“CONSCIOUS”

                                                 

It’s one thing to know what needs to be done. It’s another thing to not initiate the change.

It’s one thing to plan for the moment. It’s another thing to wait on being invited into it.

It’s one thing to know people identify your low-esteem. It’s just insane you refuse to change.

It’s one thing to work in repetition. It’s a damn shame you still expect change.

It’s a choice to not believe in religion or prayer. It’s preposterous to think that God will work through how people think God should answer that  prayer, immediately. Top of Form

It's amazing sex accounts for fifty percent of any relationship. It's out of orbit to think people bypass communication for ass in any class, of relationships. 

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It’s sad to see how people are so disrespectful and ungrateful. It’s foolishness to assume they deserve attention.

It’s one thing to advertise I got a beau or husband. It’s unhealthy to know how people share what they don’t have a handle on “control”.

It’s amazing to see how society mimics ghetto characteristics. It’s confusing and conflicting to not think and see the contribution to our children and families. Who can’t seem to not progress in poverty thinking.  

It’s a blessing to be financially blessed. It’s draining to think people have too much access. To any one of age and everything that destroys change.

It’s sexy to be acquainted with power & control. It’s devastating to know who you become. 

It’s miraculous to witness a miracle or triumph. It’s heart felt to witness people who had no clue on what to do and stranger to see how people act once the final results are completed.

It’s sad to hear someone has died. It’s weird to see how people treat one another while they are alive.

  

It’s alarming to hear wars have continued on for ages, everywhere. It’s draining to think that war is something people create. And don't care who they cremate.

It’s amazing how all of humanity has a conscious. It’s draw drenching how we utilize it. 

Sobriety

The word Sobriety means the “state of being sober” is what we’ve been taught. But what  would happen if we were to broaden our minds out of that small box? To a different concept in space with time and see that “Sobriety” has more than one meaning defining several human emotional feelings. And yes, today is that day Angel L is writing from a deeper place. Where peace, joy, sorrow and pain agree to disagree on who will defeat.  

There comes a time in every human beings life where substitutions for people contribute to enhance or devalue you is what denial will take you through.

There comes a time in our lives where we “Substitute” people to settle with what we choose not to deal with, in our own heads. So when someone says I’m at a better place in my “Sobriety” it simply means; they have found a focus in their lives with a leveled head space to conquer what has kept them down and blue in things and people they struggle to remove.

Life has a meticulous way of showing people how we really are the same. Where people think they have cheated Sobriety, in every culture, race and age.

EPISODES

One incorrect ingredient to any type of relationship, could have years of an effect on how an individual person will react, to all circumstances. Somewhat to age where we call it “set in our ways” and what that means is we’re “resistant” to change even if it “requires”  change.

One thing I have learned in this life is “never say never” when it comes to change. Because you will never know what is destined to move you in “how you think and what you will have to adjust too.  

It’s imperative we are associated with things that are conducive in our lives. And not just some of the time or with people we invest our lives; family, business acquaintances, new and old friends. It’s imperative we mold these relationships so that boundaries are not crossed, and people understand where they cannot “run” but “walk”. It’s crucial we “respect” and “communicate” with one another in a civil way so that we are not “misunderstood” in what we are attempting to say. It’s logical we grasp a hold onto how we feel about ourselves. In order to avoid breaking “one another’s heart” and arrogantly proceeding as if we’re “repairing someone else”.   

It’s not funny to watch people struggle in the same areas of life. But swear it’s not me. And at some point in your life who really has control, of what you continue to do, that has a strong hold on you. It is imperative we forgive. It did not say we were obligated to entertaining it.

It is imperative we understand how “excuses are not always a pass to justify” this is what my family did to me in my life. Remember as a child you did certain things, but when you became that adult it required change.  

This may not apply to all generations of the masses. But we are not really separated by what man say is the classes of society. And the reason is clear to see. That on any given day we are either “receptive or reluctant” to change.

If any man mocks another person's infirmities remember payback is necessary. It takes one person to brainstorm a foolish plan, and an army to implement it. So the real episodes that occur in our daily lives stems from whatever you or people think; is required of your patience for nothing but satisfaction.

Birthday

I celebrated another year on yesterday. Woke up feeling great with my mother standing over me, to wish me “Happy Birthday” and within seconds got a call from the man I raised from a boy, who was inches away, that “surprised me with “I love you mom, Happy Birthday”. So immediately I took this opportunity to grab the family on one accord in unity. As we prayed to God, too keep this family strong and in love for years to come. And no this was not a resolution to an immediate repair, just my B-day option because I still care. Above all the gifts and phone calls knowing that I really have it all. So I guess that’s why living life matured me for not thinking twice in areas of my life. Where people judged my time,  and for some they did not value of theirs, what I have in mine.

