Human

I heard this young lady crying out loud as she said to her mother "after two babies" I don't understand why don't he love me anymore. I said to that young lady "it is required that we first learn to love ourselves" before we can identify being loved by some else.

Praise God in the good and bad. Praise God in our no boundaries of relationships. We've got to work on each other. Regardless if we don't find forever. There is still power in what we need and expect out of one another.

If God granted us permission over our life choices. What are the chances we would take advantage of having our wants instead of our needs? And if we could prove that money is the key to restoring happiness. Then would we make a change in our selfish ways. Because money does not buy people who fall in and out of love.  It just brings to the light people who waiver to stick around.

I know that someone out there has to say "how do you really supply another person needs, if we ourselves have not accepted what we NEED to find a way to be internally happy". Men are the hunters. Which is true but "but a lion does not always have to roar" therefore not every woman has to take whatever he plays her through. And I know there are woman who also play mind games. But remember we established "men are hunters, and females are the prey" So therefore whomever you select to care about and it does not work out. Don't hurt the next person who chooses to stick by your side. Because of this hunter who seeks his prey that chose not to follow who struggles to lead?

Communication and caring about someone is not that complicated. Most of the time it goes unappreciated in the amounts; we pour out. And with men and woman it does require time to see who is growing or struggling to remain a child.

This was not a kindergarten crush when I met a man two years ago. And I noticed his head hung very low. In 2015 I picked up on a vibe and shared God is still on your side. One year went bye and in June 2016 he extended to me an invitation to stop bye; anytime. And yes I set forth my requirements of one day being in a healthy relationship. And it was not limited to having him.  So at this point he had more than enough time to be honest about the things he could not later hide. About his personal life.

If I had only waited on God's permission.  But instead I chose to not judge. That first late night knock on the window pain and key turn in the door lock. And no this female was not his wife.  So I continued on focusing on how he labored. And later on in this friendship he grew aggitated. The moment he began to show me he did care. And in August 2016 his life had a small delay. I said "if you can help me complete this home project, I promise to reward you for all your hard work" We sat down and planned a 4 day weekend on what we needed for completion. I admit he mentioned avoiding relationships. But he also mentioned over and over again how his choices caused him  "disappointments". So how can we judge if both men and woman are settling.

Then in September 2016 this man received a call "it was a prayer answered we once said together that weekend at the dinner table. And yes, I always asked would u pray with me. And he did every time without one peep.

It's not rare people say one thing.  And show you another. Then contradict what happened. So the next few months passed and I remember feeling distant. For one he had to learn the importance of communication. With a different category of woman.

One day at his place I looked into his eyes and inquired are you still married. And if so are you planning to divorce. Little did I know he was missing his first love. He slowly said "YES". I ask then why did you not share your truth the entire time I stuck by your side; then you would of had no reason to blame me for being by your side. Instead of depending on those home girls or your wife. Recently he said to me because a man does not speak. It does not mean he is not thinking and planning. And at the end of April 2017 there will be a change. This is now May of 2017. And if you allow time to rob you of what is not of eventually "us". Then you have no one to fault regardless of the involvement.

It's now been 1 year and 11 months later. I've met a couple of children in a planned environment and assisted in with some personal situations. And we always had a difference of understanding when it involved "I always had my own stuff" and because of what he managed to have of obligations to other woman.  I took notice and cared about his basics. So there is the truth and lies translated in every story line. This man invited me into his personal space. And yes he stated he had no interest in a relationship. But he always created unfinished business. And never failed to seek me for support where there was never a cricket line answer. So one day he had the nerve to ask "how did you know so much information" because he had planned to walk away May 24th before saying goodbye. I said to him were you not paying attention. It was me there the entire time. So when people don't understand why a woman or man go through matters of the hearts. Maybe we need to start fixing the lingering issues and lies in our own fragile hearts. To appreciate a person more; who refuses not to settle.

To any woman or man. Stop faulting yourself and losing sleep at night for wanting to share happiness and pain in someone else's life. We often give more than the other person thinks of. The sad part is People will try to fix their self inflicted situations through other peoples compassion. With the intention of gluing back together; their own rejected happiness.

