Straight-Sex-Gay Talk

Before we begin our Straight-Gay Talk let's be clear on one topic; when it comes to relating to our own children "young & old", family, spouses, strangers and friends. They will exercise the free will in making their own life choices. Therefore their choices will not always make sense in our reasoning. Timothy I is a good read. If you're ever in need of change.

Sometimes we would like to believe "it's just a phase" Eventually they will mature in their own space. Sometimes experimental moments in our lives transform us for the remainder of our lives. Sometimes people create a physode to not expose who they really are. Sometimes people work on vulnerability to test you're strength in sexuality, but weak in your prayer ability. So we can disagree until infinity. And in some countries gay rights, live short lives. And the truth of the matter is we all struggle through change if not transitioning, especially, when stress has max our mental limits. And it's more common to find people who find comfort in sex. And not judged in their actions.    

Today I will speak in light of our hardships, loss and different choices. And not every person's truth is found written in a book, located behind theories, numbered in a census check or voiced on the couch of a physiatrist. Because people either have their own facts of what is accepted where many people will reject it. If you dare to bring light to their differences so Straight Sex- Gay Talk is humanity in rare form. Of who we are and what made us transform.

I use to wonder what internally makes us sexually different. Is it the way our bodies adjust to change overtime. Is it the outside physical appearance that allures our watching eyes, maybe it’s what we advertise. It is because someone close let us down in our lives. It is stress that motives us to perform sexual acts. It is a burning desire, of our addiction to control one another through sex. Or could it be in our wiring?

I use to wonder how a man could make love to a woman. Then make the same love to a man, but not through all the same entrances but with the same emotional feelings. Or what could have been missing in this man's sexual appetite that mentally stirred him emotionally from left to right. And by no means did I say "every curious man or woman is gay" this is a new generations reality from the old testament of Genesis.

I see what men hear. I hear what women and men say. I've witnessed what people do. And the sad news is we're always negotiating on material things with a high "interest" in what we don't necessarily need or use. Upon the negotiation of our bodies to maintain those temporary man made things.

Women and men meet and greet. They exchange their views on different topics and how relationships should work; prior to dating, waiting or straight proceeding to having sex with or without safety and a commitment. So we’re not always prepared when life happens, with children because one day came faster than what we had expected or not planned leaving our children to mature faster in and around hardships that came with valuable lessons where we will be held accountable for what we “did or not say” to stir them in the right way.  So we can relate to this saying “one day my child layed upon my heart, but tomorrow came, and now they run through my thoughts". 

I see women hug, and grab one another’s derriere. I hear woman accommodate one another sexually because they understand one another emotionally. I once visualized a woman grabbing my thighs and looking intensely into my eyes. Until I looked back and all I could see was lust, low self-esteem and loneliness. We pay to fix on the outside what's broken on the inside, after people have played with our hearts & minds. We are aware when people make choices in attempting to cure their sexual appetites or deal with the issues in their lives. But there was something still missing from their lives; someone to appreciate what they could not penetrate.

I use to wonder when life grew overwhelming. And the pressure became too much to bare. I knew God would always be there. But sometimes we are guilty of moving ahead of Gods plan to write our own Revelations. And before we obeyed our flesh the mind was wrecked & flustered with frustration. Things started to mature in formation. Is when anxiety caused exasperation, and people changed their sexual preferences; children were more of a temptation. Same sex became a habit, television allured, sexual gratification. People no longer enjoyed one another the same, it became a sex game. The company we once invited in to our homes started to change, into sex parties. Women were more revealing. Men and boys were deranged and wide open. Comic books characters are the new voluptuous figurines for sale on a retail shelf. In a world of sex and test that has adjusted our wiring. And I will never insinuate people with a preference of living gay, deserve to be mistreated or harmed in anyway. Because we all make choices that are not others hate. In love and sex we also demonstrate.

One day someone screamed "rape". My baby will never be the same.  One day our children were sold into sex slavery, by someone we called neighborly. One day there was a world of sexual transmitted diseases, people only grew more aggressive. One day single people were no longer alone. They now share a common interest in a married couple’s home. One day sex changed the world of little boys and little girls. And the entire time Satan was on stand bye. Watching the weary grow weak as they walked away from God's grace, but there is still grace where God will wait. Until we return unto mercy.

