Sterile Environment

In any environment people are said to be "the extent of what they breathe". And just because people share their opinions and strong views it does not mean that people will never "agree or disagree" moving forward towards anytype of transitioning concerning change. That affects "all nations of living human beings". Are maybe we as a people honestly "believe" and "accept" that people are the real product of any "open, private and closed" environment. And if so then who really is "right and wrong, free and controlled, of a sound mind are unstable" in spaces were people write many rules, consume and assume, judge and persecute, breed and birth" the people that make up an environment. Past and present generation of men and women. 

Remember back in the day what was it about cultural diversity that brought out so much positive energy. What inspired people young and old to be more enthusiatic about  sharing their visions. What did we teach our children and families regarding the importance of morals, values and beliefs? And in hard times how do we make ends meet with nickles, pennies and dimes. We shared what we had in good times and bad. And what about those families who lived in better conditions but around cutural differences. There still exist some honest people who believe we still have to live in unity. And that is the reasoning to why we are racially intergrated in more than one way in this life.  So how is it we think our challenges and differences don't carry the same burdens. Because life will change all of us in every physical form and fashional way. To show us ourselves in every human way.

Remember how we use to set on the front stoop or steps  and watch our children play way down the street as we watched out for one another in peace. Do you recall a moment where people conciously said "excuse me" while holding the door open as you entered completely? And it did not matter whether you were young or old. People were just more aware a d in control. Do you remember having arguments and disagreements that turned out to be nothing more than “a handshake, fair fight if  not forgiveness” because people respected having their right to the preservaion of life. Do you remember being content with what you had. Because family was all you really needed. And just in case you were favored to have more financial freedom being alone felt all alone. And sometimes you will find people who are wired a ceratin way. They feel that material things draw more interest of people with honest feelings. One scenario of closed minded thinking. Why, because overtime you were taught to be accepted by a certain class " and sometimes you must 💋 a little ass", or maybe we just need validation. 

Remember responding to this question whether it was a prospective relationship in your personal life or a business opportunity. People always ask   “What are your future  plans or 2-5 goals”, and what have you implemented to get a final outcome. And this is where people see the signs but ignore them for “instant gratification”. I mean by now we all know that we are the “microwave generation”. 

  

I see people without a drivers license and over due child support payments because the system continues to tally up the time in which you will pay more to be unconfined. And next year if you are behind 6 months in taking care of those kids there will be rejection on the final date of your vehicle inspections. I see people who can pay taxes but neglect payments for more access. Until garnishment of wages and their freedom to serve for tax evasion. I see homes levied because of debt; so why do the creditors extend us more access. I see new retail stores, quality dining and high rise buildings in old neighborhoods where regular folks honestly pay what they make without a cost of living increase.

Remember how companies valued employees. And how the stock maket has all the right strategies for your money. But yet no one has a real plan where the FEDS are managing. With all due respect before there was a system to control and monitor the people. People managed what they had with minimum direction.

And before I close out. There is one more observation in working 8 hours a day.To figure out how to make a paycheck stretch over 40 hours a week. And if are paid a salary then what makes up the difference in what we still need. Because there is tremendous gap between the blue collard and white collard worker. Which is any human being of nature can manage to survive, it’s how many of  us are struggling to live that will cause each and every one of us burdens in this life.

So what will we do to sterilize our own lives. And better groom this aggressive generation to not limiting ourselves to the bottom lines?  

24

The first 24 hours in a day we should never assume that all people organize their plans around our individual objectives. But I will cover different areas that are non -objective. In what we either have of a plan of our own. If not how we reorganize our lives to deal with the unexpected in our lives. And for many people around the entire world it may just be their routine lifestyle where they are content in making personal sacrifices. To cater if not give some solid direction. To someone else who lacks personal motivation if not knowing they consistently give to selfish people who have made them feel a sense of "obligation". And no, I did not make this passage up; in a world of people who show us up.  

I do not believe in wasting time. And yes, it finally came with maturity over-time. And what made me more aware of the time we don't have; is how some people have not mentally progressed in complex situations, and systems continue in leveraging. And the truth of the matter is; it all depends on the people’s individual and intellectual perception of this. So what is this writer saying to all cultures in all nations?     

Time has no fault in its own movement; Time revolves around the world and space we live in; between work- family-vacations, relationships-choices-social media, church-change-challenges-depression, harvest-education, and much more required direction.    

Time has no return once it moves ahead; so therefore what you “should of, would of or could of” have did. Eventually is irrelevant in it.

Time does not consider; your choices and mistakes, repetition and procrastinations. Time is not your baby sitter that will sit around and wait. Until you feel you’re ready to mature up and face life.

