Kids

Prov 6:20

Today a child ask the question "what is love"..

I responded, momma has to be shown it to know it, to teach daddy how to appreciate it & understand it, so they both can shower you with it. So you all learn together in how to grow in it.

So many parent's birth children in the name of what they say love was about. But in reality every feeling we have is not always wrapped around love. 

I'm not saying we are, if not that any person does not feel something. But love does not make one hurt each other through plots and harsh words are cruel intentions to hurt each other. For no common sense in reasoning.

Love feels good, even when it's so wrong. And even in the hard time love is the power that brings us back in love; together.

In relationships where children are the gift of that consecrated moment or moments. No child ask to be here. A choice was made wrapped up in feelings.

And in the event; that marriage proposal did not happen,  that relationship never got mended or else that child is left with out that person who turned down the opportunity to be a part of their lives. Don't fault the other person's or person who cares enough to make it an easier journey. Why, because they are not obligated to your made up decisions. However, they possess enough love in them to surround you and your choices with love and compassion. If not look out for their own obligations..

Family

John 3:30

As a Family we can; build, educate, create and in unity fight together. And if one of us hurts; we all hurt if not heal each other.

The Family assembly functions in different rolls & personalities. They all possess their own strengths and greatness in works. First the matriarchs Grandmother & Grandfather's listen to them they will guide us in wisdom. Second, they broke the mold by birth of Mom and Dad these two will always come running for their children; right or wrong. 

The disciplinaries of All ages in races of sons & daughter's. And finally, The Gate Keepers is the Uncles & Aunts whom blessed us with those rambunctious & influential cousins. And yes, grandchildren they are the recipe to our bloodlines.

We can admit it are not; God is a genuise. In planning for us not to live in this life alone. Without one another to propser on earth..

And one day when life does happen. And one of our heartbeats is no longer around. We have one another to celebrate, heal & love on each other.

I know some families are broken. Some families are glued together for life; no matter the curves balls they dodge, or serve up in a good fight in this life. Neither one in these familes is really ever prepared to say Goodbye.

I remember when my only child, my only son was born. I could not wait too see who he would grow-up to be. Strong, smart and handsome. And one day he had his own creations of him. Is when I fell in love with all of them. Then at the glorious age of 28 his life was stolen. 

One day a good friend loss a child, seventeen years of age out of the blue; she said I'm not feeling well, and 2 days later she was gone. One day in highschool an entire family in the neighborhood lost 7 children in a house fire. For years I could see their little faces in my dreams. I was just a child myself.

Today, an 11 year old smart young lady, was a child to the mother who cried out loud on television. She was our matriarch in the family. And I looked forward to celebrating her birthday. But today I was not prepared to accept why; my 11 year old daughter committed suicide.

We would like to be believe marriage means forever to each other; but no one is expected to understand why forever is not always the; reality of life's circumstance.

If you stuck on the color of skin or glass houses we live of judgment in. Believe it or not we're in worser shape. For not heeding to the lyrics, life & life's experiences. Humanity get it together.

Thank God our stories are not the end of God's plans. For one day our children grow & grew up. Then had their own children. And some of these children went to college, blessed in a God arranged marriage, if not  taken away out of immature selfish behaviors, by brokenhearted people, resentment in another human beings choices if not life called roll again; as families continue in celebrating welcome to this world if not another farewell of all kinds. It's the Letting go, that is not going to ever be easier; for none in humanity.

Backward Logic

 An example of it. You see an item on sale, purchase the 1 item then you also pick up a jacket & purse. The backward thinking in logic is you have made a smart financial decision. Because you saved a couple of dollars. But the reality is; you needed to save that couple of dollars you just spent to pay the past due on; property taxes, rent, carnote, insurance, food are maybe daycare. 

It does not matter what the scenario is; either we have an abundance in one moment; to justify a behavior in the next. And form the resolution that is somethings outstanding of an immediate need. We still lack of having. 

Ex. 2 stimulus checks. Who does not need a boost in money for the next 2 to 3 years? In the uncertainties of time a job loss are death. Even a snag in the economy could set any of us back. But yet in our backward logic; some if not a few will justify taking that overdue vacation or purchasing clothes to been seen in a Pandemic. Where no one is interested. Of another person's obligations to have taken an opportunity to change their own personal backward logic in personal choices.