I could be wrong but in having sex or practicing abstinence we do have a choice. And Gay is a lifestyle. Transgender is a transition. And what we don't identify with of our individual choices will only continue to drive us in opposite directions. And the sad news is; humanity is most likely to find sex as a solution. Before admitting to one another and God "we do have internal issues" that either hinder us or change who we are to simply, find love. 

Alpha & Omega

What is in a man’s soul that changes his way of thinking towards people in the world? What answers do we seek to find when a person demonstrates an act of crime? And why do we always find ourselves in prayer more often for someone else than we should first start in ourselves. For we should hope that in these days we can shed lesser of tears; in situations that occur out of the blue of what someone judges are is mentally going through. While were grooming ourselves before embarking and impressing one another in a LOST and FIND world. In which some of us embrace the fullest taste of life. While others faint in their lost and weary ways. And hopefully we have planned for what we need in case of a severe lost in an emergency that are known to take place because of the Sum of All our Fears. Or is it just an act of faith from what is challenging our faith. 

One day we embraced change from shame respected one another's color and choices by keeping our distances. One day we cohabited in peace without the strain of animosity and conditional thinking. We bred blended families and took pride and joy in what we accomplished. So what I'm saying is that if we choose to continue in being proactive in our judgmental ways. And the question are we really looking to find a resolution not in our constitution to have love and peace even if it's not in unity. 

There were pioneers who we have witnessed in movements of diversity, violence and peace. We ourselves have found it in our own diversity. And what still exists is a lack of human respect regardless of our differences. Who are we to judge in Psalms: 95 and Psalms: 96, for we ourselves have yet to approach the bench. In all of Angela L writings that are directed to any and all human form of life. And what I write is based on true occurrences that take place every day. Where fault is where we place a blame of what we can or refuse to change of our own works; to reciprocate more love, less retaliation, ignorance and hurt.  In life's space that has allowed us residence here on earth for a little while so that we may have one more chance to figure this out: 

In the Beginning is where it all began, with the creation of man. The Days of Our Lives is how we have chosen to live in it. And The Ending will be the roll call of all man under God's mercy. Over ages we were instructed through Biblical Word how to live an abundant life of morals, values and beliefs. Then one day man decided to take ownership of what he knew that was not his or her harvest, sold and traded flesh, and disrespected the 10 commandments. And if these laws were not the truth then why did man rise and fall at the end of roll call?

For someone it’s been a breakthrough to learn; they have always had what it took in themselves to live beyond something and someone else.

For someone they finally believe that courage was not just for the powerful and strong in character. But for those who feared what they could not see. That was destined to make people react in their own faith. Because of the test that would inspire their strength.

For someone love was not the challenge to find; it was being found by the right person who would accept and appreciate their mind, body and soul. And not challenge them to test in what was their weakness & strengths.

It took many people to do what other people would not fathom to do of establishing, organizing, presenting, executing or challenging hierarchy in a fight for their and our rights to a preservation of life. And yes, there is always someone who will take a life; because they know there wrong doings will bring truth to the light. It takes a few people with power and manipulation to challenge change in this world, a few people who are willing to follow behind the deceit just to maintain access to people and material things that non followers refuse to partake in of exchange for their equality. Where leaders will rise and fall with trained and unorganized armies in wars that continue to progress in ever burrow, community, ghetto, nation and behind new rising walls. But not all have the courage or intention of rescuing the weary and innocent who struggle to live daily on this battle field in the mist of what we can or not see behind what is, or who is taunting the real enemy. Sometimes there will be struggles and pain. There will be some heartache because of lack in understanding. There will be life and death. There will be healing and deliverance.  

Uncut Version

This Revelation passage may come across "uncut" in order to shed some light over "The Days of Our Lives. And with no intention did I deliberately make this monologue about you and I. We just manage to for-fill biblical prophecy overtime. Through prejudice pride in whom shall rise up and divide people with time. And maybe my writings will never accommodate all nations of men or woman. Why, because the flesh burns deep down inside. So our puffed up pride stands in a place of denial. Therefore who is worthy to judge what form or image in temptation will bring us closer to life's damnation. 