Time is the book keeper of us all. Time knows when you will awake and when you will fall asleep at night.

Time knows; who, when, why and how people will attempt to cheat its final destiny. Time is not judgmental or racially prejudice it allows us all time to live.   

Time knew; who would mourn, laugh, pray, steal, cheat, reap and sew. Time aligned your partner to end up on your side. Time had a date for us all to fall deep in love. Time knew what you wanted just when you would need it. Time knew what you would deny. Time allowed us to make questionable choices and adjust to change in our life. Time will mature us all in our thinking over-time. Time preserved space for us to deal with ourselves. Time planned for you, me and everyone else.   

Time knew who would be a father and mother, not baby daddy and momma, sex partners. Time knew what responsibilities people would create. Time was ready once those levees would break. Time knew the truth that we would judge one another in what we all continue or not choose to do.

Time knew who you would turn out be in this life. Time knew who would not last on this ride. Time keeps a record of who will die and who is fighting to survive. 

Time knew the people who would come in and exit out of our lives. Time knew hard times were part of our entire test. So time was directed to have limitations to grant us all rest. Time would make you stronger in your will to survive because God is the creator of time. 

Time has a window for you and I to find our purpose in this life. Because God knew it would take some people a short time to get it right. While others would think they have a life time to play childish games in this life.

“I shared wisdom with a family member who I love with all my heart” but sometimes even family members waste brain matter to challenge your matured thoughts. This love one responded to a comment I made “everyone in this entire life gets their turn” immediately this love one sarcastically replied “when will yours come”? I silently said "lord help" some of us. And if we were as closer to GOD as we thought, we would be more humble before we speak. And if this love one had lived in my years of their young life maybe the demons that challenge this love one would not be hell to fight. 

“I shared biblical scripture with a married man-“and yes this was always a childhood friend, no ass involved”. But before I begin first be mindful of this; in whomever marriage or relationship you plan to interfere with please gather all the correct information. Before taking the credit that you have implemented some type of direction in what they have progressed in. Of knowing what they both need is God and encouragement in their established relationships because people can swear their done. But men and women, boys and girls see the signs. Where nobody is walking away from a life this couple has managed to sustain.

“It’s a challenge to address another person’s ill-mannered actions. And many people will accept and justify it comes in being set in their “aging ways”.  And what I mean is listening clearly to what I'm saying; we all work off of emotions and sometimes we tend to think we’re fixing other people’s issues and problems. By making people we care for crippled to their obligations. So allow your grown children to stretch and bend, leave a little space for our youth to grow-up in. Love your parents respectfully. And parents please refer to Colossians and Ephesians where it speaks directly to those parents "provoking their children to some form of rebellion", because people in the real world will not fail to test the both of you. Because of something they are not managing well to get through. And remember no money in this life can buy real people, peace, love and joy.

“I see bad boys everyday” some sit in church and yell "wan't God do it" in different cultures-in every corner of the world. Some are dressed in business suites, black robes, some have college if not penitentiary credibility, some hang on the street corners around the way, and some pride fully represent “this my hood clicks” but never hold a title for "land investments”. Some like using their hands on women and girls, in a violent way. And it's sad to process some women and girls think "this is the way he loves me". Some bad boys assume women like to be mistreated or tricked out for prostitution, dislocated from their families and children. And it's sad to see even in the Gay community; domestic abuse does exist. Now let's proceed to compliment the BAD BOY"S who are good providers and diligent; in caring for their children. They are humble, respectful and prayerful where the other bad boy entertains himself by feeding foolishness into a females bad habits, instead of bettering the both of them; by elevating her mind to be a better woman, mother or maybe even his wife because a male can identify with a certain type of "female characteristics", and who has not been taught how a young lady should act. Or even demand some common sense from a man with more than little respect.  So whatever choice female or male time allows you to make just make sure it benefits yourself in a respectable and positive way, ensure your children are protected, safe and will benefit; from your life choices of plans, that don't fall into the wrong hands.  

“I remember the day I had to let go & grow, it was in my 24 that I had to face who I allowed to dictate what they wanted from my life. So that left me with limited head space for the remaining of what I would even consider to make of smaller sacrifices for other people who still play games, with time that is not on their side: 

I rest 7 hours.  I work for 8 hours a day, and travel on the highway 1.5 hours on the run. I spend 1 hour a day dedicated to my Angel L writings, researching, socializing and digesting what in the world is happening. I plan my travels 1 hr. every week around what I prioritize 30 minutes a day  to pay on every month on the 1^st and 15^th. I figured out how much time I waste trying to "code crack" why some people including myself deal with repetition. By listening and watching in the same 15-30 minutes a day how we work in insanity. I have spent more than 2.5 hours a night to be a support system to the children in my life. I choose not to question those people who act out by creating more responsibilities. I'm known to volunteer2 hours to spread awareness for environmental cause. I silently meditate for 30 minutes every day to process who really has a real life plan in the circle of my family and friends; puffed up egos, pride and payback intentions. And no I don’t have all the answers. But I do have more than enough direction. I do attend church even when I'm out contributing to missionary work. I wrap up my day every night with praying to God "for forgiveness" of any wrong doing in my life because people will drive you straight out of your own mind. If you allow them the space to clutter it up with waste. In what we all have been blessed to live in of 24 hours in a day.

