with depending on the situation.

Friendships however take time to figure out what a person is about. So when you decide to invest the time in inviting these people into your lives; remember how “preconception” plans for them to stay a lifetime. Then one day this person will change and either stay or walk away.    

A Girlfriend could be a girl or woman, boy or a man that has your back regardless of your reputation and troubled relations and past. This individual will “stand their ground” and does not mind turning your cockiness into a frown. This individual is not afraid of a “call being delayed”. This individual is not threatened by “your new found friendships”. This individual is not jealous of your new found “relationship”. This individual will break bread when all she or he has is “crumbs”. This individual prays daily for your success to come. This individual also has their own trials in life to deal with; but you will never expect and grasp his or her “HARDSHIPS”. And the reason why this GIRLFRIEND is hard to find is because people would rather live in a LIE than deal with their own TRUTH coming from SOMEONE who sees where you are really struggling to “GROW” through.  

Relationships can take form in many ways and emotions are “always predestined “to get in the way” and since people were not created with a light switch “protect your heart” and thicken “your skin”

Spectators are always lurking around to witness you “rise and prey on your fall down”. So keep your eyes on the prize no matter what challenges you will face in this life.

I can attest to all these SCENARIOS because God hand selected me to star in a “MAJOR ROLE” of hardships, happiness and life’s predicaments with people, associates, employee-employer established relationships, church members, business opportunities, parenthood, family, unknown enemies and friends. So one day I decided to renew my “MIND by Taking Inventory of My OWN Life” and I found out what ROLES PEOPLE really play and no matter what you GIVE of good in yourself it will never be enough for other people to “APPRECIATE AND RETURN TO YOU THE SAME WAY”.

Promise yourself to 'TAKE INVENTORY OF YOUR LIFE" so that you don't always believe you can't survive without people who were predestined to "enter into or exit out of" your PRECIOUS LIFE.     

INVISIBLE TRUTH

I heard someone say “all I see and hear is negativity” in the world we live in TODAY. I heard people say “things have surely changed”. I notice people don’t talk anymore instead they TAP, TAP click and whatever comes next” I witness love ones cry “my son, mother, father grandparents and daughter have died or committed suicide”. I’m watching to see if “there will be a splinter of chance in seeing social society by 2030”. I heard someone say “utilities are inflating rapidly”. I heard management summon “be at the work clock 5 minutes to 8, or someone else is a candidate to take your place”. I heard someone make false promises “to always be around when things  go down”. I heard a married person struggle with he or she does not make love to me the same way we did when we first dated” I saw the hurt in a child’s eyes, I heard a baby cry because mommy and daddy have lost track of time and their “IDENTITY. Or maybe its just the grandparents have picked up another shift to step in. I see an audience tickled PINK as grown people twerk with toddlers and babies that have yet to learn their ABC’S.  I read the FEDS are engineering a plan for future interest RATES “as people struggle to pay their current MORTAGE, HOMEOWNERS AND SINK HOLE INSURANCE,  FIRE AND FLOOD rates”. I heard the IRS has been hacked again which will delay peoples “already earned” and “taxed money, again”. I witness “RACISM is still the cause of violent deaths” in all communities around the WORLD. I heard another WAR is coming soon “but GIVE PEOPLE TIME TO REMOVE THE DEAD BODIES THAT WERE LEFT BEHIND. Then notice how this time generation of people are shifting sides and the reason could be people are finally fed up with “POLITICS, HUMAN TRAFFICKING, MENTAL ILLNESS, DEPRESSION, DRUGS, LIES and GREED” illustrated from both sides.  

The world watched as gangs range in age of grandfathers, brothers, uncles and dad's. While being body checked for brawling in the streets. Someone's wife and children wonder if their love one will make it home to eat. 

I watched the news and viewed as funeral homes neglect the decease. Then smile at the camera and reapply for their LICENSE to bury MORE precious bodies.  I witness a landslide, sink holes, floods and levees devour millions of human and animal life, and it’s sad to say there may not be enough checks to RESTORE those communities. I saw a man FEAST while a CHILD lay out on the WINTER streets. I witness young boys and girls who are blindsided to the world of DISEASE because of the lack in knowledge of knowing their “MATURING BODIES”. I have dealt with GOLIATH on several occasions THROUGH rent, car sales, government assistance, lack of pay and burial arrangements. I viewed the news and watched an offender made a woman scream before she fell into a deep sleep. I found out kindergarten school is offered online in a time where PEOPLE have lost their minds. I feel the ANXIETY in the AIR as people WORK themselves to DEATH.