So let's not be confused in what is happening with this story. There was always a protocol of what God required of us even if it came from a man written book. In the New Testament we just managed to justify “I’m in a committed relationship, does not mean you’re exempt from doing sinful things”.  Or maybe I'm the exception to the rule because I am a child of God; but live life as the prodigal son. Or this is “whom I will profit in; does not mean God allowed it to be. And maybe it’s “Just the way we have choose to live; which does not mean you don’t get to not answer for something’s. Thank God for mercy and grace to pardon or fleshly ways. For one day humanity would seek in Exodus: 21: "an eye for eye, tooth for a tooth" before pleading for forgiveness.   

In the mist of Revelations heat some people do take a spiritual break. From the things other people continue to enjoy in the world, selfishly to cleanse their mind, body & soul. And what I mean is at any moment in this life we will be tried in the fire. So therefore allow us to be mindful where we refuse to admit our own actions. And I’ll be the first to say I once had an addiction in my life, lost the interest of some people because I could no longer fit underneath their pride which left me to figure out what I had to “live” without. And to cure "curiosity" this addiction did not involve alcohol, drug use, money or sex. It was something an average mind could not process. But God kept an eye on my best interest. So one day I would always be reminded never attempt to; hold onto "who" and "what" has outgrown you. Eventually in my submissive ways I'm humbled everyday allowing life to train me a certain way, and if you're not limited to change in a small space. Life is not complicated in its reasoning to why; we struggle with people to communicate our frustrations and accept learning what we contributed to in our life lessons.  
     

The term heat has a discrete meaning depending on what people would like to associate themselves with. When it comes down to acting out in their flesh. And often we will find ourselves in a dilemma with our puffed up pride trying to figure what sin is causing the drama in our lives. And if we're more careful in implementing the bible we could figure out God is not the problem but the solution we leave out. Regardless of the type of relationship we relax our souls in. So let’s begin the stories that end up in Revelation:

When it comes to education it’s not for everyone who denies the information. And I’m not just talking about high school or academic achievements. I’m openly referencing to making choices where we require the use of our common sense to outweigh; situations that maybe or not in our best interest where our puffed up pride reciprocates a “positive or negative” contribution.

We all know when it comes to making a financial contribution; not everyone is on board. So why are we quick to render down a resolution? And I’m speaking to marriages and relationships, business partners and families with kids, hell who manages our financial system. Because people need a thorough understanding in “why, what and whom” is the investment in. And how long will it take to see a return in it.  See what I have learned is that we all have a dream to sale. Just not everyone will be on board with a sail of their own.

We can re-track back in history when men and women met casually and mated if not dated with a mutual understanding, involving money. And in the world we live in today it’s sad to say “why love is just never enough” of where we have placed a financial interest. And we’ll pay for sex in every class of society; then blame one another for living in or among our own POVERTY thinking.

A young man asks do you find yourself when you fall in love with another person. I simply said to this young man “you have a lot more of life to learn”. So how is it you can find yourself in one person that seems to be always searching? And before a man or woman decides to choose a mate reference Solomon to understand why he had to learn in a life lesson. 

A woman in search of love kisses many frogs before finding her prince. A man experiments before he accepts God if not his own direction; and you can rest assure knowing they both face test. But don’t be caught up in every couple in a marriage or relationship. Why, because some people will sale an inch of their souls just to have somebody to hold. Some people will make families to feel they are a part of what they really need. So once you’ve been through the fire you can identify with; who has every intention to not change in themselves and keep you in DARKNESS.  

Watch how Pharoah is coming!

All the Days of Our Lives humanity has found ways to Cohabitate with the weak in spirit and the strong in wisdom. And yes, were guilty of judging who gets it. But do we really understand life's purpose in “who” we’re going to meet or be affected by. Or “when” this type of person or people will change our lives. So in knowing that wisdom has always been a part of life's dynamics. Where did we not see how the seeds planted over time would grow in a new generation of people that would fear of not having “wants”. In exchange for a chance to hold what we really need. That started in the beginning of Genesis and ending in Revelation.  