World Wide

Leadership was formed in all nations. And full circle could occur in any world affair. Where leaders or people agree to compromise, fulfill promises and sign off on terms which include; agreements and negotiations. And before we proceed with our judgment, philosophy and reactions; let's ensure we have our facts clear about the relationships we have established with full if not minimum understandings. So that the people have some clarity in how changes in any government forfeit leaderships and downsizes development. Leaving real people to deal with consequences in what has been our history; of coordinating peace in unity, bridging the gap of poverty and economic development in every corner of any country. For many generations we have seen great sufferings, we have seen some prosperity, we have seen leadership change. We have seen people enraged. We continue in mentoring our youth, with what we have been provided with of tools in our public schools. We have not managed to figure out; why have our leaders not changed, what our founding fathers once wrote a long time ago.

The world has heard some disturbing information that has alarmed all nations where our leaders are saying it to be "the biggest blow" since World War II. So therefore this is an opportune time to deal with the minuet issues that will keep our countries behind. In future debate of how and why the people should live their own lives. And for every word written in our Constitution and Countries Peace Treaties for the people rights; will be exercised in circumstances that arise in real life.

So much has changed in the world we live in today from; the 14th amendment our Women right's, The Thirteenth amendment abolishing slavery & the continuous progression of human trafficking, And in our 14th amendment it "guarantees that no state shall “deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law.”. The Second Amendment pro's and con's on gun control, Adolf Hitler's Battles, Genocide & Wars, The 16th street Baptist Church Bombings. In Aug. 1955 a teenager Emmett Louise Till faced his brutal death, and in September of 1955 his murderers walked out alive. And where was the 8th amendment when this black child's life depended on it. The eight amendment talks about the War on Drugs; mean while it continues to cross borders from other countries into states and small cities. And 2016 an African male faces a felony for "possession, use, production, sale or transportation" if not 5 to 30 years of life in prison. The Great Depression did not set people's character back in the 1920's and 1930's, Henry Ford managed to pay his workers $5 more per day, regardless of stories made. And in 2016 workers finally see a change in minimum wage. The Domestic violence clause "This protection is for the people. The U. S. Supreme Court so held in Texas v. White (1868), saying it's the people who are guaranteed this protection." In the 20th and the 21st centuries, we have harmed ourselves greatly through massive chemical exposures, causing diseases and behavioral and educational deficits" and the truth has always existed, where real people manage to live through it, some with limitation or no choices. Why, because some people will act as if life will not happen in and around the entire world. Of all colors and nations of men, women, boys and girls, ad yes, I'm known to express in clarity. So that even a child can comprehend what they can or not read. Therefore they are not always deprived of some direction to the unanswered questions we debate over in this life.

Examples of "freedom to speak in a world filled with areas of complexity.

"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe " - Albert Einstein

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever" -Mahatma Gandhi

"Our Founding Fathers" established directions for our change. But down the line of generations there was a division of thinking. Where some people fought for Peace, Unity, and Equal opportunity. Some people were for Bipartisan, Slavery and Genocide, no disrespect in light of those who remain to argue the truth of why over 100 million people lost their lives. Is why there are growing movements around the world that openly believe in Unity that one day all nations of men and women, boys and girls will allow Freedom to Ring. Beyond Hate, Corruption, Controversy and Aggressiveness thinking to stay in Misunderstandings.

So if people really want continue in adversity. Please answer this "if people really believe that God does not exist" then who on earth is causing all the hell and conflict, we have for ages and generations managed to deal with?

Straight-Sex-Gay Talk

Before we begin our Straight-Gay Talk let's be clear on one topic; when it comes to relating to our own children "young & old", family, spouses, strangers and friends. They will exercise the free will in making their own life choices. Therefore their choices will not always make sense in our reasoning. Timothy I is a good read. If you're ever in need of change.