On March 13, 2016 I celebrated another milestone in my life. But instead of planning and waiting on who was thinking about me. I chose to give praise unto  God for the little things. 

I thank you lord for my inner peace, inner joy and my desire to sacrifice in this place of my life. 

I thank you lord for my aches and pains and sometimes for no reasons on any given day.

I thank you lord for change in my youth & immature ways, is when you did not turn me away.

I thank you lord for giving me patience in my heartbreaks. I thank you lord for my disappointments and what seemed like at times "no breaks" is why I pray, and move forward anyway. 

I thank God for those impatient friends who chose to surrender patience for not having enough of understanding, about the plans I knew you had for me. 

I thank you lord for this gift to "write" The Days Of Our Lives". 

I thank you lord for my single life, until you decided he was fit for 'our lives'. And most of all thank you lord for the greatest birthday gift only a God would give in these questionable times, we live. 

Thank you for the fruits I bear; a mother who lives, my siblings I dearly love, even though I give tough love. And the gift of life, knowing that we only live once and die twice. 

Investment Planning

Today's topic is how the influence of “people and money” motivates or interrupts how we exist in our environments. And yes the Angel L passages are intended to accommodate all races and ages in the masses. Which means you’re not required to produce a college degree, admit to your insecurities, have money influence or speak a higher “caliber” of talking money consciousness? In the unraveling world we live in.

Humanity can safely say; money does have an effect on how people live and manage it. And even when some of us worship and pray there is a request, involving money. But if used in deceptive ways it could change any face, in humanity. So no matter what career choices you will make; be prepared to move forward in your selected responsibilities. No matter what our past holds; take a stand and close that old chained door.

We've all heard it before. The Haves' and Have Not's from across the globe. The Advantage and Disadvantaged all throughout history even in biblical readings. The Rich and Poor will remain on any given day. The "Conservatives" verses "Liberal beliefs" and whether you should run to the polls or settle for what you are sold, please proceed in voting accordingly. So that the next generation of any colored race will not struggle to survive and preserve their beautiful minds. 

Please listen closely to what is about to be shared and not what you select to hear. Observe what is happening before your eyes not what is advertised. Stay tuned in and be prepared to move on what is progressing in altered and uncontrolled moods. Keep watch on the clock even when the hands "stop". Groom your children's minds and prepare a plan to move in more than one direction in whatever situation. Why, because of man's cruel intentions and lack of compassion. 

We all know there are major bills that reduce our paycheck. Prior to us receiving them, but only you can manage them. We all know if were capable of carrying more than one load so be careful of financially, neglecting your own responsibilities.

We all need health care where Medicaid and Medicare is not a supplement to accommodate what some people can't pay, and high deductibles of health insurance.

We all know a cost of living spike means fewer than 3 percent salary increase to accommodate families, economically. So before that extra money is spent remember today's topic "Investment Planning" and your idea in this topic. Then you will find the truth of the matter is; there are no real sorcerers, prophets or God's on this earth. Just people who are driven into false teachings, story tellers and leaders created to direct you. Into a place in which you will decide on a route to take, left or right. 

No matter what love interest or business choices you will invest in just be more prepared to move forward. No matter what our past holds; make a final decision to lock that chained door. So today ponder with this if "money is the tool "we need to survive or seek of power to possess. Then who are the people behind what money controls? If Religion is what we choose are to challenge out of it. Then who are the strangers delivering the gospel of deliverance? And if some people in relationships are the distraction. Then who is really responsible for dealing with it?   

Your gift is something so unique to limit it would be  a hypocrisy.

Starting Over

Every now and then that old saying “whatever is meant to be, will be” comes to a reality. And no one knows when, it just happens. So when that person comes or opportunity calls out of the blue just remember to focus on “this is where I am now, this is where we have another chance to become one. And let’s not focus on where you have been or why things did not work out, from that past relationship.   

I truly feel that the understanding of love sometimes is overrated. Why, because we should utilize more our time to figure out what is going in us, that may tarnish things from working out with someone else.

Every person in the world will deal with “times” that require transitions. But not every person will adjust accordingly. In accepting what they refuse to believe “change is something we desperately need”.

I truly feel sometimes that a delay is not always a denial. And the reason why is there are times when we’re not fully prepared to handle opportunities that require our immediate attention and commitment.

So how do you feel regarding a life filled with possibilities, and how will you stand in the rain through hard times until the sun shines? Because I truly believe that storms come in our lives to see how long we will stand or find shelter to survive.

Double Standards

Sometimes people forget to “observe” what maybe a misconception of what they assume it is. And what I mean is a picture is worth a thousand words. A book is the writers view in a story line. A test is what someone says theirs is. Age is how you wear it. Not what someone says you should adjust to revert back to being young. The truth is what you say it is. And a lie is always justified.

What makes people think that their plans are in your best interest? And if you fail to set boundaries, you will follow and never lead.