FDA approved the blue pill for men, libido for women and monitored legalized weed to cure diseases in adults and children. What I'm trying to say is that there still exist a fine line in what is considered a RISK OR CRIME.  

I believe and watch who is advertising and extending the act of prayer, around the world. Just be aware of what SPIRITUAL RELIGION is being shared. In a world of FALSE PROPHETS who claim to be sent in the name of "GOD".

I see students walking the street after 8am but class has already began. I see young boys and girls between the ages of 11-17 strolling the streets from January through December on any given day of the week when they should be headed home are fast asleep. And the reason why I know the times is because I had to sacrifice work several jobs, attended college, care for my child and parents at night then manage to write the DAYS OF OUR LIVES.

I understand the meaning of HOPELESSNESS, I have experienced a gentle kiss and hugs that some people still miss and deal with at all "AGES". I HUMBLED myself by accepting it’s not all about ME. IT’s what I allow to creep in of NEGATIVE and POSITIVE ENERGY. I understand the difference in being POOR, RICH and WEALTHY. But the average person will go insane just because the rent may not get paid and the children don't have enough to eat to get through another day. And it’s not because some people have not tried the real reasoning is in someone else's CALCULATION OF ECONOMICS, DEMOGRAPHICS, DATES, INTEREST, TAX RATES and WRECKLESS TIME.   

Over the years I have EXPERIENCED, WITNESSED, WATCHED AND LEARNED that RACE is not limited to the COLOR of a HUMAN FACE. But having the EMOTION OF FEAR will turn anyone towards an act of HATE. due to THINGS THEY CAN’T ENGINEER, CHANGE, UNDERSTAND ARE POSSESS OF ANTOHER PERSONS LIFE, HAPPINESS, GOALS AND PLANS.

I see people LAUGHING, CHANTING and DANCING while people are beaten to the ground. I felt the vibration of a small child screams as they were being beaten into submission by a MAD MAN’S FANTASIES. I saw prejudgment passed down as a good SAMARITAN attempted to lend one stranger a helping hand. Is when I heard a mother mourn as she watched her son HUNG and LEANED HIS HOLY HEAD.

This is JUST A FEW TALES OF the INVISBILE TRUTH in what people proclaim they need to know. But many will be angered because of their “FREEWILL and ROLES”

CROSS THINKING

Lately, have you done some CROSS THINKING into how much time we SPEND FOCUSING on situations, things and PEOPLE THAT ALTER OUR clear thinking.

Have you ever prayed for a stranger, family member, child or friend to be delivered from a disposition, unhealthy relationship, complex situation or struggle with change in mental transformation?  And there could be many reasons why people choose or decide not to change in order to help themselves sustain.

Have you ever wondered how some not all young people plan and envision their lives, seek guidance, graduate from high school and finish college, attempt early marriages, pick up bad habits, birth children out of wedlock or maybe some of them just follow who will ever guide them?

Have you ever wondered why some young adults and teenage children disrespect their parents? Then justify it was because of the trials in their lives. And this son or daughter was never a victim of sexual abuse, a tenant to eviction, drug addiction, loss salary, abandonment or physical abuse. But what I can testify to is this; no matter how much you love, give and cherish your kids time will tell what is hidden inside of their “sincere or “stiffened hearts and troubled minds”.  

Have you ever wondered why LOVE brings people JOY and PAIN in our lives? And why we yearn for HUMAN COMPANIONSHIP only to find REAL LOVE, a marriage, or people who were compatible with. While some of us will experience acts of Domestic Violence.

Have you ever wondered why couples split but continue to have random sex because we feel comfortable and compatible with the person who cannot commit to a “relationship”.

Have you ever wondered why men cry in their hearts and women share every thought?  Have you ever wondered why people are so intense to be your new best friend? Have you ever wondered why women seek advice from men who choose to have sex over marrying a wife?

Have you ever wondered who taught our young daughters to financially support a man who is physically fit and mentally dependent but this man is not her husband or committed with any VISION to this relationship with kids.