Anti-Christ

Before I begin this passage, I wish all generations of mankind; a practical and peaceful state of mind. Before we take a direction in which we will be summoned to initiate; a final call that must be made. Is where I must admit I’ve written the truth and shared my life preservations on major components in our life experiences, stemming from man’s interactions that make up life's fiction, folk tales and non-fiction. So therefore I not question any person's private beliefs. However I will question for more wisdom, but only in areas of clarity and direction in how, what and when it did or not happen. Prior to this creation of this new generation just to better process if sin would be the factor in reaching the maximum time allotted.

I overheard people questioning if the prospective winner of this presidential election wins in 2016.         Will this be a sign of the Anti- Christ coming? And before you think your answer is intellectually positive and sounds correctly sophisticated. Remember you’re talking to a “lost and found” generation in search of the TRUTH. Because of a few that grew weary and confused. And in continuing please speak; as if you we’re explaining to a small child, humble and meek so that all men and women of color can have a clearer understanding.   Of what has been hidden for ages and not revealed in a book. Of the truth untold but delivered and written in what man can or not do.     

On this journey we have traveled for thousands of years, in good and bad times; our bodies have felt the pain from hateful blows cast down through rocks and stones. For ages our freedom has been monitored by a chain of commands; created through systems, red tape, cages and deceit simply to bondage our sculptured thinking. Our rights were created to keep some peace and leveraged through our basic needs. And unfortunately our fragile feet shall continue to stumble on dry land; where men and woman once thirsted and slaved for their own independence in freedom. And now our children shall taste the truth of ages we once left behind. Where greed and racism did not die in our morals, values and beliefs that are presently being tried, if not challenged in what we want and need.  

As I sat glaring at the dawns early light; I feel as if I have already lived again in this day, twice. The situations or concerns have not changed. It’s only the names and people on different days. I see a child who is in need of everything, where love is free. I can see a family fighting to stay in unity but money cannot buy love and erase the tears from their eyes. Because the reality is "one person" can change the element in everything thing. I can see people a million miles away harvest for food, money and utilities. I've seen man take pride in raping a woman or child to later penetrate his own destiny. I can see the shepherd preaching among sheep attempting to keep them unity. I can see infirmities are making some people weak. I can feel happiness, anger and resentment in all of our mothers, fathers and children who are out playing double jeopardy in the streets. Over and over again I live, breathe and write in the same hours of the day of humanity and our real life stories.     

Matthew: 24 may you find Peace & understanding. 

The Bible

I do not represent myself or my writings to imply that I am the Anti-Christ. And neither am I near being perfected in this life. So when people say the bible is not written accurately and religion is something people would like to believe in. What do they really mean? Are does the bible not accommodate; the way we chose to live in our flesh of reckless choices, shame and mistakes? And if so, then how can man judge who is doing right are doing wrong in this life. And God can’t appoint man to write scripture so that we may earn more of his grace and time.  

Daily I work on suppressing my flesh and quenching that enraged thirst through meditating on Ephesians 3, for better understanding of God’s “holy word”. But not leaning to my own understanding. Because of what I have experienced and seen in this life verses the doctrine written for humanity will keep you in a state of frustration, hope and anxiety. If you chose not to believe there is a higher spirit other than what you can feel and see.

So when the Holy Bible is judged by all nations of man and scripture is used as a passage to express our idol actions instead of spending more energy in doing Ephesians 6. Then how is God at fault for simply appointing man to write and deliver the doctrine from divine wisdom in order so that we “humanity” can find salvation. Therefore I expect to be stretched, tried in the fire and tempted with the desires more than many ways in this life. Especially when I choose to live in my own flesh “expect” there will be more oppositions and consequences. That will challenge my faith in God. In whom I pray and trust; my first love the only creator in Genesis I. Whom placed a word in Timothy because it read clearly of what is ahead of our exhausted thinking once humanity grew weary on this journey.