Ex. 3. A person who is the breadwinner always giving more are lesser than they have to spare. But always have enough to let another borrower or just treat themselves. Well, somehow in this backward logic of thinking people who have decided how to  burn a bridge they can never cross again. Are maybe the lord intervened in the insanity ways of human selfish thinking to decide a subtraction of a person are access, from the backward thinking will open up their eyes. Of you, them or us due to the reasoning in how & who continues to work a master minded plan w/o God being head. 

Congratulations Dez Prescott; to who much is given, must is expected. But Dez has proven to God; I have been faithful over a little. Now you have blessed me with more.

Haggai; reads about a story of holes in the pockets. Some people will consume more w less. And the less will consume more or more. And those who will consume backward logic will justify why God is punishing me. Or the poverty is the problem if not the focus is on them for leaning on a systematic poverty driven module. To justify what it looks as if some people don't care to do better. But the reality is the limitations are set for the change to in reality not occur. Or it is a fact in all people do resist a real struggle to change in themselves. However, the attitude remains in "I can always justify, why I do what I want to do", in my own mindset of backward logic.

The results are in. Keep doing what you want your way, and eventually; somethings or nothing will change. 

Mental Illness

For generations mental illness we know the truth in why it has nothing to do with race, gender are sex.

In today's society mental illness in Society it's Families and a Community issue. And the reason for that statement is this the mental health issues are going consistently or inconsistent in being managed, untreated, ignored or human Denial. 

The leadership attempts to try to gather the mentally ill off the streets is still not effectively working. 

The trained officers are not psychiatrist these officials are to  protect & serve, trained to shoot and apprehend criminal suspects. However, these people do have families. And the reason for this statement is; there are circumstances of the engagement in society we allow our mentally challenged family members to participate in violence, gang associations and improper supervision of finding appropriate housing, ensuring they continue to remain on their meds. And a responsible person if not people are coherent themselves to assist in the healthy progression of these family members, people are friends. If we are going to bridge this gap in mental illness its time we educate ourselves on the; medical history and even in the bloodlines of our own families.

My personal story in my family, I had this particular member who served time in prison.  While in prison mental illness was diagnosed. The problem is it was not the father's condition. However the diagnosis was schizophrenia. Once released from prison he had a trying time to adjusting back into society. And returning back to jail on multiple occasions to only be released from the CJS. Until his mother decided to find a shelter. Now even in housing he was granted to work previledges. However he was not always monitored by supervision of taking his meds. Eventually his mother took full custody of this adult with a mental  illness. Until the day she laid her child to rest.

My personal experience. I had a family member who went to prison for murder. Served his time. And shared his experience. If you are a follower in the world, you will serve the consequences of the sentence for your chosen decisions & behaviors. And even if your condition was a state of identitfied medical mental illness if not rebellious, are  psychopath behaviors in adolescents or adults take  accountability of yourself. Get you some professional help if not surround yourself; with positive thinking people & family that has your best interest. So you can address your own demons if not a proven psychiatric medical condition.

Its not embarrassing to admit; mental retardation, mental illness, schizophrenia, bipolarism, ADHD and post pardon depression can be a condition in ourselves or  family members; and even when we cohabitate in consecration of creating new born babies.

911 what's your emergency; lord we did not obey your commandments are grew weary in trusting in faith for grace and mercy, disobedience& in rebellions. So where do we go from here with shattered; human patience..

Black History

There is no argumentation in All knowing why Black People remain highlighted over generations. Generations of accomplished chiefs, kernals, commanders, kings and queens. The conversation of revolutionary leaderships & legacies.

On every news channel, around global conversation, panels and diversity in culture, at every platform of the masses and in almost every debated social injustices or inequalities meeting's or gatherings. The Black People of being in a state  human beings is the conversation in a world of their relevancy. 

Why, lets All look at 401 years of Black History. We can continue in another decade of debating accountability & responsibility. from 401 years of history, laws & regulations and policies. And the all due process granted if not used of leverage; towards a race to justify why the oppression is their counter obligation to heal themselves. Knowing it was created for them to fight twice as harder, speak only when spoken too are be frowned upon as confrontational, think faster than the support in education that is slowly driven. In a fast pace world of moving infrastructure, inequalities of equity during a shifting economy. Where freedoms is no longer a free privilege. But a challenge to stay indiscrete and live like any other race; in unity and find the normalcy.