Last month I met a new gentleman who did share of interest in a relationship and building a foundation.  And if we have not figured it out; there is a bigger world than the one we choose to shut down. And again I did ask questions before jumping into another situation of financial obligations and undealt with emotions. And to be honest every person has some stuff to deal with. So taking time to work on yourself is not as lonely as people say it is. The price is more rewarding. On the day when the time is right for the both of you to know; working together is working on one another. And that diamond that men cherish the most; will then be sit upon a pedestal.

Did I make a few choices; yes. But they were not all mistakes. This man swear I had the wrong intentions. See how we are twisted. Did I ask God for a husband; yes before I knew the woman God would mold me into. But God had some work in me to do. So the offer of friendship with casual sex and a penis with a man. Never did quench my thirst. I appreciate the communication I have grown to respect in any type of relationship. Somehow this man matured me in ways I will never forget.And I will educate any man who comes for me. If its not me whenever you enter into a woman's vagina; she feels it in her heart. And the type of people we choose will teach us the rules of engagement. Therefore you continue to create news relationships" no matter what people say they want. Just be more mindful of what the both of you settle for.

And after all our differences. I ask this man when you get your finances together what will you do for me? He looked at me and said "let me see" about a road trip just you and me. And to be honest it took all the drama to get him to say "those words for one moment,  I believed on that "day".

As young girls we do fall in love with the fantasy of make believe. And once we mature into young ladies and young men the “reality” teaches the both of us; more mature things in the false and truth in fantasies. So why is it or not important today; of how we invest our time and thoughts in fairy tales, story lines, monetary things and physical attributes. To end up struggling with what we want.

 "If u work on me, I will work on you". Until then there is more work in us individually to do. 

ROCKY MOUNTAINS

The struggle is real for this entire world.

It has been said that believers in the “Christian faith” struggles are extreme. There is still tenacity in human expressions; because of how the African American people were treated and still affected. But has life not proven to us enough; in the struggles that are real within ourselves of every faith around the entire world?  

When people communicate in any language we can relate to; HUMAN animation, tone and pitch, body language in every point and statement, and explanations of our deliverance.                                          DO YOU GET WHAT I’M SAYING?

So the question is how did we even come to format the idea that Christianity or being Human with needs in any race; SEPARATES us from our real struggles we fight internally, in a life with changing adversity.                                                                                                                                                           DO YOU GET WHAT I’M SAYING?

A young man said to me: do you have moment to listen closely. I said please proceed and be wise in the Point and or Statement you’re attempting to deliver across because time is an element we can’t rewind back. The young man proceeded to say; there is nothing new that one human being in this life; has not done under the sun.                                                                                                                                DO YOU GET WHAT I’M SAYING?

I replied to the young man “please continue” to express the information you have the desire to share. Of what has been compiled in your head.

The young man said I was not born with all the universal answers. I was not given the option to choose who I would love in circumstances. I was appointed to my family who would in return mold me. To receive the power I possess mentally. But not until I was groomed in a space of non-cluttered and enslaved, Thinking .                                                     .                                                                            DO YOU GET WHAT I’M SAYING?

I said young man now that you have figured out your inner peace; you have learned to see and appreciate life and people with more clarity. The catch is not to always figure out what is not being understood. But when making a Point or a Statement deliver it in confidence

    DO YOU GET WHAT I’M SAYING?

I place my self in a position of  opportunity and conversation. Only to meet a former member of a Cult religion. And what I walked away with is that; any human being can change. So therefore it may require some time for an individual to figure out in themselves; why.  

Even if your heart and works have good intentions. Be prepared to except that Not everyone person is seeking some form of compassion & understanding. Just ensure you can stand on solid ground of what you believe in. Now DO YOU GET WHAT I’M SAYING?

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Domestic Violence II

We're only bent, not broken in our struggles.   

Since the first blog I tagged on Domestic Violence. I took some time to not so much understand why it has to happen. But what can be done “in support” of to end the ongoing violence.   