Have you ever wondered why some people have brilliant ideas, corporate minds, political leaders, motivation speakers, street hustlers, salesmen and pimps, Artist and performers of all kinds”  GURUS and MILLIONAIRES who are real people that initiated time to see what other people would buy into over-time.

Never wonder why all people loose their minds when money is involved. Simply take a lesser risk by sacrificing what you can live without until you can figure things out. I can testify hard times can happen to anyone overtime. Just keep in mind troubles don't last always when you know how to PRAY!  

Do you ever wonder why some mature in age women and men envision being in their youth again? Develop physical relationships with people the same age of their own kids. Then later ponder with; why did this young person leave with little regrets of once made promises.  

Have you ever wondered why family, strangers, co-workers, friends, children and people tell unnecessary lies, prey on the weak, start relationships with broken promises and look for any type of “ATTENTION”, check yourself before judging looking at someone else.
And this message is not intended to fit everyone’s situation.  But we must admit there are several things that need to be FIXED in our personal, business, social, family and friends relationships.  

PREDICATBLE situations and people will never change to UNPREDICATABLE people who value CROSS THINKING?

 

The Rumor

This nation is on the RISE of falling down over time and the reason why; is people no longer act right, in a free society. And I know we've all heard it all before. But this time there is more dynamics than before. So to all generations of nationality young and old pay closer attention to how the Season's have changed in "Everything". Including people mind games, politics, television, family's and the open invitation to sexual activities.

So keep up with how time will not rewind when judging someone else to be more careful when not including yourself. Just remember to FIRST forgive yourself for who you where, remember how far you have come with or without change. And finally embrace and decide who you will finally be. Because at the end of the day you will make a final decision on where you stand if not collectively,  then individually wherever you will FALL, Lay 2 rest if not STAND.

FUTURE GENERATIONS

"As it was in the day of NOAH". I'll allow you to read the rest.

There will come a time in OUR LIVES where you will make a decision to STAND TALL Or either SIT STILL and FOLLOW the FLOW. There will be TWO MAIN ACTS in mankind where many will turn a blind eye; MONEY will buy souls over time and SEXUAL TEMPTATIONS will be the FALL OF some if not MANY OVER GENERATIONS.

One day on this journey you will see clearly; how people relate and communicate through “connectors and commands” OF communication with actions and words.  One day our sons and daughters of all colors will cohabitate, in more than one way.

One day when you find yourself feeling CONTENT, DECEIVED or INTRIGUED, LONLEY or ABANDONED; you will seek refuge in marriage, dating people in different mental places to be ENCOURAGED, UPLIFTED, PROTECTED, GUIDANCE or just a form of  HUMAN COMPANIONSHIP. You will travel to places, search the internet, ask old friends to reconnect.  You will notice a change taking place “INTERNALLY”. While some of you will remain in a delay trying to figure out “What is this change all about”. And no it’s not always depression, mental illness and suicide which takes a toll on people’s life and the reason why is because “People need ONE ANOTHER TO SURVIVE” but the challenge for us is to figure out; WHO and WHY.

There will come a time when people will laugh, gossip, mock and talk about you in your face or behind your back. Don’t pay them too much attention; stay on track. Because sometimes you need to see who has your own best interest or waiting around for you to CRUMBLE TO THE GROUND.

There will come a time where you will change your MIND SET AND MATURE because of personal relationships, social acceptance and financial stress. Remember this; some people will always place OLD and NEW judgment on everything YOU DO REGARDLESS of the adjustment in your attitude.

There will come a time where people will deny you the truth with a straight face, take from you without any disgrace, share less of what you have sacrifice to give and judge how you LIVE. 
Sometimes people willingly share personal information with other people whom they feel is not a real threat. My advice “be cautious of whom you get involved with”. 

Were we can no LONGER FEEL AND SHARE LOVE, no longer see the good in PEOPLE, MAKE SENSE OF our own FREE WILL IN the CHOICES we make, find JUSTIFICATION is our CARELESS THOUGHT THROUGH AND HEINOUS acts OF ATTACKS. And yet we sometimes show SOME FORM OF HUMAN COMPASSION.

One day maybe we can place back VALUES, STRONG MORALS AND NON BIOS BELIEFS in our FAMILIES by planting good SEEDS. Then maybe INDIVIDUALLY OR COLLECTIVELY we can begin to finally treat one another EQUALLY.