The Royal Families

Matther 5:13

Welcome back in all things surrender unto God in doing well on a humpback day Wednesday!

"The passage reads we are the salt of the earth", so I ask the lord this morning for the renewing of my mind. As we stand in unity of prayer; for this generation of All to find peace in themselves. And its ok if you don't need any prayer are you swear there is no God. Some if not many will not miss out on a chance; to serve a God who continues to prove; revelation & revelance.

For decades, the woman in our family have this tradition. So did a son. We all either call with several members on the line. Or since the cell phone is like an ATM machine, the elders of my people now text more than the young. And the text messages we have to share is "expressions of dealing with trials, challenges of change, encouragement, pics  of our children; and prayer for the children we have lost in our bloodline. In prayer we express endless love for each other, and bond this family over zoom lately. A family in blood that belongs to angel "an extraordinary person". Did I mention this family has seen God's grace & mercy in both the good & bad. My seeds, our bloodline is blessed to have village's of family. And an abundant of cousins. For many of them are still living. 

When God created man, God created his family. And if you establish respect for the family. There is nothing the family cannot accomplish in UNITY. 

In the days we are living in of Royalty I watched Meghan & Harry in unity. Decide on  making the biggest decision in the presence of a judemental world of people; as these two came into a final agreement to stand firm together. As the Royal family watched so did the world of people judge in silence. Maybe many gathered their synopsis based on the history of Diana's tragedy, and left of her legacy two sons now men who a title of honor. Which became the topic that would always follow this Royal family. Her boys did not forget their mother even when they had a living father. I noticed Harry bestowed in his demeanor of what he possessed in a strong sense of loyalty for his mother Diana. And now that loyalty has nurtuted with his own wife Meghan who has bared his Royalty of their children. 

Time will shift gears, and families will always be in existance of our human being. Alive or Dead. Differences are Agreements. Its life that challenges our change are to respect one another in our own decisions to change our positions. And it is the spirit that eternally commands by God; we live in unity & acknowledge peace. As in the days of Lazarus. Who was at peace until his family mourned for God to raise him back from the dead.

In Christ Jesus. We can find refuge. But remember trials will be part of the process. For no man can enter into the kingdom, until we meet with Christ, first. Is where the family has eternal life. As we live as  families in unity here on earth.

Prayer is required, Religion is optional, Finding Peace your accountable for yourself, Change is relevant & decison making in choices is your own free will to make. And If God is available 24-7, in the word God commanded we are the salt of the earth; then why is man allowed to remove that salt out of our mouth?

One day a voice rang; as we were laboring in our fields. Some fields grew plenty of harvest on the land, some barred dry land in several seasons; trying to increase their harvest they work in slumber, some drunken in their own spirits. And finally One day came. There were 2 standing on a roof & in a field. Then 1 in mystery disappeared. As this process domino effect occured all over the world. 

Basic Resourses

Galatians 6:9

The American Rescue Plan; and how woman play a significant role; in being the glue that keeps families together. 

In a pandemic life; after a distressful work day. Every physical body in a shared space. Diligently seeks comfort in relying on that house or around people in civilization to feel normal. But the  availability of what was a commodity to just freely breathe. Has turned into a vital basic need.

In a Survivors life of violence,  housing and food assistance recipients, children facing mental abuse. And entire families that are still facing disparities over clean running water. While our neighbors across those borders are running over her & there for cover. With their own families & children. As those among the world; exist in criminals. Are not being denied of crossing; those bordered lines. 

There are so many issue's to resolve from housing economics to nations of humans. In unity reflects an entire World; divided. In a time that humanity only has. To figuring out what is a priority in being 1st, 2nd if not last.

Where distress causes suffering, famine and death; disparity wears many faces behind a mask. 

Keep these children & elders in your prayers. While the busy bodies are too busy; in repeating busy steps. Unfortunately we live in an argumentative society; where a few people cant be told anything, and a mass of people know everrrrything..

Corporate

Who could of sung the truth in this Anthem; any better. 

Since the age of 18. I have successfully worked in Corporate America, as a young African American woman.