It does not matter what age we are, female or male “domestic violence and abuse occurs even in the tiniest of youth” around this entire world. Unfortunately society is filled with distractions. And the abuse repeats in our own homes where some will loose their will to make one move.

So the question is how does abuse gain trust? How frequent are material things involved. And how can a person find refuge even in children? Why are there not more resources in a growing population of human beings; with substance abuse, chemical imbalances and lost in hope to reason?

The abuser preys on trust. Children show innocence, adults demonstrate vulnerability even in areas they show strength. Systems are doorways to implement hidden inhuman acts. People get weak in decision making. Elders hold onto their independence, but feeble is what the abuser seeks of opportunity? And on any day a family member, mother or father, old friend in beginning of a new relationship, a person of interest or a husband or same sex partner can “mentally or physically” increase from 0 to 1,000.

Mental and Physical abuse can make a person feel embarrassed, used and hopeless of being valued. This person feels lost and out of control if not mentally depressed and unnoticed in the eyes of their family and peers. Small children act out and seek affection and attention especially in environments that demonstrate unequal foundations. When someone has hurt you and tells you it’s ok. I love you and don’t leave I will change or stay for the family. If you are hurting in any way today; ask yourself the question what is making me stay and do I love “myself” enough to walk away; without taking one thing?

I lived this story as a small child. I myself covered the scars and sheltered my mother with intense love. It was "her will" to survive that kept her children alive. So the trauma did heal overtime. We accepted there was nothing we could have changed about ourselves or we did wrong. Unfortunately the abuse could occur at anytime. And one day did "take time" to replace the value back in ourselves.   

NAUGHTY BEHAVIOR

If you have ever experienced pain in your life. Seen a few things that changed your life. Eventually you will settle for closer to nothing in this life.

Is it possible for one human being to be the head of his or her house for a lifetime, and if not then who is matured next in line to pick up the load while there is still time?

If people seek to do whatever they want in this life; eventually time will teach us in our GOOD or NAUGHTY BEHAVIORS; why.

On Friday (May 5), in a signing statement surrounding the $1.1 trillion government spending bill, the president singled out the Historically Black College and University Capital Financing Program as something that allocates “benefits on the basis of race, ethnicity, and gender.” And the next generation of HBCU recipients will do what in regards to finance programs? Some people may not understand in comprehension of what is not clearly stated.

A young lady met a gentleman online to spend some quality time. Little did she know her face would make the story line; because of this man’s NAUGHTY NATURE.  

Who is going to save us from ourselves? If we have not managed to figure out what is going around the world.

Who is to say a bad boy only does ruthless things and looks a certain way. Have we not digested around the globe; how progression in race is growing out of control?

Who is to say a bad girl has to physically fight to eat? It seems as if men and woman or now the prey. So who are the real hunters in today?

Who is to say Dating sites, Strip Club or The Gentlemen’s Club caters to a certain class in audience? Is it not true we’re all human beings seeking to fill our fantasy of what we hide from others to judge in what they see?

Who can say that “Naughty” behavior is the act that is frowned upon in any race; but not forbidden in any human acts of violence and sex? Who can confess that the dollar bill has been spent in frivolous ways, but not denied in the investment of inhuman ways?

Who will tell the truth that every medical prescription approved by the FDA; will heal every patient who seeks a resolution in life’s altering movements?

Who does not believe in a higher power if not in themselves; or have we ever taken ACCOUNTABILITY of how we seek to possess a measure of control not in ourselves. But other people.

Why are human beings not satisfied more than half of the time? Have we evaluated our naughty behavior, maybe then we’ll find out why.

LOST & FOUND

Since "Lost" was popular in the beginning. I decided this blog would compliment the ending.

I believe that “internal happiness” is how you feel about yourself. And “external happiness” is the extension of how being with another person makes you feel. 

When life happens big or small; it does not consider who we are. Female or males were all "wired" 2 different ways. So yes we’re bound to see things differently and make many mistakes, along the away.    

