35 Pounds of Pressure

One day the pressure increased beyond its gauge. And instantly it blew out of rage. One day in time Humanity shall collectively experience a change or figure out where the stem of our frustration, resentment, control and entitlement came about. And there will be two sides we face internally; one shall carry many burdens we will bear in our lives’ while the other will change someone else in correcting a “cycle” in their lives.

I heard this old cliché the other day “people don’t move and change in the same pace” Which is a true statement. But how can you expect “progress where there is lack of motivation and interest”. So instead we puff up our attitudes and judge, mistreat and plot on one another who execute a plan to move “forwards and not backwards”.

Before a man and woman species meet they are automatically attracted physically. If not consuming time to learn what is on one another’s mind. And here comes the twist that complicates this courtship which is “sex” before the real test. That will challenge every promise made whether it be emotionally, spiritually or financially. Because all of humanity seeks security, love and commitment to some form of long lasting relationships. But when promises are broken and love is only for a season people change and the children they made will find it difficult to appreciate what you invite people in to take. So remember the next time a person says she or he made the choice or mistake because they were in a predicament watch how the weight gets great once the other person chooses to walk away. And if this is the response of what people will do in the name of love and “wishy washy promises” then maybe it’s time we stop following in love with the same old lines. And figure out what we're really missing within ourselves, before prioritizing everything else.

I see parents who attempt to measure out their children. And what I mean is all of our children are not the same in age so how can they progress with stress if we're always interfering in their test, all of our children will not heed experience unless they learn from their own lessons, all of our children will not respect the sacrifices we make so why cash in all our harvest knowing they resist change, all our children are not on the same path where some will bloom late while the other will blaze. And never wonder why "change" will affect us all in a positive or negative way.  

Why do we assume “our time” is relevant where being “on-time” is a requirement? Eventually we search for the answers roaming in the sky of why time is never on our sides. Humanity if we continue in choosing not to “respect one another and time how do we expect change” to occur on the exterior first and last internally? What if people stop assuming that other people would like to bear unnecessary burdens?  How is it that some people always feel low or never have enough but are quick to find time to invest more of their attention to meaningless conditions due to their inner contradictions?

What if we were serious about being self-motivated and not always seeking validation from other people’s opinions? And why do we assume other people have the answers to something they have yet to conquer of our experiences. So you have to wonder if you’re really seeking the truth or justifying the cycle you continue to live through.  

Take accountability today of someone or yourself who is always in the way, sighing, frowned up, wearing an arrogant face, hissing and puffing in open or secured space. Maybe it’s your time to release the pressure building up that wears 35 pounds of pressured weight on your heart, mind and face. Because every person has a “choice, option or plan" to decide where and who they shall find Peace or Contentment if not internal happiness in.   

History

I answered a late call to here an old friend say "my mom has passed tonight" immediately I told that friend everything is perfect now and on God's time. And I know many of you wonder why. The reason is I knew this family a great portion of my life and they were the hands and eyes that helped and watched over my family in our hard times in this life.

The stories I write around the globe are real occurrences in people's life that will never reach other people to know. So as we fight amongst each another regarding "money and power, constitutional love, manipulation and control" this is what people should open their eyes to see of what they blind themselves to know. Of how one day could be a global "emergency".

I've always heard other people's reasoning & challenged by differences of opinions. And what is still a reality of what we believe is one of two things; the situation is either "right or wrong" or it just depends on who is affected by the storm.

One day the negro slaves made a call to the master who created the world. And while waiting to be free these slaves did not lose focus here on earth. As they labored, bled and thirst. There was no money extended to them for the labor of their harvest. During the daylight they worked with their bare hands and sung old hymns in the cotton fields. The living conditions were poor but the families made due as they resided on splintered wooded floors. The women were favored by the color of lighter or darkened skin to reside in the master’s residence. They were an inflicted people with no rights, oppressed through systems designed for the entirety of life. And you don’t have to travel far to see the past of our future history. 

My son ask "mom why do always call me to ask if I'm doing all right". I said son you're grown in age & my days are truly blessed. But while I'm here today no one is going to take my place of caring about the test and journey you will face. And just to hear your voice on the opposite end is another day of God’s grace and mercy.

Eventually the Emancipation Proclamation freed some of the negro slaves. But the rules still applied only twisted in their constitutional rights. To observe of the “progression” throughout the duration of time. But it did not stop the strength from growing inside of the negro man, woman and child’s mind. And due to their inflicted oppression they would be acknowledged as “African Americans" that made a new era of American History. 

A call was made throughout history to answer the reasoning to why black people had to fight only to die. And in 2016 some acts of tenacity continue to ask why do black people still feel left back?