I took every opportunity to learn our customers. Educate myself on the business. And comfortable in wearing my own natural skin. I figured out how to survive in Corporate America. I walked in the doors as a student. Until these doors relocated, but I chose not to relocate. Why, I had a son. And to ensure he remained my priority in my entire physical world. I needed to ensure he could handle himself in a diverse shuffle of economics. Even if we started in these trenches. One day came where all our Children will need to be equipped to understood before you take a leap of faith. Establish who you are & what you are capable to educate yourself in of product & demand. Because in the real world you will be challenged; but stand firm. You will be greeted; so be firm when extending your hand. You will be questioned; stay up on your knowledge. You will be pushed on purpose; stay silent. And at the end of the day. Store those mental notes in a safe place.

Just for the record, even if you are not alway's rewarded according to your works of  performance above expectations. Do not be dismayed when people attempt to out think you. The pay is invested of your contributions to the successes of those returning customers & new customers. Or you're ignored for those rewards that could of at least; been supported. Are acknowledged of your loyalty, skills and talents. Remember educating the consumer will always return back a customer of loyalty. So what is your plan B,C & D. So one day when you venture out into this cluster of a mustered world .Those little mo-hills won't amount to the possibilities. But real time opportunities. In which u worked of mastering in yourself. To creating your mental wealth. So what do I mean by mental wealth. No matter what you choose to birth of wealth, it will not be science to figure out. Because you have mastered identifying the wealth in yourself. Of a mastermind who has served a diverse class of customers.

In my career, ESPN was one of my greatest achievement stories. I was abroad of all the masses mostly in the entertainment of sports. I was employed for 7 years, and most importantly I was this young determined African American woman. Who sat with honor at the front desk. Respected of a brand in succeeding being the face of a massive worldwide establishment, ESPN.

There is nothing we are incapable of doing. For someone else to appreciate us in doing outstanding works. So how can you question if I am not qualified or supposed to lead if not fall behind. For leadership is not a fit for everyone. Are just because that did not happen this time. And where will the funding come from. Remember what you invested in of someone else. And how did you educate that returning customer; to seek your face?

In memory of my son who did not give up, Dominique Devon White my greatest LOVE, paid it forward. And in his community we can look at again; of the seeds planted prior to him. And at least 1 seed he planted in them. To Never Give Up on you, but always take a leap of FAITH!

Monogamous

If you are serious about finding a person to share your life with. Be smart, listen closely to what is being said; in a millisecond to twirl your head. And then be even more patient in your options.

People play mind games; and even when they devour and conquer some men or woman will keep it moving. And that's ok for a person with higher than lower self-esteem..

My story, so once my son passed away. People assume they were as smart about me having a relationship. Than I was of more vested in wrapping my mind around this ignorance. I love me, first. Therefore I'm focused on my heart and his children. See how we lose with people in the living. Why, some people dont have a longterm plan. In reality the lord required I return his body back on this date and time in his life. My son had plans with his children. It did not mean after his demise those plans for them also died. Are neither was his mother broken to be a vulnerable weak person..

One thing you have the authority over in this life; is how you protect yourself and show accountability in every move that has to be made. In the process of life, everyone is preying are waiting to be next. Through this entire process because of his murder. I lost alot of respect for people that played themselves; on preying on what they thought was a weakness.

See when you take time with God, and work on those issues in yourself. You can identify with how much you can deal with. And what is not going to be settled for; no matter what angle the conversation is aiming for. Not every single person is suffering for another  woman or man. Maybe those people are the ones seeking for something or person they are missing for themselves.

Yes, we all need someone. But I will avoid unnecessary hell and discomfort just to settle. Where everyone has to live with their own decisions. Maybe its not that serious. To always spend time looking.

Married people face enough of their own problems, single people fight each other; to stay or separate from 1 another. And when people ask are you lonely. Your response should be how much time have or how long have you invested of working on yourself; before not saying you are prepared to being responsible for someone else.

Grown people make decisions, needy people wait for attention, lonely people make questionable decisions, horny people do whatever. But a person that respects their own self, struggles and change; not waiting around for anyone to warm their beds. When the time is right, that person is humbled by life. It will be that person who will fall in line at the right time; all things will come together. And you will not ponder and question if this person will show up, are if I have to wonder if they have our backs..