Sometimes we would like to believe "it's just a phase" Eventually they will mature in their own space. Sometimes experimental moments in our lives transform us for the remainder of our lives. Sometimes people create a physode to not expose who they really are. Sometimes people work on vulnerability to test you're strength in sexuality, but weak in your prayer ability. So we can disagree until infinity. And in some countries gay rights, live short lives. And the truth of the matter is we all struggle through change if not transitioning, especially, when stress has max our mental limits. And it's more common to find people who find comfort in sex. And not judged in their actions.    

Today I will speak in light of our hardships, loss and different choices. And not every person's truth is found written in a book, located behind theories, numbered in a census check or voiced on the couch of a physiatrist. Because people either have their own facts of what is accepted where many people will reject it. If you dare to bring light to their differences so Straight Sex- Gay Talk is humanity in rare form. Of who we are and what made us transform.

I use to wonder what internally makes us sexually different. Is it the way our bodies adjust to change overtime. Is it the outside physical appearance that allures our watching eyes, maybe it’s what we advertise. It is because someone close let us down in our lives. It is stress that motives us to perform sexual acts. It is a burning desire, of our addiction to control one another through sex. Or could it be in our wiring?

I use to wonder how a man could make love to a woman. Then make the same love to a man, but not through all the same entrances but with the same emotional feelings. Or what could have been missing in this man's sexual appetite that mentally stirred him emotionally from left to right. And by no means did I say "every curious man or woman is gay" this is a new generations reality from the old testament of Genesis.

I see what men hear. I hear what women and men say. I've witnessed what people do. And the sad news is we're always negotiating on material things with a high "interest" in what we don't necessarily need or use. Upon the negotiation of our bodies to maintain those temporary man made things.

Women and men meet and greet. They exchange their views on different topics and how relationships should work; prior to dating, waiting or straight proceeding to having sex with or without safety and a commitment. So we’re not always prepared when life happens, with children because one day came faster than what we had expected or not planned leaving our children to mature faster in and around hardships that came with valuable lessons where we will be held accountable for what we “did or not say” to stir them in the right way.  So we can relate to this saying “one day my child layed upon my heart, but tomorrow came, and now they run through my thoughts". 

I see women hug, and grab one another’s derriere. I hear woman accommodate one another sexually because they understand one another emotionally. I once visualized a woman grabbing my thighs and looking intensely into my eyes. Until I looked back and all I could see was lust, low self-esteem and loneliness. We pay to fix on the outside what's broken on the inside, after people have played with our hearts & minds. We are aware when people make choices in attempting to cure their sexual appetites or deal with the issues in their lives. But there was something still missing from their lives; someone to appreciate what they could not penetrate.

I use to wonder when life grew overwhelming. And the pressure became too much to bare. I knew God would always be there. But sometimes we are guilty of moving ahead of Gods plan to write our own Revelations. And before we obeyed our flesh the mind was wrecked & flustered with frustration. Things started to mature in formation. Is when anxiety caused exasperation, and people changed their sexual preferences; children were more of a temptation. Same sex became a habit, television allured, sexual gratification. People no longer enjoyed one another the same, it became a sex game. The company we once invited in to our homes started to change, into sex parties. Women were more revealing. Men and boys were deranged and wide open. Comic books characters are the new voluptuous figurines for sale on a retail shelf. In a world of sex and test that has adjusted our wiring. And I will never insinuate people with a preference of living gay, deserve to be mistreated or harmed in anyway. Because we all make choices that are not others hate. In love and sex we also demonstrate.

One day someone screamed "rape". My baby will never be the same.  One day our children were sold into sex slavery, by someone we called neighborly. One day there was a world of sexual transmitted diseases, people only grew more aggressive. One day single people were no longer alone. They now share a common interest in a married couple’s home. One day sex changed the world of little boys and little girls. And the entire time Satan was on stand bye. Watching the weary grow weak as they walked away from God's grace, but there is still grace where God will wait. Until we return unto mercy.

I could be wrong but in having sex or practicing abstinence we do have a choice. And Gay is a lifestyle. Transgender is a transition. And what we don't identify with of our individual choices will only continue to drive us in opposite directions. And the sad news is; humanity is most likely to find sex as a solution. Before admitting to one another and God "we do have internal issues" that either hinder us or change who we are to simply, find love. 

Alpha & Omega

What is in a man’s soul that changes his way of thinking towards people in the world? What answers do we seek to find when a person demonstrates an act of crime? And why do we always find ourselves in prayer more often for someone else than we should first start in ourselves. For we should hope that in these days we can shed lesser of tears; in situations that occur out of the blue of what someone judges are is mentally going through. While were grooming ourselves before embarking and impressing one another in a LOST and FIND world. In which some of us embrace the fullest taste of life. While others faint in their lost and weary ways. And hopefully we have planned for what we need in case of a severe lost in an emergency that are known to take place because of the Sum of All our Fears. Or is it just an act of faith from what is challenging our faith. 