A new century is humanities reality. And the past that holds some resentment is now clearly in the care of a racist hand, with no clarity of the color on the opposite end of that pen in motion. But keep in mind of how the world has never stopped watching time rewind. In our society or through a strategic system kept in place that only encourages segregation of Human Civil Rights.

Many have died for answering the Freedom Call. While many continue in a fight of many races to challenge; if or why it still has an effect. In how we presently live.

The Pearl & The Swine

To a woman or girl why do we pleasurably hand over our precious pearls to the swine? Could it have been the promises we long to hear being whispered in our ear? Did the swine promise to protect the pearl that lies in between our thighs? With one plan only to rob us blind? Or did the swine neglect to think there was no connection to a warm heartbeat. So again we find ourselves faced with the question "why do we pleasurably deliver our pearls to the swine" who continuously break our hearts by robbing us blind”.

In a moment it was the love that we fantasized about embracing from a prince in the night. In a moment it was a romance novel we read in a book. In a moment we felt an empty obligation to answer to a “hooked line".  In a moment he was the king in our minds we brought to reality. In a second we were safe to be free and believe this was meant to be. In a second we were defenseless.

One day a diver took a journey on an excursion into the deep blue sea. To hunt for hidden treasures buried beneath. And after several attempts of coming up empty handed this diver eventually grew weak from the gravity of the sea. So he began to return back to dry land as he stumbled across this precious gem. Immediately he wrapped it tightly and placed it against his chest to secure it from being lost again.

One day it was a tender voice that made our heart skips a beat. One day it was a glance in a lonely moment that was meant for only our eyes to see. One day it was ok to feel liberated and free. One day a swine came with a smile and promises to always be our best friend, our king to build a family and foundation. Then one day become our soul mate. And eventually the seasons changed and so did the swine who promised the same things with "a new face" and a different name. Eventually this pearl began to feel abandoned by life, betrayed and worthless, searching and unsatisfied. So now you have the punchline of what is in a female’s heart. Regardless if she prays, reveals or hides her scars.  For every woman has her own story line and were not all looking to be loved from in between our thighs where the swine feels his "ego" is obliged.

Ladies and young girls no one is exempt from being "tampered with". So treasure your gifted pearls and most of all don't be afraid to wait, too see what diver is patiently searching for your pearls on his appointed journey. 

Matthew: 7:6

Flint Michigan

The families of Flint Michigan or suffering through a catastrophe and the world is appalled of the reasoning to justify risking the welfare of Human Life. Based on a decision made with one mission; to save money.

Although the residence and families in Flint appreciate the attempt of acknowledgement this was a warning e-mailed and made public to leadership two years today which is presently 2016. Referencing lead in the water poisoning.

And the relevance of this is why did power and leadership second guess what humanity requires of the basics one being “clean water “to survive where budgeting money has no purpose in keeping them healthy and alive.

Flint Michigan your cries for relief have been respectfully heard. Throughout the entire world and this time there will not be “one choice made” to deprive you of a basic need to prospectively budget money.  

Our prayers and rescue or coming for you. 

Beauty and The Beast

Humanity has spoken again by saying "to end Democracy we must erase the black identity". So when people acknowledge racial differences it can be proven to be a real threat.

A riddle only intimidates the reader who is clueless to understand the reasoning in it. But the truth is something we can't hide behind of the faces who orchestrate lies where natural talent is candidly justified through not being recognized. So when someone or a group of people speak against "change" it does not require your attention to fall in line and be directed by the blind leading the blind. Because leverage not persistence is an act demonstrated for the world to see, now where can we find the moral and integrity of the narrator who logically thinks a world made up of people don’t recognize “a required change”?

People were born genetically to be who they were designed to be. And no matter how the world categorizes the outside physical appearance of their skin internally a genetic pattern is who the world will judge and see in all of Humanity, even more when you seek clarity in racial equality.

The word "inclusion" is occasionally referenced in legal documentation where certain “participants” play a stellar roll. But why does their recognition go untold. You can also apply this reasoning to society, just remember who you are and watch what others desire of you to be.

“To educate a man in mind and not in morals is to educate a menace to society”

-Theodore Roosevelt

Releasing The Blame

No matter what the situation is you're in whether it's spiritual, physical, financial and emotional. Or no matter what circumstance you've come out of remember to give yourself permission to forgive and forget but never give up. Why, because life did not reveal to us the storms that would come our way or the people who would affect our lives at given time or day. Just remember to begin if you don't already pray. Now

"Clear Your Conscious" to move forward in your day.

I can attest to this "no matter what you have taken of mistreatment from some one else", "No matter how you have took for granted something or someone else" "No matter how many times you have subjectively denied yourself for some one else" and no matter what people have conjured up in their minds to not forgive and move on with time. There is a word called Karma that moves with a purpose through life and eventually it has to come full circle in HUMANITY, simply because we all sew "good or bad seeds". 