One day humanity would fall into Ephesians 2, a dark place where the good in faith and bad turned to or against “doctrine” for clarity. And in time children will speak wisdom to the weary, prideful and weak. As they watch man demonstrate their good, evil and bad deeds. So in closing what does mercy and grace, salvation and the gospel mean to me; GOD saw ahead and appointed man to write a plan so that all nations would repent and not sin again, in his or her own flesh. And to for warn us for the remainder of the Days of Our Lives; it would be filled with test over time.    

I can relate to how being hopeless feels but faith reminded me; God knows what a waits ahead of you. And the places you once went are will no longer possess any interest.

In Proverbs the tongue is like a double edge sword where humanity is quick to deliver to one another arrogant and hurtful words. But humanity is slower to accept one another’s apologetic words. In a world of good people and bad. Where murderers once existed in Psalms 10:8; lurking in the world we live in today. 

I can also relate to burning in the flesh and how quick people will take advantage of it. I see many Rebekah's in our mothers, aunts, grandmothers and daughters. So you much possess tough skin once you have identified with; how working in the flesh destroys generations, and in the story of Genesis 19 Lot a father chose his daughter. And in all nations there still exist men who lust after their own flesh, continuing the generational curse.   

I do not write my own doctrine when it comes to sharing with humanity; of all nations good and bad deeds. I do not assume any person will be judged last; when we all disagree on religion. I refuse to say who is more likely to see heaven on any given day. I do not judge another religious choice. I do believe in being equally yoked. I know that all sin is what someone believes theirs is. I have seen the righteous forsaken by man; and out of the blue the Good Samaritan stepped in. I have witnessed the evil in all of man; I have to ask daily to be forgiven. I do believe and respect marriage to be sacred; in the reading of Proverbs: 18. But the reality is humanity still sins.

I do believe there is good teachings and false doctrine; depending on how it is delivered and how we choose to reciprocate and follow it. Ephesians 4:14

So the question has been asked; where do I stand in my religion; am I "IFB" or Southern Baptist,   Cult, Pentecostal, Catholic or non- denomination. And if you're not prepared for these questions believe in me; someone is watching. So again, I will say “I am believer” born into sin and saved by grace & mercy. I also identity with how Satan managed to polish up sin. So yes, I do believe in the gospel written through man of Holy Doctrine for Life's Direction; just look at the world  in which we live in.  

All books hold text. But the reality in them; is how were living it. 

The Funeral

Today I buried a love one who made one “vow” for two reasons in their life. One was to “protect the family and the other was to serve a country”. And in these two choices made; there was destined to be change. At any time and age that did affect many lives. But not all in the same in test, overtime. And there will be times in our life where we will place our own understanding to the side. Why, because people can change; just not always in our anticipated time frame, where many people are not destined to see; what they will never presently believe. And before we proceed to attend another funeral let’s attempt to be more respectful to the dead. If not more thoughtful to ourselves before trading places with the person who silently lay’s in a casket. So judge this passage as you like. But be more prepared to see the truth in a brand new light.

As I sat in peace I could see the crowd watching me and my love ones think. Wondering clearly to see through what is hidden of a possible story. I could hear laughter and see the pain in the eyes of those who were not prepared and prepared to say goodbye. I could feel a breeze of peace over me as it passed gently, and I didn’t need to know the stories left untold, because I had made my peace a long time ago.  

The point of this story line is you could choose to drag on through life surrendering to all the pain endured over the days of your lives; but why not let go of allowing it to dictate how you grow. If you could find many reasons to be happy beyond your disappointments; would you allow another person to repeat the same past situations? Because some of us feel that our pain is greater than another person’s loss. And I can vouch to what happens in this life can never be erased when it comes to people that do contribute to your joy and misery. But if a person cannot be forgiven of their infirmities and faults, it really means you have not moved on. So when death does arrive at your door step by surprise; will you ask it to come another day, because I have unfinished business in my life.

-Angel L, I have more than one story to share. Through a new looking glass.