What is the problem in needing help once in a blue moon? Without being judged, by the people who always hold out their hands or seek some form of intimate attention?

Why do people continue to find a way to dissolve of you? And what I mean is either you’re a factor or singled out, simply because you selected “to tune them out”.

Who said in marriages or having a boyfriend and girlfriend you will love the right people overtime. When we choose what we want and not what we need “half of the time”.

What do you see in observation or what maybe a misconception.  Do you see a plan or do you assume, it is what you think is or not the truth. If you saw a person dressed but revealing there assets to fit their own personality. Who is to say they need to change? Especially if people continue to encourage them in wearing the same things.

What is the misconception in thinking someone does not have enough money, clothes, jewelry, friends and connections. Did you think into their situation or did you prey on lack of preservation.

Why is any job layoff systematically top secret, where people feel the greed in it?

Why do people assume “investments” are in things that lose value over time, and judge other people through credit scores and closed doors? Maybe those people made an investment in other priorities that was not in your interest.

Who instructed one human being, to manipulate another human being to take from them whatever they wanted not need. And what I mean is maybe the world should be a better place, but not until we act as if we care about living, and not existing in it.  

The point made in this passage is; some people go out of their way to prove how they are above you and feel beneath you in all of humanity. But yet swear “I got too much going on to care”.

   

All Stars

God requires "love & obedience" in a world where Satan's identity changes every day.  Book sense elevates your knowledge and grants opening doors of social acceptance. Where street sense alerts your inner intuitions, where common sense keeps you aware of what is not to be evident, in the air and space we live or exist in. So if good and evil does exist, who and what is the fight against.    

There will be hustle and games played through personalities. Just remember to hear the words that are coming out of people’s mouths” and not the gargle they spread out.  

There will be an intense need to thrive off of validation. But denial will cause conflict in conversations.

There will be childish acts of jealousy. Just remember to fall back and allow the breeze to flow, genteelly before letting go; on cruise control.   

There will be times you will “pay” before you go. There will be glares and stares in any atmosphere that will let you know, how “quick” a situation could unfold.

There are links that are navigated towards your weakest places. And if you click into those lines people and things are destined to change your lives.

There are signs that will clearly state “danger awaits” but your attitude will determine your final destiny.

There will be direction and coercion. And it will lead you to your faith, depending on the direction you take.  

So why do our votes count individually and collectively. Well let’s count and see; for the votes who seek a return lining on their pocket books, without a clear conscious and convicted heart. It will determine segregation of all "souls".

There are voters who sincerely desire change to create a simple world of equal opportunities. So that our youth may exercise their freedom of speech “openly” now that slavery is our past history. For the elders it means, finally a new day of change, from afflicted hardships. And to someone else it could nothing. But for a nation to rise; we must choose a side.  

There will be good and bad intentions. Just identify who is telling the truth or who is orchestrating lies to divert your focus on time. There will be advertisement or talks about making major moves, don’t be so quick to being fooled. First evaluate how things affect your next move. Then proceed in doing you. There will be people who animate the sign “pause”. Simply move around or wait around for them to decide; what amount of time you have “to dissolve”.

The story lines in this message; require direct attention, to process what is in progress.       

Peek a Boo

Let’s sit and chat today with an open mind and un-chiseled face. So that we may describe the problem we as humanity face in ourselves and within our families. Then maybe we could break the chains that struggle to link because of what we would like to think is just a lack in understanding. But the reality is we live walking on egg shells due to accepting the exasperated spirits of the people we struggle with, or manage to deal with, simply because we do “love” them. 

I’ll say it again “you cannot self-medicate the issues that exist in your head” and most people think they need some form of money or companionship in places that remain "dead". So therefore in the darkness their minds are misled to not see their existing blessings such as; life itself, family and kids. 

We can all clearly see what is going on in society. And so what if we seem unbalanced some days. The problem is some of us choose not to change our views in it. Some of us are guilty while others see how children are left behind and some say it’s due to the choices adults continue to make in their made up minds. Some of us have been acquainted as third party entertainment in marriages and pride ourselves in doing it. And just because we feel liberated and promiscuous why not possess some morals to live with. Now who said money can fix everything. But if not it will adjust a few things, just not the main frame of people's fragile brains where in some cases people are adjusting to change while watching others who are withering away. And in the public eyes we can identify with false seeds that are planted in images and into people that either humbly guide or mislead other people to self-destruct or meditate on any and everything. 

One day you will wake up to see what directly affects your faith in finding inner peace. Is when you will either resist or decide to change; your boxed thinking.

We can no longer kudos the tears and justify undisciplined actions in anyone’s ways. We must get to the stem of the internal problems, today! Or else we will watch people unwind and go insane. 