And before you allow your EGO to hinder you from happiness another day make one attempt to mend a bridge even if its not worth crossing again. Because some people are content with whom they hurt in life, some people are confident with the attitude they take and some people will ride the blame game for the remainder of life and never understand why they bear Heavier Burdens in their life.

Martin Luther King Jan. 15, 1929-Apr. 4, 1968

We pay homage to a great a man who embraced an entire nation with an abundance of patience, passion and persistence. One who fought against “bondage” which is not a choice in any controlled environment and if you look closer into who held the front line you will find some women and men of Ivory descent who also took the water hose and beatings with sticks for taking a united stand to end “a prejudice system”.  

Let all nations remember the purpose for the dream and who fought for freedom and peace so that men of all nations would find equality. One day a mother gave birth to a child who had a dream but who would have known this seed that grew inside of her wound would change the way we see and live in humanity. Let all nations not forget Freedom Land.

"A man can't ride your back unless it is BENT".
-Dr. Martin Luther King

Colored folks wanted a better life in the midst of master’s thoughts and rations. Colored folks became the owner’s property and worked under controlled observation. And in the midst of our tortured history we look back to remember the African American struggles throughout American History to change the face and systems in a nation of controlled slavery, from existing in our current legacy.

“I have seasoned this out in my mind, there was one of two things I had a right to, liberty or death; if I could not have one, I would have the other.

-Harriet Tubman

 “Green Flake, Hark Lay and Oscar Crosby the first slaves honored in Utah were colored servants the original pioneers of 1847”.

Education was streamlined against the slaves to see what they could learn and children were segregated due to the color of their skin. And because of Black History we pay honor to Booker T. Washington the founder of Tuskegee University.

On one ride Rosa Parks was a voice in prejudice times to teach throughout history how to respect one another black or white to a non prejudice bus ride.

African America History embraces it's heritage not just because of its brutal past that made courage and strength in places to not ever again be broken in this free land. The slaves in return contributed a legacy of blackness for all nations to learn from: leadership, dancers, actors and actresses, educators, musicians, pilots, writers, innovators, visionaries, doctors, lawyers and civil rights activist that will not lose its place in American History’s legacy because of a resilient people and a leader to whom we forever will pay Homage to. In a continuing fight of living the dream initiated Dr. Martin Luther King. 

Back In Love

In a moment of time the heart cried out why are we still apart, and the mind answered to say                             “I decided to accept” with time, this chapter has completed its last story line.

As I look around in different places with different faces to find what is missing in my heart, is where the world is "dark" so I search the heaven's "sunrise & sunset" but only time grows us more apart. As one question still lingers in my heart which is will there be "any or no regrets", while we manage to figure out "if this one fits" into a lifelong plan to building a life with? And what if the heart's genuine intention was only to hold onto, another day wishing for the possibility "that love will return back to you and me" or maybe this is just another epiphany, of fantasizing about loving you and me.

I pray to the heavens above please God don't send me just anyone to love. But if given one fair chance send me a love with a mature mind, open heart and willing hands. So that I don't have to accept the reality of knowing the truth about "when it's time to let go" and how the heart and mind will separate with time to let you know.

Master Mind

This passage has some similarities to a personality quiz depending on the seat your sitting in. And yes I've taken several test but this time the tester was impressed. And there was a method to this madness while being observed there was tension in a group of people separated in one room. By evaluating how we clearly or indirectly communicate in a working place. And some of the personality traits demonstrated were dominant, analytical, social butterflies and others showed signs of compassion but be prepared before asking. Now let's begin.

I ask the question if a person is always finding tedious things to approach another person with where is the clarity in the real problem that only exist to that person who is struggling with it?

If access to any need exist then why do people feel the need to aggravate themselves by manipulating time to go out of their way and humor the people they will always need?

If people always find themselves in the same predicament, and making the same choices with the same type of people or mindset then how is it possible to change their choices. And is something not wired correctly in our heads.

If people succeed are fail at least they have tried. But what attitude takes residence to feel another person owes you for time.

If a person goes out and create financial debt its understood things happen, if a personal falls in & out of relationships it can't always be who their dealing with, if your cultures are different but someone is set on changing you first figure what this person is about, before adjusting yourself to be lost behind someone else.

I know some of us wonder on any given day where did our family come from. And what I'm saying is even the perfect family has issues to deal with. But never give up on them simply walk away, just take that time to salvage your mind.

If a person has to work to survive appreciate peoples time who are willing to share with you, a moment or two, because time is not on anyone's side but yet we rob and steal it every day of our lives.