Real Talk

Real Talk is about humanity and identifying with individual truths; in our choices, actions and what we choose and with whom. And before Angel L began this blog I took many life notes and lessons from people all over the world. That was destined to change this world. So therefore we as a people of all cultures can see our real life stories. So I'll start with me

I am not perfect. I have made a few good choices and many mistakes stemming from my stubborn ways. Until I learned perfection is what someone thinks theirs  is. So I am timeless in all of my beauty; I am my own poetry in motion. I am pillar of strength but weak when I choose to be.  I am a gift to the recipient who has earned his or her reward. I am voice in silent words. I am mind that refuses not to think. I am soul of laughter, submission and critical thinking. I have not always been right but not afraid to be critiqued.   I make up one body in how you see me. But the reality of what God intended me to be. I am confident within my own space. I am the timekeeper of my priorities. I am the gate keeper over who has been assigned to me. I continue in being a caregiver but at times I have nothing left to give, but my understanding and patience to listen.  I am the hunter where I’m the prey.  I once robbed Peter to pay Paul, until I figured out what systems were implemented to shut some people down. I am known for being a peace maker in situations; where people would normally continue confrontations. I have been judged for being opinionated by people who refuse to spill the real deal. I don’t claim to know everything. But I do not hide the facts of what I can see of “BS”. I’m no longer seeking the interest of new friends. Why, because it was hell trying to separate from the people that caused me grief in my past life.   

I am called a Workaholic, guilty of being a Good Samaritan, seen as being lonely because of a lack of interest in hunting down a relationship, but viewed as a person of high interest. Which really means; I’m not the person people would like me to be.  

I hear people say “he or she, thinks they are better than me”, and to be honest that may hold some truth. But you don’t have the time to invest into what other people are going through. So one day I was challenged because I showed lack of interest. In what has been going on for centuries “people seeking for attention”. And it’s not because I do not have compassion. It's because for half of my life I have fed into the world. And for the remainder of my life I am a person of interest who has learned their role and position.  

Real talk I am shy but to some extreme. I am a motivator who sales encouragement. I am known to be talkative, and overly compassionate. But not everyone will appreciate my branded and groomed space. So I don’t cater to people according to status, categories or request. I speak and treat people like they deserve to be treated.

aNGEl l-assumption is assuming what you do not really know   

One Day

I saw a quote the other day. And it set my mind at ease. It read "If you're missing me it's not because I walked, away. It's because you let me go".

There were moments in my life when I selfishly thought God could have provided me with better provision and remove more than a few of selfish people from my life. In order for me to have changed the choices I made at that time until one day my heart and mind re-positioned in line. So I humbly decreased more of myself. In order to accept the struggles God placed ahead of me to only strengthen me.

One day through my trials and anxiety God revealed to me my purpose and destiny. And on that day I began to write from personal places of my and real people's lives. Why, to share the pain and joy we cause one another in this life. Then maybe one day when you choose to examine God for yourself and assume your relationship is rock solid. Keep in mind your past and present behavior has not been overlooked just because you ask for some forgiveness.  Never be disappointed about certain emotions that and repetitious cycles that will arise in your life. Where you have managed to move forward from past decisions with someone else that you can now share the better person of whom you have become to yourself. And what I mean is until we get it right "inside" people in life will move around to their next. But God clearly see's through all of our intentions, motives & choices. So that we can alter ourselves with internal change and who it will occur with; is where God has more of a sole purpose. 

The Sermon

As I complete the finishing touches to my Angel L. rough drafts. I wanted to share one last sermon. Now this sermon may not be accommodating if you like a safe space because not all people are interested in sermons that reflect human activity. 

I found out something about myself over the years. When I realized how I became what some people say “you’re a smart ass” in the way you say things. But let’s not judge so quickly, until you process all the information accurately. In how people project and act. But they are not always happy with the response that is reciprocated back. Now this is how the sermon began:

Have you ever been called a “smart ass” or maybe someone has said “he or she thinks they know it all” are how about “that person is always in somebody else’s business”. Funny isn’t it? How we spend the majority of our lives searching for answers in people that judge our lives.