I taught my son; love yourself first, marriage is not just making babies, and being a man too other peoples issues. And rescuing them from abandonment of another person's obligations. Check your confidence level then evaluate if the love you feel in your heart will stand the test of time for another person; who may struggle with loving themselves, second

SPARTA

One Day I ask my son, Dominique to share with me his intake of this movie. He said these are real Warriors in real Battles. And neither are afraid to die, for the next man standing up beside of a Warrior, is the next Warrior prepared to fight if not die. To protect his own brother and the mission to save their own people. After, his demise. I still watch "300" with a new focus.  

What happened to warriors, the finest of courageous men and the woman that stood with honor with them. As they went to battle. This generation sold out the gun shops. Until the owners could not keep up with rising demands. As ammunition is flying of the shelves all over the world. That even a blind person has his or her own gun. Although he or she may not be able to see what’s coming; it is those paired set of ears that can hear the ricochet of bullets. As innocent children play outside if not seated inside of a car. Silence is broken. Then loud cries weep, as men, children and woman of all races of people run for their lives. Or hide behind fragile bolted nailed doors, broken blinds or no blinds at all. We see people march in neighborhoods as the property owners reveal their right to carry in their front yards. How, do we not see why Peace continues to be compromised. 

In other countries the smallest of children are trained to carry a gun, shoot and kill. In the US, children are trained to hunt. And hunters are trained to do what comes; naturally.

For myself, I will not act out in a negligent manner to violate another persons privacy in any capacity of space. Are neither will I catch or throw any daggers; however we are faced with a full situation. Around this 2^nd amendment right. And who has the guns demonstrating they are either preparing for other missions. If not carrying out their own personal intentions. Guns do not kill people, guns have no hands, they do not carry a tone to debate who the next owner will be. Or neither does a gun possess a human conscious. However, when a gun is in the possession of hands that are neglectful, because of the motive and intention used with it to threaten another person’s life. Bullets begin to ricochet. Leaving a state of fear, panic, chaos and fear.

One day, the 2^nd amendment was written, and the gun license to carry became an honor to wear as a shield of I can now legally protect myself. Within the reasonable scope of the law. And just by chance a mistake is made they also offer the legal gun holder insurance. As the shooting ranges are packed at full capacity. I myself attended and was totally amazed to watch of whose packing what. Legally with a strong focus. While others are playing in the streets roll up on em, as they all die deep. Did the 2^nd amendment include what is going to happen in the event the use of guns are not in line with 2^nd amendments right. Because humanity started a 3^rd world war zone, in our own country. That is rising with; no barriers held.  

If we are going to salvage time humanity; put down the gun's. So we can all feast, hunt, eat and breathe. Into a new generation.

Urgent Care

The body is a functioning group of organs; and when one part of this body breaks down. The entire body communicates to the brain; a failure to launch. Because of an organ is not functioning properly.

Old school remedies are a beneficial; as our older generation taught us. For a fever attempt a cold bath. But if that fever does not break within the pain on that child’s are adult’s face; use common sense and seek a medical doctor. That has more experience where this old school remedy may not be working, at this moment.

We have heard females say “I have not had a pap smear in years, and even a male will admit I don’t go to the doctor”. So the question is how long do you think, you will be living here on earth? And how are you in a position to decide whether that child are elder if to another person is in dire need of medical help, can finally get it. When there are young/old mothers that have allowed a child’s ears to not be plugged; and for that this child either has progressed are remain with a speech impairment. And ADHD is not limited to African American people. ADHD is a condition in all races of children that could occur and sometimes not properly diagnosed at birth. So further education is needed. To understand misinformation. And how ADHD could exist in any race of child born in this world. As the information & testing ensures there is a platform of education and support. Because children will one day mature into grown Adults.

Obesity and depression a toxic combination. And maybe it’s a hereditary. You have several options to choose in managing the condition. And this disease is not a statistic limited to black people. Stress inflates blood pressure of all races of people, diabetes occur in all ages, and suffering a loss in death causes inflammation in the entire human body. As cohabitation without protection while engaging in sexual discretion. Is not limited by statistics; only in the African American & Hispanic communities it's broadcasted. Maybe it’s finding Affordable Health Care that will cover this request to testing for STD’s such as HPV, Aids & Herpes has silently progressed 

The reality is millions of people across the globe are living in either conditions; of lack. Lack of knowledge, poverty are even wealth. But not granted equality to access of improved medical specialist. In the event the diagnosis requires more healthcare coverage.

Options are available; but accountability starts across the entire Board, with equal access, education & All in communication