One day we embraced change from shame respected one another's color and choices by keeping our distances. One day we cohabited in peace without the strain of animosity and conditional thinking. We bred blended families and took pride and joy in what we accomplished. So what I'm saying is that if we choose to continue in being proactive in our judgmental ways. And the question are we really looking to find a resolution not in our constitution to have love and peace even if it's not in unity. 

There were pioneers who we have witnessed in movements of diversity, violence and peace. We ourselves have found it in our own diversity. And what still exists is a lack of human respect regardless of our differences. Who are we to judge in Psalms: 95 and Psalms: 96, for we ourselves have yet to approach the bench. In all of Angela L writings that are directed to any and all human form of life. And what I write is based on true occurrences that take place every day. Where fault is where we place a blame of what we can or refuse to change of our own works; to reciprocate more love, less retaliation, ignorance and hurt.  In life's space that has allowed us residence here on earth for a little while so that we may have one more chance to figure this out: 

In the Beginning is where it all began, with the creation of man. The Days of Our Lives is how we have chosen to live in it. And The Ending will be the roll call of all man under God's mercy. Over ages we were instructed through Biblical Word how to live an abundant life of morals, values and beliefs. Then one day man decided to take ownership of what he knew that was not his or her harvest, sold and traded flesh, and disrespected the 10 commandments. And if these laws were not the truth then why did man rise and fall at the end of roll call?

For someone it’s been a breakthrough to learn; they have always had what it took in themselves to live beyond something and someone else.

For someone they finally believe that courage was not just for the powerful and strong in character. But for those who feared what they could not see. That was destined to make people react in their own faith. Because of the test that would inspire their strength.

For someone love was not the challenge to find; it was being found by the right person who would accept and appreciate their mind, body and soul. And not challenge them to test in what was their weakness & strengths.

It took many people to do what other people would not fathom to do of establishing, organizing, presenting, executing or challenging hierarchy in a fight for their and our rights to a preservation of life. And yes, there is always someone who will take a life; because they know there wrong doings will bring truth to the light. It takes a few people with power and manipulation to challenge change in this world, a few people who are willing to follow behind the deceit just to maintain access to people and material things that non followers refuse to partake in of exchange for their equality. Where leaders will rise and fall with trained and unorganized armies in wars that continue to progress in ever burrow, community, ghetto, nation and behind new rising walls. But not all have the courage or intention of rescuing the weary and innocent who struggle to live daily on this battle field in the mist of what we can or not see behind what is, or who is taunting the real enemy. Sometimes there will be struggles and pain. There will be some heartache because of lack in understanding. There will be life and death. There will be healing and deliverance.  

Uncut Version

This Revelation passage may come across "uncut" in order to shed some light over "The Days of Our Lives. And with no intention did I deliberately make this monologue about you and I. We just manage to for-fill biblical prophecy overtime. Through prejudice pride in whom shall rise up and divide people with time. And maybe my writings will never accommodate all nations of men or woman. Why, because the flesh burns deep down inside. So our puffed up pride stands in a place of denial. Therefore who is worthy to judge what form or image in temptation will bring us closer to life's damnation. 

So let's not be confused in what is happening with this story. There was always a protocol of what God required of us even if it came from a man written book. In the New Testament we just managed to justify “I’m in a committed relationship, does not mean you’re exempt from doing sinful things”.  Or maybe I'm the exception to the rule because I am a child of God; but live life as the prodigal son. Or this is “whom I will profit in; does not mean God allowed it to be. And maybe it’s “Just the way we have choose to live; which does not mean you don’t get to not answer for something’s. Thank God for mercy and grace to pardon or fleshly ways. For one day humanity would seek in Exodus: 21: "an eye for eye, tooth for a tooth" before pleading for forgiveness.   

In the mist of Revelations heat some people do take a spiritual break. From the things other people continue to enjoy in the world, selfishly to cleanse their mind, body & soul. And what I mean is at any moment in this life we will be tried in the fire. So therefore allow us to be mindful where we refuse to admit our own actions. And I’ll be the first to say I once had an addiction in my life, lost the interest of some people because I could no longer fit underneath their pride which left me to figure out what I had to “live” without. And to cure "curiosity" this addiction did not involve alcohol, drug use, money or sex. It was something an average mind could not process. But God kept an eye on my best interest. So one day I would always be reminded never attempt to; hold onto "who" and "what" has outgrown you. Eventually in my submissive ways I'm humbled everyday allowing life to train me a certain way, and if you're not limited to change in a small space. Life is not complicated in its reasoning to why; we struggle with people to communicate our frustrations and accept learning what we contributed to in our life lessons.  
     