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See some people are mindful and clueless at the same. I have no doubt I myself had to figure me out. Some people are mindful of what they say and do; regardless if it’s hurts you. But society labels this action as being real.  Some people coerce there words to prompt your actions; only to make it all about their narcissistic personality in testing your vulnerability. Some people look for advice but you may not answer them right. Some people like to be heard and it does not always require your initiation to fix their situation. Some people need you to say what is on your mind; because they don’t a have lot of time. Until they need you on their side. Some people have experienced similar situations and cannot process listening to recycled information.  Some people hint to ask for help; but may not like the way you assist in accommodating what they are exhausted with. Some people like to air their private business because they want you to indulge an extra interest. Some people will act as if they have a physical or love interest in you; just to get out of you what they can’t get their mates to do and if you watch how people are quick to judge your “smart ass”. It’s only because you see through the “BS” their serving you.  So what are the chances that a smart ass exists in every one of the following sermons-messages, regardless of who delivers it?

The Associate who only shares with you information they want you to know. And that is how far that association goes.

The boyfriend and girlfriend or the domestic partners who have established certain arrangements in their relationships; but adding third parties does not always work in dysfunction. And someone in humanity is living this life silently.

The Boss, Team and Hierarchy who always expect for workers to operate on their timely emotions; and if anyone was to do some thorough research it would be delightful to know who is really productive in their work. Not shifting stacks of papers and emails placed in draft.   

The Friendships that last or demise over time; all because you were not catering to what everyone desired something out of you; so think twice before compromising yourself to satisfy people’s fantasies that change out of the blue.

The Lawyer and Judge who makes the final distinction based on your character; but everyone else is the smart ass, except the person who may or may have not initiated the choices.

The News reporter who people love and hate; but how and where do they find the stories they write?  

The Preacher who delivers the message of salvation; but does every tone carried out over the congregation receive an "amen or disarrange facial expression"? When referencing our human good or naughty behavior.

The Slave owner who impoverished many innocent lives then one day in history people continued to fight one another; over whom was wrong or right.

The Spouse and The Mistress or the Transgender lover; but nobody questions the actions while everything is unseen but happening.  

The Family member with addiction or always making crazy choices to get attention; but nobody is positively talking about how they can help them out.

The Credit Collector who calls up to 9 pm; and challenges you to make a payment for what your financial choices.  

The Stranger who is watching your every mood, but nobody’s talking about what kind of attention some of us are drawing people into.

The adviser in whom you shared all your problems with; and believe it or not some of the information is hard to process, of self- inflicted madness.  

The negotiator hired to find a balance in a disagreement. Between two parties who continue in resuming an argument. Simply because, it just makes sense to not have proper communication.

The people in humanity that for ages prolong the fight over religion, voting and equal rights see that they are exhausted with themselves overtime Instead of standing in line.   

Shouldn’t attendance at the next voting pole be more conducive in our lives in figuring out who is really humble about turning this system around?

I will assume humanity has identified with where this passage left our past straight back into our future. So if any human is called a “smart ass” take this from me as a lesson learned; always be prepared to be critiqued, judged and blamed for taking some responsibility in how you translate to humanity.

-Angel L “silence or speak out loud”

Love, Marriage & Children

One day a man observed this woman and admired her characteristics and beauty. One day this woman saw this man and admired his strength and desired to worship him. And here is where the story begins, but it never ends:

One day a man decided to no longer feed his appetite of pleasuring many women at one time. So he placed away his artillery and began a new journey. One day this woman decided she required more from this man so therefore she placed a pad lock on her Pandora ’s Box, and immediately reprimanded some requirements & expectations of him. Then eventually this man began to understand the summons made by this woman. In order for him to have what he wanted from her. There would be a compromise on his behalf, of giving into her requirements.

One day man and woman found themselves in a situation where they were both in love with the idea of creating a family. In which they both agreed and established with loyalty. But deep down inside someone knew a piece of their past was unfinished business. So now listen and pay closer attention to the following message:

Men and woman were born with desires. But not all desires are revealed. Because different people tend to bring out of you “what it is you feel”. So when you decide to select your mate or mates monitor them over time to see what has changed. In men and women who take for granted the smaller things. That once made them both happy. And I know most of you are thinking they both made a vow. But this gets a little deeper than wedding vows. We’re discussing individual desires that people act out, but struggle to figure themselves out. So I’ll share a real story that took place from the beginning of time and it should alert most of us to re-evaluate our morals, values and trust.   