SIP-N-CHAT

No matter what today did or not bring tomorrow still hope for everything. No matter who did not come through for you; continue to be patient in whomever and whatever you choose to do. No matter if you feel you're not at full capacity more than a few of these days. Just be more grateful that tomorrow brings new opportunities. Don't look behind with all regrets for some of those hurts was to fulfill a life filled with lessons; for what should have or did not happen. Therefore you did not miss out on any person or thing of what tomorrow will still bring of new people and amazing things.

In Jeremiah: 29:11 it reminded me not to always place my plans in place of God’s directions. And sometimes we are guilty of having relationships with people who do not truly believe. So never attempt to change a person from who you think they should be. It’s quicker in prayer to God to deliver them from their wayward ways. And once they have changed it might not be the same person in whom you waited on to change. Why, because this person see things differently and what once was a fit has outgrown the connection.

Sometimes life gets funny that way. Where it will get you down and feeling disappointed, sometimes the people you place high or the ones that will direct you into a nose dive. Sometimes the people you turn away find what other people lead a stray. Again, in order for us to appreciate the things we take for granted we must experience a life filled with lessons. Then one day we will realize; exactly what and whom we need to survive.

One day the story of JEREMIAH proved to me "BELIEVE" THAT ONE DAY THERE WILL BE STORIES IN OUR LIFE OF ENDURED LAUGHTER, HARDSHIPS AND PAIN. WRITTEN THROUGH “ANGEL L” AROUND THE WORLD

Preminiscion

Do you really understand the reasoning to why people miss out on chances at happiness? And the answer is not because they never find it. The truth is they fail to enjoy it, while they have it. 

In humanity you will find that some people have experienced a failure to launch while others will casually pick-a part.

The stories I share are not found in any book on this earth. The stories I write are from a place and people I never took for granted, while loving here on earth. And the good news is we’re all worthy of doing some “good” in the midst of all the “bad” we create and experience.

No human being can clearly justify who is right or wrong in the actions we portray in humanity. Why, because we’re all guilty of some choices and conscious of the decisions we make at any given moment on any given day.  

A husband, wife and child were out enjoying one another’s company on a Saturday. And out of the blue the wife said with confidence “I been meaning to ask have you ever noticed how much you’re admired” by other woman. The husband said “I never really paid it any attention”.  But what I have been meaning to say is “I do notice how men admire your beauty, while you’re with me”.  The wife said I did not pay it any attention. And the reasoning to why this man and wife did not fuss or fight over who was watching or caught in doing wrong or right in the piercing of  wondering eyes; is because they figured out what they both needed to survive which was“ communication and commitment to one another’s life”.

The Pastor made a point to say “tithing replenishes God’s temple we worship in”. As I watched the buckets and silver trays rotate. I could see people worshiping, some were healed with hands as others kept watch of their clocks. And meanwhile while on the other side there were different stories to why a world of children and adults who chose not to worship at church but on their own. And even some remain LOST.   

This modern day of technology has made it more of a convenience to click, slide, tap and text what we want or need, next. And the good news is you just made it easier to be kept up with by increasing another interest of profits because of your comfortable spirits of sharing personal information.

Growing old is not a bad thing it means there is growth for maturity. Being young is fun and exciting. The problem is when people can no longer figure out the difference.

Living off the grid is not every human beings secret mission to hide finances from the government. It can either mean one or two things. One reasonable explanation is to detach your families from the rat race. Where society is struggling with economics and change, so seeking an opportunity to invest in their education and growth will allow you to prosper in what will eventually be leveraged into a deed or new policy. And the second reasoning is to expand your thinking where English is a primary language not to escape any country or foreign land of troubled or stable system of government.  

Legalized weed did not profit or affect everyone. Whether you’re a parent or nonparent around the 50 states just glimpse at other countries and how innocent people die every day. So the concern is what kind of example is made from a “PROFIT” that generates from bodies over 21 in age sold increments of a product that is known to be a threat, regardless if it's sold in small or large dosages? All a human needs is access.  

The phrases Private and Public sectors have informative meanings. Private owned or family operated company’s ceased retirement and pensions for 401k plans, Germany offers free college tuition, Canada has insurance for their residences and on any given day people around the world struggle with college tuition and mortgages. If not trying to find lower rent in high crime developments.  And for the filthy rich and rich they have their own demons to deal with if they have not figured out; who to answer to referencing what they are allowed to have access too.

Some people are quick to believe in conspiracies because man decided to execute his or threat. It happens on any given day, in any place. Some people are eager to see the length of red tape that manages to extend from generations to generations. Religion is a choice, change is challenge and living with acceptance will divide the “strong will in mind” and the ‘Weak at heart, over time”

Time is not the enemy. Time allows us to progress within humanities change and decision making. Therefore time is the only chance we have to make the difference.  So Just when you had no more hope at all, no human being to call, no prayers to pray or strength to fight. Re-evaluate the writing on the wall. Now find your purpose in it all.