The term heat has a discrete meaning depending on what people would like to associate themselves with. When it comes down to acting out in their flesh. And often we will find ourselves in a dilemma with our puffed up pride trying to figure what sin is causing the drama in our lives. And if we're more careful in implementing the bible we could figure out God is not the problem but the solution we leave out. Regardless of the type of relationship we relax our souls in. So let’s begin the stories that end up in Revelation:

When it comes to education it’s not for everyone who denies the information. And I’m not just talking about high school or academic achievements. I’m openly referencing to making choices where we require the use of our common sense to outweigh; situations that maybe or not in our best interest where our puffed up pride reciprocates a “positive or negative” contribution.

We all know when it comes to making a financial contribution; not everyone is on board. So why are we quick to render down a resolution? And I’m speaking to marriages and relationships, business partners and families with kids, hell who manages our financial system. Because people need a thorough understanding in “why, what and whom” is the investment in. And how long will it take to see a return in it.  See what I have learned is that we all have a dream to sale. Just not everyone will be on board with a sail of their own.

We can re-track back in history when men and women met casually and mated if not dated with a mutual understanding, involving money. And in the world we live in today it’s sad to say “why love is just never enough” of where we have placed a financial interest. And we’ll pay for sex in every class of society; then blame one another for living in or among our own POVERTY thinking.

A young man asks do you find yourself when you fall in love with another person. I simply said to this young man “you have a lot more of life to learn”. So how is it you can find yourself in one person that seems to be always searching? And before a man or woman decides to choose a mate reference Solomon to understand why he had to learn in a life lesson. 

A woman in search of love kisses many frogs before finding her prince. A man experiments before he accepts God if not his own direction; and you can rest assure knowing they both face test. But don’t be caught up in every couple in a marriage or relationship. Why, because some people will sale an inch of their souls just to have somebody to hold. Some people will make families to feel they are a part of what they really need. So once you’ve been through the fire you can identify with; who has every intention to not change in themselves and keep you in DARKNESS.  

Watch how Pharoah is coming!

All the Days of Our Lives humanity has found ways to Cohabitate with the weak in spirit and the strong in wisdom. And yes, were guilty of judging who gets it. But do we really understand life's purpose in “who” we’re going to meet or be affected by. Or “when” this type of person or people will change our lives. So in knowing that wisdom has always been a part of life's dynamics. Where did we not see how the seeds planted over time would grow in a new generation of people that would fear of not having “wants”. In exchange for a chance to hold what we really need. That started in the beginning of Genesis and ending in Revelation.  

Anti-Christ

Before I begin this passage, I wish all generations of mankind; a practical and peaceful state of mind. Before we take a direction in which we will be summoned to initiate; a final call that must be made. Is where I must admit I’ve written the truth and shared my life preservations on major components in our life experiences, stemming from man’s interactions that make up life's fiction, folk tales and non-fiction. So therefore I not question any person's private beliefs. However I will question for more wisdom, but only in areas of clarity and direction in how, what and when it did or not happen. Prior to this creation of this new generation just to better process if sin would be the factor in reaching the maximum time allotted.

I overheard people questioning if the prospective winner of this presidential election wins in 2016.         Will this be a sign of the Anti- Christ coming? And before you think your answer is intellectually positive and sounds correctly sophisticated. Remember you’re talking to a “lost and found” generation in search of the TRUTH. Because of a few that grew weary and confused. And in continuing please speak; as if you we’re explaining to a small child, humble and meek so that all men and women of color can have a clearer understanding.   Of what has been hidden for ages and not revealed in a book. Of the truth untold but delivered and written in what man can or not do.     

On this journey we have traveled for thousands of years, in good and bad times; our bodies have felt the pain from hateful blows cast down through rocks and stones. For ages our freedom has been monitored by a chain of commands; created through systems, red tape, cages and deceit simply to bondage our sculptured thinking. Our rights were created to keep some peace and leveraged through our basic needs. And unfortunately our fragile feet shall continue to stumble on dry land; where men and woman once thirsted and slaved for their own independence in freedom. And now our children shall taste the truth of ages we once left behind. Where greed and racism did not die in our morals, values and beliefs that are presently being tried, if not challenged in what we want and need.  

