BLOW

If you watch the network airways a leader spoke;and this is what  was said "its not the responsibility of the City  to heal their pain. Are ensure they adjust to change. 

Crimes of opportunity are all around us. And when we think of crime its not limited in the act. Its the idea of who commits the act. And who judges & determines the discipline, infrastructure, and who suffers intensely are abandoned on their own islands of inhabitants. 

In acknowledgement of our cities that remain vulnerable in stereotypes & stigmatisms of a formed opinion in what a culture is judged of collectively in behavior. This same judgment is the real people suffering from Production & Distribution which is a problem for the disadvantaged populations. Along with 2 more stems of viruses moving in from around the world. As waiting list are pending & Hubs are organizing but not enough in areas of those, us and them.

But if you have factored into thinking money can out smart the process; it may surprise you. That money cannot bargain in every race of discipline. Or Time and its own plan for us here on earth. 

The task are challenging. But until we understand disclipline does not have to be our disadvantage. If we work to heal ourselves. When challenges surface our people dont always have to be singled out to suffer or our children lack. 

Prerequsite skills is a requirement to reach another level. Its insanity to sleep on knowledge. And before this pandemic a generation of our children were already behind in knowledge and grades. If we do the math today. Tally those children in with the adults who are parents who refuse to accept constructive criticism or be corrected of what they lack of knowledge; is that of  arrogance or denial that will break the entire family to grow. 

Im in tact of knowing knowledge flows in my bloodline & if not used resourcefully we will fall behind the enemy lines of human distinction. Therefore its crucial if you got people who are willing & capable to reach out & help. What is the egoed insanity & denial about?

Every race  cannot survive on bread alone; the minds & bodies were created with expiration dates. And if knowledge lacks abroad in this Covid-19 in young & old. Of who catches up to read, write and do math our chances of survival are limited. 

The Disparity is the history abroad us in angered aggressions. As we stretch out our arms & legs to change. Denial is a condition we disagree in ourselves throughout humanity. Creating the confrontations; amongst every face & race around the world. 

WHY

In the event you woke up with a question "Why". Be prepared to accept their maybe answers but more than half of the reasoning; is not always going to give you a peace of mind. During this transition of time.

It is imperative we identify with our own self denials of acceptance. And continue in  asking for the truth. But when directed or given; it is shut down if not reiterated in a differeny style of communication. So with all due respect if a story is not your own testimony. There is a story that fits the lives we are connected to in some form or fashion. Why, because we are the makeup through generations of our bloodlines.

To start, I want to first honor the grandparents who put in effort to step in and love to raising these kids. So many children are being left out of knowing truth. And sometimes its the loss of a parent in any type of life changing transition.

To the children & parents who struggle to communicate. If you never had to be separated from one another its a devastating feeling. A bond in these uncertain times is priceless. Because tomorrow for either of you is not promised. 

To a domestic violence couple, strippers or drug dealers of any race. People do or deal drugs in every social status & race. Who ever you are; you have children that are watching the dysfunction. However, it does not mean that you dont love them. Its means you need to pay more attention to what is locked behind their tears. So one day you dont have to miss them. Or they dont have to wonder when you will turn the key behind that door; they are waiting.

To the have or have nots. Hell, its all confusing on who is claiming what. At the end of the day Peace of minds cannot be bargained with. And holding one another is priceless.

To our siblings if we cant trust one another; then who is our real enemy?

To the thief, murderer & liar. What happens once its revealed we all conspiring against one another? See until we accept we sleep with the enemy everynight; in ourselves. There will be no rest. But a whole generation of immature, selfish & unnecessary struggling.

Why, did I lose my job. At this point of time.

Why are people in the world so cold, compassionate if not cruel. Maybe an adjustment in attitudes will adjust the dials on humanities moods.

Why did the Covid-19 take so many of our families. 

Why, are the children being denied love & seeing their people. Foster cared for short term period in some houses of anguish. As some people seek to  gain a check or welfare benefits to yell "these my kids".

Why, are the drugs approved. And the courts are stacked with criminal cases. As real people are dying and the profits are marginalizing. 

Why, come he or she dont love me? Stop searching on line, blaming or forcing the process with more created obligations. And invest more time in fixing your mental mindset. Or communicate in that relationship you are already in. If not taking the other person for granted. 

Why, is or their parents always in the business. For the genuises in the world with limited investments or plans to see these children or adults succeed. We stand in between with intervention of anothers persons sneaky intentions. A parent who shows love & discipline without a reservation to step in. Is this child's business for a lifetime with unlimited interest. 