Before I begin this selection I want to compliment one man who inspired me this last year. In one valuable lesson of acceptance & respect; people to find  their own happiness in the sacrifices they're willing to make or acceptance of what they are willing take. It's not always about ones self in showing human compassion & understanding another person. Show me a male species who can live without female affection. We all desire one another even where there is no human connection. So we're all destined to learn what is it we really need in a world of men and woman. Now let's proceed so we can consume more human understanding.

A young man ask me in his later 30’s how do you know what you need to be happy? I sincerely used this scenario; have you ever been lonely, alone or in a relationship, or married with kids. The young man said yes” I have been divorced and married again, and sometimes I seek outside only to eventually appreciate "what I found of new happiness in my life". I ask the young man this next question: What is it you can live with or without. Or does this happiness make you feel you're never without. The young man said I see where you are going with this. I then replied "you knew the answer the entire time" and silent as we keep it “we’re all” searching in one another for some human direction. Now figure out for yourself  what is your happiness about.    

It may not always look familiar in change. Just consider for yourself these important warning signs;

·        People talk a good game; misery invites company.

·        Family has your best interest; but they also slickly implement their own great ideas; of who or what “is good or not” in your personal happiness.

·        A friend’s hurt is not always your destiny; just listen to hear if there were any valuable lessons learned & if they are willing to transform or continue to repeat in repetition.

·        Any type of time invested with a female or male creates a bond. And a separation does not grow together when you’re both stretching apart from each other.

In this cartoon Tweety always found a malicious way to keep Sylvester’s focus in place. Poor Sylvester did not stand a chance in keeping up with Tweety’s plot to arouse his focus. In life distractions will grasp our focus, maturity stretches in hardened places, and human beings rattle our emotions. But knowing the difference “empowers” us to find “internal peace of mind” sometimes females and males have to re-evaluate “who am I, today” from yesterday? To figure out what do I really need to be internally happy.

Some people will say I don't need nothing or nobody. But if we really had what we needed in the physical man then why are we still searching in places we're deeply lonely in the flesh.   

2nd Chances

Our previous generations may have suffered in oppression. But the mission was accomplished to show us in compressed times of how to manage what we have by not loosing our "strong will and minds" in days that will pass away. But our works will live on from yesterday.


In the event of what we accept in this life. Sometimes become the things and people we regret in this life. Until we grow up and accept there is a higher power in “wisdom”.

In every age group we are destined to change and deal with a number of things. And the reality in how people think “age is nothing but a number” but maturity will lean us towards the brinks of whom we are. Are become in the reality of life’s possibilities.    

One valuable lesson I’ve become accustom to throughout my years of maturity; is to not envy or enslave my vision in the ends of “Have or Have not’s”.  But to re- evaluate myself at every milestone of age in my life. And at the end of each day I can look into the mirror and see; who really counts in this space I breathe.

Maturity happens at different “stages” of our individual lives. And no matter how intensely we try to attach ourselves to the people we love or interact with. Life will reveal to us: each person is required to initiate their own steps. 

Maturity & growth, situations & problems often occur.  And time will not alarm us to get prepared. In what we should be or have not reached a level to have “LEARNED”. So why is it at this stage of our lives some of us are gravitated to assumption; some people have it all figured out in this life, or some people are perfected. While other people scramble with “WHY” not take an alternate way around. The paths in which our feet our inevitable to stumble on rocks and stones.


Our burdens over power us in thoughts, weight us down in our hearts, trouble our minds from rest, and wobble our fragile legs.  It's obvious in this present generation of all ages. Our actions being demonstrated. Because “we can’t have what we want right away” of what we have not matured in places to appreciate.

Our second chance is RIGHT NOW. The writing is on the WALLS. And if any of us refuses "WISDOM", be prepared to repeat life the same way, on a different day.      

KEY WORD "US"

In trials you find out who you are. In struggles you find out who really has your best interest. So if you’re a force of nature by yourself. Then why not “commit” with another beast of human nature while we have time?