As I sat glaring at the dawns early light; I feel as if I have already lived again in this day, twice. The situations or concerns have not changed. It’s only the names and people on different days. I see a child who is in need of everything, where love is free. I can see a family fighting to stay in unity but money cannot buy love and erase the tears from their eyes. Because the reality is "one person" can change the element in everything thing. I can see people a million miles away harvest for food, money and utilities. I've seen man take pride in raping a woman or child to later penetrate his own destiny. I can see the shepherd preaching among sheep attempting to keep them unity. I can see infirmities are making some people weak. I can feel happiness, anger and resentment in all of our mothers, fathers and children who are out playing double jeopardy in the streets. Over and over again I live, breathe and write in the same hours of the day of humanity and our real life stories.     

Matthew: 24 may you find Peace & understanding. 

The Bible

I do not represent myself or my writings to imply that I am the Anti-Christ. And neither am I near being perfected in this life. So when people say the bible is not written accurately and religion is something people would like to believe in. What do they really mean? Are does the bible not accommodate; the way we chose to live in our flesh of reckless choices, shame and mistakes? And if so, then how can man judge who is doing right are doing wrong in this life. And God can’t appoint man to write scripture so that we may earn more of his grace and time.  

Daily I work on suppressing my flesh and quenching that enraged thirst through meditating on Ephesians 3, for better understanding of God’s “holy word”. But not leaning to my own understanding. Because of what I have experienced and seen in this life verses the doctrine written for humanity will keep you in a state of frustration, hope and anxiety. If you chose not to believe there is a higher spirit other than what you can feel and see.

So when the Holy Bible is judged by all nations of man and scripture is used as a passage to express our idol actions instead of spending more energy in doing Ephesians 6. Then how is God at fault for simply appointing man to write and deliver the doctrine from divine wisdom in order so that we “humanity” can find salvation. Therefore I expect to be stretched, tried in the fire and tempted with the desires more than many ways in this life. Especially when I choose to live in my own flesh “expect” there will be more oppositions and consequences. That will challenge my faith in God. In whom I pray and trust; my first love the only creator in Genesis I. Whom placed a word in Timothy because it read clearly of what is ahead of our exhausted thinking once humanity grew weary on this journey.

One day humanity would fall into Ephesians 2, a dark place where the good in faith and bad turned to or against “doctrine” for clarity. And in time children will speak wisdom to the weary, prideful and weak. As they watch man demonstrate their good, evil and bad deeds. So in closing what does mercy and grace, salvation and the gospel mean to me; GOD saw ahead and appointed man to write a plan so that all nations would repent and not sin again, in his or her own flesh. And to for warn us for the remainder of the Days of Our Lives; it would be filled with test over time.    

I can relate to how being hopeless feels but faith reminded me; God knows what a waits ahead of you. And the places you once went are will no longer possess any interest.

In Proverbs the tongue is like a double edge sword where humanity is quick to deliver to one another arrogant and hurtful words. But humanity is slower to accept one another’s apologetic words. In a world of good people and bad. Where murderers once existed in Psalms 10:8; lurking in the world we live in today. 

I can also relate to burning in the flesh and how quick people will take advantage of it. I see many Rebekah's in our mothers, aunts, grandmothers and daughters. So you much possess tough skin once you have identified with; how working in the flesh destroys generations, and in the story of Genesis 19 Lot a father chose his daughter. And in all nations there still exist men who lust after their own flesh, continuing the generational curse.   

I do not write my own doctrine when it comes to sharing with humanity; of all nations good and bad deeds. I do not assume any person will be judged last; when we all disagree on religion. I refuse to say who is more likely to see heaven on any given day. I do not judge another religious choice. I do believe in being equally yoked. I know that all sin is what someone believes theirs is. I have seen the righteous forsaken by man; and out of the blue the Good Samaritan stepped in. I have witnessed the evil in all of man; I have to ask daily to be forgiven. I do believe and respect marriage to be sacred; in the reading of Proverbs: 18. But the reality is humanity still sins.

I do believe there is good teachings and false doctrine; depending on how it is delivered and how we choose to reciprocate and follow it. Ephesians 4:14

So the question has been asked; where do I stand in my religion; am I "IFB" or Southern Baptist,   Cult, Pentecostal, Catholic or non- denomination. And if you're not prepared for these questions believe in me; someone is watching. So again, I will say “I am believer” born into sin and saved by grace & mercy. I also identity with how Satan managed to polish up sin. So yes, I do believe in the gospel written through man of Holy Doctrine for Life's Direction; just look at the world  in which we live in.  

All books hold text. But the reality in them; is how were living it. 

The Funeral

Today I buried a love one who made one “vow” for two reasons in their life. One was to “protect the family and the other was to serve a country”. And in these two choices made; there was destined to be change. At any time and age that did affect many lives. But not all in the same in test, overtime. And there will be times in our life where we will place our own understanding to the side. Why, because people can change; just not always in our anticipated time frame, where many people are not destined to see; what they will never presently believe. And before we proceed to attend another funeral let’s attempt to be more respectful to the dead. If not more thoughtful to ourselves before trading places with the person who silently lay’s in a casket. So judge this passage as you like. But be more prepared to see the truth in a brand new light.