Why, is Satan real & God is the problem?

Again, this blog was narrative written on behalf of a generation of behaviors. Including myself & Dominique White on Kindle "The Burdens of A Heavy Heart, the beginnings of the days of our past & future generations.

Why, do we override the truth with lies and denials. And argue who has been mistreated; first when you put "Trust In God", maybe later, second if not.

A Good Man

Is not hard to find it just takes maturity & patience of understanding his 

Mind: Listen & Allow him to express himself, and re-evaluate his own mistakes. You were not by design created to fix him. Allow him space to bend & catch him when he is falling. 

Heart: Understand when he is feeling low. Why know no one can process what he is going through. Sometimes a mans pride & ego will shine through. Allow him space to fall to his knees. And learn how to pray with him; not over & on him. To a higher power that can lead you both in understanding.

Hands: Allow his hands to rest, tears from disappointments are part of the process. Just allow him your hands to hold & shoulders to lean on. This time so he can rest his weary heart & troubled mind.  

FEET: Remind him why he is not walking on this journey alone; the reality is God carries us all the time. Even when our feet stumble on rocks & stones. Are maybe he is non a believer. Just remember you were the RIB removed from Man; created in this life to be his companion. So at the end of the day. Allow his weary feet to find some  rest & peace. 

In Memory of a son, and many men of Gods own heart.     

Pause

The brain is unique; in how it protects knowledge that is the real threat. 

In respect of our elders; we honor you and respect your successes & triumphs. 

However, in a world of the most brightest of minds, rebellion & arrogance. All that knowledge goes unprotected. And it does not matter who you know or what you have established. In a world of the blind leading the blind there is chance; our fragile feet will end up on grounds of defeat.

We can learn from our mistakes; we can break in repeating them in redundancy. We can change the  makeup in our history; or we can choose to dress-up with the same makeup. 

We are guilty in humanity of complacency; if only we could of invested more of our time in paying closer attention to what grew out of hands; down the lines of generations. 

In this years election we witnessed a change of Power in leadership at a higher level; and at the same time in a different era, we witnessed adult children act out in rebellion. 

The other day the hood said nothing out of fear; the next week it was the same catastrophe that knocked at their door. And demanded they all fall to their knees and be humbled by what is to not be spoken on.

The masses watched in anxiety, and said this type of crime or change never happens here. Until life said different; today this is going to really happen. 

The mentality behind these government offices of some servies; is a mixture blended of compassion, intent and fixed morals, values and affixiated vendication. If I cant fix my past then why should your situation get a pass. What u shield a child from to suffer for in your choices. It will damage them mentally. And when they grow up to who we become dont ever wonder; what could I, we or them could of done. Every struggle does not have to be our legacies inheritance  of baggage to carry in the next generation.

For evey burden some of us carry of that load; is so the weak at heart wont break in hard times. 

The anniversary of life and death; a year ago on jan 15th Dominique White 28 yrs old was assassinated because of knowledge embraced by leaders such as MLK born Jan 15th assassinated for speaking up in truth, Jan. 5th little Rory 1yr old killed by gunviolence. And Coby Bryant and other families taken away in the blink of an eye on a plane ride. All these souls in January 2020. I remember before my sons demise his heart was heavy & mind filled with images of said so much hurt, deceit & lies, but he never stopped talking to God. Fast forward on March 16th Covid-19 appeared & called roll for over 300,000 & counting.

A young girl said; he was my man, as the other woman glared with internal anger "then yelled I have his child", then 1 day we woman found a platform to organize a conversation. But the intention was slick is the reason why betrayal separated the both of them. And not the man. Why, because of the man who planted the seeds in the both or one of them. Is not the reason why betrayal sneaked inside & denied his bloodline.

One day a father or mother ended of missing, and no one in the entire world knew what could of happened. But before this developing act, everyone that knew of them could tell a story. How unfortunate .

Time ask what is the plan?  Mankind replied figure out what u should of predicted to come; between our disrespectful crossed lines of  informal & selected times of communications. 

The Sauce

On every avenue or in any hood there are establishments that sale delicatessen; for the consumer who is looing for a delight to fill them of pleasure.

If we as humanity cannot make light in all of the circumstances we are consuming around the word; we will forget to act human if not grow cold and bitter with each other. My mother always said to me & I shared this with my friends & family "don't let any 1, or anything rob you of your joy". Because the seasons are going to bring a change, whether you are prepared or waiting for the change to delight your mind frame. And what we can establish together; is not all people are seeking good pleasure. 