It may not always be the person you expect; to grow with you in a movement. Just be prepared to deal with your and allow them to deal with their “emotions”. Because of one lesson we’ve figured out; is that true love never fades away it just grows in new places.

A male hunts his female prey, so females stay in your lanes; and allow that lion to chase. “You got to own it, if you want it” no matter what “treasures” you seek in this life. Remember everything tarnishes and changes overtime. Regardless of who is involved ‘US” is the key word that keeps our focus alive.  

So have you figured out which lane you’re rolling in. Where “US” is used in context.

Y-RELATIONSHIP

I truly believe if God continues to allow us the time. Some of us will eventually figure out; that true love does not end in disappointments or long term relationships that grow apart for different reasons. But the chemistry in that love allows "US" another chance to love all over again. 

So an old friend calls you from back in the day and would love to catch up on old times. Meet the family or that new person in your life.  And once that meeting has been established and takes place; be prepared to walk in with an open mind and confident SPACE. Because body language speaks louder than words "in any type of relationship" of what someone is feeling, but not said. And this may not have occurred to you in this life. But relationships do take work over time. To shut down any form of speculations we shadow in our minds. And these relations include marriage, shacking, dating or casual conversations.

Time is not objective, it does not argue or process how we relate. Although we play it as if we posses the power to replay it. Something any class of people will either accept or struggle to grasp in an old or new relationship. Where “chemistry” mix or not exist. But don’t get nervous, just be confident in what you bring and both genuinely establish. Even if it has been said “people are for a season” some will stay and some will walk away. Where emotions are broken and ties slowly unwind. So just in case one day an old friend or new one shows up in your life; get some grounding on who you are and be prepared for "expectations" to be met, but not yet established.  

The reality is whomever we fall in love with or for whatever idea we work through passion with; the first the time around will always be a part of your past. But not the end to finding a new future. Issues occur when we have not managed to move past  THE old baggage. So the power of that old chemistry remains buried DEEPLY.

LIFE-COACH

A Scientist predicted by 2050 human existence will be extinct. But according to my faith & labor here on earth "my years are 3 score years and ten"; and if "by reason of strength they be fourscore years" unless cut off because of my human arrogance or time no longer exist. So is Life that unpredictable, are is it that we’re unacceptable to change. In our own fleshly ways? 

Do we as a people clearly comprehend we can't fix one another with "tools, bolts, screws and underhanded plans", So our approach has opened doors of what we choose to deal with of heavy burdens to live with. In which all status & colors of  men or women will find themselves "processing".  

If we were to share some vital information through communication. Can we honestly say we would utilize it & process it in our own heads. How that information is accurate or contributes to how we function & adjust to live?

If you find true love in this life or online during "hard times". How hard are you both willing to fight without any "separation in no space over time?

If  you really knew the person you've invested and depended on would be there over TIME. Would you plan or change your mind about them financially, physically & mentally? While the time you have is still on your hands. Because we have been found guilty of watering GRASS on the other side. Opposite of what we already have in our own backyards.   

If you saw dangers ahead; would you break the cycle for the peace of your children of all ages? For me Yes.

If you always find yourself seeking newness in any type of  relationship including religion. Answers sought through mix company outside of our personal relationships; is their opinion and insight more digestive than dealing with what's going on in our own homes.

Today watch and see how we as people in own human natures make it about ourselves. To only find balance is required. If not "oppositions" will wear; for generations. And by know means is any human being on earth perfected. So why does the drama exist in manipulation in arguments.  

In this life EVERYBODY gets a turn to experience Life. And every word that proceed out of the mouth of  man will be spoken in "truth" and sometimes a "lie". Which reveals who we are behind the face we see; of hidden confessions proving who has a handle on our own personal baggage.

It's not life threatening being financially in despair; there will be hardships to bare. Until we educate one another on how we got there. There will be temporary respect in every deal we endorse. But not everyone is properly presented in the real. Prior to signing off to whatever or whomever it is we wish to have or what not.

In every person we entertain in our personal space; they are not always necessary to keep. But somehow our conversations attract "different creatures of nature" in humam beings.. 