One day it happened again “man and woman’s greatest temptation” appeared in her beauty and his color and strength. And I’m not saying every desire is contemptuously fed. What I’m saying is that every temptation that is buried is not always dead. And this is how Love, Desire, Marriage with Children got complicated: 

Have you ever felt on an urge to escape then returned with some or no regrets, because your deepest temptation was finally met. Have you ever had a ravishing fever through the night and only one prescription would make the entire body feel just right. Have you had an infatuation and daydreamed about being without someone. And then later realized it was only your imagination. Have you ever anticipated sharing all of your fantasies with a person that understands your physical needs with no limitations, but yet you will never commit to this person a real relationship? And without religion and loyalty in any relationship people are destined to take a shift. Because of what they want verses what they solely believe: when it involves marriage and vows, husband, mistress and wife with children in our lives.

A married man or woman do not make promises to third parties they can keep. So what is it they seek? And plead with God "don't let her are him leave me"? A man or woman seeking to be in a committed relationship; sometime will settle to avoid being lonely, but fall short in obtaining what they really need. Men and woman who choose sex over relationships seem to be running away from their own change; and will always find an easy fix so they can remain in being the same. And sometimes people are alone by choice, to avoid the drama in their own life. So when a man and woman choose to being together whether it is related to circumstances or with children. We should respect one another. But the reality is that it seems to be a challenge in humanity. Where we struggle to find a balance in what we do, say and believe.

-Angel L

Forever loving myself  

Lottery Winner

Have you ever wondered how winning the lottery would change your life. And what new plains would you initiate to take by surprise? Have you ever wondered how being rich is based on what some people assume your richness is? But the problem is some people lack the intelligence and patience in understanding your sacrifices and hardships. But most importantly have you ever wondered why people have more than one set of eyes on your information. Advertised by demographics based on the average salary. Or maybe your criminal background, public liens or credit history under the law that hinders to protect our privacy and watches clearly to what is happening. So when your lucky numbers hit or it’s just by faith your time is here. Who will be the next level of a threat. And by no means would I insinuate to not take a chance in life on being inspired and reaching higher. What I’m saying is; legally and individually always pre-arrange your family ahead. Because there are familiar people out there with “simple minded thinking" who will return back to your familiar place, and steal your gifts and fortunes away.

   

The media advertised a young lottery winner who wore a proud smile. The news just aired another person who made stardom. The newspaper just dropped another bomb. Another call has been placed for the next candidate to win this years presidential race. And humanity is back on-line; hacking and purchasing people’s private information for a few nickels and dimes. But let’s return to the story at hand.

This lottery winner was interrupted one night. When 3 mask men kicked in his door and threatened his life. As the young man begged and handed over anything of value he had, but there was still no cash. So where did the gunmen get this inaccurate information. And if these intruders would have had better information, they would have known not everyone is stowing cash in their homes. So this young man lost his life and there is unjustifiable reasoning to why. Just the reality that this young man had more sense too stow away; his treasures from where thieves would come and rob them.

One day a performer received a call. To fly out and interview for the chance of a lifetime “performing live” in the presence of mixed companies. A million of this product was sold but not enough for this performer to hold.

One day at business school a young man came up with a development plan. But someone took this students idea and made a profit.  See winning the lottery is not just about the money. The money is just what people want from other people who took a chance of a lifetime to win.

I’m not rich or poor. I am wealthy and wise to what is in my mind and before my eyes. So therefore I have nothing a thief can tangibly take. Because the reality is in this life; there are people who are takers and people who sacrifice.But when it comes to money people show their true sides in the blink of an eye. Because they never found their own fortunes in this life..  

Angel l signing off until the next drop

-A songtress once quoted this message “Aint nothing coming easily in this life. Sometimes you gotta work, you gotta grow and it gotta hurt..