I read the news articles today, and unfortunately the truth surfaced. Crime is increasing in Indiana a younger child massacred the entire family of 6 over a parent & son altercation, babies are still dying at the age of 7 due to the gun violence, food is short but the lines are long where real people working with the hands of  compassion, the farmers are awaiting to be approved so we can get some of those fresh veggies back in the stores, the housing market is booming for the 30 bids on that 1 corner the low income cannot afford, while welfare system has allocated an increased line of spending for those unable to stop and re-evaluate what is of our existing priorities in mouths to feed, as the unemployment lines are increasing, domestic violence is screaming in silence. As the children are asking why can't I see my momma or daddy? If not their people, all of us are not being forgotten. Because of our hearts are hurting for the stories we are hearing around us. But inside the heart we know they still love us.

Today, I woke up and looked the world. I saw Twitter pages, FB clicks, and Snap Chat. And no one had a real plan to heal the wombs of our internal suffering. All the news advertises is what & where if never why. All the social media in the world exposes who we are and who we know. And at the end of every pallet we as a people either end with a delightful message, or an ingredient to put back into that sauce of what we have established of our own life messages to the world.       

In Memory of D. White, its what we leave of in our foot prints, for the next generation to wobble if not walk in them.    

  

Suppertime

The Pandemic has exposed prejudice behaviors and compressed oppression around the world towards the poor. And may stem for another decade. If we do not figure out; the factors that separate our bordered lines. 

The news & statistics are aging in apearances. Children of our future are facing an historic setback in education. And money cannot fix the emotional issues chiseled in this Pademic.  We are all connected to children. The rich will make away with granted access. The poor in mind will either struggle or in peace figure out; how the ties & bonds that binds us in unity for these family's is going to happen; on anyday now without reservations. Where some people & children are being harbored behide immature spite, some people are being left hehind, some are going to make it with all families that dont separate them and communicate effectively. As other people & children are being told half of the truth covered with lies. Because of the excuses to convenience others if not themselves of their time. As the old are growing weaker. The blind leading the blind. And some of the youth are being caught up in random or direct cross fires. The world is still revolving around what;

We can rest assure; the good ole days is what we can now make of them.

We can start with gatherings our homes in order. Wrapping our minds around; this is really going to happen..

Today each and every body in a house; that is mentally & physically capable of performing a physical duty. Initiate it without any backlash of who should or could of did it; first.

Today small children will wake up to a breakfast; whatever we can scram in the kitchen together. These children will wake-up to a New World of order and no longer responsible in taking care of each other.

Today real people will scramble together their attitudes on plates of responsibilities. And today if you are scrambling because of your attitude should be accepted on someone's else plate; you maybe the "have not" to eat.

Today more than half of the world adults will rise up before the crack of dawn to beat the midday; sun. And if you are stretching around 12noon with an attitude of a plan of what someone else should be doing for you; its time to set your clocks back & accept the rat race you created for yourself. In a Pandemic world.

About 5 percent of the population has had 1 dose of the vaccination. You do the math and figure out which lane we will be switched or rolled in.

Today our small issues will be pushed to the back; to turn up some pressure on situations for generations we denied and rejected. 

Today we will tally up & deal with the cards delt in our hands; no more intitled expecations, non effective arguments in communication, manipulation & fake tears to benefit in what has not been any type of investments of your interest. So no one else is going to die today; for another person to benefit and click their heels up high. Unless you can prove beyond a "reasonable doubt" the sacrifices and work this person put in. You also lended nothing in between; of a physical helping hand. 

If we are going to survive this Pandemic; it does not matter what we projected in our bank accounts, stocks & plans, hustles & master plans around who can contribute to our scheme or fantasized dreams. 

The house is folding out of order. Because the foundations are no longer stable.

Yes, I am survivor my sons life was robbed. However, I did not loose my mind. In A race with others like myself who validate of the masses how this struggle its hitting home in progression; and there is no room on our plates to stagger with "what if, or who did". Where promises were made "were going to be all right". But time is showing no mercy as people keep pushing pause. In playing the mind games as others are passing on; it will take more than politics & debates where stable hands are necessarry to work. For the harvest is plenty, but the worker's are growing mentally weary.

300,000

The waiting list for the COVID-19 vaccine. As the goal is to reach a 100million people within our 46th President first 100 days. And if we all respect one another and do our parts; about 6 inches from the front to back. There is higher probability this vaccine will arrive out of the blue. In all areas that are anticipating the final breakthrough. 