It's not awkward to see so many people in confusion due to misunderstandings. It's not hard to recognize grown people looking for direction through one another's attention. It's not hard to assist a person in lack or understandings just identify when u r being used; by a person attempting to be mastermind. It's troubling to see there is nothing new that has not been done under the sun; but yet we as people demand respect in our own repetition.

Frank Lloyd Wright wrote. “ I know the price of success: dedication, hard work and unremitting devotion to the things you want to see happen". Hell, we act as if LIFE spoke to us promises; where people often break them, and we are quicker to pick up where we left off. So what direction are we going in?

Who ever of people will lead or follow in. Life has a purpose; but it demands change where people choose to evolve, or remain the same. Life is filled with choices; people tend to limit theirs in it. Life allows all of us time; people either add or subtract from it down the line.

I'm not brilliant, I only took thorough notes from LiFE.

VIBE

Don’t worry about the color of a man’s skin. Prep your mind to “see” with your own eyes. The characters in whom we demonstrate; everyday in this life.

In the eyes of man some people would say “Paul was deprived”, not that he said it in his own words. We don’t all have to VIBE. But was Paul sheltered from a life of freedom to write Gods word? In a world we as a human race feel of “destiny” to “adjust” with “change”.  In this life we must posses "STRENGTH” with our “fluctuating HULK or BEAST MINDSET” in order to accept what we were naturally born with. And who you become is an extension of what we were individually taught, as small children. To deal with our inner selves, one another and many obstacles “positive or negative” in any form of human communication and relationships. So therefore in our individual mindset not every obstacle or person is implemented to be a challenge. But in our challenges or persons there is a valuable lesson.

I’ve been told “to let go” or being to “positive is negative”  could it depend on how people would like to feel in their own emotional choices. And my lesson learned about myself and the VIBE with people is; we're not required or destined to take the same journey for me to respect your life dealings. But it's not rare we find ourselves “misunderstanding in communicating with one another” of what we don't VIBE with. So if by coincidence we did share the same struggles in this life we would find “that 50% of the time we choose in our actions towards what happens, and the other 50% of the time we try to change it or continue to discuss who needs to “let go”. While the other struggles to find sanity in “holding on”.  And yes, people do move on into “new relationships”. Where our “wrongs” continue to seek validation”. And our “change” microscope simply because we have yet to “see or do anything new” under the sun. That has not already been “judged” "accepted" and or “accounted” for.  

How do we manage in a void left unfilled; in a world of human emotions that we can never completely for-fill? It’s funny how we re-act when a person expresses human emotions.  Often we’re seen as being weak. But once that disappointment crosses your path  then how do you feel to not see it coming back. It’s not what we do, but how we interact knowing we were created with our differences to be judged in changes.  So is life really unfair or favorable. Or people the stem of the real problem.

My mother’s family instilled in my heart “prayer”. My absent daddy eventually appeared on time; to mold my mind for the struggles that will bend even the strongest leaders, men and woman over time. 

I’m speaking to some one today regardless of what you are or who you become in your; religion, sex, status and race.

LIFE Chances

If some element or emotion can be hidden in a place of our; trust, limitation in understandings & over confidence. Then there exist a tool with control in all human; self confidence by working through the "mindset". 

To be seen, you must get noticed. To have "knowledge" does not necessarily mean we connect to having  adequate "understanding or power".    

    Perception: in our thinking do we always receive and process a clearer understanding?    

    Influence: what alters our choices and do we always implement our own investigation to come out with a exact or indirect prognosis.

    Dynamics: what is it about “time” we accept or take for granted in our priorities, obligations & of what choose to live and deal with?

I don’t stand to always have it right. So therefore I'm mature enough to be corrected through constructive criticism. Just to see how it  applies in what we view or experience of differences in our lives. Where "one's truth" is hard to digest, but a life makes "denial" more convenient to live in.    

Life is not difficult to live once we figure out how we want to live. But remember this there have been tools set in place to utilize in every move we think to make. That uplift or destroy ourselves in life's second chances with every movement around the world we live in.