How can we take time to say "I need to go away and find myself". But return with more burdens for some else. And if we were searching to for-fill that void in our lives how is it we continue to complicate our  lives. Because i was not brought up that way is no longer an excuse to avoid internal change

How is another person obligated to figure out your responsibilities if you’re a healthy & physical thinking human being. But yet we possess this internal anger for such things like finding a sponsor to pay my bills, who going to look after my kids and for some people that time is utilized somewhere else looking for hookups, shacking for convenience or living nice because I can in life. Where there is world filled with children waiting to feel love inside, an elder waiting to see your face for the last time, a long lost friend who could use an encouraging word & not your "wicked" propositions. Or maybe a parent you take for granted but your busy keeping up with life so it never passes your mind. But if were to take a glance with compassion in our eyes we can see clearly one another's lives and how our bodies are changing with time, our minds are cluttered in limited space where time is slowly evaporating. Why, not just change our ways.

I know this not apply to well balanced & perfect people in this life. But Humanity makes choices & mistakes, we all have morals, values & beliefs, we all have a candid way of doing our own things. But how much of it can we always justify of choices that weigh down our lives. And not wonder if our hearts are not for filled inside.

I APOLOGIZE

Old friends, silent enemies & associates if I have offended anyone in my life, I sincerely apologize.

I'm speechless but I must say it’s a concern to see so many people end long friendships, people who are shacking for financial convenience, partners sharing their mates, single or separated people struggling to communicate in dysfunctional relationships due to the undealt with junk in their closets. It is heart drenching to know how some people can’t find an inch of happiness by letting go of old baggage. It is sad to see people look for an excuse to live in misery by manipulating other people to deal with their misery. It is sad to watch unfold how some people will invest time to make you unhappy then lose control. It is saturating to think there has never been anything done under the sun. But yet people are prideful not to dig more than 1 ditch at a time. And what ponders my mind the most; is how humanity holds the 1 key to unlock their peace and happiness but yet that key continues to get misplaced and justified why they can’t make a simple CHANGE to better their own life.

So what is it that Humanity fails to figure out?

·           Either we take a journey together or walk alone.

·           Either we stay in love or just leave one another alone.

·           Either we enter into a healthy relationship individually and connect as one.

·           Or we waste time trying to figure out who can grow old, bitter & broke alone

·       Either we make up our minds and settle for what we want until we mature in handling          what we need. And this is where I have made my peace.

I often remind myself to not limit my happiness to small spaces in a big world. So therefore this new change about me came right on "time with age" so that I don't entertain my own or anyone else's silent "misery".  So today if I have offended you in any indecent way, for you to have walked away. Then my change was not in vein. It was in God’s timing that we “Break the Chains” and move about our own separate ways.

Untitled

This passage is "untitled" for our own personal use. To understand how and why we choose the directions we travel in life. 

Before writing the Angel L memoirs I took some time to process my own life. Before sharing how we live once to only die twice.

Love is an emotion and showing "compassion" is a human action. Religion is a "sacred choice" to praise or not and if any human being here on earth really knew it's truth then why is humanity fighting over who believes in who. Rejection means to deny another person’s proposition. Acceptance is allowing the process of someone or something to happen. Fear is withdrawing you from what is unknown. And Perfection is any person placing high expectations on themselves or someone else.
 

Where are you in this moment of time? Are you existing or living life?  And if you were summoned to temporarily separate yourselves from being in any type of relationship how long could you function on your own without being in it? And if you had not access to money how long would people survive, in your life, in this day and time.
 

What is the connection when people first meet? Is it the physical attraction before they both speak? And if we often identify the signs of "dysfunctional" characteristics in one another’s minds then why do we proceed into what will be a destined "catastrophe" over time?
 

What do you see when you look in the mirror? Because perfection is what you aim to define in yourself not what someone tells you that is "wrong or right" in yourself. So today process this word "low self-esteem" which is hidden in the faces of all Humanity. But you will not know "who is who" until that individual has EXPOSED themselves to you. Could this be the stem of why certain people continue to seek closure of a void in their life? Through taking on other people who continue to deny; what's internally broken inside. 

Options are any individual who has controlled space and decides who, the time and place. So how is it we live broken but continue to accept "the obvious" and dare to be questioned about our repeated choices in it?
 

A person who shows characteristics of being a "giver" is a "takers dreams". And it could be your spouse, children, stranger or friend. But for some reason we can't let go of feeling guilty about this STRONG HOLD.

When people hurt one another it's normal that they either hold a "grudge or forgive them". But dysfunction in Humanity destroys people and relationships of all types through generations unless we fix what it internally wired inside. Then maybe we "could" if not "would" value one another more with the time we have together right now. Instead of investing the majority of our lives "living once at birth then dying twice" knowing why we are internally broken inside.
 

Maybe this passage does not apply to you. But in every family "GLOBALLY" there is a cycle to break, TODAY.