The Covid-19 was not expected. It impacted humanity as a whole. And altered our lives with a force of  change overnight. As we seek the proper information to digest & restore humanities hope & peace. In by knowing when, where and how will this vaccine be shipped next. Because all lives matters in a time we desperately need one another; whether we admit or not the mandated request is a personal choice. As the phone lines are overwhelmed and the internet is bombarded. Time will test our faiths, patience & will to survive one another. So one day soon we can embrace our love ones, before losing another to Covid. 

The Covid-19 cannot survive us all if we are collectively involved. Obedient to ourselves & responsible in doing our parts around the world. By covering up what is exposed. 

In the meantime use it wisely. The numbers don't lie in what we could of saved; in losing of it in another day of precious "TIME".     

A Domestic Violence Story of Survival

 

Children & Society

Where real love resides; you cannot deny its a Powerful Weapon. 

In all due respect of every parent in any race; our upbringings may not be the same. Our skin color ranges in every culture. And our morals, values and beliefs; are waivered & judged above or below in one another's standards but overlook in ourselves and personal situations. At the end of the day its what we teach or demonstrate in the presence of our children; that they will carry with them through in this life. And determine if they fold, bend or fight. 

I'm guilty of sparing my child to not be exposed to the world. Until one day his feet grew enough to walk about this big world. Of which I will never discredit myself for being a strong woman; with the common sense to know there are times as a mother; you must sit still & be humbled. 

In Honor to all our babies; young and old. If it were not for their life's; we as parents would have not known how to give a good fight in honor of their lives.  

In Memory of my Son, 1991-2020.

Erasing The Black Stigmatism "MLK"

 Today Jan. 15th we honor MLK & on Monday, Jan 18th, it was the delegated  date in history for the entire world to remember if not honor MLK. A non-violent black leader who courageously contested at the front line of black disparity. And if u studied the hardships & oppressions throughout American history then u know the struggles of black men, woman & children over their Black History. The violence remains controversial in the teachings of history. Over the lynching of black people, limited to if no justice at all. Just for asking for the legal rights and freedoms to obtain the same equality and access in social economics. Today in 2021 Our leaders from the past we pay homage but who is capable in leading us now to the Promise Land.  In a world of disgruntled debates? A leader that will not die as an extension of the violence in peaceful declarations and human protest. To face the face of Hate, privilege and Internal angered oppressions? My point is this no man of any color in humanity "owns history individually, or is entitled to another human being in ownership. Are in no subject matter based on his or her argument, value, morals and beliefs. Or neither by land deed or creed. American History is a makeup of all colors in race including the contributions and still non credited successes of inventions of Black Historic people and their leadership rolls. Our history also reflects back to a young boy's story Emmitt Till who was removed from his aunt & uncle's house in the wee hours of the morning by angered men. Emmitt was 14 years old when he was lynched, beaten to death & his body was thrown him into the Tallahatchie river over. Stemming from human "gossip" of being associated in a store with a woman of color. In the end of his young life the legal findings were false allegations. Emmitt deaths burdened the lives of his family, and added a scar in Black History due to a human brutality through the behavior expressing hate. And a time lined of the due process in unspeakable injustices for a senseless death. For another mother of color; he was 28 years old, raised by a single black mother who struggled to ensure this child was loved & protected, a high school graduate with honors, college and embraced his intelligence as a young black man, beyond his dispositions. But taught to not be defined by those dispositions in limiting his ambitions. This son was known by an array of diversity in his peers of associations. He challenged himself. And acclimated himself mentally & physically in any space of diversity. Including his own community of blue collared workers,  wealth & disparity. a jack of all mental trades. He himself groomed in a presentation of his own identity validated by a community.

On the morning on Jan. 15th, around 8:10am, a father with an infinite family who weep now for him would hold his small children for the last time. Before dropping them off. 15 minutes later on a social network platform the world could see his story. A bullet riddled back window where his small children were just sitting. The thought is dehumanizing. The behavior unconstitutional, the characters wicked in a community of fear. As another black life matters 401 years later following another era in historic BLM protest in unity of all races together.  Freedom rings for the black man in a free country in American History. Another gun used in his own childhood community.  A community of public records identified because of it's disparity of brown and black people. With immature infrastructure that still exist in conversation; at round tables amongst are chattered and debated oppositions. Of what is progressing around the gun violence. As the history in this story continues to be followed 2 year's later. His death was relevant because he was a matriarch to his own. And a giver in his own community. And silenced of his young life because the chained mentality of behaviors now we await our own justice. The forbidden old cliche is no longer the watch dog of crime. Imbedded in the streets of young & old victims of the bloodshed growing in communities all over the world.