As I sat in peace I could see the crowd watching me and my love ones think. Wondering clearly to see through what is hidden of a possible story. I could hear laughter and see the pain in the eyes of those who were not prepared and prepared to say goodbye. I could feel a breeze of peace over me as it passed gently, and I didn’t need to know the stories left untold, because I had made my peace a long time ago.  

The point of this story line is you could choose to drag on through life surrendering to all the pain endured over the days of your lives; but why not let go of allowing it to dictate how you grow. If you could find many reasons to be happy beyond your disappointments; would you allow another person to repeat the same past situations? Because some of us feel that our pain is greater than another person’s loss. And I can vouch to what happens in this life can never be erased when it comes to people that do contribute to your joy and misery. But if a person cannot be forgiven of their infirmities and faults, it really means you have not moved on. So when death does arrive at your door step by surprise; will you ask it to come another day, because I have unfinished business in my life.

-Angel L, I have more than one story to share. Through a new looking glass.

Real Talk

Real Talk is about humanity and identifying with individual truths; in our choices, actions and what we choose and with whom. And before Angel L began this blog I took many life notes and lessons from people all over the world. That was destined to change this world. So therefore we as a people of all cultures can see our real life stories. So I'll start with me

I am not perfect. I have made a few good choices and many mistakes stemming from my stubborn ways. Until I learned perfection is what someone thinks theirs  is. So I am timeless in all of my beauty; I am my own poetry in motion. I am pillar of strength but weak when I choose to be.  I am a gift to the recipient who has earned his or her reward. I am voice in silent words. I am mind that refuses not to think. I am soul of laughter, submission and critical thinking. I have not always been right but not afraid to be critiqued.   I make up one body in how you see me. But the reality of what God intended me to be. I am confident within my own space. I am the timekeeper of my priorities. I am the gate keeper over who has been assigned to me. I continue in being a caregiver but at times I have nothing left to give, but my understanding and patience to listen.  I am the hunter where I’m the prey.  I once robbed Peter to pay Paul, until I figured out what systems were implemented to shut some people down. I am known for being a peace maker in situations; where people would normally continue confrontations. I have been judged for being opinionated by people who refuse to spill the real deal. I don’t claim to know everything. But I do not hide the facts of what I can see of “BS”. I’m no longer seeking the interest of new friends. Why, because it was hell trying to separate from the people that caused me grief in my past life.   

I am called a Workaholic, guilty of being a Good Samaritan, seen as being lonely because of a lack of interest in hunting down a relationship, but viewed as a person of high interest. Which really means; I’m not the person people would like me to be.  

I hear people say “he or she, thinks they are better than me”, and to be honest that may hold some truth. But you don’t have the time to invest into what other people are going through. So one day I was challenged because I showed lack of interest. In what has been going on for centuries “people seeking for attention”. And it’s not because I do not have compassion. It's because for half of my life I have fed into the world. And for the remainder of my life I am a person of interest who has learned their role and position.  

Real talk I am shy but to some extreme. I am a motivator who sales encouragement. I am known to be talkative, and overly compassionate. But not everyone will appreciate my branded and groomed space. So I don’t cater to people according to status, categories or request. I speak and treat people like they deserve to be treated.

aNGEl l-assumption is assuming what you do not really know   

One Day

I saw a quote the other day. And it set my mind at ease. It read "If you're missing me it's not because I walked, away. It's because you let me go".

There were moments in my life when I selfishly thought God could have provided me with better provision and remove more than a few of selfish people from my life. In order for me to have changed the choices I made at that time until one day my heart and mind re-positioned in line. So I humbly decreased more of myself. In order to accept the struggles God placed ahead of me to only strengthen me.

One day through my trials and anxiety God revealed to me my purpose and destiny. And on that day I began to write from personal places of my and real people's lives. Why, to share the pain and joy we cause one another in this life. Then maybe one day when you choose to examine God for yourself and assume your relationship is rock solid. Keep in mind your past and present behavior has not been overlooked just because you ask for some forgiveness.  Never be disappointed about certain emotions that and repetitious cycles that will arise in your life. Where you have managed to move forward from past decisions with someone else that you can now share the better person of whom you have become to yourself. And what I mean is until we get it right "inside" people in life will move around to their next. But God clearly see's through all of our intentions, motives & choices. So that we can alter ourselves with internal change and who it will occur with; is where God has more of a sole purpose.