His, your's are them. Of our stories is no different than another story of violence in death, it’s the derogatory and dysfunction in English to justify the death "this nigg# can’t be handled", where the land is commercial property if not taxed to the homestead owners in this community. His death did not create conventional wealth and educational opportunities it was a senseless death. NO, this is not Emmitt Tills story but a reasoning behind MLK's legacy to remove the stigmatism off the black people and erase the disparity thinking. If we can communicate in all races of man; we can begin the healing in humanity. So no more deaths are silenced because "I Can’t Breath". To debate justice and 3 arguments in a black man’s death; 1. The truth that is not enough for equality in justice, 2. For the lies covered up to justify the behaviors behind 3. What fits into the institutions created to keep the mind chained for generations?

Our son’s life mattered, our people matter.. because all people matter in every form of our bodied existence. We are not dying based on the gangs associations, education and economic access. In knowing and accountability to abandon the reasoning behind the extension of why it exist in every disparity and upscale community, school and homes throughout the world. We cannot deny the violence is stimulated around the process & behavior. And without addressing how & when it entered into a country of all men. as we continue chanting generations years later where is the "Accountability", and why "I can't breathe", is a situation that grew in humanity.

Jan 15th, is honored for a generation of reasoning. that have been deprived of many biological rights; to be raised and loved with a father and family. Who held a roll of a provider and protector. And of those mother's robbed of holding black lives. Losing Dominique is a great loss, and for any mother to lose a child to the ignorance of a legacy of stigmatism. Insulted in another day of our fight to conquer hardships & impacted disparity; tied to our freedoms & generational growth. Because of  the mindset in “I hold your dreams in my hands”.

Fire & Water

I was a young girl, some call themselves a baby momma until they grew to respect becoming a woman. I was protected, directed and loved to raise a boy who became his own man. I learned from life my greatest mentor. I leaned on family and matured from my mistakes & choices. I found a peace of mind in picking my battles. I found the strength to fight; in a ring that could have divided us. Not becuase of the color of our skins. Love is divine not divided by man.

We don't have to look the same; or be older if not young at heart; to feel the fire once the water is damped. And tomorrow may be late; to fix was was never broken.

The worlds perception of single people is; either they are lonely and need somebody with our help? Wrong answer we as a people need to grasp more time to deal with the lingering issues in the baggage we carry in our self. In order to understand why single people chose their lifestyles, sacrifices to raise their children alone, if not experience people through dating?  Again, you would have to examine yourself. We never know one another until we are exhausted from fighting in this ring of life together. 

The reality Is this some people realize their own value in themselves; and what it is they can offer to someone else. And on the receiving end of this sometime we cohabitate with people who deny themselves any chance to be valued because they never saw it in themselves. So the rush is on and sometimes we label it as the Gold rush of expectations in a marriage if not common law relationships. To find ourselves on battlefields of; lengthy obligations, knotted investments and ties we struggle with one another to unknot. If not walking away from it all. Including any children involved for a peace of mind.

When a young man is filling his oats; he is stimulated by a female’s attention, physical attributes and a level of thinking. Young or Old this young man is not prepared to surrender. This young man is hunting his prey. And is it not always wise for young woman or older woman to hunt down a man. If so he could gather the perception you are a microwave presentation. Instead of a wife to build a palace with.

When a young girl is seeking her provider; she will utilize either her mind, body are conversation. Depending on her background and instructors; the reality is some young girls are traditional and some are learning as they grow.

When we commit ourselves to one another in communication; we gain families, children and friends. That is also attached to our bags of happiness, joy and pain. So how is it we always end up on the battlefields of life, If we can figure out why are we still not complete when we both communicated or not what either of us; had to originally bring to the table, young or old. A man's needs are simple as he has stated for generations; support, loyalty and the cookie, ladies. And for the record we must cease in confiding in one another regarding what our men has asked of us; to remain in the ring fighting for the struggles for us to stay together.  

Woman and men; we both struggle to communicate what is not that complicated in our private lives, and around the globe people are attached to each other no matter how we mixed those ingredients; in who will surrender and who will be the first to release the control? So that we both are more open about ourselves. And it does not matter who speaks on this topic around the world, our households or families. You may not have what daddy and mom kept in private behind those closed doors of laughter, if not exposed in tears. At this age in your life for you it has to make since to find your own joy and a peace of mind to live. 

Until we mature in our personal feelings, enough to respect one another to communicate more beyond our tempered frustrations, and unpacked baggage. The Fire & Water will dissolve our existence.